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Mfs when I literally tell them the only person I care about is myself when I actually only care about myself, and it wasn't some silly joke I made for the LOL's:

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Masking is so much effort I think I'm just going to stop and see how much this decision fucks up my life

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I hate getting those 'please donate to my family in Gaza!' things because I don't fucking care

Suffer a little quieter please, it's getting annoying at this point

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So done with the ASPD billionaire/CEO myth, call me a serial killer or whatever just don’t call me a fucking capitalist😭😭😭worst insult

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Maybe try shutting the fuck up before you try and participate in a debate when you don't have anything intelligent to contribute :3

I'm sick of seeing pro-endo posts on here.

Down to the very way DID affects the brain, it is a result of childhood trauma.

Many symptoms of DID are a result of how the brain reacts to the serve stress that is caused by abuse. You can't do that just because, or for 'fun'.

Even if you don't remember your trauma, you can still be a system. You just can't be endogenic.

If you think differently, please comment so we can have a CIVILIZED debate about it, because I think that is a very interesting conversation we need to have.

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Many of your resources reference having multiple selves or an inconsistent self rather than being a system. I would like to make it clear that I am exclusively referring to people who claim to have disorders such as DID or OSDD, or claim to be a system without trauma.

Additionally, when authors/character creators hear the voices of their characters (which I believe is why you are saying this is a way a system can form) it was stated that this is out of habit for predicting what a character would say. This is not being multiple, as your resource also said that once the book is published, hearing the characters voice eventually faded from the author's mind. This can also be applied to acting.

The idea of being a system without having a disorder such as DID or OSDD is an inconsistent sense of self, which is normal human behaviour. Your sources are referring to a sense of self rather than being a system. This can also explain the similar experiences to being a system that people with Autism, ADHD, BPD, etc experience. That is a sense of self.

You are trying to make a sense of self not being consistent being a system. That is not being a system, as being a system is so much more than just your personality/identity.

The aspects of disorders such as DID/OSDD that make people with those disorders a system and not just people with inconsistent identities are the amnesia and dissociation. None of your sources referenced reasons for amnesia being present if not for trauma.

Please tell me if I am misinterpreting what either you or your sources are saying, I would like to know if I am wrong sooner rather than later.

I'm sick of seeing pro-endo posts on here.

Down to the very way DID affects the brain, it is a result of childhood trauma.

Many symptoms of DID are a result of how the brain reacts to the serve stress that is caused by abuse. You can't do that just because, or for 'fun'.

Even if you don't remember your trauma, you can still be a system. You just can't be endogenic.

If you think differently, please comment so we can have a CIVILIZED debate about it, because I think that is a very interesting conversation we need to have.

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I'm sick of seeing pro-endo posts on here.

Down to the very way DID affects the brain, it is a result of childhood trauma.

Many symptoms of DID are a result of how the brain reacts to the serve stress that is caused by abuse. You can't do that just because, or for 'fun'.

Even if you don't remember your trauma, you can still be a system. You just can't be endogenic.

If you think differently, please comment so we can have a CIVILIZED debate about it, because I think that is a very interesting conversation we need to have.

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I have a hard time admitting if I like/dislike something and will typically say the opposite of what I actually think because I've spent so long wearing a mask that is the opposite of who I am, and forget that I can be myself sometimes

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Hate it when I tell someone I've had a psychotic episode and they just say 'no'.

The fuck u mean??? No??? What??? You know literally nothing about mental health or psychology, stfu please???

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I love talking about myself.

You ask me questions about myself? I could spend literal hours happily talking about me.

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One thing that people with mental disorders besides cluster B disorders will never fully understand is that it’s near impossible for us to get help. Not saying that it’s not hard opening up to people about other mental disorders such as depression, but usually if someone opened up about their depression, they’d be responded with sympathy. But for people with cluster b disorders, if we open up about our disorders, we’ll be labeled as fucking psychos who just like manipulating people for pure evil.

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Each day I'm still awake feels like my insides rot away a little more. I'm plagued by eternal boredom that makes me want to claw my heart out just to try and feel something. I'm endlessly jealous of normal people. You're all so lucky, and you don't even realize it. Fucking privileged, ignorant bitches.

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“Why’d you do that?” Please remember that I am using what I’ve seen in humans to mimic them

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I envy people who feel empathy, because so often I'll hear things like 'the best life is one you live surrounded by people you love'. I can't love anyone, and therefore can't live the 'best' life, and it makes me jealous.

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I can always kill myself. That's the only comforting thought I have.