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Fellas, Paul Atreides is alternative version of Regulus Black for me. Thanks to Timothee Chalamet.

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Regularry?

I'm so dramatically tired but I refuse to sleep until I can answer the question: what is the ship name for Harry/Regulus??

Hargulus? Regarry? BlackPott? Something quippy about Horcruxes? I NEED TO KNOW

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Why? RTD! WHY?!

You...

You.

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I am taking a break from Doctor Who show

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Spoilers

what.

What?!

No. God. Please, noooooo

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Guys. Why fics always portrays that marauders call each other by their nicknames even in the adulthood? Isn't it...em...weird? Remus has a name.

I need to reread books, bc I can't remember that canon Sirius ever called Remus a Moony so much except ones before a werewolf incident.

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Guys. Why is there no tag for Wolfstar at some fic on Ao3? I don't hate this couple, but I'm not really excited of them either. Like, it's your business who you want to ship, but I'm expecting a warning next time.

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I finished Andor this morning. That was spectacular! I need more. I love this show and I miss Star Wars universe really much.

I was waiting for Obi wan comeo in Andor show though 😀🙈 I know I am silly.

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not an auror

Hear me out. James Potter and Sirius Black are not aurors. They could be part of the Order of the Phoenix but not aurors. I mean... can you really imagine Sirius Black under the control pressure? Like...Harry is the boy-who-lived and he has this right to do whatever he wants but Sirius Black? The one who usually was blamed as a Death Eater? No way.

I can imagine both James and Sirius as a business partners like Fred and George but aurors?

NO F*CKING WAY

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I need to find at least one fic with jegulus, where Regulus won't be in love with James Potter since first grade or from the first glance etc.

I am bloody tired of this trope. Like...it's so not real. Ah. I love them both, but this f*cking sh*t.

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I think they really suite to each other.

I found out that people mostly compare Tomini with Tom/Bellatrix relationship, and rejected first couple bc "Nagini is not even a witch. Voldemort is for Pureblood supremacy".

But! That's exactly the point! Voldemort was rejecting part of himself, his half muggle part. We can't be ourselves by rejecting our past. Surely Voldemort could be absolutely glad to marry a pureblood witch like Bellatrix and have pureblood family. In his dreams, lol. But he would never be a pureblood wizard.

Nagini on the other side could accept him all. She knows how is it to be a freak, live in poverty and seak to be loved. We already saw her pure kind love to Kridence. If only Tom Riddle could save her from her disease...I think she is his Dark Lady.

She is a bit older, maybe they have age gap like Tonks and Remus. Not a big deal. But she got a lot of life experience, also she is definitely not his student. Nagini is that someone who can give him knowledge, riddle, and see not the Lord but a man.

Tomini-reasoning:

"Projection of desirable qualities"

Tenderness and Compassion: In Nagini, Tom Riddle has found a side of himself that craves intimacy and love. In the image of the Nagini archetype, he could see the qualities he lacks - tenderness, caring, and loyalty. Their relationship could be an arena for showing how vulnerable he can be, even if he tries to avoid it.

Idealisation: Nagini could be an ideal for Tom, someone who is able to accept him for who he is, allowing him to open up and demonstrate his true feelings. This emphasises his internal struggle between the fear of being rejected and the desire to be understood.

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Emotional theory

Why is it so complicated to say "Hallo" to unknown people or your neighbors or well-known people? I've never wanted to be rude...But every time I start first, I feel so ashamed.

This fear, man. Sucks.

I'm bloody tired to force myself act as a normal and grateful person in the society. Like...It's a huge difference, yk? When you force yourself to act lovely or you feel love and want to share it with the whole world.

Sometimes I feel greedy for love. And it effects on life — you can't give people something you don't have.

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Ah, so true 😀

It's like... My favorite dynamic in the Black family is from Regulus POV bc I'm the last sibling too. I can feel him from just two sentences of the original books. It was enough for me to know, I've been f*cked up.

the person is like, "I'm mentally balanced," and then they tell me about their favorite headcannons about the Black family

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Guilt is a sh*t

I meant it. Why should I feel guilty to a grown-up man, just bc he could not handle his bloody own emotions?! F*ck you piece of f*cking sh*t!

"Oi, you said "no" to me? I'll leave you then! I'll slam the door and will act like a bloody queen!"

Why did I even decide to clarify the situation after all of this and tried to justify myself first? WHY?!

Come on, girl! Be more confident. Have some damn pride to yourself!

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Sirius Black without tattoos

Fellas, tell me I'm not the only one who thinks, that Sirius hasn't got any tattoo. Books didn't mention that!

I have siblings and my eldest hasn't got any tattoos. She was always very beautiful, confident and arrogant. Boys were obsessed with her, she was not a princess yk, more like rebellion in a family. Fight with mom all the time. But still no tattoos. But her younger sister has tattoos.

So I have this on my mind, that Sirius has his own way to cry outloud about his rebellion feelings. He didn't hide anything, but Regulus did. I can clearly imagine perfect pureblood son Regulus Arcturus Black and RAB with full tattoo-covered body under his clothes. But face and hands are clean. Two different sides of one man. Regulus and his alter ego.

That could be his own way to say that he is more that just his parents and his brother. He has unique personality, his isn't less handsome copy of his genius brother.

It makes so much sense for me. What about you, guys?

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Я теперь в тг

В tumblr я пишу обычно на английском, а в тг на русском. Тг ближе, но здесь я чувствую себя в безопасности как будто.

В общем, теперь я буду выкладывать материал по фф в тг, а здесь в основном просто мысли о просмотренных сериалах и фильмах, пейрингах. Посмотрим. Буду ждать ��аждого в тг

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He deserved to be loved?

Sometimes I think my love to characters like Regulus Black (who are a second choice and etc.) is just me trying to love myself at my weakest point.

I am the yongest sibling with older sisters in my family. Whole my life I felt being a second choice, ugly, poor, unfrienly without any financial success.

I think I am into Regulus Black because I'm trying to show people (especially to myself) that even him can be loved — that less handsome, not genius, conservative and arrogant little brother who can't compare to his cool older brother Sirius. Who can make mistakes and still beloved sibling and son.

Despite all, Sirius still loved his family, seeking for his parents love, wanted to fight alongside his brother not against him. Maybe he felt betrayed when his little brother didn't follow him to griffindor, as if Walburga felt betrayed when Sirius did the same.

They all desperately seek for love of their parents and of each other. Sirius with his loud anger and Regulus with his patience and silence.

We all just seeking for love. We all want to be loved without reward. Being human means so much.