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I'm Fuzzy (40)

We hit a new lowest today *drumroll* ... 309.8!!! Almost missed it but I got it! Under 310, now I don't know how much of a guarentee this is, but, I am confident!

I did smoke last night, and quite a bit! Played a lot of crocano, which is funny as hell but I'm gonna set my limit there, to social smoking and see how long I'll last! I've said it before but, I'm gonna aim for at least 4 days.

Savings? Down 10$ cause I got grilled chicken yesterday 😞💗 but!! I get paid! And I'm gonna take my savings nice n slow. Also actually, do my taxes!

Anyways!! Hope life is going your way, and you have a good one!

🐄 0 hours drawing 🐄 309.8 lbs (-13.2) 🐄 50$ (+0$) Saved 🐄 0 Days Sober 🐄 April 29th 2024

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I'm Fuzzy (39)

I lost again!! Down to 311.4 which is great! Not sure if it's a new lowest but, it's something big in the face of change. I'm hoping after my 3 days of work I can drop that down even more!

Didn't smoke last night either leaving me at 2 days sober in a row!! It's going good, I know today I'm gonna break that streak though.

Savings are still okay though!! I should be able to get a decent amount back though when I'm paid. Plus!?? I have to do my taxes still fml. That'll be great!

Anywaysss, hope y'all had a good one!! With love from Fuzzy 💗🌸😘

🐄 0 hours drawing 🐄 311.4 lbs (-11.6) 🐄 60$ (+0$) Saved 🐄 2 Days Sober 🐄 April 28th 2024

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I'm Fuzzy (38)

HooooWEEEEE I'm getting back on track!!! Lost today, and I'm back down to 313.4 😎✌️

It's an empty celebration unless I reach a new low, but getting back on a downward projection gives me a lot of hope. I alsssooo did not smoke yesterday!

That makes this day one of being sober, for now. I know I'm gonna smoke tomorrow though for content, but not tonight. And after Sunday, I'll see how long I can go! My high score has been 3 days (god that's lame to say, like the phrase: I'm level 22 🤓☝️)

For money? I'm still sitting at 60$ saved, on god that's so sad. But imma get it up!!! Save reasonably, and budget to enjoy myself Hope y'all enjoy yourselves too!! It's hot girl summer.

🐄 0 hours drawing 🐄 313.4 lbs (-9.6) 🐄 60$ (+0$) Saved 🐄 1 Days Sober 🐄 April 27th 2024

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I'm Fuzzy (37)

Missed another update yesterday. That's two missed and restarts my streak but!! I know I can do it! I've maintained since the last update, and I did smoke last night to help with the whole relaxing before a work day.

My savings got thrown out of wack because of a subscription that I had to wipe my savings for 😭 so I'm down to about 60$ until my next pay. To fix this I'm gonna start listing my dolls for sale again.

I'm also declaring a 2 day tolerance break at least. I smoke with my friends on Sunday but before that, I'm okay to not smoke. And after Sunday I'm gonna try, elongating those stretches of not getting high.

My partner doesn't like it, and, I shouldn't have to hide it from him. So I won't as much anymore. At least try not to when I'm alone.

Here's to a better me! And hopefully a better you!

🐄 1 hour drawing 🐄 314.4lbs (-8.6) 🐄 60$ (-90$) Saved 🐄 0 Days Sober 🐄 April 26th 2024

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I'm Fuzzy (36)

Yesterday I said no more sobriety counter?? That was high nonsense. I cannot be smoking every day!! I'm gonna keep the counter because I do need to cut down.

Lost! Not much, I'm still in the same loose range which SUCKS but, whatever. 314.4lbs is it right now!

Pulled more money out of savings for self indulgence 😭 I'm losing my flow here. I think I'm slipping into a depression, but I have to just turn that shit around before it gets too far!!!

Anyways, always positive vibes, and I can be a whiny bitch but, things are good. Love y'all 💗🌸

🐄 1 hour drawing 🐄 314.4lbs (-8.6) 🐄 150$ (-30$) Saved 🐄 0 Days Sober 🐄 April 24th 2024

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I'm Fuzzy (35)

Late update today! But I remembered 😎👍 I gained, which sucks. Back at 315 but, what else am I gonna do? It's my fault, so I need to fix stuff up!! Can't quit!! I'm not a quitter and I'm not at my highest weight so we're chilling.

Sobriety? Oof, Im actually gonna remove that off the daily counter now, cause sheesh, it's rough. Ive been deep cleaning, and being a lil crazy, but I just need that relaxation at the end of the night.

Money, is going okay, had to move over 20$ for an expense today. My next pay stub isn't bad, but isn't small lol. So I should be able to aid my savings. Also gonna start posting more of my monster high dolls!!

