dontdieonmeyet

[dontdieonmeyet]

eternal grief

grief allows us to shed more than our tears

it is also skin we once wore

the items we once held

the light we once craved

the moments we once cherished

[dontdieonmeyet]

wearing masks

the sickness killed much more than me

the timelines severed and altered dreams

i wore a mask and hoped to become

the things i dream, to fall asleep

it feels unfair to say this so

to tell that world i stay alone

the sickness killed much more than me

it killed the person i ought to be

[dontdieonmeyet]

anxiety

tension in my jaw

a wisp of light

spins around my forehead

renders me thoughtless

[dontdieonmeyet]

sulfur on my eyelids

lava on my tongue

open winds won't douse me

this morning sun

[dontdieonmeyet]

doppelganger

maybe you saw their face

the person you didn't know you needed to avoid

filled with apprehension

fear and guilt

you learn the way they alter your space is enough to tell you how much of it they deserve

[dontdieonmeyet]

[dontdieonmeyet]

[dontdieonmeyet]

[dontdieonmeyet]

“Say it before you run out of time. Say it before it’s too late. Say what you’re feeling. Waiting is a mistake.”

— Unknown

[dontdieonmeyet]

plant life

I don't want flowers

I deserve a garden

[dontdieonmeyet]

dating apps

i used to fear coming off desperate

staring at read receipts and

checking my phone

hoping they'd reply

purely aiming to satisfy

my ego and vanity

what greater way to reject

reality than to ignore it entirely

and write myself into this fiction

where i am always a page behind

our last conversation

[dontdieonmeyet]

easy does it

I practice harder than I need to

Hoping that when the time comes

I can do it subconsciously

Just like breathing

[dontdieonmeyet]

[dontdieonmeyet]

to be alone

the easiest part about not being here

is knowing that the space i leave will open me up to galaxies and distant planets

as i sit in your orbit, i recognise that there is no sun or moon

no day or night cycle

only the endless darkness

one which my light cannot balance out

one which your words cannot pull me in

[dontdieonmeyet]

[dontdieonmeyet]

[dontdieonmeyet]

delicate flower

you are a delicate flower

one that must be picked up

and never put down again