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[heartidylla]

𝑳𝑶𝑵𝑮 𝑳𝑰𝑽𝑬 ; LEON KENNEDY — CHP. 1

summary ; escaping the facility, new chapter in your life as squad nine.

paring ; leon kennedy x reader

word count ; 1.8k

warnings ; none

your chest has never panted so harshly before, not even during your fathers military boot camp training. the three of you were running — no, it was more like sprinting for dear life. you all has defined the people you grew up around, the scientists, board members, umbrella workers, as your enemy.

rightfully so, charlotte has a tremendous amount of built up fury within her. the kind that has molded into her skin as a thick front where nobody would be able to penetrate through.

she hated them — despised everyone in this building. the way her eyebrows knitted together never ceased when you saw her breaking out of her cell. her expression was full of distaste which was blatantly directed at every worker that has made it their life job to torture her.

you still didn't have a single clue what tests they have subjected her to throughout these years, but she seemed to have been shaped into a killing machine because everyone that potentially stood in their way she had mercilessly killed on spot. you watched in shock as she broke workers necks with a swift and clean motion which your father had taught you prior, or a swift kick that forced them to crush into the wall and cause an indent.

her strength was inhuman — like immensely powerful. for someone that's only 5'4, she shouldn't have that kind of force within her tiny figure. you didn't let your admiration for her abilities (that were forced upon her, so it's not so great) let your guard down as you held your gun and stabilized it with your other hand, lodging a piece of metal into the brains that happened to slip from charlottes grasp alive.

elias had done the same as well, shockingly he seemed to handle himself just fine. he never wanted to be near a gun whenever we were on guard at charlottes cell, and once said that he hates them — like, despises using them. his eyes had fell into a deep sorrow whenever he revealed that part about himself, like he had gone through hell because of them.

"we're almost there!" elias shouts in a breathless voice. to be fair, you both were panting sharply out of mouths. the red flickering lights shined down on all of your faces, blurring out how the embarrassing truth on how out of breath you were.

the door in front of you — the exit to be in fact, began to close. "no!" you cried out as you reached for the enclosing space between the door and the outside world, showing more emotion within your voice than you wanted to. you all were so close to leaving — to achieving freedom. hadn't you all suffered enough? couldn't something just go your way for once? does the universe hate you all that much?

charlottes eyebrows furrowed at the sight in front of them before she slid underneath and placed her shoulder underneath the door, holding it up for them to make it. your eyes widened as you took in the scene before you. what the hell had they put into her blood — or into her in general. you were baffled, starstruck even, and that showed as your pace was slowing down.

"hurry up!" charlotte shouted in a strained voice as she shut her eyes tightly. the weight on her shoulders were becoming more and more heavier, fighting back against her abnormal strength.

shaking your head, "right —!" you say as you begin sprinting once again. the more you found out about charlotte, the more you were grateful she was on your side.

once you all were out, charlotte let go of the door and it slammed shut. everyone was panting due to the excessive amount of exercise. "who knew escaping was so exhausting." elias stated as he placed his hands on knees and leaned over. "right charlotte?" elias's lips curl into a smile as he glanced over to her.

charlottes body tenses at the sudden acknowledgment before nodding her head with an flustered expression. that intrigued you — the way she acted around elias was much different than how you've ever seen her. it was a much softer side, and ... it was cute. they were cute, or their pronounced dynamic was at least. you watched from the sideline as elias went over to her and checked her over, ensuring she was okay as if she has a tendency to lie about her true state.

this was the first time that you really were able to take in their features. elias was a tall, lanky even, yet somehow still managed to have broad muscles around his figure. he had this distinctive coffee brown tinted hair that was split perfectly down the middle. his eye were a hazel green, the kind of shade you'd see in a brightly lit forest. the shade that's somehow in the middle of being vibrant but cold at the same time. it brings some type of warmth feeling when you gaze into them for too long. it's soft of comforting, if anything. his face was tanned, probably due to his uproar of hours that he had trained outside for. he was extremely handsome, like the kind of good looking where you start to delude yourself into believing a life with him would be magnificent. early morning kisses, brewed coffee breath, smiles ... a lot of them, arms wrapped around your torso to pull you closer, cozy — really cozy.

charlotte was ... complicated. sometimes she'd give off something that was alien like. someone who was completely different than everyone else and desperately stayed away from everyone who came close to her. other times, she seemed like a genuinely good person. she was cute, adorable even. her hair was slightly more vibrant than elias's, but a similar shade of brunette. the style of her locks were still slightly matted, and obviously not brushed out. her cheeks were typically were a rose shade, but that deepened whenever elias was near. her lips were full and slightly chapped, probably dehydrated. her eyes held a lot of built up emotion which made it extremely difficult to decipher her. however, when she was with elias she showed her true self. the quiet, obedient, sweet souled girl who had been taken advantage of by the supporters of umbrella's experiments.

she was just like you two, and you both were just like her. in a way, you all connected on a spiritual level because of that.

you subconsciously smiled at the sight of them two, before straightening your posture. "are you two a thing?" you ask, gesturing back and forth between them. you were curious because of how they acted it truly seemed like they both had some kind of soft spot connection with one another.

elias's eyes widened before instantly shaking his head. "no." he sternly denies, empathizing on the no a tad bit too harshly. his response time was a little quick for it to not be seen as an insult of some kind. "no, we're not anything." he adds while a nervous smile appeared across his face. you glanced back to charlotte who seemed to be upset by his tone, or his words in general. however, she held her tongue and instead rubbed her arm with a saddened expression

honestly, if you were her shoes you'd be embarrassed by the way he denied it. it seemed like he would rather date a shoe than her, and that affected you even if you weren't in her position. you shrugged your shoulders before taking a moment to stretch your arms over your head. "we need to continue on. we're not out of the woods yet."

elias nodded his head, not noticing charlotte pained expression. "got a plan?" he questioned you as he checked his ammunition.

"we can either run, or take down umbrella entirely." you stated your two options. you were done stretching and began to count everything you had on you that would be deemed worthy.

"i'm taking down umbrella." charlotte spoke up in a stern voice which dragged both of your attention towards her. she was standing in a more strong position, as if to show off that she meant every single word she had just spoke. her eyebrows were knitted together. "i want to take revenge on what they did to us over the course of our entire lives. you two do not have to come with me, but i am not able to move on knowing that they could potentially continue to hurt other kids in our place." she added onto her statement, backing up her decision with a very reasonable explanation.

you stayed silent for a moment as a thousand scenarios ran through your mind at which path you should take. if you supported the narrative to take down umbrella, it would be a difficult task and would take awhile before you were fully able to achieve that. not even to mention all the times where things could go wrong.

if you took the easy way out, you could be out of this city within an hour. then again, what would you do after that? your father could come after you, or more than likely send people to fetch you. you didn't have any money to financially support you. you'd have to start from square one which is being homeless and working your way up.

"i'm in." elias's voice brought you out of your thoughts as your mouth slightly parted in disbelief. he, the person who hated violence and guns, was perfectly fine with taking down umbrella? it was shocking news and completely out of character for him. "charlotte, i'm behind you in this." he says to her specifically, putting a hand onto her shoulder to empathize his support in her decision. then, both of their gazes directed their attention onto you as they patiently awaited your response.

you looked at them both, licking your lips before slightly bitting on the bottom as you continued to take in the consequences of both paths. you inhaled a deep breath, letting it go after a few seconds of holding it to relief some of the tension built inside of you. you returned your gaze to them, "i'm in." you announce to them. a sense of seriousness filling your tone.

both of them smiled as they walked over to you and patted your shoulders. "cant do it without our leader." elias's teased you with his typical smug grin that always caused you to slightly chuckle. charlotte unexpectedly nodded in agreement with him though which warmed your heart.

"alright," you spoke in an amused tone as you closed your eyes and took in the new chapter that had just begun within your life. "let's take down umbrella. to do that, we need to go to the police station." you tell them and they both shook their head in understanding as to what you had meant by that. you took the first step to the direction of the police station.

[heartidylla]

LONG LIVE ; PLAYLIST

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⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ LONG LIVE THEME SONG

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LONG LIVE — TAYLOR SWIFT

"  i had the time of my life

with you

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𓇢𓆸 your very first friend, leon kennedy

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DONT BLAME ME — TAYLOR SWIFT

" i once was poison ivy,

but now i'm your daisy

SATELLITE — HARRY STYLES

" i can see your lonely down there.

don't you know that i am right here?

HOSTAGE — BILLIE EILISH

" i wanna be alone, alone with you

does that make sense?

COME OUT AND PLAY — BILLIE EILISH

" don't hide, don't hide. too shy to say,

but i hope you stay ...

ONE DAY — TATE MCRAE

" it's impossible to get you off my mind.

i think about a hundred thoughts

and you are ninety nine

YOU GET ME SO HIGH — THE NEIGHBORHOOD

" i just had to reach my goals.

never knew i needed you though, so …

UNDERSTAND — KESHI

" maybe we could try, if you let me ..

take you by the hand. you're the only one

who understands

NOTICE ME — ROLE MODEL

" cant stand when you're not close to me.

damn, can't believe you notice me, notice me

DIE FIRST — NESSA BARRETT

" but if one of us dies ... i hope i die first

'cause i don't wanna live without you.

20191009 I LIKE HER — MAC DEMARCO

" as long as my heart's still beating.

as long as she's next to me.

as long as this love still fleeting,

because i like her.

SOMETHING STUPID — LOLA MARSH

" and then i go and spoil it all by saying

something stupid like, 'i love you.'

WONDERLAND — TAYLOR SWIFT

" we found wonderland.

you and i got lost in it,

and life was never worse

but never better

END GAME — TAYLOR SWIFT

" i don't wanna hurt you,

i don't wanna be just another ex-love

you don't wanna see.

HERE WITH ME — D4VD

" i don't care how long it takes,

as long as i'm with you

i've got a smile on my face

WILLOW — TAYLOR SWIFT

" life was a willow and

it bent right to your wind.

they count me out

time and time again.

first chapter out 06/14/23 , go check out overview now!

[heartidylla]

𝑳𝑶𝑵𝑮 𝑳𝑰𝑽𝑬 ; LEON KENNEDY — OVERVIEW

summary ; introduces you, elias and charlottes past, connections, & parents.

paring ; leon kennedy x f!reader

word count ; 1.4k

pronouns ; you (2nd pov)

warnings ; mentions of abuse

your memory of the first day you were pronounced a commander of squad nine is extremely foggy within your already tangled mental state. your father, the head of a group within some fragment of the governments military, had started to train you into becoming the perfect leader since you were able to talk.

you didn't — and probably won't ever understand why he would ever structure the traits of a soldier into the mind of an innocent child who only wanted to focus on learning how to color in the lines, maybe it was because he needed to get his mind off of the horrid things he seen during his time of service, or maybe it was simply out of the cruelty that grief brings due to your mothers early passing; either way, you couldn't ever question his character without a punishment.

you never referred to him as dad, father, or anything of the sort. it was mostly silent nodding for the past 21 years of your life since it never felt like he was your dad. he was more like a higher ranked official that you had to respect or you'd be running sprints around the building.

adding onto that point, you never were able to watch movies, eat popcorn, and just laugh with him. it was always training, and you never understood what you were training for.

that was, until you met her.

charlotte levine, the daughter of a higher up within the company of umbrella. the first time you met her was when she had been undergoing a classified procedure.

the moment your fourteen year old eyes looked through the one way window, you felt a sickness build within your throat. she was strapped into a chair, looking lifelessly out into the distance. her brown eyes were dull, and she truly seemed dead which completely contrasted her raising and falling chest. she looked tired — extremely tired at that, as if she had been sucked out of life during her years in this secluded section of the building.

you quickly took notice to the scars on her wrist due to just how tight she was confined. it seemed like they were petrified of her — or whatever she could do to them. she had messy brown hair which didn't seem to be maintained for awhile, but if it was her hair would fall to medium length.

she probably hadn't been given the opportunity to take a shower either which even the thought of not having that privilege caused your chest to tighten. honestly, you didn't blame her for the way she expressed herself either since you've heard about her past before.

she had started these procedures when she was a newborn. her cold father had ripped the mother of custody with his intimidating stack of money in his bank account. he promised the court that she would have a better life with him. what a load of shit that was.

though, it goes to show how the fucked up court system will side with a man before any woman as if we are some kind of lying idiots who don't know what to do, how to continue, or where to go when we finally break free from an abusive relationship or a traumatic experience caused by a man.

just like you, she wasn't treated like a daughter either. unlike you, she had always been stuffed in a cage or simply a box when she was a newborn. there would be caretakers who would come by and take care of her needs, be a mother figure to her. most of them, if asked now, would say she was a nice young girl who had been taken advantage of. however, you'd never be able to ask that because they're dead.

the moment she was able to do everything on her own, your father and board of others (which included her father) decided to cover their tracks and have them all executed.

it's horrifying to think about how easy it was to come to the conclusion of murdering the women who had been so nice to her, and even worse to realize that they did it in front of her.

you were assigned with a boy, elias ledford, to watch over her while the adults attended to their studies on her next procedure to becoming whatever they wanted her to be. truly, you didn't even understand yourself since you were completely left out in the dark about what exactly they had planned for her future.

you never tried to talk to her due to the fear of your father being displeased with your efforts; however, elias did. he'd talk to her a lot, continuously blabbing on about everything to her.

at first she'd never talk back, but you truly think she liked hearing him speak. nobody even took the time and effort into doing anything before, so you were certain she had to of liked it slightly.

however, during the first couples months she'd just stay in her dark corner which always seemed to be the safest place for her in the prison cell, and yes, it was a prison cell for her.

as time went on, the closer elias and she had got. though, it wasn't any of your business so you stayed out of it. you weren't one to ever want to make friends because you hadn't ever been given the chance to truly think about life outside of training. not once had you ever gotten a moment to just do whatever you wanted.

all of that changed about  though, the day your fathers plan blew up in his face — all of the threes parents plan had completely turned upside down on them. the virus they had produced in order to "heal" people faster hadn't come out as they expected and it spread to the public.

hell was that day for you since your father had been on edge he expected you to do everything with the squad nine. squad nine is a group of three: you, charlotte, and elias, who are the umbrellas last standing line of defense.

you and elias were suppose to keep everything in check, and charlotte would be forced to listen to your commands and eliminate all those who posed a threat to the name of the company.

as soon as the red lights had flickered throughout the dark hallways, you and elias were quick to rush to the direction of charlottes cell. however, when you got there she had already pushed open the metal bars enough for her to slip through.

she looked up at them, eyes dull as ever. "i'm leaving, you either come with or die here." she sternly speaks which was the first time you had ever heard her hoarse voice. it sounded like she hadn't ever spoken before, or at least not for awhile. without a single expression on her face, she turned around and began to run down the hallway.

elias was the first one to follow, perhaps he wanted to leave just as much as she did. he always kept everything that has happened to him a secret, but he always had confided in charlotte for some reason. either way, it didn't surprise you how quick he was to run away from this shit hole.

honestly, you were just as excited to depart from it as well. your father had never gave you any kind of love — hell, you didn't even understand the meaning behind the word "love" anymore. you never even used that word when talking amongst your father — never.

he never did anything to achieve your love, or admiration for being a great father because he wasn't. he was a sick, sick man who traumatized kids for fun as he acted like the sacrifice of three individuals would be worth the income he'd and the others would get for their medicine.

that alone always irked you, building up within you for years on end. the constant thought that he — and the entire board, would do that to their own blood disgusted you. the disgust grew into rage which eventually evolved into hatred. 

in response to those rapid distasteful thoughts about your father, you realized they were the only ones who would ever understand what you have gone through because they were apart of it.

they were ripped from their childhood just like you had been and they were the only ones who'd accept you because you only had each other while growing up.

a unfamiliar feeling rose within you as your lips curved into a smile — or at least what you call a smile since you haven't moved your lip muscles this way for a got minute before rushing after them as well.

all three of you, the ones who had been taken advantage of since day one, finally escaping this nightmare which only led to a newer nightmare.

[heartidylla]

so, the resident evil leon x reader found family trope fanfic is in the making! i’m going to address the characters by their name down below and put their theme song along with it so you guys can dip your toes in the water with them & their aesthetic!

lila woods (18)

nothing new — taylor swift ft. phoebe bridgers

kieth woods (18)

talk to me — cavetown

elias ledford (21)

everything i wanted — billie eilish

charlotte levine (20)

let the light in — lana del rey

charlie turner (10)

kids — current joys

adaliah kasey (20)

put me in a movie — lana del rey

elsa cristen (19)

honey — kehlani

wade collins (19)

3 nights — dominic fike

leon kennedy (21)

lovers rock — TV girl

the reader (21)

dear reader — taylor swift

[heartidylla]

desiring to make a leon kennedy (resident evil) x reader fanfic and adding my own characters (that still surrounds the apocalyptic plot of re2) and make it a found family group surviving the hells of raccoon city together, but idk if that would be appealing to anyone.

