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excerpt from my new wip in case anyone’s interested

the breakfast club

john bender/brian johnson

“What?” Bender tries (and fails) to fake his innocence and Brian can’t help the smile that plays over his lips.

There’s something enticing about the way Bender’s lips curl up in corners, and Brian finds himself unwittingly enraptured by it, eyes following the movement. They flick back up to meet Bender’s own, a slightly bemused look in the crinkle of his brow on his forehead. It makes Brian’s heart jump in his chest, an elevated pace that he’s sure is visible in the rapid rise and fall of his chest. For a minute Brian’s half convinced he’s going to do something irrational like lean in and— 

“I’m gonna fail again,” Brian says, desperately trying to think of anything but the gentle curve of Bender's lips, and the way his eyes were filled with an emotion more sincere than a vague sort of teasing at Brian’s expense. 

“You need to chill out Bri,” Bender says, absent-mindedly drumming his fingers over the pocked wooden tabletop, “I can help you, you know.”

And Brian really wants to accept his offer, reach out and grasp Bender's metaphorical extended hand, but he can’t. Brian can’t bear to admit he needs the help, it’s emasculating and somewhat demeaning accepting help from John Bender of all people.

“No,” Brian stutters out and doesn’t miss the brief look of confusion and something akin to amusement moving across Bender’s face. He quirks an eyebrow, an obvious ‘why?’ to Brian's abrupt refusal.

“No?” Bender drawls, letting the last sound linger on his tongue. 

“I can’t accept your help,” Brian says, not meeting Bender’s inquisitive gaze with intent.

“Oh fuck off Brian, what’s stopping you besides your weird sense of self-pity and resentment towards being seen as less than perfect.” It’s said with a teasing lilt, yet Brian can feel the underlying maliciousness - it slaps him around the face because Bender is right. Brian is too fucking pathetic to ask for help, he can’t let it happen, won’t let anything belittle his intelligence more than it already has. 

“I - um - don’t want to take advantage of you.” He knows it's stupid, even before the words leave his mouth he’s scrambling to stop them. 

At that Bender merely smirks, “I’d hardly say you’re taking advantage of me, it’s not like you’re repaying me with sex or some other lewd thing.” 

It has the intended impact on Brian as he feels the tips of his ears blush, the pink melting down his cheeks.

“Why would you say that,” Brian says somewhat meekly.

Bender just shrugs and somehow it’s infuriating and enticing at the same time. 

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not again…

wtf. i can’t do this again…

my lover (ao3) has left me in the middle of the night (ao3 is down), with only a parting note (error screen), before i could even kiss her goodbye (i haven’t read a fic yet today). what will i do without her (it’s 2am help)…

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ok I know i said that chapter 4 would be out before 2025, and i know its been a week but im a slow writer and i have been swamped with stuff irl.

no promises when but it will be out soon - i am determined to finish this fic before my exams start in may

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wtf. i can’t do this again…

my lover (ao3) has left me in the middle of the night (ao3 is down), with only a parting note (error screen), before i could even kiss her goodbye (i haven’t read a fic yet today). what will i do without her (it’s 2am help)…

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CH3 IS FINALLY DONE GO ME!

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OKAY GUYS I WANT TO SAY ITLL BE OUT TODAY!

keep ur eyes peeled

i have a bit more time now, so ill be working more on the next chapter of resigned! sorry for the wait

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right guys… ik its been over a month… but the next chapter WILL be up sometime next week (ive had some writers block, but ill push through it!)

i have a bit more time now, so ill be working more on the next chapter of resigned! sorry for the wait

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In honor of spotify wrapped coming out the other day…here is my ao3 wrapped.

guys i have been compiling this data for the whole year so im glad that i could finally complete this…

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i have a bit more time now, so ill be working more on the next chapter of resigned! sorry for the wait

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writing it is i suppose (ao3 i miss you already)

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ao3 is down again… the night before my exam… i need to de-stress and read my fics like asap before i die or something

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dont u hate when u accidentally blow up ur entire remaining family and it changes the whole course of ur life for the worse

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GUYS CHAPTER 2 IS UP! SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG.

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guys im really sorry but ch2 is gonna be up a bit later than expected. life is quite hectic at the moment.

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does anyone wanna hold hands until we feel a little braver

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