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WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA <3 <3 <3

Once again I brought you @escapism-sailor 's Pike!

I just love drawing him as fibsh.

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WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

This is my first post here AAAAAAAAND I brought you some fibsh!

(Credit to @escapism-sailor and his marvelous tugs OC Pike!)

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CW: Arachnaphobia?

I'm surprised no one drew Dealer as drunken, spoody (or kolobok-shnyuk) yet, because of CORE game lol. Ik this game is probably uncanon or something, but I still liked it. Dealer evolved from it:

He's yellow cause, it's his actual color?

Also, inspiration dumping, cause yes:

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- For my brother!

(Another old request for my friend)

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TW: Mild Blood, Injury.

Humanized Regatta scene with Lillie bleeding and Grampus helping her.

Old artwork inspired by @/l.j.productions3833's video

Video of Speedpaint: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nWLiQi6XhxM

That kinda sucks, due old artstyle, but overall fine lol. I love how everyone were always dirty minded about it and got joke, and yet I was always thinking of this moment as… Grampus simply helping Lillie medically, and that she bleeds.

(Also Lillie is engineer\technician and operator working on lightship LV 117 Nantucket , while Grampus was naval warrant officer of the US Navy, and operator of midget submarine A-3)

Also everyone wonders how Lillie and Grampus scene would look like, which is obvious tbh, Lillie is injured and Grampus helps her by pressuring wound, wrapping bandage etc...

But I more wonder how the fuck this scene would make any sense, for them in Human AU???

Grampus getting blown up for his war crimes or got crucified lmao.

I actually tried to explain with request for suicide, from Grampus to Boreas (human name for Bluenose), because of pressure he got and stuff. But it ended up sounding too dark, depressing, overexplaining, and kind of cringe...

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Shellshock. Drew request for friend. Forgot to post, cause I'm dead.

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TW: Pedophilia\Grooming, Sexual harassment\abuse, Psychological issues, Vent.

I now want to be more invested in other fandoms, have interests outside of drawing too. Although sadly, for me drawing is automatic habit that can't be controlled sometimes.

And ik every fandom has toxicity and will have terrible people, or at least jerks. Even smallest one, like TUGS. But focusing energy on only one thing, can be not only exhausting, but lead to other bad consequences.

I felt weird obligation and pressure I put myself, towards tugs fandom, to draw more tugs fanart. TUGS in general deserves more love, and creators deserve more recognition and respect tbh.

While at the same time suffered from lots of irl stuff (I don't want to even describe them), and suffered from self-hatred: for being not good enough, slow, procrastinating, guilt-tripped.

But it feels like it's not worth it now, no one gives a damn mostly anyway, or appreciates. I don't want praise or popularity but still.

I just don't want to be treated like art is nothing, worthless, and get treated badly. The enjoyment of making art in general, outside of fandoms, internet, fade away. Not completely though.

That doesn't mean I wouldn't want to\will stop work for tugs fanmade continuation projects.

Just thomas fandom, that's connected with tugs, is exhausting, just fucked up af. I'm just disappointed, expectations were low already, but damn I didn't expect things to be that bad.

In general fandoms of fiction for kids, attracts many terrible people, who will treat minors worse than pieces of shit *stares at MLP:FIM fandom, especially from 2010's*.

Internet proved one thing, whenever you think the person (like content maker) is normal, decent. In the end they'll get exposed, messed up stuff will be revealed.

But even sadder realizing, this is just tip of an iceberg, if not literal sky. There's more of abuse and harassment (or worse things), that will never get revealed. People won't get help. No one truly cares. No one gives a damn.

And now I'm also getting flashbacks from these stuff going on. I tried to move on and forget, get distracted from stuff, but failed once again. And trying to deep dive into this stuff, unprepared is bad idea.

Better to take care of themselves, and hang out with few people, get friends, go offline sometimes, touch grass or smth.

Sometimes being alone is for the better, not completely isolating ofc. Just loneliness is sometimes comforting..

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It's becoming really annoying.

I swear, literally every 5 seconds, porn bots follow me. Wtf... Хотелось бы сделать резню.

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Reminds me of how I wanted to humanize Grampus at first, as filipino. RIP this idea

Grampus or\and Coastguard?

I swear I’ll draw the Coastguard. But look at this baby boy!!!! He, Sunshine and Ten-Cents are the three stooges.

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What am I doing with my life? But I hope he doesn't look bad

Also inspirations for his design (by Maggie Sea, Deep Sea Prisoner, KEI Garou):

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Heads compilation because, yes

Most of them by other people (like from Tugs Again), Zuggy, Stormtwirl, Ximena, most designs by Charlie. Love them all ❤💕

And for god knows reasons, I like to complicate things. Heads in references meant to be simple, but oh well

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Oh no, missed 4th July... Anyway- OC by https://twitter.com/Ximenaandhercr2. Loving this guy (alongside Blackwater lol).

And also tumblr doesn't let me normally load images, welp shit

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Oh no-

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They went to the soda fountain to gossip about liners

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KJLHFSAGFSURIGERLHFJREGIUHSDHJG *proceed to have a stroke and die*

Fire cooking is broking sites now, I'm gonna wait when tumblr will get broken too

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Warning: Another vent, ignore if you want and need

Ik no one probably cares but I still want to complain..

It once again gets broken af, thanks Elon, before him errors were rare for users, and I never got them before him. Plus now for LGBTQIA+ people is hard to be there, and exist peacefully.

Cause he and a lot of mindless idiots don't want LGBTQIA+ people exist, and want to put them down. I thought at least out there it would be safe for them...

I dream and wish for tugs fandom being active somewhere else. Like, come on. And honestly I'm tired. Only I force myself into this, but I really want to check on creators and stuff. And it's usually active the most on twitter, youtube etc. None of the platforms feels so good now, like in the past.

Social medias now feel outdated, incompetent and outright dumb. And alternatives exist, and they're better, but I don't feel too optimistic. And just better to get rest from internet tbh.

Or at least limit myself to discord servers, which either worst places to exist, or the best. At least there's fun people out there..

Idk how else to react- (Original animation by nickwiththehat)

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Boop

Figured it was about time I made one of these.