[heartidylla]

seeing someone be a fan of taylor swift and resident evil makes me so happy, love that for usssss

so true. we’re a rare brand, but i’m glad i’m not the only one.😼

[heartidylla]

if only i knew , part two // ???

leon kennedy × flreader ( my own au, real game plot will not mix)

summary: you and your partner run into a familiar face. you and leon begin to rekindle the spark you had that same day in the floral shop which hadn’t erased from either one of your minds. the fondness continues to grow as you both become much closer.

word count: 4.3k

pronouns: no usage of y/n [ you ]

warnings: none

speaking color coding

“” - leon

“” - you

“” - others

after that day, everything in your life went to shit at a rapid and unforgiving pace. though, you wouldn’t be the type of person who stuck around and watched the world burn or be a part of such distraughtness and panic. you had already been part of a tightly-knitted group. when the sick freaks started attacking the living and actually breathing people, you found yourself in the rare chance where fate actually had your back and you had been heavily supplied with weapons to protect yourself against the undead. you didn’t fully understand how everything went down, and why there were hordes of undead people who were killing others due to not being around when it had all escalated. to say you were freaked out would be an understatement. your first encounter with those horrid beasts had gone like this: you screamed bloody murder as only terror flushed through your veins.

you ran around the zombie for what seemed like an eternity of suffering, dodging the hostile beast hastily and efficiently as you hadn’t been bestowed the confidence of actually killing it just yet. your chest was rising and falling with a quicken pace which wasn’t normal and the longer you ran the more the burning sensation tortured you. the zombie you were put against were disfigured and grotesque looking. it’s skin had completely rotted, grayish toned as parts were only showing the muscles and tendons underneath. it had bloodshot eyes which stared at you with a sense of hunger. you didn’t want to kill the opponent due to them previously being a person. you had high morals, and you weren’t sure that you were ready to let this one go.

the exact moment you almost got bit by the untamed beast was a turning point in your views of taking upon this new adaptation necessary to continue living. you turned around and kicked the undead's kneecap, sending it falling to the floor. you had hastily matured to the stage where you stepped into your big girl shoes and took the zombie down by stomping on its head, crushing it as gushes of red seeped onto the ground. as the lifeless body laid on the floor, you were experiencing a massive surge of emotions. your eyes widened at your crimson red covered boot as you raised your hand into your eye’s view to see how horribly you were shaking. a part of you couldn’t even recognize who you were in that moment. you had gone from a simple florist who was living the calmest life to a “survivor” in the zombie apocalypse. part of you knew that this was the breakthrough that you had been prepping for since you were a kid and that you’d be perfectly fine, and the other side was scared shitless to watch those around you slowly decline in numbers.

everywhere you went, it was a sick reminder that the places you once spent so much time in had become bundles of rubble, destruction caused by the fearful, and post abandonment due to nobody wanting to stay and wait around for a customer who may or may not rip them into bits and pieces. the streets were littered with debris as those who were shitting their pants and bought the necessities within each store had dropped trash along their path. various buildings were in the deep stages of disrepair, some even had incurable holes within them from people losing control over their vehicles and crashing into them. the air that surrounds you was consistently thick with the smell of death and decay, and the seemingly nearby sounds of shuffling footsteps and moaning constantly kept you on your toes.

that was exactly the reason you heard screams coming from within the police station which you and your partner had been trying to get into. the moment those horrified and struggling sounds entered your ears, a sudden alarm went off inside your head that desired for you to start rushing towards the noises that had previously appeared. your body had been completely reacting on it’s own, because you knew better than to just tun absentmindedly towards danger without knowing exactly the situation. however, this felt completely different. it was like you were being pulled to assist with whatever may be going on, and there was nothing you could do to change that.

“where are you going?!” your partner’s annoyed shouting was directed towards you, but you didn’t pay them any spare part of your mind as it had oddly been solely focused on this one particular issue. the siren hadn’t gone off yet, and it only caused for your legs to run faster than they ever had before. your gun laid within your two palms as you scanned the area thoroughly as you traveled through it.

as the grunts got louder and more familiar, you were finally able to make out a person’s figure who was struggling to fend off one of the zombified canines that had roamed through the area. you pointed your pistol at the dog’s throat, and after precisely pulling the trigger with the utmost confidence you watched the canine fall to the ground which gave the man a much needed break. “hey—“ you spoke, and as the man’s head turned towards you, you were sent into complete shock as you recognized that face — that handsome face which had made it quite impossible for you to ever forget.

you pointed at him with your jaw dropped to the floor in disbelief, “leon?!” you shouted in shock, gun facing him as if he was going to pull something but you knew fully well he wouldn’t ever. you were just in a state of denial that he was truly in front of you and hadn’t thought about what exactly your body was doing.

he gestured his finger towards you with the same shocked expression as he also felt a sense of relief that you were still alive. he hadn’t seen you in awhile, and he’d never admit it due to his intense shyness but you were constantly a pressing thought within his mind.“you!?” his body began the motion of standing up in order to properly greet you, but you were already standing at his side. you offer your hand as an option to get up with a lovesick leer that sent a shock through his spine as his entire body began to burn at your admirational look directed solely on him. his parted lips curved into a small grin as he attached his hand to yours and let you assist him in lifting him up off the ground.

“long time no see, leon.” you stated, dusting your figure off as if he would judge you for looking dirty in this type of world. oddly enough, even with the hell that surrounded the two of you, the simple touch of helping him up still sent butterflies swarming within you, or maybe it was the soft, beaming expression which he had on his face as he took in your non-dead appearance. you gulped sharply, rubbing the back of your neck as an anxious tick of yours.

“too long.” he absentmindedly vocalized his inner feelings, which sent your gaze darting to his eyes to find any sign of unfaithfulness within them. even if you truly believe that this man couldn’t and wouldn’t ever lie, there is a defensive side of you which wants to protect your heart the best that it could. that dire fact alone caused such an interrogation on him to be withheld. he seemed to haven't caught what slipped from his lips moments ago as he tilted his head to the side slightly to the side in a confused manner at your silence, mirroring a curiously concerned puppy.

“oh — yes.” you awkwardly nodded your head in agreement to what he stated. even though you're certain he doesn’t know the intimate words which had slipped so easily from his lips. you wanted to keep the conversation going to not cause any unwanted awkward silence which had occurred previously between the two of you at your once maintained floral shop. you didn’t understand why being around him felt so … captivating, because if he wasn’t here you would’ve heard the clatter of heels nearing the two of you. the only reason why you were pulled out of you daze was because you were being nudged behind leon as he had taken a protective step in front of you with his gun raised into the abyss. he was protecting you, even though you two don’t really know each other. it made your heart feel cozy as your gaze softened at his back which had become tensed up at the unknown person who dared to interrupt your reunion.

“tell your guard dog to put down his weapons, ivy.” the womanly toned voice came into the lighting, revealing your partner in crime. she had used your code name which had been given to you shortly after joining. you had confided in your team that you had been a florist before, and they decided to call you ivy due to your invasive ways into people's hearts. they told you it was your secret weapon which could pack a deadly punch whenever you desired to use it.

you groaned in annoyance as leon turned his head around to look at you with a confused glance, which you quickly felt obligated to explain. “sorry about her leon, this is ada. a person who has zero sense of compassion.” you gestured your hand over to your friend who was leaning on one hip while resting her hand on the other. her sunglasses had covered up her entire face, but you could tell she had an unamused expression. her long detective coat had gone past her knees, but it still revealed the long lengthed heeled boots she was wearing. “ada, this is leon.” you introduced the man who was standing right beside you while putting a hand onto his upper arm. he glanced down at the exact spot where your touch connected with his body and let his guard down for a second, before returning his judgemental gaze back onto the mysterious woman in front of him. “ivy is my code name.” you were quick to clear up every misunderstanding which could possibly have collided between their meeting.

ada’s eyes lingered on leon’s facial expression as he had softened up after you had touched him. it intrigued her on the history which could ever possibly result in such a romantic exchange between two individuals. she knew for certain that you didn’t have any capability to withstand a relationship in your life at this point in time, and with whom you are obligated to work for now, ever. she pulled out a FBI card, which you silently snarled at. “i’m FBI, and she’s my bodyguard.” ada smirked while teasing you, hand hovering over her mouth as she let out a soft giggle at your furious face.

leon looked towards you once more, noticing your angered expression. “i’m not her bodyguard, but in a sense i do watch her back because we're supposed to be teammates.” she truthfully exposed their relationship with one another to leon, who she fully trusts without needing to know him for a duration of time. she knew how kind hearted he was, and that was worth more than finding gold these days. he put a supporting hand on her shoulder which had eased the tension within her face. that small detail didn’t go unnoticed by ada either as she unknowingly sent a glare your way. she didn’t understand how you could possibly ever let your guard down for a second while on a mission, especially knowing the consequences of such inconviences.

“FBI … so you know what’s going on here?” leon looked down to you as if you’re the only person in the room, or on a more fair note, the only person he cares about within it. you met his glance and pushed your lips together, eyebrows knitted as you decided which words to reply to him with.

as you opened your mouth to speak, ada cut you off. “that information is in fact classified.” ada’s stern voice spoke for you. now you were fully aware of the fact that she was keeping your words limited to leon as if you were leashed up by her and only able to speak your mind at times where it benefited her. your head turned towards her, once again your face fell. she stormed over to you and grabbed your arm. “we have places to be, and things to see.” she stated, pulling you away from leon’s presence which he didn’t seem to appreciate such an advancement towards you because he, too, grabbed your arm and tugged you backwards.

“she’s not going with you if she doesn’t want to.” leon tested her as his glare hardened onto her, looking past you and into her mist of her sunglasses. he was purposely posing as a challenge to her and this grand back and forth silent fight was all over the topic of whom you were to go with. he, obviously, didn’t want to leave your side since you two had magically rekindled once again and he certainly didn’t want you to go off with his person who would openly degrade you in front of others.

you stood in the middle between them as they continuously went back and forth, slightly tugging your arm in their direction with every exchange. ada’s gaze eventually landed on you, “order your dog to release you.” she demanded, tightening her grip around your arm. the message she was trying to send was as clear as day. leon’s eyebrows knitted together as the watched her hand begin to firmly wrap around your arm. he was more irritated with the fact that her hand were being so incredibly forceful with your delicate skin than him being associated as your guard dog.

“don’t minimize him to a guard dog, ada!” you resided yourself on leon’s side, taking a moment to stand up for him over the disrespectful title ada had bestowed upon him. you ripped your hand from out of her grip, massaging the place where her gloved handprint was tattooed onto your skin. “his name is leon, refer to him as such.” you spoke with great confidence, making sure to her that there is no denying such a simple request from you. she would give him respect, or you would come for her throat as you have … so healthily … done prior to this moment. you look over at leon, mumbling an apology for your partners actions which she so gracefully let you off the hook. his hand was still resting on you arm which you had become unaware of, almost as if him touching you felt natural in a sense.

“fine, leon, we have to go.” ada corrected herself which you were thankful for, but her point that you both had business to attend to still stood. a sudden disappointed feeling flushed through you since you didn’t want to leave leon’s side just yet; however, you knew for the sake of the mission at hand you had to depart at this moment in time. you caught his disapproving gaze, and he made it very obvious that he reciprocated your exact perspective on the idea of splitting up.

“yeah.” you slowly nodded your head in agreement. “we have some business to attend to.” you turned your body fully around to face him, looking into his worriedly eyes that made your heart set aflame within your chest. “leon, you have to get out of this station.” you advised him to depart from this intimidatingly rundown and dim area, knowing all about the horrid beasts that lay in the abyss awaiting to take a chunk out of him.

his oceanic eyes saddened as he looked down at you with a worryful glance, making his true emotions visible to everyone, “but … what about you?” he questioned, voice almost exiting as a whisper. his hands fled to the sides of your face, cupping them gently. the perturbation within him couldn’t be hidden whenever it came to you. he was always made out of glass, and he didn’t find himself ever wanting to keep anything from you either. it was surprising when he realized how close you had come to his heart, and exactly how much you took up from within it. ever since that first glance, he knew that you would torture him for the rest of his days: and you did exactly that. you had a firm grip on him. his entire mind consisted of thoughts of you; and now that you had appeared within his life once more, he wasn’t so willing to let you go and continue those rapid anxieties that begged to know your state.

“don’t worry about me, leon. i’ll be okay.” you softly reassure him of his fret, resting your hands on top of his own in order to return the concern. you let your eyes rest from staring at him for a moment while bathing in whatever warmth that his gloved palms gracefully offered you. he caught your lips curving into a smile, which caused a chain reaction to his own muscles.

“okay,” he finally acknowledged the reality that you both had to separate for the time being, and he knew that you’d come back to him in one piece. the moment you two separated, his hands didn’t leave your face. he never realized how natural it felt to touch you like this before, and even now when he’s simply looking down at you he can still feel the snug sensation piling up within his chest. “i’ll see you soon, yeah?” his voice slips from his lips in a much calmer tone as he had previously which brought you to peace knowing that he’s more at ease.

a dry “yeah.” flooded from your lips as you had suddenly felt a stinging sensation on the back of your neck, as if your own senses were tickling you to warn you about an upcoming event. your eyes drifted away from leon’s figure, and behind ada’s spiteful judgemental expression and into the abyss which exposed itself as a frightening threat to you. a glistening spark rose from the darkness, causing you two hastily twist your body around to face the source which had caused a disturbance in your physical state, gripping onto your gun as you directed it to ada’s head. both pairs of eyes widened in shock at your recent action, not understanding as to why you had a sudden murderous expression on your face. “get down!” you shouted an order to her, and she immediately obliged by ducking her head. the second you knew she was safe from harm's way, a loud burst was echoing throughout the parking garage.

there was a thump which had collided with the cold ground that dragged both of their attentions onto the victim: one of the undead. ada’s mouth had parted in disbelief since she should’ve heard the rotting son of a bitch coming up behind her; however, she was too busy judging you to take care of herself. she was lucky that you had some sort of sixth sense that had protected you and her multiple times. she was trying to control her heavy breaths, putting a hand over her heart to count her heartbeats. “thank you…” she thanked, looking at the grotesque undead body which now had a bullet lodged in its skull and then back to you. leon’s gaze shot back and forth between you and the body on the ground which you had taken out with ease. he’s never seen you in action before, and from that interaction alone he can tell that you’re very quick on your feet. if anything, it taught him to never get on your bad side.

“don’t thank me yet, there’s more!” you directed their attention to the dozen of undead who were closing in on them. leon and ada haven’t ever been so quick to pull out their guns and divert their attention onto a pressing matter before, but in this moment if they lacked in any sort of department it would cost them their life. you supported your aim by resting the pistol you were holding within your other palm, blasting the zombies heads which got increasingly closer to three of you.

“ada, to your left!” leon announced as he turned around to protect your blind spot. it seemed like they were circling the three of you which forced you all to constantly be twisting your heads around to not let a single detail go unmissed. she whipped her figure around, and took down the opponent with a single shot. even with the bickering which had occurred prior to this event, you all seemed to work as a perfect unit together: killing the undead for a second time, watching each other's backs to ensure the others safety, and most importantly the communication had flown out incredibly easily from everyone’s minds. as time went on, the number of walkers had decreased until there were no more but the hunched over and heavily breathing bodies of all three of you who just experienced the workout of their nightmares.

in between huffs, leon’s first instinct was to turn his head in order to take in your appearance. “are — are you okay?” he breathlessly questioned your state, straightening his posture and putting his hands on the sides of his hips to allow more oxygen to flow into his lungs. you nodded your head as your reply, not able to fully respond to him with words at this point in time. the moment he gained enough energy to make his way over to you, he did. he stood beside you and rested a hand on your shoulder, nudging your body to face him. “you're not hurt or anything, are you?”

you obliged to his request, allowing him to scan your body for any injuries; anything to ease his mind of the constant worry he held for you. though, as he ran the tip of his bare fingers down your arm to ensure there weren't any bite marks, you couldn’t help but feel the trail of the skin he delicately touched as if you were a rare porcelain doll collectible begin to smolder. heat prickled into your cheeks due to the pure intimacy within his actions. his eyes were scanning for anything — anything to be concerned about, even something as small as dirt would be considered a personally determined crime if it was laying on your skin. “i’m okay.” you reassured him, putting your hand along his forearm. you could feel the muscles beneath his layer of skin ease its tension which caused a relieving smile to form across your face. somehow, whenever you’re in his presence you always forget that the world is ending around you. it seems as if you’re back in your floral shop, meeting those glimmering icy eyes for the first time again and even if you’ve stared into them plenty of times before they always had the same everlasting effect on you.

the longer ada stared at the two of you, the more details she had come to notice. he seemed to always have a sense of needing to be touching you as if it was his battery source, and you’d always return that gesture. you both always found yourselves standing near one another, to the point where your skins were connecting and neither of you ever noticed that. the way you both looked deeply into one another like they were the only person left on this planet was outstandish to her. she had known everything about you for years now. the moment this random man she hasn’t ever come into contact with or have heard about, you’ve completely changed into someone she cannot recognize. you’ve always been titled a cold person, minus your demeanor within your previous floral shop which you resided in during the downtime of your actual job.

you had been chuckling at a comment which leon made about the irony of finding one another again when you felt someone’s stare onto you as you turned around mid-laugh, your eyes first landed on ada’s complexed expression which had been directed solely at you. then, when a shimmer from behind her appeared within your vision, your eyes quickly expanded. in this moment of realization, everything around you felt slow. you reacted timely by immediately pushing leon out of harms way. as his body connected with the floor, another bang went off within this parking garage. this time, instead of the zombies which still continued to lurk around the area for their next meal, it was you who was being served bullets.

everyone froze as they analyzed the astonished look which resided on your face, slowly everyone’s eyes drifted down to the worsening blood soaked cloth that had a hole through it where the bullet from the sniper rifle had eaten away at. you achingly lifted your hand to touch your wound, pulling it away to know just how much blood you were losing. your face shifted into a horrified one as the threatening amount of blood you were losing finally processed in your mind. your vision started to blur as if it was a flickering light begging to be turned off, in and out you could hear the terrified and panicked voices of your counterparts rushing to your side.

you’d never forget leon’s face when he took in your lifeless figure for the first time. his gaze held so much emotion within them: trauma, fury, realization, and worst of all endearment. it would forever haunt you; a sick reminder that you had done this to him. the way he was so quick to catch your falling figure due to the inability to keep yourself standing would take it’s piece out of your heart. the way he was crying your name and begging you to keep your eyes open for him would fiercely rip you apart like a eager dog with a new chew toy. the way that you couldn’t give him what he so desperately desired, and became a victim whom was slipping into the abyss of her aching need to close her eyes.

