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I hurt my brain w sad

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I wish I didn't want to die

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Help p p p p

please

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Just had a really good shift and I would rather kill myself than go home and be triggered into isolation right now.

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How do you go to work when you are recovering from or having a panic attack?

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CPTSD: I didn’t just experience trauma, I was built by it.

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I wish people would realize, especially when writing traumatized characters, that PTSD is so much more than just nightmares and flashbacks. In fact, that’s only one group of symptoms for it.

PTSD is being unable to relax in your own home because although you know you’re safe, your mind is stuck on red alert 24/7. It’s feeling your heart race faster and faster, sweat dripping and feeling sick to your stomach, and you just want to hide. 

It’s accidentally lashing out, it’s being unable to concentrate. It’s spending hours trying to distract yourself because you can’t get to sleep - and why would you want to, anyway? 

It’s feeling so much fear that you wish you were dead, and your hands just won’t. Stop. Shaking. Nothing helps you calm down; the effects of your panic attacks last for days, making you physically ill and unable to do much except cry.

It’s not trusting your loved ones and looking away so that you don’t see the pain in their eyes when you tell them not to touch you, when you question their motives and love for you. It’s hell, and it’s so much more than flashbacks and nightmares. These are some primary symptoms, yes, but they aren’t everything. 

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I can't stop shaking :D

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My favorite thing is when people use my trauma against me.

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I don't want to forgive you. I am angry and I am hurt and everyone tells me to move on and forgive you. I don't want to forgive you. I am angry and I am hurt and everyone acts like I should be over it by now. I don't want to forgive you. I don't want to forgive you. I don't forgive you. I forgive myself.

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free space is “if i tell anyone they’ll just pity me”

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“Universe, help my hidden or repressed angry feelings to surface. Help me have the courage to face them. Help me understand how I need to take care of myself with the people I feel anger toward. help me stop telling myself something is wrong with me when people victimize me and I feel angry about the victimization. I can trust my feelings to signal problems that need my attention.” — Melody Beattie, The Language of Letting Go. 

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Therapist- So what do you think you'll do the next time you feel a panic attack coming?