cupcakeami

[cupcakeami]

I think my biggest problem is that I love being alone but I hate being lonely

[cupcakeami]

[cupcakeami]

How do you ask for help?

My mental state is so far gone that I hope for some sort of terminal illness or addicent to take my life.

Don't take me to the hospital. Don't give me treatment. I want to go. I don't want to be here anymore.

If my family asks me what's wrong, I have to lie and say that I'm ok because if I say that I want to die I get the "what do you have to be depressed about?" Which is a troublesome question since it makes it seem that my troubles are invalid since others may suffer more and I just need to deal with it better.

I hate myself. There are more people in my life that dislike me and deal with me than there are those that like me.

That's all. Vent over.

[cupcakeami]

Me while on my way to buy new sunnies: But WHAT do I WEAR!? #sunglasses #rainbow #sunglassesaddict #sunnies https://www.instagram.com/p/CEi-zY8JpOc/?igshid=p9gitrryl03e

[cupcakeami]

BITCH, I LIVED! 1200ft up at Royal Gorge! #colorado #royalgorge #royalgorgebridge #suspensionbridge #highplaces (at Royal Gorge Bridge & Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/CDC0XdWJ68f/?igshid=nnlo65u9m6j0

[cupcakeami]

Choo-choo!!! Im on a train! #royalgorge #royalgorgerouterailroad #trains #choochoo #railroad #colorado #coloradosprings #travel https://www.instagram.com/p/CDCduF4J-2t/?igshid=mgbpsht1164c

[cupcakeami]

When you try to clarify and make it worse. 😫 #figurecollector #MyHeroAcademia #bokunoheroacademia #mha #bnha #hawks #animefigure #keigotakami https://www.instagram.com/p/CCuhfNZJ-Xu/?igshid=9q5p8ttkpjh1

[cupcakeami]

When the bestie is drunk and can't remember that there is a top opening to the food bag. #foodie #foodnow #mcdonalds #nuggies #chickennuggets #drunkenescapades #drunk #drunkfood https://www.instagram.com/p/CBz-VYBpz5A/?igshid=1jms48okiai4n

[cupcakeami]

Convos with the roomie be like. This is why we can't be in charge of feeding ourselves 🤣😂 #jimmyjohns #sammich #mcdonalds #nuggies #chickennuggets #fries #friesbeforeguys #foodgoals #cantwaittoohungry #hungy https://www.instagram.com/p/CBfaROmDi1x/?igshid=s18ej5lqwm6t

[cupcakeami]

Million dollar highway, near Silverton, CO. Thank you for the visit! #scenery #colorado #mountains #trees #pinetrees #relax #takeabreath #calm #calmdown #breathe #cleanair #cloudyweather #clouds https://www.instagram.com/p/CA6a_DDJBqd/?igshid=1oal8wel0ku1a

[cupcakeami]

Finally got my new controller! I love it and it's so cute! #nintendoswitch #nintendo #switch #switchcontroller #controller #pinkgaming #gamergirl #pinkandwhite https://www.instagram.com/p/CArZN7Wp6TJ/?igshid=bwasn41bzzh5

[cupcakeami]

After 1 Monster and 2 coffees, I've officially lost my mind. #animalcrossingnewhorizons #animalcrossing #ryanreynolds #katdennings #cateblanchett #movietrailers #halp #tomnook #goneinsane #daddynook #papanook #newhorizons #newhorizonsdesigns https://www.instagram.com/p/CApPV60JuOw/?igshid=csrqiya5hxlz

[cupcakeami]

Me as a wife. #wifematerial #waifu #animewife #homecooking #wienerschnitzel #mcdonalds #nuggies #fries #friesbeforeguys #foodbwforedudes #imavailable https://www.instagram.com/p/CAYsOEXphNv/?igshid=z42imuufpikf

[cupcakeami]

When you roomate makes you for before you have to work from home. #lunch #wfh #workfromhome #stayhome #washyourhands #stay #steak #coffee #yumyum https://www.instagram.com/p/B-vQFBnJVJq/?igshid=1pcj5gbbw84xj

[cupcakeami]

When you find the cutest of apples and you can't bare to rip its heart out. #apples #apple #cuteapple #cutie #juicing #prepping #mealprep #juiceprep https://www.instagram.com/p/B-nInHjpNym/?igshid=eqgovzr1qz4w

[cupcakeami]

When the realization hits you. #stayhome #noalcohol #noalcoholchallenge #washyourhands #drunktexts #quarantine https://www.instagram.com/p/B-bwOrsJhid/?igshid=1bsujcuwugy4b

[cupcakeami]

Stray Kids show in Phoenix! Thank you, @realstraykids please come back to see us soon! #stay #straykids #kpop #felix #seungmin #IN #hyunjin #han #leeknow #bangchan #changbin https://www.instagram.com/p/B8X9inhJhfu/?igshid=1197mi0pj7e2f