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if only i knew , part one / ???

leon kennedy x f!reader ( my own au , real game plot will not mix)

summary : you and leon meet in the floral shop which you had built from the ground up as one of your most iconic childhood dreams, within those few moments of preparing a bouquet you both begin to feel a connection like never before.

word count : 3.3k

pronouns : no usage of y/n [ you ]

warnings : childhood trauma , yelling , faint sense of abuse.

speaking color coding

“” — leon

“” — you

“” — others

a little girl who was running into the abyss of alleyways to escape the adults who only had the horrid intentions in mind wasn't common for any kids within this community. in the case of the state of their living area, it was obvious why everyone couldn't go a day without being on their toes. the entire neighborhood was run down. lawns were overgrown and covered in weeds — hell, in some places she couldn't even tell there was a sidewalk to walk upon. the houses were starting to emerge within nature themselves. concert porches were cracked, and the wooden ones were fading away. the workspace buildings that surrounded the run down homes weren't in better condition. the area contained few street lights which caused most of their surroundings to be pitch black. a perfect space for those who needed to hide within, and those who were hunting the prey. everyone has to be smart in this world. one wrong move and she’d get swept away, never to be seen again. as one of the oldest kids in this dump of an environment, all the youth looked up to her with the utmost respect and then for leadership in how to survive.

all of that extra training had come around to be useful as quick huff came out of the sprinting girl's mouth. she never tore her eyes from looking forward, following her first rule to survive in this suffocating and dangerous place: never look back. she kept her eyes on everything that could possibly slow her down and dodged those areas with efficiency; sharp turns were her forte after all these years of practice. when she heard the footsteps die down from behind her, she didn't stop even though her lungs were burning up from the lack of oxygen she was getting; however, she felt a sense of luck that she was in fact breathing. many people — many kids, don't make it out of those situations, and even she felt as if her luck was running out.

she managed to make it home safely, and walked up her run down, and massively broken porch to put her hand onto the doorknob which belonged to the house she was living within. although, she froze in her spot the moment she heard the clashing of tableware and yelling at the top of someone's lungs that came from the inside and escaped into the air from the opposite side of the door. the little girls head fell, as she let go of the doorknob and took a step backwards.

"why am i still here?" the nameless girl questioned herself, hands absentmindedly hanging formed into fists as all the angered voices from within her head had begun to take over her sense of better judgment. she turned around and looked at the darkly dimmed sky. her surroundings were close to blackness if it wasn't for the one streetlight in front of her house which shone a small portion of her overgrown lawn and rundown road. something — an instinct from within the girl's stomach begged her not to go, not to let this emptiness that her parents forced onto her to be the blockage of her own mind. the same brain that knew how to survive, and never failed her once. however, in the heat of the surge that years of untouched emotions brought up within her, she went back on her rules. she walked down from the porch, slightly tripping over one of the stairs within the process. she lowly cursed at the instability of the entire neighborhood that she knew like the back of her palm.

with her hands lodged within her slightly hole-covered sweatshirt, she walked down the sidewalk which led her away from her childhood house. one thing she did appreciate about this horrid area was the fact that due to how dim it was, she could see the stars clear as day. she would get absorbed within the sight of them at any given point in time. she's let her guard down for just a second to admire how beautifully they shined above her, giving her some hope that even though they weren't seen all the time, they still shined beautifully … and that's exactly the reason why she didn't see the fully blackened car following her trail, and why she didn't hear the door open, and why she didn't know that someone was standing right behind her until there was a hand covering her mouth and it was too late for her to run away.

a soft tune surrounded the entire floral shop that you had built from the ground up. as you put your phone on the hand free stand, your phone screen automatically turned on to reveal which track was playing: lover by taylor swift. you softly smiled as you grabbed a batch of bundled up flowers and put them in vases to showcase your advanced abilities to the multiple customers which would fill in the small gapped room.

it was springtime, and the demand for bouquets had sharply increased. it kept you busy since you worked alone. you didn't have the social battery to even ponder the idea of hiring anyone to assist you on day to day tasks that you have been effectively doing alone for years now. whenever you looked at the brightly painted hues that surrounded your shop, you couldn't help but admire all your hard work.

you didn't want to give anyone a piece of your success because you had done it all on your own, and nobody but you helped during all those years of struggling in order to achieve exactly what you had dreamt about since you were a kid. a simple childhood fantasy that you never thought would be brought to life. now that it was, you couldn't be happier. you were living the life of healing your inner child: your childhood dream had come true. the moment everything was prepared, right on the dot of 7:30am, you flipped over that 'closed' sign to an 'open' one, and continued with preparation tasks until customers began to flow into the building.

leon, age 21, an upcoming rookie to the raccoon city police department had an upcoming birthday to celebrate. He was typically a loner within the city, a man who had difficulty speaking to others without a sense of awkwardness, and had become quite close with an elder who lived nearby his living quarters. she had asked him for help numerous times, and he willingly agreed. soon enough, he was hanging around her place for more than what he could ever imagine. he'd just stay there and fix up the state of it, sit down and talk with her as he drank the homemade tea she placed in front of him, listen closely to all of the advice she could ever give someone about her own life experiences.

if you knew him you wouldn't be shocked to hear that he liked it. he liked being within the elder ladies' presence because he didn't feel so alone in that moment, and it was also the first time didn't present himself as awkward around someone. so, in thanks for all those moments which were shortly coming to a hold due to his recruitment process quickly progressing, he decided to get her a bouquet of flowers. he remembers how she stated that lily of the valley were one of her favorite that her husband would gift to her, and since that conversation they had tried to plant various types of flowers; however, the soil was too dry and it came out to be a bust for awhile until they were able to nurture it to health again. so, he's settling on a lily of the valley bouquet.

he had heard about a simple floral shop from the outskirts on the streets. it seemed to be quite popular amongst the community, always highly praised — especially the customer service. he didn't overhear a single bad comment, and it looked like everyone but him had bought from the store. as he stood in front of the store which had its own comforting atmosphere about it: a softness which could affect any state of heart. just by looking at the outside decorations which were different colored pots filled to the brim with beautifully placed flowers as if it was straight out of a magazine, he felt much more at ease to know his bouquet is in the best of hands.

when he opens the front door into the store, he is greeted once again with a brightness that seemed to be more of a secret rainbow oasis than a store. the inside was, too, decorated perfectly. the owner had already sold him the moment his eyes laid on the front door; and now, he was certain this would be his go-to spot for whenever he needed anything floral. though, the one thing that completely sold him into desiring to make an appearance more frequently than he expected him to was the gentle demeanor of the supposed owner who stood behind the front desk. you had been smiling at him as you observed him checking the area out. "welcome, please let me know if you have any questions." your tender toned voice flowed pleasantly off your tongue and into his ears, and somehow in that moment your voice had unknowingly became his favorite sound.

his mind went completely blank as his mouth had become agape at the sight of you who was wearing a knitted sweater that seemed to be thrifted, a black skirt that hugged your lower half's form alluringly so, and tights which shaped out the nature of your legs, finishing the look off with mary janes, and a ribbon which tied up into a loose ponytail in order to keep your hair away from the flowers as you worked which proved to be worthless due to the fact that shorter strands had slipped through and fell directly into your face. "okay." he replied dryly, sending you an awkward grin before he quickly turned around to internally curse at himself for his horrid social skills.

his hands fled into his blonde mess, shaking the ends of his hair as if he wanted to shake that entire exchange between you two from his mind. he used his hands as a cover to take another glimpse at the woman in charge of this store, giving you a side glance. he looked at you through a detective lens, closely analyzing your motions and body language. he tried desperately to find a flaw within your demeanor; however, he was met with only the gentle and addictive warmth that surrounded you.

you sent a patient smile his way while neatly bundling up another order that was made online. what caught his attention the most was your long lashes that had absentmindedly enticed your gaze, and those glistening lips that were covered in gloss. his tensed body eased as the weight off of his chest from his previous dispirited state had become history. it was that moment when he realized that the aura of the store wasn’t because of the flowers or the decorations … it was because of you. he took a quiet and deep breath as he mentally went through the script in his head a few times before walking up to the counter.

“what can i do for you today, sir?” you raised an eyebrow while delicately pushing the complex-looking bouquet to the side to give you some space to take on his in-store order.

he made sure that he cleared his voice before speaking to her. “i am looking to buy a bouquet which contains the flower called lily of the valley?” his voice slightly fell with each word that escaped his lips throughout the sentence, as if his confidence coming into the conversation had slowly faded away as well. he started to fidget with his hands which had started to become damper.

“oh, how lovely.” you commented, bobbing your head as you turned around from him and started to walk off. his eyes quickly followed your figure, especially the bouncing bow that was tied up by the laced ribbon which brought your entire appearance together. a simple gaze which mirrored a child's curiosity precisely. he’s never come into contact with someone with a bluntly affable nature such as yourself. “for a girlfriend?” your voice sounded far away and muffled but he could still clearly understand the words you were speaking due to your louder volume level.

“ah – no, no.. it’s a friend of mine's birthday.” he replied, denying the girlfriend's allegations suspiciously quick, but you didn't seem to pay any mind to such a defensive response. he was incredibly grateful for that alone, taking a breath of fresh air as he realized you weren’t going to investigate him further about it.

“how sweet of you.” you compliment his efforts, coming into view with the most pleasing flowers he has ever come into contact with. they were a pearly shade of white. It completely contrasted the darker shade of green which had been painted on the stem. maybe part of that decision was because the person who was holding them was giving him the most angelic gaze he has ever had the privilege to witness. he could’ve sworn that his cheeks started to feel a bit warmer as the sight of you had slowly become ingrained into his eyes. “these flowers have such a beautiful meaning and are typically used for romantic bouquets. that's why i asked that question.” you remarked, continuing to speak in order to close the silence which had fallen over the two of you as you placed down the flowers onto the side of your workspace.

leon’s curiosity peaked once again. he wasn’t knowledgeable in the department of flower meaning, actually he didn’t even know that they had denotations ... “what's the meaning behind them?” he interrogated you on your level of comprehension on the main subject of your business. he felt much more at ease than he did prior, letting his hands fall peacefully to his sides as he waited patiently for your response.

“they represent the promise of happiness.” you answered him in a quiet voice as you looked down to the flowers with a gaze that he shockingly couldn’t grasp the meaning in it. your eyes held such a bittersweet glimpse towards the fully blossoms as you attentively placed each one in a certain spot within the process of assembling the bouquet. “-- typically used for spring weddings.” you continued as your slender fingers continued to do their job in a perfect manner. he watched as the bouquet began to come to life. the purity behind innocent youthful love he had envisioned due to his elder lady friend and her late husband’s descriptive moments which held passion for one another being brought to the present. he was completely fascinated by the reasoning on how flowers could have such an effect on the heart as his own had emerged a sensation of burning.

“i like that: ‘a promise of happiness.’” he repeated, as his nude colored lips started to tug into a certain softness. he hadn’t always had the best track record in life whether it was something minor that went wrong which caused for the rest of his day to be burned to the ground, or a feeling which he pushed to the side for too long that came back to haunt him. he always found himself struggling in one way or another, and to think that there was a flower which definition was that happiness will come and find you, it was comforting.

“yeah, me too.” your reply coming out almost as a whisper, tying up the bouquet with a white ribbon which matched perfectly with the flowers. looking up to his face to get his reaction. you suddenly were hit with a sense of immense anxiousness that shot through your bones as he had been staring at you with those ocean blue eyes that captivated you just as much as the undulation of waves the second you met gazes with them. this was the first time that you actually took in his appearance, and you were incredibly thankful that you hadn’t looked up prior to this moment because you were able to keep your composure unlike now.

his level of beauty seemed to be incredibly unfair to your (and the rest of the female populations) heart. his hair was side-parted, overgrown ashy blonde hair which laid flawlessly on his face. he was wearing a loose leather jacket with a form fitting t-shirt underneath. your cheeks were flushed due to the man’s undermining beauty which caused your mouth to fall agape. your eyes quickly darted away from his, needing to calm yourself down to prevent any further unprofessional mannerisms. “here you – here you go.” you shamefully stuttered out as you blindly handed him the dolled up bouquet that you had finished, wanting for him to leave your proximity as fast as possible in order to ease the lump that had been tormentingly building up within your chest.

he nodded his head in understatement as he reached for the bouquet of flowers, his hand rested onto yours which immediately made your skin react to the sensation of his touch. the slightest bit of connection between your two bodies had sent an electric wave throughout the entirety of yours, which made you want to retract your hand even faster; yet, something inside you wouldn’t let you move. your eyes slowly met with his, and they seemed just as shocked as yours as if he was having the same side effects. your breath slightly hitched as the butterflies within your stomach were in an uproar. the longer you two stared at each other as if you had so much to ask one another – many topics that you wanted to speak to the other about were at the tip of your tongues; yet, inconveniently unable to be brought out from your minds.

it stayed like that for what seemed like hours, getting to know one another by just looking into the other's eyes; reading exactly what the other was feeling as if the inner emotions were on both of your sleeves. heartbeats synchronizing with the others, wanting nothing more than to explore what string between you two would cause such a rare habit to occur; however, life got in the way as another customer walked into the store – a usual.

“oh my, you always know how to decorate this place!” the newcomer stated as her hand went to her mouth in adoration at the appeal of the store. your hand immediately retracted itself from his, returning to your side as you moved your head to look past him and at charlotte, the interrupting usual.

“char, how nice to see you again.” you offered her a slight smile while waving your hand before you returned your gaze back onto leon. “thank you for coming here for your flowers, hopefully i’ll see you again …” you edged your sentence on to subtly ask for the most striking man’s name whom you will most definitely be dreaming about for the rest of your life.

“leon … leon kennedy.” he softly answered while twinkling. “and you are..?” you told him your name, which he reacted with a brighter smile (if that was even possible). “thank you for your assistance.” he added on, nudging the bouquet in his hands up to his face. in all honesty, if you didn't have any self control within the workspace you would have asked for his number right then and there.

“no problem!” you waved goodbye as you watched his fading figure leave your store. the moment that door closed, your face dropped into an apathetic one as you mentally bid the beauty goodbye forever before reluctantly continuing on with charlotte's order.

never would you have expected that you’d be seeing him again very, very soon.

