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waves of snow

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The Spinning of the World

I used to be destroyed, unemployed, a stupid boy

Weeping over cheatings

My feet found joy in the freezing mud

Didn’t care about any other pain than the cut inflicted

I used to be addicted to weed

But then I was freed, no longer in need

My feet found warmth underneath the sheet

I took the bull by the horns and the devil by his antlers

Don’t care no more about the panther in the night

Now the lantern is my light

Rising along with the dawn

And the duck is a swan

I found energy in shapes – oh

Don’t need to keep my drapes closed

Cause you opened up

Introduced me to love

Immediately struck

I just wanna stay stuck

Fuck me

Now I see

There’s nothing we can’t be for each other

My lover, my girl, my soon to be wife

You are my life

My spinning of the world

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Autumn Friends

I am gonna smoke through my haze

Swim beneath the blaze

So many ways

And turns

I am gonna come up for air

Oh how it burns

So unfair

Yet so careful.

Torn out holes in my coat

I see the boat but

There's no Peter

Only miserable freedom

Oh how it burns

So many turns

Yet so unfair.

In my designation

In my painless despair

In my personality I share.

You are gonna get it - get going

Still ignorant, not knowing

What the hell I am showing.

Floating now

No I am not gonna bow

I am gonna bend - cause wow

From a godess you descend

Still tossed around like

It's the end.

We only see as we feel

Like autumn friends

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The House We Built

You're always on your cell or in a book

I always put on the same song

We should spend more time

In the zoo or in the cinema - uh.

Let's start fresh - begin a new chapter

Give me that kiss - give me your laughter

Let's be inspired - get those associations fired up.

I try not to copy-paste

Cause water has no taste

In the end it's a bottle of waste

An empty space,

Like the house we built in California

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A Falling Out

We had a falling out

Cause I broke your rule

I couldn’t fall asleep

I didn’t go to school

From cigs I was coughing

Cause death could be bluffing

My books they said nothing

Bout the spliff I was puffing

I suited up in curiosity

Took a fruit from the forbidden tree

Thought you wouldn’t see

But you saw right through me

Now I’m careful and clean

Trying hard not to be a fiend

Now everything is as it seems

Just lean on me baby, and dream

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Be Hopeful

It won’t be long now

Before you’re medicated

It won’t be long now

Before it’s automated

It won’t be long now

Before you’re motivated

It won’t be long now

Before it’s integrated

It won’t be long now

Before you’ve graduated

It won’t be long now

Before you’re liberated

It won’t be long now

Before you’re brought back to life

From a fight you didn’t know you could win

It won’t be long now

Before a light shines bright from within

It won’t be long now

Soon you’re in a better place

It won’t be long now

Soon you’re out of the maze

It won’t be long now

Oh how the moon resembles a face

Oh so sad from being lonely in space

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Airglow

I wish I had written a love note

Saying I love you more than the stars

I wish I could have made you a love boat

But you’re sailing away with my heart

 Airglow, airglow you’re all that I’ve got

 Now I’m alone in a house not a home

With walls made out of cold old stones

Now I’m alone with my dog and I throw him a bone

Now I’m alone with my dog inside of a dome

 I wish I had bought you the diamond

Saying I am your husband to be

I wish that we could wind time back

Cause I’m single but do not feel free

 Airglow, airglow you’re all that’s left inside of me

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Still I Rose

Changing from the inside

I am

Changing for the outside’s

Demand

Place your hand in mine

Let me take you down the line

Up the stream and around

Place your hand in mine

Let me show you what I’ve found

From when I fell down the well

And needed to crawl back up by my self

No shelves to grab

No bricks to attack

No wallhack

Oh hell, I felt alone

In the company of stones

Oh hell; I felt your chill

In my spine and in my bones

Still, I rose

Still I rose, but how

No one knows

Changing for the outside’s

Demand

Changing from the inside

I am

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I Just Wanna Sing

Let the stars begin to shine

I just wanna sing

For the moments to come

If it’s winter or spring

There’s no time in this world -

In this life to be angry

Or to be sad

I’m happy for my mother and my dad

My brothers and the flag

My future wife and the mad fantasy I had within

I just wanna sing out loud

I don’t really care about

The years of pain and the days of doubt – uh

I wasn’t sure if I wanted to stay

But there was a cure and there was a lot to pray for

My mind turned out to be like clay

Moulded in the water streaming through the bay

Hey

I just wanna sing tonight

Let the light begin to shine

When it’s dark inside

And there’s no place to hide

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Attached

I’m attached to this track

White paper, black writing

Fighting my way into its lines

Into its fine lines

I got a stack of songs

Piling up

Short ones and a long

That never seems to stop

I’ve sung opera, made a rap

Recorded in my flat

Some lacks meaning

Others embrace feelings

I’m attached to their chain

While waiting for the train

To pick me up

And bring me down the lane, but

My fear of coherence

Rises in me

Am I weird in appearance

As far as eyes can see?

Bleed your tears

On my floor

Release your fears and

Breach the door

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Dear God

Now is a moment in time

Tomorrow we try again

I can't seem to find surplus

Where have you been?

All we build has walls

We try to change behaviour

Still haunted by the Fall

And looking for a saviour

We percieve the motions

Can't understand anything else

While measuring explosions

The key is in our cells

I can't figure out

No one crashes in a roundabout

But the galaxy we cannot see

And we fear the atmosphere

Dear God, why didn't you make us

All good and more glad

Dear father in the sky

Why am I so sad

So sad.

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My two favourite paintings. The first one I made on the wall of my apartment, the next one was made in a psychiatric department.

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The Insane is a song made from the pain I felt when I was overdosed with an antipsychotic drug