Anyways, love ya 😘💗

🐄 0 hours drawing 🐄 315lbs (-8) 🐄 180$ (+0$) Saved 🐄 April 23rd 2024

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I'm Fuzzy (34)

The goal of getting sober off weed was to cut down my dependence on it and stop my high binge eating. But I've come to a point where, I don't binge eat when I'm high!

Regardless I have to quit when my partner and I get engaged because drug free straight edge couples go hard. Also America isn't as kind to weed. But!!

Good news! Lost 😎👍🎊 I'm back to 313.4, which is, okay. I knew my period was fucking my shit up. Here's to hitting a new lowest! I'm hoping to be 300lbs by June if things go right in May.

Drawing? Bupkis, nada, nothing, I had work yesterday so that's whyyyyy! But other than that I've been able to actually save money!! Keeping what little I have isn't a lot but damn, she be nice.

🐄 0 hours drawing 🐄 313.4lbs (-9.6) 🐄 180$ (+0$) Saved 🐄 0 Days Sober 🐄 April 22nd 2024

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I'm Fuzzy (33)

Wow, I missed an update, but funny enough yesterday was 4/20 so you can imagine why I forgot! LMAO too funny.

My eating was okay at first, then I had a tray of sushi, and canned Vienna weiners for dinner so I'm not entirely optimistic about my weight in tomorrow. I'm gonna weight everyday but, I need to get re-aligned to continue my progress. Right now, I gained and I'm back to 315.

I wasn't sober yesterday at all lmao, but that's just a good laugh, I smoked a tiny bit, and went to bed around 11ish. Haven't spent any saved money, everything is going quite good!!

I hope y'all can stay consistent, and don't stray from the path of improvement!!

🐄 0 hours drawing 🐄 315lbs (-8) 🐄 180$ (+0$) Saved 🐄 0 Days Sober 🐄 April 21st 2024

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I'm Fuzzy (32)

It's getting harder to be consistent. But I'm staying social! And I'm spending my money wisely. Just actually got a new toaster! I'm maintaining, but idk tbh.

Maybe after my period I'll leap the hurdle! God knows dripping blood should count to lose some weight lmao.

I did smoke last night, to help with the period cramps, but that was after I bought a whole duffel bag of yarn for 20$!! Crocheting is for sure, a newfound passion of mine but, I can't wait to be done this blanket, and to start knitting baby clothes.

I'm not pregnant or anything! Just, to have ready, when I need them I guess. Or maybe some plushies, who knows. I hope y'all have a good day too though 💕

🐄 0 hours drawing 🐄 312.4lbs (-10.6) 🐄 180$ (-20$) Saved 🐄 0 Days Sober 🐄 April 19th 2024

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I'm Fuzzy (31)

Wow! A month, time flies when you're trying to stay consistent. Yesterday I did much better with food, and I'm back to 312.4, to ward off large binges, I got a supply of small one portion snacks that I can have every now and then if I'm craving.

Didn't smoke last night!! Woooo, that's great tbh, I was thinking about it for a hot minute last night but I said NO! (By no I mean I passed out before I could find my vape in my bedside dresser)

Drawing was okay, I'm trying to make a family portrait of my fursona. It's going a lot tougher than I thought it might, and tbh it's crazy to me that I can flip on and off unwillingly my ability to draw.

Money???? She's staying put. I have no extra expenses, no crazy wants, I am keeping dis money.

🐄 1 hours drawing 🐄 312.4lbs (-10.6) 🐄 200$ (+0$) Saved 🐄 1 Days Sober 🐄 April 18th 2024

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I'm Fuzzy (30)

It's a sad day in bad bitch world. I gained, and I had a bad binging episode yesterday. Fastfood breakfast, fatty lunch, fastfood dinner. You can't get worse than that!! But, it'll be okay. I'll lose again. The verdict of today was 314lbs.

I'm praying it's water weight. But to make sure I am going to be more conscious. I was so close to dipping under 310!!

I've actually been drawing for once which is fun, and thankfully it isn't all negatives!! I was able to put money in my savings! Now a total of $200 which isn't crazy but eh, can't do worse than that.

I smoked again last night. I guess the fear from my trip is weakening but, I just don't know what they put in it.

It took me, all day to finish writing this, which is shameful but. I can't have shame when I'm posting such back falls, and successes as I am. I'm not a failure until I'm at my original weight.

🐄 2 hours drawing 🐄 314lbs (-9) 🐄 200$ (+120$) Saved 🐄 0 Days Sober 🐄 April 17th 2024

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I'm Fuzzy (29)

Wooooo!! New lowest this year!! I'm at 311.4lbs, and hopefully it keeps peeling off layer by layer until I emerge a butterfly 💖 lol I'm kidding

Anyways, I'm not a day sober, yet. I smoked last night playing Minecraft and lordy it was fun. But, I'm not going to tonight.