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taylor swift — debut

tim mcgraw — agent whiskey

a past summer affair with your best friends ex, jack, hasn’t left your mind. your best friend treated him horribly, and you knew that fairly well. after bumping into him on your way to the bookstore, a new type of arrow struck you both in the heart.

picture to burn — javier peña

you and javier have always had a love-hate relationship. it’s always been a hassle to work around relationship wise because your prides are extreme, and you never want to apologize. it’s the reason as to when you have broken up, you both have a ended on the worst terms.

teardrops on my guitar — joel miller

everyone knows that you’re in love with joel except joel himself. so, even after all your signs of admiration for him, you’re left sitting on the sidelines and to watch your best friend fall in love with someone who is not you.

a place in this world — din djarin

caught up in a mixture of finding yourself and loneliness, you meet a certain mandalorian who offers you a spot in his world.

cold as you — joel miller

your dads best friend and you have had a secret relationships for quite some time now. it has slowly become harder to hide, and the guilt that has been building up in joel finally surfaces.

the outside — frankie morales

you’re santiago’s little sister who has been left out of everything between the group of guys. however, when you notice that frankie is depressed you try to push your way through his walls.

tied together with a smile — javi gutierrez

javi has been going through some self hatred lately due to his cousin’s comments. when he consoles in you, you make sure that he feels your admiration for him.

stay beautiful — javi gutierrez

you first meet javi at the beach, and ever since then you’ve been admiring him from the sidelines due to him being absolutely oblivious towards anything having to do with romance.

should’ve said no — javier peña

javier has always been known to be a casanova, and you blame yourself for ever expecting him to put away his informant antics and determine that your love is enough. sadly, he has yet to prove that to you. completely in character, he has screwed up again. this time you’re over his behavior.

mary’s song — javi gutierrez

you once believed love stories cannot be like the fairytales; however, once you experiences true love and made you’re own love story, you take back what you stated for years on end.

our song — frankie morales

during a small car ride with your boyfriend he plays a cd that brings up memories of your high school years.

i’m only me when i’m with you — din djarin

din is only ever able to let his guard down around you, and goes completely soft whenever you’re near.

invisible — joel miller

you watch joel falling in love with tess who seems to not be interested in him at all.

a perfectly good heart — joel miller

in a moment of overbearing stress, joel miller says somethings he wishes he could take back, but his pride is too massive for him to ever admit that.

taylor swift — fearless

fearless — oberyn martell

growing up with oberyn martell by your side (due to his father being your dads best friend) has come to be quite a thrill.

fifteen — javier peña

your highschool boyfriend, javier, turns out to be quite the opposite person as you expected him to be.

love story — din djarin

your knight, din, has secretly fallen in love with you; yet, you cannot indulge in those romantic feelings you hold for one another.

hey stephen — oberyn martell

your eyes laid on oberyn. his charming smile swept you away, and you couldn’t ever help yourself from catching feelings for him.

white horse — joel miller

joel miller, the asshole that he is, breaks your heart and tries to come back but it’s too late.

you belong with me — javi gutierrez

your best friend, javi, has laid his eyes on someone else and you can’t help but think he’d be happier with you.

breathe — joel miller

you and joel split up due to stress and not communicating properly. joel finds it extremely difficult to process.

tell me why — frankie morales

frankie has been picking fights at the smallest things with you due to his own complications and you are fed up dealing with it, even if you cherish him and his daughter dearly.

you’re not sorry — agent whiskey

from the moment you broke things off with jack he has been calling you, begging for a second chance and to explain himself; but, you’re done.

the way i loved you — javier peña

you and javier have always had some type of magical spark. one that spikes the evilness in the other as well as the beauty. however, you both split up because of a horrible fight and you try to move on but you can’t help but reminisce what you had.

forever & always — joel miller

as joel had gotten very drunk, he confessed his inner feelings for you. the next day, he feels insecure to those feelings which haven’t ever resulted in anything good and tries to run away from them.

the best day — din djarin

you had the best day with your adoptive dad and brother, grogu. :)

change — oberyn martell

oberyn learns to finally finalize the long-time battle with himself as he put in every ounce to revenge her against her murders; with you by his side, he was finally able to achieve that.

jump than fall — joel miller

you meet joel in a supermarket, and your progression up his pyramid slowly increases. you can tell he’s comfortable around you, but you can’t help but notice the smallest details of his mannerisms that only come out around you.

untouchable — din djarin

you and din are stargazing in silence from within the razor crest, but someone that moment of silence speaks more than what your words ever could.

come in with the rain — javier peña

you have known javier for years now — since you were kids to be in fact. you’ve spent just as much time trying to figure him out than admiring him from afar. when he comes back from columbia, you try and help ease his decreasing mental state; but, he doesn’t want to be helped.

superstar — din djarin

in two opposing tribes, the youth you and din started secretly meeting up. you take notice to a lot of things about him, especially how enthusiastic he is about honoring his tribe. sadly, your ears betray you and you start to notice the people that surround him as well: his fangirls.

the other side of the door — javier peña

during a heated fight, you walk away from javier which leads to him standing all alone. though, what you don’t say is that you want him to follow you. you want him to show if he truly needs you or if it’s all for show.

today was a fairytale — din djarin

a young princess and her future knight go out secretly on a date. let’s just say … it certainly was a fairytale.

you all over me — agent whiskey

jack goes through all the stages of missing you after he lost you due to his foolishness. he’s tortured by reminders of you everywhere he goes.

mr. perfectly fine — javier peña

javier has pushed you too far over the edge this time which results in a huge blowout. you not only can’t get over the way he treated you, but you wish to make his life miserable for such.

we were happy — javier peña

your high school lover has to depart for his dream job that he has been working for since he was young, and the first couple months consist of you reminiscing the way you two loved.

that’s when — agent whiskey

after jack had a moment of foolishness, you needed time to think it all over. as much as it upsets him, he knows it’s for the best.

don’t you — frankie morales

after being forced apart due to the requirements of his job. after months of being gone, he comes back and seeing him is inevitable.

bye bye baby — javier peña

after catching javier with another informant, you are finally over his antics which he seems to not be able to put in his past; unwillingly leaving him for good.

taylor swift — speak now

mine — frankie morales

during college, you meet frankie who has somehow wondered into your life. slowly, he breaks down your walls and pushes through them.

sparks fly — oberyn martell

as a maid, you notice a lot about oberyn over your many years serving him. unnoticed to you, he watches you from afar as well… until he finally gets the chance to talk to you up close.

back to december — javi gutierrez

due to your own personal insecurities that was brought to light because of your parents. you forget that not everyone is out to get you. that you aren’t alone at all. between that blurred line, you unintentionally hurt the one person who has ever cherished you and you terribly regret it.

speak now — javier peña

as your childhood crush, javier, is getting married you cannot help but think of everything that you two could possibly be. when it gets down to the final moments, your gazes connect .. and you get the sudden urge to commit to something you won’t ever be able to come back from.

dear john — joel miller

as freshly graduated college student, you take an instant interest within a guy you meet at the super market, joel, whose complicated mind comes into your life for the better and worst.

mean — pedro pascal

after acting out your first role alongside pedro pascal in a rom-com, the public takes you upon the lighting as a personal threat and attacks you. they throw their weapons in a form of utter violence and desperation for pedro to look their way or give them his attention. however, the complete opposite happens and he supports you through your first floor of hatred. the next thing you know, you’re making your musical debut to confront all of the haters.

the story of us — din djarin

you and the mandalorian had a spark once before; however, it ended on horrible terms. two years later, you awkwardly cross paths once again. will you two be able to rekindle the love that still lingers?

never grow up — joel miller

joel watches as you and ellie grow up with a sense of melancholy.

enchanted — din djarin

as a princess, you weren’t allowed to talk to outsiders. however, one night at a ball you take a walk in the garden and that’s the moment you meet a certain mandalorian.

better than revenge — agent whiskey

a woman from work seems to fully believe that just because she has jack’s attention for a moment that he’s automatically hers.

innocent — frankie morales

you help frankie through the worst time of his life.

haunted — frankie morales

frankie leaves abruptly for work after promising you he was retired for good. you cant help but feel betrayed, and the moment you see him again after years of regretting him .. you make it known you’re not on talking terms.

last kiss — frankie morales

when frankie parts with you due to his inability to take care of himself, you were left heartbroken. he seemed to believe that he was completely alone within this world, that not even within your arms he would ever have a true home besides the battlefield. at some point in time, after years of fighting his own thoughts, you let out a deep breath and gave up. yet, that doesn’t mean you don’t miss him.

long live — pedro pascal

as a worldwide loved singer, pedro pascal attended one of your concerts due to going through a rough spot with his career and mental health. he was within your sight the entire time. he danced, hyped you up, and sang the entire time. after the show, you go out of your way to personally express your gratitude for his support and offer for him to come along on your journey as one of your guitarist. you two hastily build up a bond based off of many nights staying up and creating music along with one another.

ours — frankie morales

frankie worries about the communities opinion on your relationship, and you have to reassure him that he’s the only one you want.

if this was a movie (fearless?) — joel miller

joel and you abruptly breakup due to a moment of anxiety, and yet he doesn’t try to get you back.

superman — din djarin

din saves you from a dangerous situation, and it slightly sparks a mutual connection between the both of you. over time, you gain feelings for him and yet have to admire him from afar.

taylor swift — red

state of grace — javi gutierrez

you accidentally bump into javi within a busy street which caused his shirt to become ruined. you’re kindness sticks like honey within his mind, and soon enough you find him once more.

red — joel miller

a flashback of your greatest loss of a lover who brought out more emotion in you than you could of ever imagined.

treacherous — din djarin

as much as din hates the idea of putting you into danger, he can’t help but indulge himself within your warmth.

i knew you were trouble — javier peña

during a celebration party within a bar, javier bursts through the door making your eyes lock onto his. he smirked at your curious gaze, and that was the moment you knew how much trouble he would become.

all too well — joel miller

you remember your bipolar relationship with joel all too well.

22 — javi gutierrez

a fun outing with you, nick cage, and javi … that might consist of some hard drug usage.

i almost do — frankie morales

as frankie is countries away from you, you wonder if he’s in agony from the lacking of you as much as you are for him.

we are never ever getting back together — javier peña

after a continuous on and off relationship with javier, you finally break things off for good and improve your life for the better.

stay stay stay — javi gutierrez

after a small dispute between you and your boyfriend, you go up to him and tell him how you really feel.

the last time — joel miller

after always missing the mark with joel. you’re tired of the constant worrying and fighting for him to be part of your life. however, shows an interest in trying to work out one last time.

holy ground — agent whiskey

after meeting in a cute coffee shop, jack starts to show up more in your life.

sad beautiful tragic — frankie morales

long distance is hard, it’s even harder when the other is playing a dangerous game.

the lucky one — pedro pascal

being new to the fashion and fame, you can’t help but take notice to pedro pascal’s behavior towards the public eye.

everything has changed — javi gutierrez

a fateful meeting erranged by your parents changed your life for the best.

starlight — din djarin

after secretly leaving a mandated ball, you and din run off and have your own together.

begin again — javi gutierrez

after a tough breakup, you meet the definition of sunshine who completely changes your opinion on love.

the moment i knew — joel miller

after your dads best friends and your situationship, joel miller, doesn’t show up to your birthday party, you knew that things were over.

come back … be here — frankie morales

after leaving in the middle of the night for a mission, you instantly end things between the two of you because you know him better than he knows himself.

girl at home — oberyn martell

you know that oberyn has a wife, but you can’t help but give into his charms.

ronan — oberyn martell

the aftermath of oberyn’s departure from your life has been incredibly difficult for you to handle.

better man — javier peña

you cant help but wish that javier peña would change and be the better man you know he could be.

nothing new — pedro pascal

meeting pedro on the mandalorian set had been extremely exciting as it had been your first real role and it blossoms a friendship. however, as the years passes and your relationship with pedro grows your fortune and fame slow down you start to wonder if he’d still enjoy your presence you if you’re no longer shiny and new.

babe — javier peña

after breaking every promise he once eased your concerns for, you will not listen to a single excuse that he tries to make.

message in a bottle — javi gutierrez

after mutual pinning between you and javi begin to spike, the only way that you’re able to communicate it to the other is through passing of notes and stolen glances.

i bet you think about me — oberyn martell

living on a small farm, you’re shocked by the number of times you’ve ran into oberyn martell. he puts in more effort to know you than you’d expect from someone of such high status, and yet he is still succumbed to marrying another maiden.

forever winter — frankie morales

after coming back from the most traumatic experience of his life, he starts to feel utterly alone in his own melancholy. you find yourself unable to help him see the other side of things.

run — pedro pascal

the fame for the both of you have grown to be quite the trouble, and at a very important event he proposes to run away from everything. the paparazzi, the tabloids, the media … everything.

the very first night — javi gutierrez

after you and javi split up due to the dangerous of his life and how they may affect you, you can’t help but wish to return to his side.

taylor swift — 1989

welcome to new york — javi gutierrez

javi shows you around his hometown.

blank space — javier peña

as a new dea agent in a male dominated field, you prove to everyone around that you’re a force to be reckoned with — especially javier.

style — javier peña

all throughout high school, you and javier have been titled the most attractive couple. when javier left to achieve his dreams of becoming a dea agent, you’re forced to move on. though, you can’t experience the love that you shared with javier with anyone else. one day, you find javier standing on your doorstep.

out of the woods — joel miller

you have joel have been going through a rough patch in your relationship. the question rises that if you’re able to survive it?

all you had to do was stay — frankie morales

you rose an ultimatum for frankie to decide whether he would rather go off and return to his job, or stay by your side.

shake it off — javi gutierrez

you teach javi a way to cope with his cousins crude comments.

i wish you would — joel miller

your fathers best friend has always had a tight hold on your heart. after a violent fight on the phone, the both of you split apart and overtime you soak in the bath of missing him.

bad blood — oberyn martell

being apart of the lannister bloodline, you knew that oberyn loathed you from the first time he laid eyes upon you. throughout the years of seeing one another, you always tend to throw daggers at the others mental state.

wildest dreams — din djarin

being a princess hasn’t always been easy for you, especially when you’re in love with the head knight within your kingdom. when you are forced into an arranged marriage and he’s going off to fight in a war .. things get tricky.

how you get the girl — javier peña

javier peña screws up with you big time and had six months of pure torture to fully digest the severity of what he had put you though. one day he arrives at your doorstep asking for a second chance.

this love — joel miller

pre!outbreak joel instantly felt a spark between you two from the first time he saw you within the windows of a coffee shop. after the outbreak, you two were separated. minds filled with fear as to what happened to the other. until one day where you reunite.

i know places — agent whiskey

a secret love affair causes to meet in secluded areas where you can prove your devotion for the other without the consequences.

clean — frankie morales

after coming back from the high of his traumatic experience, he fell into an addiction with cocaine that seemed to be his only support. that was until you came into the picture and cheered on the sidelines as he fixed himself for him … and well, you.

wonderland — agent whiskey

the moment you and jack met, you were unable to not rush into things due to the infatuation you held for one another. you got completely lost in his presence. as fights and flaws surface, you wonder if these feelings you hold for him will be able to overcome all the other obstacles.

you are in love — din djarin

you meet the mandalorian within a small towns bar and one thing leads to another and you find yourself on a journey with him and developing feelings faster than space travel itself.

new romantics — din djarin

a joyful moment in your adventures with din and grogu.

taylor swift — reputation

… ready for it? — joel miller

within a bar you eye down joel who was the talk of the town. similar to you, everyone spoke of his rugged nature and temper. somehow, from across the bar and never meeting him you seem to connect with him on a spiritual level by one shared glance.

end game — pedro pascal

being the most talked about musical artist due to your extremely popular produced music and your heavily talented group of friends started off being extremely exhilarating. though, overtime the your reputation began to deteriorate due to the tabloids that stuck their pitchforks at you. eventually, you drifted away from the public eye to take a much needed break and that’s time period that you met pedro pascal who was gaining his attention within the media.

i did something bad — javier peña

going off of protocol in order to catch a narco with javier leads you both into some deep shit, even if you succeeded.

don’t blame me — oberyn martell

after an attempted assassination on you, oberyn tears down the entirety of his kingdom in order to find the rat that tried to take you from him.

delicate — javi gutierrez

your reputation within the town is questionably low for never talking with another. that’s the sole reason why you were shocked that another person held no disregard for you, and wanted to get to know the real you.

look what you made me do — joel miller

the outbreak caused a moral crisis with you and joel, and sometimes you just had to adjust to the cruel nature of the world.

so it goes … — javier peña

a private work love affair sparks between you and javier who have to keep everything between you two on the down low.

gorgeous — agent whiskey

after getting a little too drunk you were finally able to talk to jack (you’re long term crush that you watched from afar due to being too nervous), and a tension rises.

getaway car — joel miller

pov: running away from your past life with the thrilling new addition to it.

king of my heart — oberyn martell

you’ve always been on your own, and you were perfectly fine with it. that was until you began to be annoyed by the prince of doran who seems to take quite the interest in you.

dancing with our hands tied — javi gutierrez

as a result of your romance being completely secret, you and javi go through multiple close calls to your love being revealed.

dress — javier peña

a work event is underway, and you feel someone’s eyes trail you the entire night.

this is why we can’t have nice things — pedro pascal

you have always been known to host parties for all of your friends almost weekly (depending on your work schedule), and yet all of them turn their backs on you the moment the tabloids blatantly lie. all but one person, pedro.

call it what you want — pedro pascal

when your reputation falters, you run away into a private haze with your lover.

new year’s day — pedro pascal

hosting a new year’s eve party has never felt so bittersweet before.

taylor swift — lover

i forgot that you existed — javier peña

feeling as if the entire office is watching your every move, javier peña comes into your life to try and ease it.

cruel summer — javier peña

one summer night you were invited to a anniversary party of one of your friends, and you begin to realize the suffocating feelings you experience around your childhood best friend, javier peña.

lover — pedro pascal

after mutual back and forth pining with the obstacle that is fear of rejection, you and pedro find comfort within each others presence. later on, you’re proud to call him yours.

the man — javier peña

being in a male dominated field you come across multiple misogynistic comments which get the point that they want you to quit clear. you bite back, and only one person stands by your side.

the archer — joel miller

you knew how guarded joel was when you first met him and noticed his attacking stances. when you try to get closer to him, his spikes come out to push you away.

i think he knows — frankie morales

meeting your brothers best friend didn’t cross your mind to be a big deal … that was until you actually met him.

miss americana & the heartbreak prince — oberyn martell

the public doesn’t seem to like your relationship with oberyn and began to throw their tantrums about such an arrangement. however, if it’s you and him against the world then so be it.

paper rings — javi gutierrez

what more can i say than you want to marry him with paper rings?

corneila street — frankie morales

the first meeting you and frankie had ended up in a taxi and casually talking and mindlessly exchanging numbers. you never would’ve expected him to become such a major part of who you are, and the thought of losing him makes you physically ill.

death by a thousand cuts — joel miller

you didn’t let anyone in on the details of your love with joel. yet, that all backfires on you when you two split apart and your left to talk to the traffic lights about your greatest loss.

