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[heartfullofbipolar]

Hi,

I just got lost and ended up in here.

I am doing greatly just have been doing

chakras.It has made an impact in my life

I no longer wish to be a writer that has helped

me a lot.The other health thing I am waiting for is eft

therapy which is known as tapping.But if it don't work out,

i am happy for my knowledge of chakras, that helped a lot.

[heartfullofbipolar]

Monday,August 7

I just want to be creative.I have my Mac and

my camera and now I don't have an idea what

to do with them.I feel like I am stuck and can't

get over it.I want to do things, like write but

I don't think that I am worth it.

I find this really depressing and consuming.

I just want to find peace and to go on in my life

with my tools.This is not deep depression I am just annoyed

about what to do.Thanks for reading.

[heartfullofbipolar]

Away from Tumblr

This is so cool.I have forgot all about this.This is my Tumbler.And

i am so excited about this.I don't know ,if I can write here again

my skills might be poor like before.But bare with me.I will be better at this .Now it happened again ,idont know how to make that it will be good writing.I am just rambling on and I like free writing the most.

[heartfullofbipolar]

Oh well!

This is a Late night post,I just talked to my

friend.We chat for over an hour.Today I have

come to my Senses.I just finished my latest

Hobby ,Mindfulness.My daughter said to me

that i Am restless ,that moment Didnt think a

Thing about it,but i saw it coming,there were

Signs i recalled,i texted with my ex about

Something which made me nervous And not

Wanting to talked about it.I Didnt think much

About it but it was the first thing what rolled

Like a snowball.Now i Am tired And dont feel

Like talking about it anymore.

[heartfullofbipolar]

Hi I Am just doing well not so good.

I went to my prayingmeeting.

It wasnt good.

I want it all back.

I dont care what everybody says.

I Am doing this for my sake.

I dont understand Why is it so hard.

There were four people going there.

We were all doing great in the car.

Then we got to their home And I was excited.

All went well.

But then when we got to the best bit I just sat

there,I could not believe what I was doing!

Damn.

[heartfullofbipolar]

Hi

I just came down to my friend,

I have not been here for

A while.I Drank some

Coffee.And we went laying

on the bed.We hugged And

talked.We listened some

music.Then we just hang out.

[heartfullofbipolar]

Hi.

I just wanted to go outside,

but I cant .My daughter is here.

We were today at Hesburger,

that was cool.I Am not humorous

humanbeing.We made gingerbread.

I Am not going to the concrecation

for a while now .I Am looking at other

possibilities.I think that it is wrong that

you cant pray how you like.Like how your life is

now how grateful you are what kind of needs do

You have And what do you need And how are

Your Decisions.I just feel so stupid And not

Wanting to go at the concrecation.I feel

pressure to pray And I fear that my Prays are

Not enough.

[heartfullofbipolar]

Ysiluokkalaisten kanssa oli joulurunopäivä. Tää oli mun lemppari.

[heartfullofbipolar]

Wednesday

This morning i woke up at 5.

I did my morning routines .

and then i made up a set of new routines.

This morning has been a good morning. 

I talked to two guys it was easy.

I want this to last.I have no symptoms 

of hypomania,which i had last year.

My optipar was cut dont to 20 mg a day.

I think it is sufficient enough.I have today

photographing and going outside.Later on

i will go to my friend´s house.I will not walk

i ride there.Walking is so slow.

[heartfullofbipolar]

[heartfullofbipolar]

This morning i woke up at six.I couldnt find my phone anywhere and it keep ringing.Thatwas just my luck it was in the kitchen sink.Oh my Lord why i put it there.This morning was just an ordinary morning for me ,it is the day off from work.I dont mind it is as good as the other days.So i found my phone.This day i will accomplish to send the package.It was amix up where my name was in the receivers place and my daughter was the sender.It was supposed to be the other way around.Am going with my bicycle ,i will test the weather if it is okay to go to Ari.So thats my plan.I am going to the shoppe to buy some nicotine liquids to my e-cigarette.I will put my two jackets on it is the winter now after all.I got rid of John who i paid 1000 euros and it was going to continue if i was in contact with him,i couldnt let that happen ,money is so important to me.

[heartfullofbipolar]

[heartfullofbipolar]

my daughter

came for a visit.She drives with her Mercedes to  Valkeakoski.She is the most coolest person i have ever met in my life.I dont mean to undermine her sibling she is cool too ,but in some way I feel so connected when i am with her.It is so easy to be just the way we are.

[heartfullofbipolar]

Beginning of a relationship

I just got a message from a man i have met in whatsapp inthe 3rd of December.I am so baffled cos i dont know him very well.He writes me really romantic things,i am all baffled cos i dont know what i am supposed to write him.He is so romantic.I really like him.He makes me feel good.I put him a message where i explained about me and Ari that he was there for me when i was lonely in 2018.I was really lonely 2017 and he appeared in 2018 August.

[heartfullofbipolar]

Hi,i havent posted a lot in here ,but am trying to keep up better.I have few things on my mind now.I just cant get hang of it,i am with my friend Ari trying to be friends ,but it is really hard to be just friends .We do a lot same things .Our interests are alike and our way of life is similar.I just dont want to him say that”we are like an married old couple.I dont want him to say that.I go to him with all good intentions and then he says that,i really really dont want that ever ,not in amillion years.

[heartfullofbipolar]

Nice curtain