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I belong to the sea, and to all the places that makes me feel like I don't belong

I belong to my hometown when I'm away, and I belong to the capital when I'm in my hometown

To everyone that now despise me, I belong to the blood and to change and its stagnation

I belonged to them when I left, and I left because I didn't belong

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bawling my eyes to my note app

I didn't have loyal friends but they were always loyal when it came to betraying me I've always wondered why i never was worth an explanation I've stopped caring if God was there but I found myself crying to him tonight I don't know why i expected something to happen when i asked him to fix me Into something worthy of care I've been limiting myself lately, started speaking less, became quieter, an empty shell My mom told me that i wasn't an empty shell, and even if i was, i was the type of empty shells that got the sea within them, my waves weren't calm and relaxed, they were aching I told her that I don't feel any sense of belonging anywhere, not in my hometown, not in the new city I'm in, not to the people I'm studying with, I told her that there's probably something wrong with me, she insisted that it's not true, My mom is so into spirituality, she preceded to say that i don't belong here because I'm not from here, that I'm a stardust The thing is that stars don't shine, they burn, and they end up crashed by the weight of their own existence

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Was walking today and thought of how "to be human is to be understood" and it made me feel bad because I could never have this but does it really matter? I can feel inhumane and still achieve greatness, I'm okay with feeling alienated as long as it lets me be a part of history, humanity history.

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I'm a pink spotify girlie

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I feel overwhelmed, confused, in denial and totally consumed by all the turn that my life took

Seventeen is such a bittersweet age, not because of how hard it is, but because of how you're obliged to figure it out, to feel the right things, to think the right way but what is right at this moment of my life

How am I supposed to process and grief my teen hood, how am I gonna survive it, how am I getting closure, turning the page, moving on and finally becoming an adult

I never thought I'd be at this stage of my life, maybe because I thought I'd be dead by 14 or because it seemed so far away and such an unachievable thing when I was a child so I didn't really think about it that much

But now it hit me, stronger than ever, and I can't run, I can't ignore it, the ones who did never got better, and I shall be doomed if I repeat their mistake

All I can do for now is embracing the moment and hoping for the better to come

I think I can handle change.

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Just trying to hide from the life

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dream wardrobe 🎀

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say yes to heaven,

say yes to me

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The card that saved me

🗡 three of swords 🫀

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No mom this is not a phase

It's God plan for me

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I need to be perfect </3

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When girls are delusional it's artistic, fun, hot even.When guys are delusional it's giving incel, creep, and psycho not in a hot way vibes, sorry.

@aimeeisaimee via Tiktok 

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