london boy — agent whiskey

you knew you were infected when you first laid eyes upon the cowboy and hear that childish laughter of his.

false god — javier peña

unwillingly being apart of the cartel, your undying love with a dea agent was absolutely insane and suicide if you were found out. however, you cant stop yourself from diving into your desires for him.

you need to calm down — pedro pascal

the reaction of the entire the last of us cast to the public’s reaction to the LGBTQ+ themes within the show.

afterglow — javi gutierrez

insecurities cause you to become wary in your first stable relationship. you look for mistakes that aren’t truly there and hurt the one you love most.

me! — agent whiskey

nobody is like you, and nobody is like your cowboy side piece.

it’s nice to have a friend — din djarin

you finally let’s someone into your life, letting down your walls. as much as you two were guarded, it’s nice to have a ‘friend’.

daylight — pedro pascal

you meet pedro on the set of the unbearable weight of massive talent, and unknowingly to you he’s a huge fan of all your films. soon enough, he’s mended to your hip and you’re casted in multiple films together as well as groups of people you hang out with.

taylor swift — folklore

the one — frankie morales

your pen pal, frankie morales, has been writing to you about his time in service. you write back and show him your support from a distance. as time goes on, the writing back and forth isn’t enough for him so he asked to meet up which you obliged. a romance starts and then finalizes when frankie succumbs to his previous nature once more, leaving you astray with the memory of him and abandoned letters.

cardigan — joel miller

as much as you knew joel like the back of your hand, he has always been afraid of commitment which leads to you having a friends with benefits type of relationship. one day, something in him changes and you notice straight away: he’s softer around you. that .. that terrifies him and sends him running away, leaving you all alone in the terrifying world.

the last great american dynasty — pedro pascal

the public’s opinion has always meant the world to you. you thrived on those good comments, those words of approval whenever you showcased an outfit or movie. the eyes of others made you feel worth it. the moment all of that comes crashing down, everything you built being burnt by lies, you crash and burn just as fast. you leave — disappear almost, and only pedro cares enough to check in on you.

exile — javier peña

since you and javier broke up, you have made it a point to move on .. to be happy without him beside you. it was challenging, but not seeing him everyday kade it much easier to push aside memories and focusing on someone new. however, the moment you see him in the brightly lit club, you cant push back the memories anymore.

my tears ricochet — din djarin

being a refugee princess, din takes it upon himself (and by being persuaded with your fathers money.) to take you away and protect you. though, that becomes much more of a struggle than he believed it were to be.

mirrorball — oberyn martell

oberyn has slept with everyone under the moon … everyone but you. you don’t understand why due to the fact that you two have become extremely close over the past few months. he hasn’t ever offered to take you to his chambers, only ever dinners and to spend time with one another. all the signs point to you that he is into you, but yet he doesn’t make a move.

seven — javi gutierrez

your childhood best friend has always been an enthusiastic soul. he beams like the sunshine, and yet you feel as if you’re the cloudy skies that ruin everyone’s days. he wants to tell you how much he adores you, but the words seems to be caught on his tongue.

august — frankie morales

due to your and frankie’s undying despise for one another, benny had proposed a bet that you both couldn’t act like you tolerated each other for a month straight. if you were to win, he’d give you concert tickets to both of your favorite singers, and if he won he’d receive $200 each.

this is me trying — frankie morales

you and frankie go off on a road trip together and the time alone brings along new coming feelings for one another. the only downside is that frankie is a mess and doesn’t know who he is while you already got everything figured out.

illicit affairs — joel miller

after a simple blind date that was conjured up by your peers, you and joel both have different perspectives on your newly founded connection. joel believes that it’s just a fling due to his tendency to push people away while you think it’s fate and he’s the love of your life.

invisible string — oberyn martell

if oberyn were to become king, he’d need a shiny, good looking side piece. that role was forced over to you by the hands of your father. even if you didn’t like or even KNOW him, you had to obey your fathers conditions. you didn’t have to talk to him, like him, or suck up to him, it’s all just for show … right?

mad woman — agent whiskey

after unexpectedly bumping into jack at a mutual friends wedding, you two communicated back and forth the entire time due to not knowing anyone else. at the end, you exchange numbers. as you both climb up the pyramid of one another’s hearts, it’s a stab in the chest to find out he’s been off fooling around with another woman.

betty — javier peña

coming back home from the hostile environment which columbia had provided him, he’s anxious that he’ll be spotted by his high school lover. it’s not that you two ended on bad terms, it’s just that he had betrayed you and wasn’t able to forgive himself. so, from afar he supports and looks out for you, whether that is with a boxed up poncho on a rainy day or your favorite chocolate that mysterious ends up on your doorstep.

peace — joel miller

during the pre!outbreak, you and joel had dropped off your kids every day at the same daycare. you never took much notice of him, but he did. one day, you accidentally bump into him and your coffee splatters all over his shirt which completely ruins it. then, outbreak happens and you two run into each other when all is chaos. that day .. you’ll never forget it.

hoax — javier peña

going up against javier in court is rough, and you constantly have to sneak through the cracks to keep him on his toes. not only that is it rough because of that, but you’re also in a private fling with him. the moment you sense infidelity, you take this case to a personal level and go for his throat.

the lakes — pedro pascal

being at the peak of both of your careers it is extremely difficult to find a moment to yourself, even more so with other people without any cameras being targeted onto you at all times. your beloved costar, pedro pascal, is experiencing the same type of harassment from the media. whenever you two get a moment alone the cameras begin to flash, separating you both into your own worlds of fame.

taylor swift — evermore

willow — oberyn martell

as a prince, oberyn shouldn’t ever be seen with the less fortunate. he should surround himself with the most luscious living styles. however, he can’t help but fall into the arms of his gardener whenever he needs a break from his suffocating life.

champagne problems — javi gutierrez

you never believed that being in love was anything that you could achieve. not that it wasn’t real, but it just wasn’t for you. javi tries everything in his power to make you see that love is for anyone especially you.

gold rush — javier peña

living in an apartment in columbia, your life has always been extremely stressful. after researching ways to ease this built up tension within you, you decide to get a puppy. the untrained pet tears up your neighbors flowers, and that was the moment you met the breathtakingly handsome javier peña.

‘tis the damn season — javier peña

you’ve always had this attraction for javier, even with all of his blatant flaws you cannot help yourself by indulging in him whenever he magically appears within his hometown. without being in contact for so long, you know that his first stop is always you whenever he’s near.

tolerate it — joel miller

you have always been a hit on the softer side. you tend to give your everything into someone as you pour all of you out into small acts of gratitude. when you meet joel, you see right through his walls and you try everything in your power to make him feel your admiration which causes you to realize that you had underestimated his ability to guard himself and not show any emotion.

no body, no crime — agent whiskey

after being locked in a loveless marriage that’s filled with infidelity and neglect, jack and your best friend este takes it upon himself to free you from your hellhole. if he can’t have you, nobody can .. especially your ex husband.

happiness — frankie morales

due to your job as a secret nurse for the injured soldiers that make their way into your care, you inevitably meet frankie. he reluctantly spends quite a few weeks in your care, and during that time he tries to build up his courage to ask you out. when his time comes to an end .. will he be able to get the words off his tongue?

dorothea — javi gutierrez

you and javi have always been best friends, even when you two were crawling around on the ground absentmindedly there has always been a certain sense of mutual admiration. you were always there for him, visa versa. when you grow up, you become well known through your singing career and him his fathers buisness. however, the only difference is you move away from home due to your parents and he stays back.

coney island — frankie morales

frankie and you have always been complete opposites since the day you met him. your brothers, william and ben miller, have always been super protective of you and kept you away from the tragedies that occurred abroad while you stayed and finished your studies to become a therapist. while you’re open about your feelings, frankie isn’t. while your comfortable within your own skin, frankie isn’t. while you’re content within your direction of life, frankie absolutely isn’t. over time, you two develop some sort of connection between one another that cannot be denied and the opposing traits within your lives may or may not crumble you to the ground.

ivy — oberyn martell

being wedded to another man who treated you poorly has always been your worst regret; however, there’s nothing you can do about it due to the fact that it was arranged in order to keep peace throughout the kingdoms. your heart has always been oberyn’s to hold, and he’s well aware of that. to keep your family name in tact as well as taking charge of your own happiness, you and oberyn have a secret love affair that consists of alleyway talks, walks within the flower-filled valleys, and sending of letters.

cowboy like me — agent whiskey

after unknowingly dropping your wallet, jack picks it up and ensures that it returns back to your side. when you do get it back, you sense a particular type of connection that binds you two together as if you’re similar to him in a way. you’re guarded, always have been, always will be and perhaps so is he. will either of you ever be able to let down those walls that you hold dear?

long story short — din djarin

being one of the most reliable bounty hunters, he takes on one that is worth more than he’s ever been paid prior. however, this catch has taken the title of being one of his greatest catches and gives him quite the hard time. over time, his frustration slowly turns into admiration of her quick thinking skills.

closure — javier peña

as the ambassadors daughter, you hold a high regard around the office as you come just to help out the helpless workers around. you knew how hard they work and you admire that about them. javier, however, is the only one on your bad side due to his lacking of personal space towards women in the workplace. steve and you are close. in all honesty you’re best friends and you’ll sign him whatever paper work he may need since you have that authority within the work place. javier keeps his eyes on you, intrigued by you over all aura. even long after you leave to branch out elsewhere, he still sends you letters updating you on everything.

evermore — joel miller

after his first love, he never thought that he’d ever find another chance. the older he got, the more hope died out. when he first met you, you were a simple librarian who took on a motherly role to sarah who loved to listen while you read to her. she honestly just loved being in your warm presence that seemed to affect joel in some way as well. even though you may seem as if you have everything together, you’re just as much of a mess as joel is and you don’t exactly know how to express that to him.

right where you left me — javier peña

to catch a cartel member, you and your obnoxious partner, javier, have planned out to go undercover as a married couple to inch closer to the target. even if you loathe him, the closeness between you two during these times have began to soak into your heart which is dangerous since all this is and ever will be is acting.

it’s time to go — oberyn martell

after being forced to marry oberyn, you gave you all into making sure his life was perfect the moment he stepped foot into the castle. you prepared every meal with precise instructions after knowing his favorite meals, and set the table beautifully every time he sat down. though, even with all that you were doing for him he still found pleasure in other people. even after all you’ve done, he continued to treat you like a ghost and you finally have enough of it.

taylor swift — midnights

lavender haze — agent whiskey

the moment you met jack, it was magical. as if like sparks flew instantly which swarmed you two. however, being the head of secret agency’s daughter .. there was a lot which could split you two apart for good. you’re the first thing that made sense and brought out a passion in him since his first love — his high school sweetheart.

maroon — joel miller

being the pretty little thing next door to joel, it was only inevitable that you two had formed a bond within the grey area of romance and friendship. you two had increasingly contrast and difficult problems that only caused you two to split apart. two soulmates that met at the wrong period within their lives.

anti-hero — din djarin

having a difficult time processing the fact that someone like you — or anyone for that matter, could ever truly love him without seeing his face. so, he pushes you away. he wants you to leave, but couldn’t handle it if you left. he’s slowly learning how to love. more importantly, how to love himself.

snow on the beach — din djarin

taking on the position as nanny for grogu within their newly founded house as din goes off to collect bounties had struck up some mutual interest within both parties. you couldn’t help but wonder through stolen moments of this unknown and unstated tension between you if he truly wanted something more from you or just for you to watch the kid you truly enjoyed being with.

you’re on your own, kid — frankie morale

being the new girl in town has caused a lot of talk to spread around about you. you had moved here after your father had virtually kicked you out after years of putting up with his bullshit. you were on your own, and then all of a sudden you bumped into frankie who was equally as fucked up as you were. you both devoured within the broken pieces of the other, as if you found some comfort knowing that you’re not the only one who sees the world as a abyss of only suffering. sadly, you tend to break off the remaining healed bones that the other has.

midnight rain — javi gutierrez

arriving in javi’s hometown, you were a undercover agent to seek out his dirty secrets about his family. you never expected to fall so fast for him and his sunshine light; however, that’s exactly why you left him broken-hearted in the rain as he had been left watching your disappearing figure on one knee. he should’ve know that your worst fear of all really was commitment.

question …? — javier peña

being the ambassadors daughter, you were always considered a ‘good girl’. you were innocent, kept away from all the dangers of the world and flushed into the world of books and fantasy that gave you a taste of the type of affection which you craved for. your best friend since arriving at the headquarters, steve, had always been tied at your hips which resulted in your inescapable meeting with javier who would ruin your entire life for the better AND worse. your world completely flipped after looking into those dark eyes which were always filled with an indescribable emotion.

vigilante shit — oberyn martell

after the lannisters had killed off your brother, you and oberyn team up as an indescribably attractive and dangerous duo. the power which you both held together was a high you never wanted to come down from, and frankly, neither did he. he flushed himself within your demeanor, and never wanted to come out from those depths that only you could put him through. you both take the revenge which you desperately craved for, as well as a dip into each other.

bejeweled — din djarin

after a small fight with din over your contrast personalities, you decide that you needed a night out to get this built up tension off your shoulders. going to a club, all shimmery and glamoured up, may become your worst nightmare as you notice din had come to follow you. from the shadows, he closely analyzed you as you continued to party and dance like nothing he has ever seen before. in that moment, he realized how much he was lucky to have you alongside him. you both brought out things in each other which you couldn’t imagine without them.

labyrinth — joel miller

after his wife left him with sarah, he was terrified to raise a child all alone. the pain overtook him. he didn’t think he could ever do such a thing no matter how hard he tried — without his wife, no matter how difficult she was, he felt completely incompetent. the cries of a baby and anxious clattering on the porch brought you to look over the fence to take in your neighbor’s panicked state. without a second thought, you jumped into action and helped him. that was a moment he felt the first wave of affection directed towards only you.

karma — din djarin

being a heavily leveraged princess that had multiple admires and enemies, your father had bought a certain mandalorians protection to keep you safe. little did he know that you and that mandalorian named din, would ever develop a secret relationship. he was your bodyguard that would completely demolish anyone which stood in your path by the snap of your fingers.

sweet nothing — pedro pascal

being a middle class person who had a decent job, decent house, and decent clothes; you were walking back to your small apartment in the streets of new york. you didn’t notice someone walking past you and you accidentally slammed into them. you weren’t on social media due to your personal mental health and how much it affected you, so you didn’t know that you had bumped into pedro pascal. you quickly apologized, and left without another word which caught him off guard by not being recognized. you started seeing him everywhere, which slowly developed into something more. you wanted absolutely nothing from him, and it was so sweet.

mastermind — din djarin

the moment that you noticed din within a small farmers market down town, it was only because he had accidentally bumped into your hand when trying to grab a fruit for grogu. you softly smiled at him and apologized, taking in his shiny appearance. you couldn’t tell that his mouth was completely agape, and he had already been planning of a thousand different ways to make you love him and make it seem completely effortless.

the great war — javier peña

during the battle between the cartel, a secret relationship was the last thing you needed on your plate; yet, low and behold javier peña had forced himself into your guarded heart, and yours into his. you both held up walls so high which continuously blocked each other out more than shields did to protect the living from bullets. the war between the cartel, your lacking to commit to javier, and his informants, brought too much pain and suffering to the both of you. if he’d ever survived this horrid patch with you still standing beside him, he swore that he’d bend down on one knee and propose to you.

bigger than the whole sky — joel miller

being joel’s longterm friend, he was appalled to hear that you had been holding back announcing your engagement to him. he never liked your partner due to the fact that he never treated you exactly how you deserved. you and him held this certain attitude towards the other that you only could receive once in your entire life; yet, you both continuously made a point to stay within this grey area towards one another. you both feared rejection terribly, being — meaning too much to the other to ever risk losing that. so, joel sucks everything he feels for you up, and watches you as you walk down the aisle with a solem look of pure disappointment.

paris — pedro pascal

after getting increasingly tired of your ‘friends’ who consistently gossip about everyone under the sun, you decide to drift into one of the balconies in paris. your eyes soon met the darker ones held by pedro pascal on the other buildings balcony that faced yours. who knew that in later dates you would be running down the streets of paris alongside him getting drunk within the abyss that only consisted of him.

high infidelity — javier peña

“just one minute”, was the phrase that you and javier had engrained into your souls. that was until you found out that after all the time you spent together you were his mistress. you continue to love him from a distance, making choices for the benefit of him without his input.

glitch — frankie morales

after a one night stand, which was only suppose to be a ONE night stand, you keep on meeting frankie in the most awkward times. the more you spend with him, the more attractive he gets — the more you want to know him not only physically, but more deeply … mentally. you didn’t care about the level ugliness in him. you could only see the man who has been nothing but an agent to you.

would’ve, could’ve, should’ve — javier peña

being considered a ‘sweet, innocent, good girl’ amongst the entire town which resided in texas was the first thing javier heard about you. you were on top of church meetings, you baked cookies for kids every wednesday, you took it upon yourself to do community work which nobody else would do, but most importantly .. you helped out his father all the time. due to his old age, he couldn’t do a lot of housework and being his neighbor you were more than willing to assist him. javier was the complete opposite of you, and that only brought you to be more interested in him. however, all of that would fade when he brutally took every piece of your innocence and completely left you to return to the battle against the cartel.

dear reader — joel miller

being a student of professor joel miller, you took extra sessions that he offered in order to get a better knowledge about his lessons. in all honesty, you began to go to him for life advice and he would assist you. though, the more time you spent together … the more time you started to analyze him. you managed to squeeze your way through into his aching heart and see the real side of him. the one that goes to an emptily home and drink his way to sleep, the one that you would make everything better by just being by his side for support.

hits different — pedro pascal

after a critical breakup between you and pedro, you were left broken hearted. it took a bigger tole on you than you thought it was going to. you got more drunk at the private bars than you ever thought you’d do. the public opinion was just as heartbroken as you since they cherished you two together more than anyone else. you were voted as most loved public couple and now that just seemed to be its own joke every time you looked at the award within your apartment. you soak yourself within the feeling of disappointment. then, you heard a familiar key turning down in the hallway and you immediately perk up at the thought of the ‘what if?’ question.

