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About me:

Alias: G

Part of a plural system

Nonhuman humanoid

Ageless, mentally and bodily an adult

Agender (it/its, they/them)

Anattractional

What does anattractional mean?

From lgbtqia.wiki: Anattractional, also known as attractionless, non-attracted or a-ttraction, is when one feels no attraction whatsoever. This includes feeling no physical, emotional, or tertiary attraction of any type.

What is this blog for?

I am making this blog for many reasons:

To post my own experience as someone who is anattractional

To answer questions about being anattractional

To find community with those who are also anattractional

Do you feel any other types of attraction?

Not me, no. I am completely anattractional, I do not experience attraction on any level. For others it may vary.

Don't you feel lonely?

Not particularly. I engage with people, I just do not seek out meaningful relationships with them. My situation has an added complexness as I must maintain the relationships of the host, but that is enough for me.

What relationships do you have with others?

As mentioned before, I maintain the relationships the host has. While I do not view any of them as friends of my own, they are his, and I respect his want to keep them in our life.

I do not have any meaningful relationships I would call my own, nor do I wish to have any meaningful relationships.

Do you hate people?

Not at all. I am fine engaging with people on a surface level, I just do not wish to form any meaningful relationships with anyone.

I find many people, namely the host's friends, to be kind and funny. They are fine people, I just do not wish to form my own relationship with them.

You're sick.

Indeed we are, though that doesn't change our situation in the slightest.

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i want to die. there is nothing i wish for more than for all of this to end. i'm so tired, so exhausted.

i'm a coward. i should have been done with this years ago, but i waited until there is no more time. i only have a bit more than half a year. i'm not turning 18. i need to do something right, for once. i am a failure, but i can't afford to fail at this.

i must do it, scared or not. i lived with fear in my heart and i'll die with it. i only need to do one thing. i accomplished nothing. my life is a waste. i am a waste, of time and resources. i only cause trouble for those around me. i must do something right in my life. only one thing

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3 years today. I can't believe it. My brain just refuses to... So much has happened, but it still feels as if barely any time passed. I remember so few things, now that I think about it.

I don't know what to feel. I wish I had hope. I wish I had something to believe in, to distract myself. I completely forgot this day was coming, but the moment I saw today's date I can't help but feel despair.

To be honest, I don't know how to feel anything else. Just hopelessness. I will never be able to feel anything else, and not that'd I'd live long enough to put that to a test. I want to think I'll be brave enough to do what needs to be done, when the time comes. I hope so

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sorry i'm yapping today. i need to go to sleep

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people are so weird when you tell them you don't like or care about pets. why exactly? what makes people so stuck up about this?

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i'm loveless as fuck, by the way. where are all my loveless anattractionals at?

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i need more anattractional content.

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posts about the "validity" of certain identities (usually aspec ones, but not always) are so fucking stupid. are people allowed to be different. are people allowed to use words to describe their feelings. are people allowed to talk about the experiences you don't personally get. that's what you're asking. why the fuck are you playing into it in the year 2024. what are you expecting? a bunch of fucking morons on your post?

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Quoiattractional

Quoiattractional (Also known as Quoianattractional) is a term associated with challenging one's own orientation as not personally helpful. It also can include not knowing one's orientation or not wanting to define one's orientation.

Quoiattractional experiences can include:

Being unsure what most/all types of attractions are, and therefore being unsure if one has experienced them or not.

Finding the concept of attraction to be inaccessible, inapplicable, or nonsensical.

Being unable to understand multiple/all attractions as a concept or feeling.

Disidentifying with the concept of attraction - either as a social construct or as something potentially applicable to oneself.

Questioning one's attraction for such a long time that the questioning itself becomes the identity, rather than a path toward any other more stable identity.

Having difficulty distinguishing different types of attraction from other types of attraction. Term coined by me Flag created by me Inspired by the terms Quoiromantic, Quoiplatonic, Quoigender and Quoisexual

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i’m okay with change and i’m fine if things are no longer the same i embrace change

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whumper who's careful with their defiant whumpee because they don't want to break them 💖

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guys lmao i needed to visit my psych some two months ago but i can't fucking finish filling the papers they gave me. lol i'm so quirky (i want to die)

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it's weird how wholeheartedly distrusting i am of others even when it comes to sharing information about myself that most would deem 'superficial' because even if i don't think it will be used against me [which is rare] it just feels either fucking invasive [even though i'm the one sharing the information??] or absurdly vulnerable in a way that leaves a bad taste in my mouth. makes me wanna erase my tracks and hide forever. at last, the schizoid urge to not tell anybody a damn thing.