Drawing was great actually, livestreamed to a friend or two, had a fun time!! I wanna keep up with the streaming to finish my backlog. Great to sit and talk while working, I love it!!!

Spring cleaning update!! It's been going so good, working on the kitchen, and laundry smh, but I shall do it!!

🐄 2 hours drawing 🐄 311.4lbs (-11.6) 🐄 80$ (+0$) Saved 🐄 0 Days Sober 🐄 April 16th 2024

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I'm Fuzzy (28)

Late update! Phew, you almost missed me today!

Yesterday was a blast, ate a reasonable 3 meals, got really high, and played Moving Out 2! It was a genuine great time. Got home before midnight too!

I've come to a decision that weed is best socially for me. I get really freaked out after that one incident, and, being with friends keeps that from happening.

I've maintained, which isn't great but! Isn't awful. I'm still working towards dipping under 310. Thankfully I haven't had any big binge cravings, or incidents that have massively thrown me off this Spring Cleaning Week but danger still lingers.

With my frontal lobe developing the closer and closer I get to 23 lmao, I know what I want to do, and I want to live, as long, and as happy as I can. I hope the same for all of you.

🐄 0 hours drawing 🐄 312.4lbs (-10.6) 🐄 80$ (-40$) Saved 🐄 0 Days Sober 🐄 April 15th 2024

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I'm Fuzzy! (27)

Wow, 27 days updating!!! That's Crazy, but I come with good news!!

I lost!! 0.8 which brings me down to 312.4! Nothing crazy but this week off is a lot of moving, a lot of grooving, and it is working. This week I'm hoping to get past my hurdle of 310 and staying past it!

I was alsooo.. sober last night! Slept well, didn't work on much though. I've been watching tons of Dexter though, damn that show is great.

My spring cleaning update? My biggest hurdle rn is so, much, laundry!!! Aaahhh!

Today though. I'm not working on cleaning until I'm back from hanging with friends. Those bad edibles I had? My friend wants to try some, and I'm not gonna lie, kinda scared!! Anyways! Here's the updated stats ❤️

🐄 0 hours drawing 🐄 312.4lbs (-10.6) 🐄 120$ (+0$) Saved 🐄 1 Days Sober 🐄 April 14th 2024

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I'm Fuzzy (26)

Another loss today! And guess what it wasss 0.1lb 😔🎉 a sad victory, but tomorrow!!! Shall be greater! I mainly blame it on getting spicy Cheetos last night. Never again though, my rear is on Fire!

Stomach issues for the win to tell me shits unhealthy lmao!!! Speaking of unhealthy, guess who smoked again :') I won't tonight, but, I just want to get my tolerance up a bit more before Sunday.

No drawing yesterday but I have a big goal this week!!!

SPRING CLEANING!!!

This week, from today April the 13th to April the 19th I am Cleaning my entire house!!

Today's goal, finish deep cleaning the top floor of my home!!

Try out some spring cleaning of your own! It's cleansing for the soul! And I hope y'all have a beautiful day 💖

🐄 0 hours drawing 🐄 313.2lbs (-9.8) 🐄 120$ (+0$) Saved 🐄 0 Days Sober 🐄 April 13th 2024

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I'm Fuzzy (25)

I smoked, I know, it's bad but to be fair, it helped me draw for the first time!! I drew for 2 hours on an overdue commission and gosh, I'm happy about that.

I also lost!! Nothing crazy, 0.7lbs, but we'll see what happens lol, I'm off work for a week to do some spring cleaning!! So moving around and tossing trash bags should help get me past 310.

Yesterday mainly I worked on my blanket, and podcast. I hate to promote but, if you wanna support aspiring creators, check out DeBaked Podcast. It starts out rough but it's fun.

Anywayyssss, I have work today, and hope that y'all have a good time ❤️🥺

🐄 2 hours drawing 🐄 313.3lbs (-9.7) 🐄 120$ (+0$) Saved 🐄 0 Days Sober 🐄 April 12th 2024

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I'm Fuzzy (24)

Another day maintaining! Better than gaining, worse than losing. Yesterday I mainly spent it tidying up, slumping around half awake with a cold lol.

Worked more on the blanket, set up stuff for the podcast. I have to really work on my mindset going forward.

I'm still sober!! This tolerance break has already reset me to baseline I'm 99% sure. I have to find a way to dispose of my unused cartridges for my penjamin. Cause I have 4, and I'm sure as heck not gonna use em all before I quit for good!!

In hindsight of everything so far, it isn't addictive I feel. I've had a bumpy time quitting but, this is going smooth. If I wanted right now, I could quit for good. But I'm not ready.

I did actually draw for an hour yesterday, nothing crazy but today is gonna be much different. One meal, finished projects, and it's gonna be great.

🐄 1 hour drawing 🐄 314lbs (-9.0) 🐄 120$ (+0$) Saved 🐄 3 Days Sober 🐄 April 11th 2024