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started : 03/25/23

last uploaded : 05/01/23

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▹ i forgot you existed , javier peña x f!reader — feeling as if the entire office is watching your every move, javier peña comes into your life to try and ease it. | ♡ , 1.4k |

▹ high infidelity , javier peña x f!reader — javier peña informs you a little too late about his future wedding, which forces you to walk away from the love of your life. years later he continues to flirt up a storm with you, and one day you have to walk out of his life for his best interest. | ♡ , 3.2k |

▹ how you get the girl , javier peña x f!reader — javier peña screws up with you big time and had six months of pure torture to fully digest the severity of what he had put you though. one day he arrives at your doorstep asking for a second chance. | ♡ , 2.3k |

▹ cruel summer , javier peña x f!reader — one summer night you were invited to a anniversary party of one of your friends, and you begin to realize the suffocating feelings you experience around your childhood best friend, javier peña. | ♡ , 3.3k |

▹ don’t think, just feel , javier peña x f!reader — you have a rocky relationship with your dad and even more so men. your childhood person, javier peña, wants nothing more than to show you your true worth. | ✿ , 9.1k |

stories

▹ secretly his

↳ chapter one , javier x f!reader — first appearance of you and javier peña. being a famous music artist that is on tour, you find yourself attending an awards show which leads you into meeting the man himself, javier peña. | ✿ , 6.7k |

↳ chapter two , javier x f!reader — your ex comes unexpectedly to your house and causes a scene in which javier is there to assist you at the right moment where you desperately need assistance. | ♡ , 2.7k |

⟡din djarin ;

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▹ you are in love , din djarin x f!reader — you meet the mandalorian within a small towns bar and one thing leads to another and you find yourself on a journey with him and developing feelings faster than space travel itself. | ♡ , 3.5k |

▹ the story of us , din djarin x f!reader — you and the mandalorian had a spark once before; however, it ended on horrible terms. two years later, you awkwardly cross paths once again. will you two be able to rekindle the love that still lingers? | ♡ , 2.4k |

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▹ the bitterness behind goodbyes , din djarin x platonic!teen!reader | 1/3 | — you and your little brother, grogu, come into contact with a mandalorian. soon after he earned your trust, you allow yourself to let him into your heart. though, as you continue on your path you eventually find what you’ve been looking for, a jedi. | ☆ , 3.9k |

↳ part two , din djarin x platonic!teen!reader | 2/3 | — memories that were spent between you, grogu, and mando have been taunting you within your sleep. | ☆ , 3.0k |

❀javi gutierrez ;

oneshots

▹ state of grace , javi gutierrez x f!reader — you accidentally bump into javi within a busy street which caused his shirt to become ruined. you’re kindness sticks like honey within his mind, and soon enough you find him once more. | ♡ , 2.8k |

✃joel miller ;

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▹ evermore , joel miller x f!reader — after his first love, he never thought that he'd ever find another chance. the older he got, the more hope died out. when he first met you, you were a simple librarian who took on a motherly role to sarah who loved to listen while you read to her. she honestly just loved being in your warm presence that seemed to affect joel in some way as well. even though you may seem as if you have everything together, you're just as much of a mess as joel is and you don't exactly know how to express that to him. | , | [ coming soon ]

✑oberyn martell ;

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▹ the idylla princess , oberyn martell x innocent!f!reader — meeting in a rose bush garden, oberyn preys on you from afar before slowly inching closer to your alluring self. | ✿ , 7.8k |

⌖frankie morales ;

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☻ pedro pascal ;

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[heartidylla]

don’t think, just feel

javier peña x f!reader

summary : you have a rocky relationship with your dad and even more so men. your childhood person, javier peña, wants nothing more than to show you your true worth.

quote : “oh cariño, i’ve always been yours, with or without the title.”

warnings : smut! , daddy issues , difficult topics , mention of physical and mental abuse

speaking color coding

“” — javier

“” — you

“” — others

"you’re such a smart mouth!" the seventeen year old's father yelled at you with such distaste in his tone that it took the trembling little girl back into a time where you were just beginning your lifelong journey of trying to heal from your father's parental mistakes that left severe wounds which you tried to treat with a medicine that wouldn't ever achieve the goal of full recovery.

you took a deep breath, an ache forming in your chest that made you feel like you were drowning in your own melancholy due to your fathers words which stabbed deep into your heart without any remorse. you turned your back to him and walked into your room, enclosing yourself within it as your back touches the door and it slowly rubs against it as you slide down to collapse onto the floor with the palm of your hands on your face. there was some money which were scrambled on the ground, left untouched by your father .. shockingly.

you needed to get away. the burden within your chest only growing more heavy the longer you stayed under his roof. after giving yourself the quickest second to come up with your decision, you lifted yourself off the ground and took out the box full of money which you rightfully earned from underneath your bed. you stashed the cash in a backpack that was beside it along with the essentials.

javier peña, your childhood ... person, was seventeen. he has been in your life since your birth and the passing of your mother. he and his father have been your only supporters since. he gave everything of himself that he could hand you, and you knew that.

you were both raised by the same person, chucho, his father. his mother died when he was younger, and it was a loss which both of you had to grieve together with. she was just as much of a mother to him as she was to you. whenever she looked at you, you could see something within those eyes which made you feel safe. you didn't know it then, but it was the same maternal love you craved for from your dad.

he never was a good parent to you. he wasn't emotionally there. he never tried to connect with you on that level, and spat out cruel words without ever apologizing for the affects that they had on you. you didn't understand why though. he never talked about him or his childhood, so you were sure he must've been affected by the same treatment somewhere. as much as you loathed him, a part of you would always crave for that kind of father-daughter relationship that you always observed in movies. the same movies which constantly brought you to tears due to the cruel reminder of how much your father hates you in order to treat you so horribly.

lost in thought, the ringing of your phone pulls you out of your dazed state. you push the phone up against your ear, and await the other person on the end of it to speak. "hi, this is your landlord speaking." the women's voice was so highly pitched that it sounded like she was faking it to sound sweeter. you had rented out a small apartment across town which you would fall back upon whenever you and your father had disputes with one another such as tonight.

you hummed in response, awaiting her next words. "i'm sorry to inform you, but since you aren't in the apartment consistently you are being kicked out." she informed you, her nice tone was such a contrast difference from the news she was bestowing upon you.

in the moment, your mouth was agape as the words she spoke soaked into your mind. "but... i was on time with all of my payments?" your voice came out weaker than you'd like to admit. you were responsible for what bills you had to pay. you had a decent job and we're still in college, so you didn't have much to worry about in that department. only studies and a few bills every here and there.

"i'm sorry to inform you on such short notice." she didn't even try to explain the reason. she seemed as if she just wanted you gone, even if you hadn't done anything but breathe around her.

in a fit of anger, you click the end button and throw your phone on the bed. you watch as it hits the mattress and slightly bounces upwards, and then falling back down once more. you sunk back down on the floor, sulking in the amount of disappointment and frustration you rightfully felt. then, almost on cue, your eyes lay on a photo of you and javier who were smiling brightly with one another.

you were on his shoulders within the pool lifting your hands up in the air getting ready for a rematch of a classic game of chicken. a confident aura spread around you both which could be seen even through the polaroid.

he had always wanted to be with you, and only you. however, he knew everything that weren't horribly at home. he knew how much it affected you. how you craved softness but attracted rough edges which would always scrape you in the most painful parts of your self.

he and you had multiple fights because of that alone. you would be sitting down at their homes table and you're head would be locked onto the sight of the ground as he stuttered out thousands of questions that were lodged within his head about the reasons on why you are the way that you are. why do you fall for rough edges? why do you push away kindness? why are you .. you?

you'd just stay silent, unable to answer any of his questions. you didn't understand how someone could want to figure out who you were, and why that is. hell, you didn't even want to. you were terrified on the single idea that you'd come across fatal information that would describe you perfectly but then destroy every ounce of you. you were protecting your heart in the only way you knew how to. you were projecting yourself out to others as you had been taught — as you desperately needed to be seen as. you never saw anything they did as such horrible things to associate them as bad people; to you, they were only people who did bad things. people that were able to change if they tried to, and you just wanted to be worth enough for them to try.

at some point, he left you in the kitchen alone and as he stormed out of it his father grabbed onto him and pulled him in an empty room. "what do you think you're doing?" he sternly asked his son as he pushed him down onto the guest rooms bed.

javier grumbled our curses underneath his breath. he was fuming, but he wasn't certain on if that was a valid reaction or not. "what do you mean?" he questioned his father while crossing his arms.

"you're unrightfully yelling at that poor girl." chucho says, pointing towards the door which would lead to you.

"she's unbelievable! you should know who she dates — how she is treated by those people!" he tries to explain his reaction in order to justify such an outburst on his end. he wouldn't ever forget the time where you had come over to his house and he'd see bruises on your soft skin that were caused by someone else's hands. he was certain he was going to jail for first degree murder that night if you hadn't restrained him and begged him not to.

"son, that is none of your business." he told him in a calmer tone. he's always been calmer than those two kids, obviously because he had been on this planet longer than they have. he understood more about them than they knew about themselves.

"it's not fair..." he weakly voices out. he didn't understand how someone so kind .. so beautifully written could ever be attracted to someone who sucked all that sweetness out of them. who forced them to become a dull person who was codependent on their selfishness solely. whenever you were in a relationship, to him it was like seeing a ghost of who you used to be. you weren't ever smiling as you should be — as you used to do whenever you were with him. hell, you didn't even hangout with him because your partners were so insecure that they'd cut off all your connections. he looked up to his father with watery eyes, one's that haven't been this close to crying in a long time. "why .. why does she always choose the wrong people to date?" he asks the void that fills the room.

chucho sighed before he walked over to the bed which javier sat on and placed himself next to his son. they both were looking at the ground at this point, and churro honestly needed some time to think of an answer. "we .. we accept the love we believe we deserve." he tells him, patting his back in a supporting way. "you know better than anyone else what environment she is raised within." he reminded him of her past, present, and future. her father, and what exactly he does to her mental state. how he images how she should be treated and why she deserved to suffer so terribly.

he looked over to his father with a helpless gaze. one hand fiddling with the other. "do you think i can make her know she deserves better?”

"you can try."

and he did. he tried with every ounce of his body to make you see you deserved something extraordinarily beautiful.

you both have pinned one another since you first saw each other as kids, and recently it had finally developed into something even more special that you hold closely to your heart after so long of waiting.

you'd sleep over at his house constantly, and he'd always get a warmth within his chest when he woke up beside you as you were laying in his t-shirt that looked like a wet dream of his that only ever consisted of you and your socks at the end of his bed.

just the sight alone would make all the blood from his flushed cheeks run southwards, and that'd happen every time he woke up like this. it was like you were an addiction that he would never seek treatment within. he'd always need you in his life, and wouldn't in his lifetime ever try to force you out of it.

when life got hard on both ends and you succumbed to the idea of being separated for some time, but still held immense feelings for one another.

it just .. wasn't the right time for you both to thrive in that environment together. one of the other would be drowning in the others abyss, and it was just too much of a difficult task for either of you to handle.

on your eighteen birthday, you both impulsively decided to get tattoos of one another's names. somehow in your own little way, it was to prove to the other that you would always follow up on all the promises that you made to each other. ones that would make or break the other; impact them for a lifetime.

as you both sat in those seats beside one another, you both held tightly onto the others hands; staring at the another as you were getting marked by the other for eternity. there was something shyly intimate about it. obviously apart from him forever claiming him as yours and visa versa. as you stared into his coffee-tinted eyes, all you could see was yourself within him. it made you feel like you're everything he could see, that nobody else in this world mattered to him but you.

for someone who always felt like they were invisible within their own home, you were absolutely faded into all of him for even giving you the impression of such a bizarre thought being a reality for you. his lips curved into a small smile as his thumb brushed against your soft skin, leaving a trail of flames that splattered across every corner of his touch.

after that day, he was calling you much more than he had prior to the tattoo appointment.

you beamed when you picked up the phone and saw his name plastered on your screen. you clicked the answer button, and pressed it against your ear before whispering out a shaky and uncertain, "hello?"

"hi.." his low and husky voice greeted you back, and it seemed almost as if he was anxious as well. he was always much better at keeping his composure around you, even if he was just as awkward.

"is there something you need?" you question him as you walked around in an oval, something you tend to do when you're nervous. you trapped your bottom lip between your teeth and bit down on it an anticipation of his response until you felt a metal taste feeding into your tastebuds.

"yeah .. do you think you could come over?" he quietly asked you in a hushed voice, as if his hands were occupying another need of his. you could almost hear his rapid heartbeat and shaky breaths from the phone line.

"give me five." you instantly reply, ending the phone call and getting ready as soon as you possibly could.

the moment you showed up at his house, you instantly crawled through his window. the route you'd typically go through whenever he needed you, and there wasn't any time for you to go through the front. the window was open, and you could see the framing of his back from beside it.

you leaned against the window frame from outside with your arms placed on the bottom of it and head rested on top of them, "hey." you greeted, smilingly up at him with those round eyes that always made him feel like he was the only man on earth you'd ever look at with such affection.

it always sent butterflies swarming within him, but he'd never admit how much he was swooning over just a simple gaze. "hey." he greeted back, walking over and helping you through. his hands snake around your waist to ensure your safety more than what was truly necessary. however, you didn't complain. you loved the idea that he overthought the bare minimum for you, and only you.

"so, what did you need?" you breathlessly questioned while raising a curious eyebrow, turning your head to catch a glimpse of his face which was placed within your messy hair. he was engulfing your scent as if it was his air, like he needed it to enter his lungs in order to breathe.

he was getting completely drunk on you, just by that alone. his hands still snaked around your waist as if you were going to disappear from his grasp at any minute. you'd hate to admit it, but the blood rushed into your cheeks by the sight of him basking in you faster than lighting.

it takes him a moment, and the second he pulled you closer into him you could already come up with what he wanted as you felt his arousal press up against your backside. a shiver flowed through your entire body, wetting the past dry state of your panties. "you." he replied through quick breaths due to his burning desire for you. his thick fingertips drag across your stomach line, digging into your skin which forced you to gasp in pleasure.

ever since he saw you at that tattoo office, his signature getting permanently pierced into your skin. it sent aflame every fiber that he's been trying to pull back from; the parts of him that desired — needed you to function. he couldn't wait for either of you to be in the perfect state of mind and position to get you back. he simply wouldn't wait any longer, and by you dropping everything to arrive at his house, he was pretty certain you held the same thoughts.

you slowly turn your entire body towards him, never leaving his grasp .. just shifting within it. the moment your eyes met his, you couldn't help but drown yourself within those beautiful chocolate eyes that held the same warmth within for you in them as you first witnessed years and years ago. your hands wrap around his neck, and he pushes you closer to him to the point where your bodies are mended together. every body part is reflecting off of the others touch, all but your faces.

you both just stared at one another, basking in the others gaze like it would be the last time you'd ever be like this which was completely untrue. for the past few years, there has always been this unspoken lust that you shared together and now it was just dying to be addressed.

you watch as his tongue wets his lips, his looks alone are completely devouring you. you couldn't help but letting out a breathless giggle before moving your face closer to his. it was excruciatingly slow, as you attended it to be. it got to the point where he was way too starved to wait any longer and leaned forward as well. there must've been a solid second of your breaths mixing before he crashed his lips onto yours in the most ravenous way you thought was possible.

you let out a noise of only pleasure which vibrated against his lips as you molded yourself into him. you matched whatever energy he was putting out for you to devour yourself. you were devoting every bit of yourself into his needs, whatever he wanted from you .. you were more than willing to give up the relief and pleasure he believed only you could assist him with. it was obvious over the phone that his hand wasn't cut out for such drastic cravings, and that alone made a different and newly emotion begin to light itself within your body.

you began to backtrack to his bed, knowing the layout of his room way better than you knew your own. the moment your hamstrings hit the bedding, you slowly drift down onto it, him following you all the way down.

as he ghosted your body, one of his hands laid beside your head that rested on his covers as the other freely roamed your curves. the soft sounds of rapture between you filled the room, and you made sure that they stayed only in this faithful room.

he pulled away for a second to catch his breath. due to the close proximity between you both, his lungs were beginning to fill up with your shared breaths which shockingly turned him on even more. the fact that you, as violent as a waterfall, flooded into his heart that now seems to only beat for you and just like the stream at the end of a waterfall, you're spreading into his other organs, completely taking his entire self over.

he looked down at you, lips seemingly swollen due to solely his attention on them. the lustful expression and half-lidded eyes as your chest rose and fell at an immaculate rate, each breath becoming more intense and filled with a whiny sense of wanting more for him — for him! every thought that consistent in that pretty little mind of yours were filled with only the best benefits for him instead of yourself, like you're only goal was to pleasure him, but waiting for his signal to continue. your cheeks were flushed with red, which he could even make out from the dimness that surrounded his room.

he gently leaned down and placed his forehead onto yours, closing his eyes for a moment to recollect himself from wanting to absorb every bit of you — especially the parts which were killing him with temptation by calling out to him. he chuckled softly, not believing that he truly had you in his bed right now and as he looked down at you, a smirk on his face as his thumb was softly caressed your cheek.

you hummed in delight of his gentle touch. it was nothing like you've ever experienced before. nobody has ever been this soft, or had their simple touch sent flames bursting at the surface. it was electric, something that had formed due to time of truly getting to know the other on an emotional level and the countless amount of effort you both put into the other.

