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Morning keep the streets empty for me...

This was a work in progress for a while, I'm not entirely sure how to explain all the emotions that went to this as it is complicated. I'm not really sure it's 'worth' explaining them as usually, I'd rather people just take their time with art and feel what they had to feel from it. I guess you could say it's about feeling alone in a strange desolate environment, though, in some ways, would I feel less alone if someone else was there? There's many people that live in this city, but I still don't know them, I feel more alone around them, where do I go?

So keep the streets empty for me.

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all these boops??

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sometimes whenever i show my family and others my characters, they often are bewildered by their meshes of identity, like my character Clement being a Scottish Iranian christian, or when ive written queer characters from historical timeframes, i remember they often ask why.

its hard to explain why, i myself have always felt like a mesh of identity, im a persian, with intergenerational trauma, who was born and raised in the uk, i am a nonbinary trans who is masculine but also feminine, i am gay, i am lesbian, i am ace, i am autistic, i have who knows whats happening in this brain, im still trying to figure a lot of things out, but i am a mesh, i am a experience, things are complicated and people are complex

i just find it important in a sense to represent that complication, no matter how 'strange' that mesh of identity may be, because i too am a strange mesh of identities, or rather, its not so strange once you learn further about them, in fact, its more common than you think because again, people are complex, and i just hope, maybe, through what i make, as little as it often is, people feel less alone in their complicated identites

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I TRIED TO CONVEY TO YOU BEFORE YOU DIE THE INDICATION OF SURVIVAL AFTER DEATH BUT YOU DIDN'T-

There's a lot I can talk about that it's to the point I can barely explain, how much grief has been crushing me for a long time, how I feel there's no escape from it, yet even in my tears, I do what I can to understand that those that have left aren't ever truly gone, they exist in my memories and how they have touched my soul, and with that, I can have the strength to look forward to another tomorrow.

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Gift art and character design for my friend @eldritch-eternity!

Can you tell I love monster design!!!

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Gift art for one friend of their final fantasy character, Jane Miller!!

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Birthday gift art to @ari-jay! Featuring my big bird-esq puppet oc Scuzzo singing songs with her oc Jenny!!!

Check out her @our-neck-of-the-woods project!

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Would you believe me if I told you this guy is the main villain for my Feltling story.

Say hi to Glyde Connors! A self help philanthropist that is definitely not a cult leader who only wants to help heal you, you just gotta believe!

A kind philanthropist and self help leader with only the best intentions for everyone, Glyde Connors is seen as a modern day saint to even more than his followers. He was a sock Feltling that has since managed to stitch himself a serpentine body using scrap fabrics, and now through his strong speeches and appearances on TV and the Internet has managed to amass a large following, inspiring both Humans and Feltlings alike through Glyde's goal in achieving a world of no pain, where everyone has a purpose, and no one is left behind. His influence has become so great that he has managed to attain his own strong groups to contribute to charities and even set some up of his own.

Many followers even insist Glyde is able to perform miracles, such as healing the sick and showcasing mystic abilities, and Glyde himself claims this as well. The validity of Glyde's miracles are dubious, as many skeptics see them as just trickery from a charlatan that relies on placebo. However, interestingly enough, there have been cases of even strong skeptics becoming swayed by Glyde, fueling his ego and image even more.

However, for all of Glyde's charitable acts and gentle demeanour, there lies a more twisted and manipulative side. Glyde truly, wants the best for everyone, he wants everyone to have a role and a place to fill in, but it's all on HIS terms. He truly believes that the only way to live a fulfilling life is to fill a purpose for a greater whole, and it's all based on what HE decides is best for another person. In his view, if one has difficulty fulfilling that role, or if you don't get anything out of it or it makes you miserable, then you only have yourself to blame, because it was what was best for you after all…

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A more minor character for my Feltling story, say hi to Robert! Who is your typical 'monster' puppet feltling.

He's basically your English uncle who hangs out in pubs, watches football (THE KICK BALL KIND NOT THE THROW ALMOND KIND!) and gets excited over explosions in movies. Not much to say about him really! He's just a silly lad.

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I spent so long on the initial sketch that it took me an entire day to do because I couldn't stop laughing JHDSDKHKJSD

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If English is your first language, you do not know Arabic, but you want to understand the videos coming out of Gaza, there’s a really good Instagram account called ‘Translating__Gaza’:

The page do a word for word translation of what is being said, which is both important for people to engage with and understand, and aids documentation of the atrocities happening in Gaza. We highly recommend you stay in the know and witness what’s happening in Gaza with your own eyes, keep sharing and engaging with such content. It’s strictly important that the world sees this.

Give them a follow!

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BLAME ON ME WHAT YOU WILL SEE A BITTERSWEET SYMPHONY

More grief art with Mani again, I initially sketched this during a very bad moment and then rendered it fully after.

I wonder what is the point, you know? I love you, I do, it may not seem like that, but this is why I don't tell you 'I love you'. I am always watching you rot, I see the day you die, and I know one day all that will remain are memories of you, to be honest, it doesn't matter if they're good or bad memories, they all will turn that flavour of bittersweet because it hurts so much that you are gone. It still hurts so much when she died, and it was almost two years ago, and yet I still remember our last conversation...

I still wonder if anything is worth coming to be when I'm just going to hurt in the end.

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Happy New Year! I hope you all had a good December! These were my contributions to the @welcomehomefanzine winter zine! I managed to do more art this time too! For my contributions I wanted to draw art on various Winter traditions from different cultures, such as also my own! If you decide to colour in any of these, please @ me!!

