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saturday morning hangover

wine and cake

was a big mistake

oh well

  fell asleep on the futon

and again in the bed

awoke and everything ached

  the rain pours down as i walk to my car

by the time i zip up my jacket i’ll be there

  wet fingers key in

and a frail tired body slumps down

  nicki minaj mix tapes

on youtube

on my iphone  

auxiliary cable plugged into the headphone jack

plugged into my car sound system

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i have one follower now, i should probably write another poem

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after too many bananas

dreams in her head

which will never occur

muscles tense up on the small of her back

  watching tv with friends

though she doesn’t belong

but the city was too far away

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Another Bed Poem

been in bed so long my leg’s asleep

forgot to apply neosporin to my problem area

you express that you’re jealous of my rock and roll lifestyle

but all the good rock stars are dead

  someone is mowing their lawn outside

             or something

and the sound is really annoying

  if i have a house one day

i wouldn’t have a lawn

but i’ll never have that kinda money

  and when i choke on my puke

it won’t matter to anyone

cuz i can’t even palm mute

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so i decided i am going to try to write at least one poem on this every day. this is not one of them. but it could be because my poems are just regular blog posts with line breaks #oops

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Radical Truth

you wouldn't appreciate silver lined words of disinterest carefully constructed to seize your circulatory organ

  i think you're the coolest so don't be sad

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Not TextEdit

i feel so trapped in this box

not the textedit box - that doesn’t exist

the society box

  but that one doesn’t exist either

  which is what makes it so hard

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Hot Topic

i’m really tired

of the fact that i still get emails from hot topic

even though i haven’t bought anything from there

since like 2007

  except those two pairs of pants i bought the other week

but that doesn’t count.

they’re just black jeans, i could’ve purchased them anywhere!

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Contemplations While Streaming "Kaledioscope" on Spotify Premium

my five dollar headphones have broken twice, once on each ear

they can still be used in a pinch

but are more or less

unwearable

  my five hundred dollar sennheiser studio headphones

are too expensive for me to wear without feeling anxiety

i've dropped so much food on them

can you ever enjoy something so expensive?

  sometimes i don't want to wear headphones

but when it's past 1 and my air conditioning window unit is blaring

siouxsie and the banshees cannot be played at a decent enough volume

without disturbing the neighbors

  i could not tell you the price of my current headphones

as they came in a recording bundle pack i received as a gift

but they are also sennheisers,

so they retail at at least 50 dollars i'd say

  it's hard to enjoy the music though

because i have indigestion

from eating too many marinated artichoke hearts at the whole foods salad bar

and the air from the air conditioning window unit is too cold

but it's at 72 degrees

any higher and what's the point?

  i would lower the speed of the fan

but it's already on F1, which is the lowest of the three fan settings

  for a few days I tried something where it was in "fan mode"

this allowed air to flow without being artificially made colder

i even kept it on F2 or occasionally F3

but i fell out of the habit altogether

  i can't remember why. i must've had a good reason though.

  i don't think these (at least) 50 dollar sennheisers are good

because i get a headache after prolonged use

maybe they're too tight

  my neck hurts and i'm cold

but at least I had a completely vegan dinner!

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wouldn't it be crazy

if there was a compilation album

specifically featuring male singers?

  i bet no one would buy it.

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Myopic Misanthropy

i’ve been looking for a new pair of glasses

a used pair of glasses

a nice big plastic pair from the 80s

but I don’t trust etsy or ebay or anybody

  the other day i was in the mall

and i walked by a girl who was at one of those

kiosks where they try to sell you lotion or something

and the lotion girl had the exact glasses i wanted.

i wanted to ask her where she got them

  but she asked me if i wanted to try some lotion

and i just kept walking

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The Myth of Permanence

I used to have a lot of songs and poems and stories and pictures

and I saved them on my external hard drive

now I don't have them anymore

  I am writing this on my dying computer

and I shall save it to the desktop, or a folder on the desktop

but one day soon all this will be gone too

  just like the recordings i made when i was 15

of me singing shakira songs in the original spanish

  sabes que

estoy a tus pies?

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TextEdit

TextEdit has opened - WITHOUT CRASHING

on my 2010 macbook pro

for the first time in literally months

  but it doesn't matter

because I don't have anything to say

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Coping Mechanisms

July's heat keeps us seeking refuge

Temporary shadows cast by the fickle sun

  Tobacco draws us outside

Chilled wine and an agreeable breeze

Make the burn more bearable

  Tomatoes and cherries

Rum with squeezed lemon

Endure the cafes or succumb to the summer

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If I could see the clouds

If I could see the clouds

I would not wonder where they've gone to

Or where they were before

  A particular ale

Reminds me of a friend's backyard in better days

Garden parties have fallen out of favor, anyway

  A solo stroll up the avenue in the lightest of rains at sunrise

The clouds have returned

To this town I never belonged to

But neither do you

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