"mi amor, we don't have to do this." javier's defined accent stated in a low voice level as his controlled breaths shape out your face. he was putting his needs aside in order to make sure you're comfortable with everything happening right now. he's realized that neither of you are in a defined relationship, and he's terrified that after this you'll leave. as if you'll run like you always do whenever you get close to a man who shows interest in you, whether that's good or bad attention that you're receiving, like all your previous situationships.

you've done it before to him, and he's well aware that you didn't want to. it's just .. how you coped in the location you were succumbed to being held captive in. you never knew if it was possible for someone to like you — even more so love you, so whenever someone showed that kind of interest it always scared you off. you didn't want to get hurt because you were so easily engulfed within praise and gratitude for your presence beside them, and that alone was completely unrealistic in your mind. how could any man want you if your own father seemingly hated you with his entire being?

you didn't know.

you ran a marathon to avoid any injury to your heart, ones that were so blind sighted to real admiration for you. ones that gave into the wrong kind of affection, and then pushed out the right. javier, he was the right kind. the right person for you. he knew you like the back of his hand. he knew every bit of everything you went through. his mind wrapped around your past as if it was an exceptional oath that defined who you two were and how you grew together.

ivy that grows between you two and forces you together, and you willingly let it. heart rate at it's very peak every second that the two of you mold into each other, bodies colliding together perfectly as if the two of you were destiny in every universe. the ivy that now surrounds you, forever mending your fate together like a golden invisible string connected to the other on your pinkies that shined through every life, every difficult moment, every death, everything .. it survived.

you cup his cheeks, giving him the most lighthearted gaze he's ever seen you have. it was almost unreal, like you couldn't possibly ever hold such softness directed at him — not with how you were raised. he automatically felt himself mush into your skin, letting himself go and resting in your hands. he soaked up every bit of how your hands held him like he was oasis water, precious to the world and you had gotten your hands on something extraordinary. "i want to." you whisper out to him, reassuring him that every bit of you wanted him. three words — three words which echoed in his ears for a short while.

he nodded his head, finally accepting the dream he has spent countless nights pondering about as his reality. he bent down once again, and captured his swelled lips onto yours. this time it was much more softer than previously, carefully crafted by his lips in order to show you that he wanted this as well. he wanted you to feel cherished without being completely horrified by the darkness that comes along with it — or more so, the mark whenever this great love affair passes. the anxiety that you will receive another gash upon your heart, one that you don't believe you would ever recover from. this — this would leave you broken and blue for the rest of your days. every breath you would take with be an exhale filled with complete agony by the loss of him.

his hand slips underneath your back, lifting you up closer to his chest. the way his hand grasped your side was a tender and yet had a sense of greediness that sent another wave of need through your body, beaching itself in your still clothed shorts. the scent of him washing way everyone — everything else. all you that could feel, smell, see, hear and taste was him.

how his lips tasted of freshly brewed coffee as if it was all he ever drank. how his freshly damp hair felt running through your fingers due to the amount of heat you two had been producing just by mouths alone had caused him to sweat — or from how much he was restraining himself from just taking you how you are right now. how he looked at you as if all he could ever want was in this bed alone. the bed you two shared on countless occasions, but never like this before. how his sounds of euphoria from just these subtle moments of foreplay sounded like symphonies ringing beautifully in your ears. how you could smell the woody yet somehow still beachy cologne that he had put on prior to your arrival wash off of him and be replaced by the scent of you.

"javi .." you breathlessly spoke his name in a matter of desperation. this foreplay was more than enough to send you spiraling over the thought of where this may end — what path the two of you would walk down together.

he nodded his head, talking deep breaths as he had slightly parted from you for only a second to vocalize his understanding. "i know." he replied, wetting his lips once more before placing another quick kiss onto your lips. he lifted himself off of you to reach a standing up position, putting all of his weight down onto his knees which laid beside your hips and began to take off his shirt. his eyes never left yours, especially when you eagerly pulled off the t-shirt you were wearing that was his which you previously took back to your house after you spent the night here.

you finally revealed the white laced bra that had been tormenting him thousands of times before. the white fabric that had covered your body from him whenever he was watching you from afar, and talking to you about an urgent matter that needed your assistance down home — the home that you, chucho, and him shared together. you both were comfortable with one another to the point where he was allowed to walk in on you while changing, as if you two were long already a married couple even though you both were still in your youth.

his breath hitched at the sight. "you've been torturing me with this one for so long." he hummed in delight, a smirk that pulled his outer part of his mouth up. it still looked as pearly white as he reminisced it was whenever he was in his bed alone, and his hands took on a different role than just twirling his fingers trying not to lunge towards you and take you how you were then.

you slightly chuckle at his remark towards you. "not my fault you walked in on me more times than i can count." you reply, biting back your smug grin. this time it was his turn to laugh. you lifted yourself up onto your elbows to get a better look at him. "i was starting to think you were doing it on purpose."

he shook his head at you. it was nice to feel lighthearted and intertwined with someone that you're in a vulnerable position for. it didn't seem uncomfortable or only needing to get off and then leave — it just felt ... natural, like you're giving a piece of yourselves to the other where you know it belongs. "maybe i was." he purrs while leaning forward and smiling into your skin as he leaves a trail of soft kisses along from your jawline to your sternum.

"you dirty boy." you teased him as you close your eyes and leaned your head backwards, allowing him more access to the area receiving his admiration.

he hummed in delight at your words. the way they left your lips as if it was some precious gesture bestowed onto him by the devils themselves. the ones that knew how to edge him on the most. "your dirty boy." he stated before he gently bit down on a patch of skin that barely was enough to keep in between his teeth. your yelped as your hands immediately fell onto the back of his head in shock, pulling him close. he wasn't short of the sucking onto the skin or how quick you had succumbed to his wishes by pushing his head deeper into you.

as a inexperienced teenager, his body had already been pulsing at the seams. the bulge in his pants became an apparent issue in his mind. it was throbbing and needing attention, but he didn't want to rush into it no matter how much he was in agonizing pain. he had waited for this moment — dreamt of it countless times and woke up to his bed being completely soaked. he just wanted it to be perfect, to be something that both of them could look back on with satisfaction and just pleasure.

whenever he had those filthy imaginations, he had only ever pictured you within them. every pornographic scene he watched on the television, he imagined you and him together. whenever you split after. a heated moment, he'd visioned you at home, laying your back against the wall with your hands in between your thighs. your pretty mind all filled with thoughts of him, wishing he was there to give you the relief you deserved. he'd spend nights, hard as a fucking rock just thinking about you.

you had consisted every single thought, not only the filthy ones but his day to day ones as well. in the grocery stores, when he was running errands, he found himself purchasing candies, candled scents, and stuffed animals that you'd like in order to gift them to you without even realizing. 

"i like that." your tone had an undertone of giddiness as you twisted a single curl from his chocolate tinted hair in between your finger.

he raised an amused eyebrow, "oh yeah?" he questioned, kissing the line in between your rips all the way down to the waistband your short shorts. "which part?" he shifts a finger to wrap around the cloth. your heated skin spreading to warm his colder temperature one.

"the part where you're mine." you answered slyly, massaging his scalp with your slender fingers.

"oh cariño," javier's face fell. he was frowning as he guided himself back towards your face, peppering it with ticklish kisses which force you to gently giggle and try to push him away. "i've always been yours, with or without the title." he informs you, intentionally reassuring you that he's never desired to be with anyone else but you even if you both went through your rough patches, even if he had sucked out companionship elsewhere when you just couldn't give him it yourself.

"i know, amor." you reply, breathing out a long sigh, cursing yourself for ruining the mood. it was a moment of vulnerability. one that javier doesn't find you having ever, even for as long as he has know you you've barely ever opened up. it took him intruding in your house to find out that your father throws profanities towards you as if it was candy and he was a piñata. "now i know this may be hard for you, but stop talking and just kiss me." immediately after you finished that sentence you started to laugh because of his unamused expression towards your own joke, which you thought was hilarious.

"oh now you're gonna get it." he warned you, chuckling slightly as he leaned down and continued where he left off with the swollen condition of your redden lips.

he wasn't lying either, after he assaulted your lips once more he began to nip every bit of your chest and you had to be silent because of the sleeping state of the mighty beast named churro down the hall. due to the suction, he was leaving small breaks of blood vessels all over you and whenever you tried to push him away, to beg for mercy, he kept on pushing your buttons. he knew exactly when to quit teasing you, and exactly how far to push.

"okay, dick." you cursed at him, already tired of his antics. you both always had a childish requirement to mess with one another, and it always ended up with you both being tired of the other. you started your counterattack, from countless times you and him wrestled you knew exactly how to twist and turn him to succumb to your wishes. so, you grabbed onto his sides and pushed him down onto the bed while twirling to straddle on his hips. now, he was wide eyed and underneath you. smirking, you down at him proudly as if you were on a pedestal looking down at second place. you both couldn't help but feel each others need as they were touching the others, but you both were too caught up in challenging the other.  "oh how the tables have changed, mi amor." the undertone of your voice was full of mischief. the change of the previous ‘love’ to ‘my love’ was a significant one — at least to javier it was.

"princesa, you really wanna go down that path at a time like this?" javier motioned with his hand to yours and his shirtless beings. you both got sidetracked with your dynamic. the lighthearted constant distractions made you both so much more connected to the other, even at a time like this where javier was as hard as boulder and you as wet as the caribbean sea.

you pondered the thought, looking at him deeply with judgmental narrowed eyes that made him feel tiny underneath your gaze, "tomorrow?" your voice echoed through the room as you raised an eyebrow, suggesting the possibility of a rematch tomorrow.

"tomorrow." he smirked while confirming with a nodding of his head. suddenly, with his hands on your waist he twisted you both to your original positions. "i win." he remarked smugly before placing a kiss onto your forehead.

"you're going to eat those words tomororw, pendejo." you stated to him, meaning every word as you cupped his cheeks within your palms.

"yeah?" he gently chuckled, moving his hand on top of top of yours and pulling it away from the side of his face to place his lips in the center of your palm, "well," he paused for a second to edge on his next sentence, pondering the impact of his words. "tonight i'm going to be eating you." he lowly spoke, placing one kiss on your palm before trailing more of his admiration down your forearm.

"oh really now?" you face lifted in an amused manner, watching him closely. javier has always had strong confidence in himself, and not once did it ever intimidate you. you stood highly, sometimes thought the world of yourself just as much as he did. it's another reason why there has been disputes between you two, neither of ever apologized. you hated the thought of it, being anything like what you grew up in, but you were just following what your father taught you. however, even with all the fights and flaws you two shared with one another you were always able to move past them and become stronger together.

"really." his lips pulled into a smile as he left your line of sight and tailed downwards. you could feel his finger pulling down your shorts revealing the matching laced set panties, as if you had put on a show just for him. he placed a kiss on the fabric, thanking god that he had sent such a beautiful gift for him that's now laying in his bed.

"you're telling me the first thing we're going to do together is you eating me out?" you laughed, pushing yourself up into your elbows. you'd never admit it, but he did look perfect in between your subconsciously spread out legs. he looked at you with those dark doe eyes of his.

"why .. do you not want to?" he questioned, his head departing from your thighs to look into your eyes.

"you wouldn't even know what to do!" you, now amused by his level of confidence, knock him down a peg to remind him that this was his first time ever doing something like that — like this.

his dark brown eyebrows furrowed, ".. are you challenging me?" his self esteem feeling threatened by her sense of 'experience'.

"what you've seen on porn doesn't count." you reply with a rolling of your eyes.

he stays silent for a moment, thinking of his next comeback. then, it hits him in the face. "practice makes perfect?" his voice was small, like it was the last card he had stacked. he grinned as that alone sent you in a fit of laughter.

"you're an idiot." you tell him, love filling up within your eyes as your hands rested on his broad shoulders. "we have plenty of time, let's just .. start easy."

"easy.." he repeats, almost to remind himself that he has plenty more time to experiment with you and as for his first time .. he'd be more than willing to just start with the basics. to learn how your bodies work together, how they gain the others pleasure, how to get the other to sing symphonies together, and how it feels to look from the high mountains of euphoria together before taking on even more difficult tasks. "okay." he agreed with your proposal, pulling himself back up to your face.

"there we go.." you beamed at him obeying your commands for once in his life. one of your arms snake around his neck as you pulled him closer into your warmth while the other pushed down his shorts that he always found himself sleeping in. his eyes landed on your collarbone which had his full name imprinted on it, and he couldn't help himself but to kiss at it. it was an area which he shockingly hadn't touched at all. at his sudden affection, your hand that laid over his shoulder shifted into his jungle of hair. your fingers roaming freely as you leaned your head backwards to release a noise of delight. "javi.." you breathlessly called out to him, mouth agape as you took quick breaths in and out.

his eyes widened at your reaction as he realized what you had done before he lunged towards you and began to put all of his attention to that very spot. to clarify, the agreement of tattoos on your eighteen birthday was the other chose the spot, just the name had to be the others. it was simple. he had your name plastered on the back of his neck. it seemed like the correct spot for it because in school you sit behind him in all of your classes. he wanted you to see that he was yours at all times, to remind you that his heart belong to you alone. you chose a spot right above your collarbone. at the time, he didn't understand why you'd get it somewhere that was so visible to everyone. he thought that perhaps it was a kink of yours, to be claimed by someone. however, now he realized what it was.

it was your sweet spot.

the place that a touch alone could make you fill the room with your raptures. it was extremely sensitive — most definitely fucking hurt to even get his name tattooed on there since there was barely any skin and it was all bone. the dirty play that you made sent his immense arousal for you already bursting through the roof. "dirty move, baby." javier stated, kissing his way back to your lips by going up your throat only to be met with your shit-eating grin.

you take a deep breath out, trying to recollect yourself after his assault onto your sweet spot. your breath hitched as you spoke, "'if you're not playing dirty, you're not trying.'" you sassily repeat a saying which javier has told you thousands of times before, and now it was coming and bitting him in the ass.

he rolls his eyes, "you're going to regret that." he warned you, before kissing the tip of your chin. he'll make sure to get you back for that tomorrow at your rematch, but right now .. he has more pressing matters to attend to such as the drenched cloth that's basically connected to you, and the bulge that's shaped out in his briefs. "cariño, you're so wet.." he noted, pulling his body upwards in order to get away from you to address what is causing all of your discomfort. since he's never experienced such a sight as you squirming underneath his gaze to make eye contact with him, he was frozen.

not that he didn't want to ease your ills, but with the anxiety that he won't be able to. "javier," you began to sit up fully, meeting his gaze with the lightest bit of tilting your head backwards in order to do so. "i want you." you tell him as you wrap your hands around his sculpted shoulders and pulled him into a tight hug. "i want you, javier peña." you repeated your past words to get the message across indefinitely. you could feel his heart rate increase as his chest was pulsing against your own.

javier leaned down and stuffed his face in between your shoulder, neck, and head. you could feel him slightly nodding his head at your words, finally letting them sink into his mind and accepting that you wanted this — wanted him, that all the wetness in your panties was because of the effects he has onto you.

your breathe bitches as he pulled down the only cloth that was left to cover yourself from him, and the moment that he revealed it to only him you shivered due to the coldness of the airwaves in his room colliding with the damper you. his lips left soft reassuring pecks onto your shoulder as he pulled down his briefs. you bit down on your lip harshly due to the tension which earned a splatter of blood slipping into your mouth, a metal taste taking over javier's.

he whispered nothing but sweet nothings to you. 'you're going to be okay.', 'i got you.', 'don't be scared.' are just examples of what he was saying. he wouldn't confess it, but he was just as nervous as you were.

you wouldn't admit it, but this was your first time as well — the first time you were doing it with someone you truly loved, that is. you loved javier more than life itself. he made every single pain blossom into something lovely, every scar healed into a fetching pattern. he was so good for you; yet, you couldn't help but think that you were contaminating him. that's why you pushed him away for so long — you didn't want to break him beyond repair with your own hands. your father broke you, other partners broke you, so .. what could you do?

however, all those virulent thoughts slipped away as javier entered your hotness at an excruciatingly slow pace. your breath hitched as you lowly cursed out to javier for the no warning sign. you hadn't expected him to engulf the entirety your walls had to offer. with widened eyes he stopped the second you began to show signs of discomfort and his heart dropped at the thought of hurting you so badly that tears were brimming to the side of your eyes.