Also keep in mind, we are not affiliated with Clown or the team behind WH, we are just fans who love the work!!

I wrote more on all the artworks under the cut! Including the traditions they were based on!

First one was a little visual pun on the first verse of '12 Days of Christmas', Poppy is the partridge in the pear tree! Not much to say about this one, it's my only Christmas related thing! Second one was based on the Southern Welsh winter tradition of the Mari Lwyd. The Mari Lwyd is a hobby horse made from a horse's skull and is then decorated. It is puppeteered to go to the doors of various houses where its handlers will sing verses on letting it in to the home, you are supposed to sing back excuses on why you can't let it in, and if you relent, you invite the Mari Lwyd and its handlers in your home, where it will eat your food and alcohol and terrorise your children! The tradition and its true origins and meaning and even etymology is unknown, but it's thought to have ancient Pagan roots! It seems here, Eddie relented in his songs to it and regretted everything immediately after!

Third image is another Poppy centric piece because I love her. Here she is dressed up as a figure from Schnabelperchten! This is a tradition seen only in Rauris Valley in Austria and is a manifestation of Perchta, a goddess from Alpine Paganism that took the form of a old woman who'd punish misbehaving children by slitting their bellies. For Schnabelperchten, on the 5th of January, figures dressed in smocks, jackets, and a beak-like mask will visit various homes to check their upkeep and cleanliness all while emitting a soft 'ga ga ga', in more ancient versions of the legend, if you did not keep your living quarters in good enough conditions, the Schnabelperchten would slit open your belly and dump all the rubbish inside! Poppy would never do that though! No one tell her about that part!! Last but not least is one based on a tradition from my culture! Here you see the entire neighbourhood celebrating Yalda Night and spending time with one anotherThis is a Persian/Iranian festival with Zoroastrian roots held on the Winter Solstice. This day was traditionally seen as ill omened as being the darkest day of the year, the forces of Ahriman and his Deevs were most active, and so much of the day entailed family and friends getting together in good company. They would read stories and poems (especially the Shahnameh or poems by Hafez) with nuts and various fruits from previous harvests being served, watermelon and pomegranates being the most prominent! It was also encouraged to stay well up after midnight lest misfortune befall you! Due to it also being the longest night, it was also seen as the birthdate of the sun deity Mehr (or Mithra), as the subsequent days would get longer.

This was all fun to do and I hope I did all these traditons justice!! I am most likely missing out a lot on my explanations for them, so I hope I at least peaked your interest in these different Winter festivities enough to look into them on your own!

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After much hard work, The Welcome Home Geriatric Club is proud to present our Winter 2023 Welcome Home Fanzine Colouring Book!

You can download a PDF of all the pages on our Itchio Page

Or you can grab the individual files from our Google Drive.

Big thanks to all who contributed! Head over to out Carrd for credits!

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Merry Christmas! Have some cursed Wally Darling fanarts because I make bad art only lmfao

The first was meant to be a quick shitpost doodle but I went too far and tried rendering all of it, but then gave up on the toilet itself because I had been working on it nonstop for two hours whilst listening to Elton John on repeat and I had to save what little of my soul was left.

Also when I posted the Jacko pose Wally on one server, I ended up getting a few actually thirsty over him and I cried in despair over what I had done.

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Merry Christmas Eve! Next of the main Feltling characters, here is Divi Devil! A feltling that was made in the shape of a demon and is now your older lesbian sis. Divi's design despite being so simple is still the hardest for me to draw, especially from the side, I still dunno how to express her angles! xD

More about her under the cut!

In the late 80s to early 90s when the Feltling phenomena was now known since its emergence in the 60s, a group of rowdy children tried to experiment with it, they devised a plan that in their minds, would be able to summon a demon that would do their bidding through making a Feltling.

Gathering all the materials needed, they crudely sewed up a body in the shape of a little demon and inserted it with the mutant cotton stuffing that creates the Feltlings. This process was heavily 'ritualised' out of the kids' belief it would summon a demon, but after all this work, all they got was Divi.

Divi woke up confused and without any idea of who she was, but through these children projecting onto her that she was a demon that was meant to do their bidding, she would believe herself as such. These kids would manipulate Divi into doing all kinds of mischief together, and as they all grew, they would even partake in criminal activity.

Divi has done a lot of regrettable things out of the belief that this was what she was meant to do as a 'demon', even if harming innocent people through robberies and the like would always give her a shudder she couldn't explain.

During a botched robbery she would be arrested and then serve her sentence in prison. Faced with all of her crimes, Divi would end up reflecting a lot on her life, and she eventually came to the conclusion that just because she was a demon who did terrible things, it didn't mean she had to keep doing them, and once she was done serving her sentence she decided to turn her life around, now working various jobs to make ends meet and has since found talent as a mechanic.

Divi despite her criminal history is often very caring towards other people, and for her criminal history is incredibly nonjudgemental of anyone of similar backgrounds and is often the first to help out anyone that may have gotten themselves in trouble. However, as supportive and easygoing Divi is, she struggles a lot to come to terms with the many things she's done, and she can't help but still see herself as a terrible person who happens to be less terrible now. For this, Divi actually has little care for herself and often does many things detrimental to her health, especially if it's for another's sake.

Divi also has a number of various skills and streetsmarts from her criminal past, including but limited to: lockpicking, sleight of hand, using a variety of tools, knife wielding, diplomacy, and stealth.

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for christmas I'm not gonna upload anything christmas themed, but please still see it as my present to you :)