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make it red, make it deeper, make it hurt.

reopen the scars.

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i’ve got 13 months worth of emotions to release

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i’m so fucking tired her verbal abuse and their blatant favoritism. if you know you are only going to care about one fucking kid then don’t have another one.

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all she fucking cares about is my grades and when i tell her this she says “i care about your grades because they are what you need for the future”. that doesn’t mean you care about me right now in the present. you care about the idea of future me that you have in your head. if you really cared you would ask how i am cause right now on this track, you won’t have to worry about my future cause i will end it right now.

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hey guys it’s been awhile. just wanted to vent about what happened to me last night. my mother and i got into a big fight about how my grade in english was a D and i told her that after my grades dropped (which she knew about) i tried to catch up with all of my assignments but my teacher didn’t grade them. long story short she told be it was my fault that i became unmotivated and depressed so i ran out of the house to go take a walk. mind you it was around 9 at night, windy and i was only wearing baggy pant and a tank top. i stayed out there for around 2 hours lying down on a park bench until i went back home. when i got home i just went up stairs to take a shower then go to sleep because i had work in the morning. i haven’t talked to her since i ran out and now i won’t see her until late afternoon. i’m just a frustrated right now.

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i might actually do it tonight

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my addictions have been getting worse lately. nic, diet pills, caffeine and stealing have been at an all time high. i think it’s cause my friends have been using me as a therapist and because of it i need to blow off some steam. just this past week i stole $250+ worth of makeup, pills and nic

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borrowing haul (sorry for the dirty carpet, staying at a friend’s currently) lifted from sephora and ulta with said friend.

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An excuse 

01/15/22, saturday, 3:43 am

I wish I was bad, unstable, unhappy I wish I was addicted to something, anything caffeine, nicotine, drugs, piercings, tattoos I wish I was a problem child who skipped school and had bad grades The girl who sneaks out at night to go hang out with boys The one that has sex and has to take a pregnancy test once and awhile The girl who is scarily skinny because she doesn’t eat The girl who is unbelievably pale because she sleeps all day and goes out at night The girl who is covered in wounds from fights with others and herself The girl who is covered with bad piercings and faded stick and pokes I want to be addicted to nicotine and go through withdrawals because I hadn’t taken a hit for 3 hours I want to have headaches from not taking any caffeine pills I want to not be able to function without drugs and sex I want to drink so much that I puke I want to drink so much that I don’t remember puking I want to be sent away because I’m a problem I want my parents to be worried that their daughter will die in a stranger’s house I want them to think I will wither away I want so so so desperately to have depression To have anxiety To have adhd To have bpd To have anorexia To have bulimia To have addictive disorders To be sent to a mental hospital  To be seen as crazy I’ve tried I’ve tried to be like those unstable girls Those beautiful girls that you are scared of The ones that everyone thinks are weird but can’t deny how alluring they are I want to have problems I wish I was bad, unstable, unhappy

Because then, I would have an excuse for my actions

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feel free to send asks

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i’ve traded my cutting addiction with a caffeine and nicotine addiction. i look healthier but i feel worse.

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Drowning in perfume to overpower the sent of my own blood

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