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two moods

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like it literally isnt even funny anymore people on this site go out of their fucking way to sexualise jimin and completely ignore anything else he says or does like he did a whole 40 min vlive where he talked about his health, how much he loves armys, how hes been feeling lately, his dynamics w some of the other members etc but no you freaks just tune all of that out and focus exclusively on him leaning his head back and licking his tongue because you guys dont know how to treat jimin like a fucking human being and respect his words and actions instead of sexualising and infantilising him like a little baby doll or toy constantly and it really fucking shows like he could fucking breathe and there’d be 473974 posts (mostly by white stans but not all) immediately saying “omg hes such a tease” “what the fuck did he just do” “he has no respect” like you guys are always going on about how people disrespect and mistreat x member but when it comes to jimin it’s like it’s the fucking norm to just decontextualise and objectify every single action of his and honestly it’s so fucking disgusting and gross and awful you guys don’t fucking deserve park jimin

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don't risk it

if you don’t reblog in 500 seconds you will never be able to meet your fave band/artist

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If you really believe your existence has no meaning. I’ve thought about it myself once or twice over the centuries, truth be told. But I’ll let you in on a little secret. There’s a whole world out there waiting for you. Great cities, and art, and music… genuine beauty.

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klaus mikaelson + smiling

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like damn, I want them all in my pants

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*talks fondly about favorite character *

Person: Wasn’t he the one who murdered all those people, and did all kinds of horrible things?

Me:

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I’ve decided I’m just going to use this useless account to vent. About depression. About anxiety. About the overwhelming emptiness.. because sometimes (a lot of times) it’s too difficult to get help, too expensive, too much effort when you’re unsure if there will even be a pay off.

The best place to start is the middle, the beginning never changes and the end is still undecided. This will, more than likely, become confusing purely because I can’t be arsed to deal with details. All of this is just venting, but if anyone does wish to talk- whether to learn more about me, to commiserate, to seek some sort of advice don’t hesitate to message me. I’m a 24 year old female, no job nor a student. No friends. Family who either helped put me in this position or just can’t seem to understand. A love of all things fandom, that unfortunately has fallen to the wayside along with everything else I’ve been interested (read obsessed in this case) about.

When you get to such a point where nothing genuinely seems to matter, where everything has a black and white film.. you want. Want a way out, a way in. Want to see color and bask in the simple joy of enjoying something. And isn’t that just a bitch. My one goal, my one hope for any kind of future? For years has been that one day I can wake up in the morning, one instance I can greet the day and like who I am. I can look forward to what the fucking day brings. So simplistic, seemingly so easy to accomplish.. yet I’ve spent years railing against this pervading emptiness just to feel a semblance of happiness.

The older you get, the more you realize how your childhood and teenage years fucked you up. How small comments, random situations leave an everlasting impression that haunts you for years to come. The times your father called you fat? You’ll never forget. The times he sat you down to “discuss” how worthless you are, how you’ll never go anywhere in life? That doesn’t always give you the motivation to “prove them wrong.” And it’s been as I reached my middle 20′s, where I fully comprehend the extent of emotional and mental abuse I’ve dealt with. Suffered through. And how fucking much it truly impacts my life now, what type of goddamn person it has made me into. I let it make me into? Or is that victim blaming? Is there a certain point you get where it’s just so fucking out of your hands, you can’t make heads or tails of where you end and the shit you endured began? What is me and what are the fears, anxieties, depressions taught to me? Do I know me? Do I even want to know me? 

There’s times where I know I can feel better, feel more positive if I had encouragement. If I had friends who truly understand, people who were able to be okay with my silent moments or the times conversations get a bit manic. But in there also lies the problem of.. how do I manage to get friends again? How do I make them? I was never one to use chat rooms or forms of social media, so I’m at a loss there. In person? Yes, that sounds easy as shit. Hello Anxiety! How are you today? Didn’t fucking see you there for a minute. So how in the ever loving hell does one go about making friends when they’re not forced into society? As stated above, I do not have a job nor do I go to school.. so what the fuck then? Is this, more than likely, my attempt of hoping someone drops me an ask? Where I can converse with a human who isn’t immediate family? Yeah, you caught me. I caught myself? Eh, not like it wasn’t difficult to get that. Way to go me. 

Honestly, I’m not expecting anything from this. Cheers to hoping though, hm? I have a feeling I’ll be venting more on here, perhaps actually go into detail about all this mucked up shit.. thank god no one follows this account? Dear me, dear me.

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New blog, need people to follow! So if you post the following, please like or reblog.

The Originals Vampire Diaries Supernatural Doctor Who Teen Wolf Sherlock Naruto The Avengers Lord of the Rings The Hobbit True Blood Harry Potter and perhaps any other shows / movies / books of the like so I can find new interests. :)

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New blog, need people to follow! So if you post the following, please like or reblog. The Originals Vampire Diaries Supernatural Doctor Who Teen Wolf Sherlock Naruto The Avengers Lord of the Rings The Hobbit True Blood Harry Potter and perhaps any other shows / movies / books of the like so I can find new interests. :)