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[dbtbee]

having (a) mental illness is VFT, or Very Fucking Tiring.

see also: Very Fucking Expensive (VFE) and Very Fucking Time-consuming (VFTC).

and yet, we persist! and take selfies to remember that yes, i am a person who is here and alive and that is GOOD ENOUGH.

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Today - 23 March 2021

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Little flare on the kitty. Artist links.

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me: it was just a dream

me (internally): .. or prophecy ..

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i've had people treat me like shit bc i am enthusiastic about small things - especially in work situations and especially from older women, sadly. like, my life has enough strife. everything hurts ALL THE TIME. don't rain on my little parades, or as Jez from 'Peep Show' would say, don't piss on my bonfire.

18 Nov 2019

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(dis my baby)

If you are here for the big floof, here he is. Artist links.

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i don't feel so good.

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suds.

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Today, 9 Feb 2021

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Altered light on the sunset. Shot tonight. Artist links.

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i need botw 2.

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impossible, @art-vs-apocalypse 😉

Unrealistic

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high right now, i guess.

quiz: idrlabs.com

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i made myself a cheat sheet to hang above my "vanity", which is actually my great grandmother's buffet chest. sometimes i reeeeeally don't know how to pick a skill. this is a guide for when i can identify the intensity of my emotion but don't know what to do about it. 🌸🌷💕

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29 October 2019

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Distress Tolerance was my introduction to DBT, which makes sense given that i was in an endless state of distress. Distress Tolerance has three prongs or goals: Crisis Survival, Radical Acceptance, and Freedom from distress emotions automatically dictating behavior.

i thought i'd go back through this unit of DBT and share what has and hasn't worked for me. winter is extremely difficult for me, and this year i don't have florida to run away to when i can't stand it up here anymore. the pandemic has meant living more slowly and relying on the basics to make it through. nothing fancy. just tolerating what life delivers as best we can. right?

💜💚💗

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17 October 2020

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for years i felt like whenever i opened up to anyone all i ever got was heartbreak. as i've grown older i've become more secure in who i am, even if my sense of identity is still... unstable. i've learned what i like, what i don't, and where my morals stand. i'm not bound to what others might be thinking about me, even/especially if i find them incredibly cool and want them to like me.

now i don't really worry about opening up to people with whom i don't "click" right away. true, sometimes it takes a while to get to know people, aaaaand! and. and i think being discerning is a reward from wise mind, earned through practice.

art: @pinkcatdaily on IG 🖤💖

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30 December 2020

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i tried to hit the some of the 5 senses during my distress tolerance tonight, which was an elaborate bath in the bathroom that i forced myself to meticulously clean earlier today. it paid off. 🌅☕🕯🌸

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13 October 2019

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i dissociated all weekend.

i lost an important bracelet simply bc i can't remember the next step i took after unbuckling it.

a very good DBT thing is that i have not fallen behind on my diary card. turns out it doesn't kill me to revisit and record the day, even if i find it pretty fucking uncomfortable.

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29 September 2019

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i was on tumblr from 2009-2015 and now i'm here again. it's wild to be back.