you pressed your body up against his once again, shoving your face into his shoulder as you held on tightly to his neck. "what are you doing javier — just go!" you whispered, yet somehow managed to shout at him. you wanted him to move faster — needing him to relieve the pressure that had been building up during this entire conversation within you. you had already adjusted to him the second he had passed through your soaked walls, and now he was just still which only had burned your body more with a newly sense of desire.

at your pleads, he began his movement in and out of you. he was holding onto your waist tightly, looking down as he had to be aware of exactly where he was thrusting in. his calloused fingers digging into your skin as the tightness of your walls suctioning down onto him was absolutely killing him — fuck, it almost sent him over the edge alone. "i need you to calm down. you're too much .." he breathlessly begged her, moving his hand to her bare upper back in order to rub the skin to calm her down. he could feel her ease up in the slightest bit. "take deep breaths." he gently orders, placing soft pecks against her head which was resting on his shoulder. she was breathing heavily — he could feel the rising and falling on his own chest.

she nods her head at his orders. she succumbed to his orders and did has he pleased: taking a deep breathe in, holding it for a second, and letting it go to disappear within the open room. when he felt her ease against him, he let out sigh of relief before leaning them back against the bed. your hands fall from his neck and roam his chest in order to rememorizes yourself with the shaping of his body that you hadn't forgotten completely since the last time you saw it. "i'm okay." you reassured him as his chocolate eyes met yours. "you can move again."

the second you gave him permission he was back at it. he hadn't said anything about himself, but he was aching. it has been an hour since you arrived at his house and he had been solid ever since that phone call he made to you. he was desperate for release.

his hand drifted up towards your laced bra which he had been eyeing down for a long time. it seemed that he was hesitant the moment his fingers touched the lacing, his thoughts were contaminated with what you would think about it? if this was okay? if after this, would you two be okay? but just like before, all those thoughts go away the second one of your hands intervened in order to guide him towards it. it sent a mental message to him: 'don't think, just feel.'

his hand rested onto one of your breast, and you intertwined hands squeeze it together. a quiet moan escaped your lips as he continued his movements as well as play with your laced chest.

his heart skipped a beat at your noise and how you reacted to his touch. your back subconsciously arched in order to get into a closer proximity to him. your breaths were mixing together as he had finally reached the same destination that he and you both had been looking for. "yes javi — right there!" you stutter as you managed to get out the sentence you wanted in between short breaths.

even though he knew it too and you didn't have to vocalize it, he still loved the way you said it with such pride directed towards him as if he had done something outstanding. he loved the way his name came off from your lips, like it was a historically notable word that mean the most glamour thing. it was the first time he truly felt like a man. suddenly, bringing out of cloud nine due to your soft words alone, you clamped down onto him harshly. his eyes shot open as he groaned loudly in shock and curses constantly spilling out of his mouth naturally.

when he felt your ending splatter on top of him in the most heavenly way he lowly moaned as his climax reached the end sooner than he had expected to as well. the moment he had finished, his mouth was agape as he realized what exactly he had done. he slowly looked up to you with his horrified expression to be met with your angered one.

"i'm so sorry — i didn't know .. and you were so ..." he began to blabbering words that continuously became more smushed together in a state of panic. his cheeks were as red from embarrassment from losing his control so quickly.

however, the second you began to laugh his eyebrows furrowed. "i'm on the pill, you goof." you reminded him of a previous conversation that you two held where you informed him that you were on the pill after he caught you taking it. he finally released a sigh of relief as he was thanking god — shockingly due to the sin he had just committed, that all was well between you two. "that's what you get for not paying attention to me." you say, watching him as he pulled out of you and got off the bed to get a towel.

"pay attention to you?" he raised an eyebrow, questioning what you meant about that.

"you weren't answering me. thinking about another girl we're you?" you smirked, even though you wanted to truly break down at the idea of him even pondering another girl in this bed instead of you.

"never." he replied instantly. he knew exactly what games you play, and how you played them. the moment he returned to your side, he bent down to you. "you're the only girl i ever think about." he reassured her with a peck on the nose before he cleaned you and him up, leaving you speechless.

as you momentarily were lost in your thoughts due to his words, he threw a shirt of his which covered your face completely and blinded your gaze onto him. "hey!" you lowly shouted in protest as you took it off your face and analyzed it. it was one that he hadn't given you before — it was one of his favorites actually. "this is your favorite?" you reminded him, showing off the shirt as if he hadn't worn it a hundred times before.

"yeah? what about it?" he asked you as his back faced you while pulling up his briefs. 

you stared at him for judgmental second before pulling the fabric over your head and ushering it down to cover you up. "oh, and you're going to need these." he turned around and threw you a pair of his boxers.

"what?" your eyes expanded as his boxers were laying in front of you. he wanted you to wear his underwear? now, you could take his boxers off everyday any day he wanted, but to wear his boxers was a completely different story.

"i mean, unless you want to wear soaked panties and shorts?" he questioned you, picking up both fabrics and lifting them to show their unwearable state.

you exhaled a defeating breath, "touché." you succumbed to the idea and pulled his boxers over your thighs before laying back on the bed and rethinking life itself. how would you two be after today — after this? would it still be the same .. or would it be more? fuck, what if it'd be less?

the moment his arms snaked around you and pulled you into him, all of the pressing thoughts went away as they usually did whenever he was close to you. it was like he was your safe space. a place to go when things become too much — home. you forgot how much you loved to be in javier's presence. how much you loved how his arms were shaped perfectly to hold your figure. one of your hands intertwined your fingers with one of his, and the other shifted to laying underneath the pillow you were resting your head on. "do you want me to go home?" you quietly whisper into the dark void that you found yourself in. javier had shut the lights off the second he was clothed, and in an instant after his task was done he was already returning to your side.

javier didn't understand how you thought you were so little in his life as if you didn't mean anything to him but a quick fuck and a friend to call upon whenever he wanted. it was absolutely jarring to him to witness such untruthful thoughts. "absolutely not." he whispered into your ear. "i need you here with me, always." he confesses to you, kissing the back of your head. it almost seemed like he had claimed every bit of your body today with his mouth his lips brushed against your skin.

his words alone made you softly smile, yet he couldn't see that reaction from you. all he could think about your reaction was the comforting silence he was blessed with. you didn't move, you didn't gripe, you stayed. you stayed for him and that's all that mattered.

tomorrow morning, you two would talk about where to take the next steps — what ground you two would cover as a team or solo. he hoped with every bone in his body that he wouldn't travel across another inch of this planet without you by his side. with you to come back to whenever he felt weak and needed someone to lay his head upon and just .. let out everything he had built up inside him. tomorrow morning would make or break him for the rest of his days, and yet he fell asleep faster than lighting. he subconsciously pulled you even closer into him, your legs twisting together in a naturally beautiful pattern. your bodies connected in more ways than just sexual. they were puzzle pieces meant to be together, and they were.

however, sometimes fate has a cruel sense of humor and loves to tear the fates ones apart.

[heartidylla]

speak now — the story of us

din djarin x f!reader

summary : you and the mandalorian had a spark once before; however, it ended on horrible terms. two years later, you awkwardly cross paths once again. will you two be able to rekindle the love that still lingers?

warnings : cussing

everyone thank character.ai for playing din in this (i edited a bit of it.) next time i’m just going to write my own way, but this was interesting to try out and play around with!

speaking color coding

“” - din

“” - you

“” - others

"we're done, so just go! i don't need you anymore!" din's sharp words cut right through your heart as tears immediately swelled into your eyes, blinding your eyesight.

"well, fuck you too din." your voice practically breaking due to amount your chest had swelled up with an aching sickness. you could've sworn you felt a tear fall from your cheek as you ran off the landed ship, leaving the mandalorian and the kid that you bonded with all alone.

two years later.

the mandalorian can be a bit intimidating in appearance and is clearly armed, but this is still a public place and he's keeping his weapons holstered at the moment.

"another round for me and this little one," he says in a gruff voice. the tone of which makes the bartender jump into action, grabbing his bottle and starting to fill two glasses of alcohol in a hurry.

the mandalorian looks over at the "stranger", taking a sip of his beverage and staring him in the eye, trying to get a read on the person. the same stranger who has seen the best and the worst of him. now, you feel as if your galaxies away from him even if they're within the same enclosed space.

catching his gaze, you immediately was send back in time to the days where you used to think that one upcoming day you’d tell the stories of their love: how they met, and the sparks between them flew overhead instantly.

how people would turn there heads as they walked by with their hands interlocked with one another and say that they're the lucky ones.

how you always knew where your place was because he'd always keep a spot for you next to him. he always wanted you around, visa versa. they are completely head over heels in love with one another. the kind that completely rewires your brain and makes you see all sorts of new different shades of vibrant colors that were associated with only him.

now, your looking around the room for an empty seat trying to not look in his direction, to not even acknowledge his presence.

the mandalorian, having seen the expression on the visitor's face, lets a small smile form on his lips and bravely continues to stare at the visitor. he raises his glass as if in salutation, slowly nodding his head before letting his gaze drop to the floor, as if suddenly shy which caused for his smile to start slipping away.

he didn't know how to act around you after their big blowout. he wanted nothing more than them both to be friendly with one another. hell, even that wouldn't be enough for him since he desperately desired you back into his dangerous and chaotic life. you brought a sense of stability into it, and he's been going through the trenches ever since.

din, the mandalorian that you knew like the back of your hand and terribly loved as such, is a person full of contradictions. after all, he's a trained warrior, a bounty hunter who's tracked and killed or captured some of the most dangerous people in the galaxy. he's feared in his own right, and now he appears to be intimidated by the girl he once had within his protective grasp.

you slightly smiled as the waitress showed you to your seat next to the window. you were sitting alone, thinking about what page that din was on with you. honestly, since the beginning he's always been a complex guy ... but it got to the point where it was completely unbearable.

a simple complication which followed multiple miscommunications that led to their fall out. there were so many things that you wished he knew about you, and how you felt when everything went down.

however, you weren’t ever able to break down those steel walls which the mandalorian built so high up in order to speak your inner feelings towards him.

the mandalorian eventually finishes his drink and as such he gets up without a word to anyone in the bar, turning and heading straight for the door. you watch din's armor clink as he moves, and suddenly all the other patrons in the bar are silenced as if someone turned down the volume on the entire room.

you noticed how everyone's eyes within the bar are directed onto the mandalorian. he's a mystery to them all, with his armor, his weapons, his silence. everyone except for her, which inflicted an aching within her chest as she came to the realization: the only person that knew you was him, visa versa.

he disappears out the door of the bar and his spurs jangle rhythmically against the pavement for a moment before disappearing into the crowd.

he didn't say a single word to you after all this time. you were dying to know if the fact neither of them spoke for such a long period of time was killing him as much as it had been torturing you.

however, you didn't know what to say to him since it was all a twist of fate when everything broke down. the story which they had written together had become such a heart aching tragedy.

your eyes fell onto the cup of water, eyeing your reflection that was a mist onto it before heavily sighing. it looks like you need to move on to the next chapter of your life.

din walks quickly through the small city, making his way towards his ship. he keeps a hand on his side, at his blaster, making sure he's not robbed.

it's the wild frontier these days, even on a well travelled planet like this. din walks through the crowd silently and unemotionally, like a machine.

he keeps his helmet on, the expression on his face unreadable. it's hard to think of him as even human, as the face behind that helmet is completely expressionless. it is the face of a machine, the face of a killer.

how did the two of you end up this uncomfortable near one another? you remembered how in the bar he watched you closely as you nervously pulled at your clothes' cloth while trying to look busy, and then he left — doing his ultimate best to completely avoid you.

now your thinking that the day you tell the story of you both it'll all be about this horrible moment which led to their demise. how you were completely losing control of your mind as you watched him peacefully sit there without you beside him. he was gracefully holding onto his pride just as he should've been holding you..

din reaches his ship and climbs the ramp, entering the cockpit and beginning pre-flight checks. the ship is a state of the art ship, with the weapons and shielding systems of a warship and the speed of the quickest civilian transports, with the amenities that are a necessity for long-haul journeying, like a small personal room and bathroom.

as is necessary for a ship to house a mandalorian, there is a full suit of beskar armor in the ship's equipment locker and there's a weapons locker full of blasters, explosives, and other assorted items.

after seeing him leave, you suddenly rushed out of the bar as you knew exactly where to find him. you were terrified to see how this ended — how their love would die out as if it was bound to fall apart from the beginning.

why were they both pretending as if this was nothing to be concerned about..? as if neither of them were still bleeding from the wounds that they struck onto one another during their arguments?

you swear you’d tell him how much your heart craved his admiration once again .. but you didn't know how to say such silly words.

as you stood right in front of the window which you subconsciously knew he was there looking down at you within, you noted that you hadn't ever heard such silence that was quite this loud before.

it was starting to look as if this whole situation was a contest between them. one that determined who could act like they cared less than the other about how things ended with bad blood between one another.

though one things for certain, you liked life way better when he was on your side of it. when he was waiting for you .. knowing that you always felt a sense of safety and love by his side.

as you stood in front of the razor crest, you put the battle within his hands. if he came out here .. you’d put all the amour you had tirelessly handcrafted down if he said he chose to love one another again than continuously fight with one another.

you had so many things you wanted to tell him .. that you needed to get off of your chest, but if he chose to leave you as you stood in front of his ship ... the story of them would be ending very soon.

your begging eyes locked onto his, awaiting his choice. would he stay, or would he leave?

the mandalorian looks at you for what feels like years, a million different complex emotions going through his head, the two most prominent being longing and pain.

his heart is crying out for you. he desires you in his arms, but every memory of how their relationship ended causes him physical pain. how would they ever be able to reconcile? does either of them have the ability to yield completely to the other? are they two too far gone to ever go back to how it was again?

but then .. then he sees your desperation, your pleading eyes, your hopeful look.

"come here!" he suddenly shouts, his voice breaking over his emotions.

your heart leapt out of your chest as your once begging face rises into a brighter one.

he was willing to give them a second chance.

you quickly walked towards where he was descending from the ramp, standing in front of him with lips that slightly curved into a small grin. the sight of his shiny armor brought back loving memories, yet also the harsh ones that were still harder to swallow down as if the pain hadn't been healed just yet.

as much as he hates to admit it, but in the moment din's heart is racing. it always pulsed more than it should typically around you. he was succumbed to the anxiety and uncertainty of a new beginning.

even so, he slowly reaches out his arms and pulls you into a tight embrace, holding you close enough to feel the pounding of your heart against his chest, just as his heart is pounding against yours. "i love you," he whispers in your ear, his voice breaking over the flood of emotion.

those were the first words he has said to you in over two years. the constant silence between them prior to this moment was obviously devastating for them both; however, both of their pride had been too strong for either of them to ever state their true feelings for one another.

as he held you close for the first time in two years, you felt as if you had finally returned home after an agonizing long journey. you melted within his grasp, molding yourself into him by wrapping your arms around his back and pushing his colder metal body into yours. "i love you too." you confessed, tears prickling into your eyesight.

din closes his eyes as he holds you, the feel of you in his arms comforting him.

"i thought i'd lost you," he admits, his voice cracking with emotion but there's no use in hiding it now.

he keeps his eyes shut and rests his cheek on the top of her head. "i do need you, and i'm so scared that i'll mess up and lose you again." he pulls her in more tightly.

"i thought that we were truly over with .. and that was the most difficult pill to swallow." you replied, your body began to tremble due to past moments as the pain from drowning herself in liquor those nights were still all too real for you.

din pulls you even closer, holding you securely in his embrace. "i couldn't see my life without you in it. the last two years have been the most painful time i've ever experienced. i know we've each got things to explain, but i don't know if i can be without you." he hesitates for a moment before saying, "i want a life with you. i want you to be mine, forever. that's all i need," he says, his voice breaking.

you gently smiled into his metal covered body as his words soaked into your mind. he wanted you, forever. "i want you forever too, din." you replied, lifting your head off of his chest and looking into his mask from below.

din kisses your forehead and pulls back, looking into your eyes. "my honor, my pledge to you is eternal; nothing will ever change that. you are my home. you are my universe, my life, my love. and i would do anything to hold you close and protect you, because you are worth that."

he pulls back a bit and looks to the sky. "i will always choose freedom, but my definition of freedom is to be with you, no matter the consequences; because when i'm with you, i'm free."

with only admiration into his helmet. he loved the way he was reflected in your eyes, and the certain sweet love that you felt for him. he knew he couldn't and wouldn't find that with anyone else.

they both wanted to be with one another for the rest of their lives, never to have such a horrible conflict between one another that would break them apart again.

they decided from that point on to talk about everything that made them insecure or intensely angered. they would talk through all of their disagreements instead of storming out and leaving the other to their despair.

they wanted to be better for one another, and they made sure to follow through with that idea. they both sealed the secret promise to one another by her slightly lifting the metal up just enough in order to expose his gracious lips to you, and stealing those as your own for the first time in two years with a soft peck onto them. you watched his lips closely after you moved away from him, slowly they curved into the most lovesick grin you’d ever seen him express before. you didn't even have to see his eyes to know that he was swooning over you.