hecth616

[hecth616]

Into the unknown

There is something in the atmosphere

As breathing sulfur

Nobody can tell the secret

Cause nobody remembers the author

Flames scattered around

Yet breathing is not that difficult

Can't tame these impulses

Cause nobody seems to remember the top of this roof

Is it imprisoning us?

I feel I can break it but...

Life keeps spinning with no control

And yet I still try to stand above

Sailing away from the shore

No destiny is fixed but the stars might give a hint

Have I passed the shore by yet?

Let me take a shot to prove I'm not wrong at this

Sailing into the unknown

Destiny seems unclear and long gone

I hold on to the memories of a time that's been dead

But what if all this time I've been looking at the wrong storm?

There's definitely something in the wind

It's heavier to inhale

Like the rust from steel staining a dream

And all of the sudden my lungs feel impaled

Sleepless nights and drowzee days

Yet passing the day by I must

Cause there's no stepping stone to lean on

And definitely there's something I know I lost

Is it essential for life in this place?

Who knows

Life keeps ticking the hours and days and years the fuck out of me

And yet I try to catch up

Sailing away from the shore

No destiny is fixed but the stars might give a hint

Have I passed the shore by yet?

Let me take a shot to prove I'm not wrong at this

Sailing into the unknown

Destiny seems unclear and long gone

I hold on to the memories of a time that's been dead

But what if all this time I've been looking at the wrong storm?

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Life goes on

As a hole in my pocket

As pouring water in my hands

As catching the wind with a net

As trying to touch the fire

As falling into the sky

As seeing within the blinding darkness

As breathing in the void

As hearing this deafening silence

It is all

Meaningless

As the curse of time

Keeps lurking in the emptiness

I wish I could hold those moments one more time

But the clock doesn't seem to stop for a while

I see the world grow apart from me

And every time I try to catch my breath it seems to be catching up to me

Life goes on I used to say

That was a song I wrote to remind myself to bear

But life keeps going on and on and on and it doesn't seem to stop

The course of time guides all and I desperately try to hold on to my precious memories and all that is left is nothing but it

The fucking curse of not letting go and keep walking towards the end of us all without even knowing what the hell is going on in this life that keeps going on

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Denied version

Emerging like a siren from the depths

Willingly taking my breath away

A place I had forsaken long ago

Lost in memories but at a location well known

Altered reality or a dream gone wrong?

Evading the eyes I had tried to rip off

How is it that it's here after all this time?

How is it possible this is a life we had?

I refuse to believe that somewhere in there

There's a universe where everything went alright

I refuse to cherish this dream I had

Thinking that it may be real for another version of me

A version less mad

There's no such thing as a parallel universe

And certainly no way this dream is something to care about

Coming back as if there was nothing else to explain

Years have passed us by, and life has gone away

Giving a second thought, such version is wrong

Cause either way you see it, this world is fucked up

And so are those times

Where everything was a lie

Cause I don't believe

On an alternative reality

So there's nothing else to add, just wait for the eternal return

To see if I beat the chances

And get away from you

I refuse to believe that somewhere in there

There's a universe where everything went alright

I refuse to cherish this dream I had

Thinking that it may be real for another version of me

A version less mad

There's no such thing as a parallel universe

And certainly no way this dream is something to care about

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QEA

Cherishing my bones with my nails

A distant sun is as good as a shade

I've counted as many walls as fingers in my hands

There doesn't seem to be a way out, there isn't a way out

Turn your voice down

The overwhelming echo of another failure is approaching

I've raced against the past

But it seems to be entangled to the particles in continuous touching

Vibrant colors are fading away

And all I can see is suddenly shades of gray

Will everyone else just shut the fuck up?

Ideas are growing out of control

Lucid dreaming of an apocalypse

Wearing madness as my resume

A long forgotten old enemy

Hereby I welcome ancient insanity

Tempting darkness to escape my eyes

Throwing myself into the fire

I've tried to reach for the stars almost every night

All I see is clouds, there's a storm coming and all I can see is clouds

Fuck your choice now

This is what I've been avoiding for a while

Can't shut the thoughts down

Noise is wrapping everything around

And all of this is getting fucking loud

Blinding lights dancing to this noise's rhythm

I cannot longer see nor hear nor feel anything cause of this fucking disease

Is it reality or just a quantum boardgame simulating what it is to be in the edge of the atmosphere?

Out of air to breathe...

Lucid dreaming of an apocalypse

Wearing madness as my resume

A long forgotten old enemy

Hereby I welcome ancient insanity

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What about it?

World's spinning faster than what I thought

Pests invading every corner where I roam

Whatever the source may be

It needs to stop whispering in my ear

The fuss is overwhelming and I sometimes fail to breathe

I've grown old, ancles are weary cause of the weight

I've been promised many things, but I've certainly lost the faith

Another lap around the sun and it doesn't seem to slow at all

The one who loves me the most, is fragile and I can't have control

I cannot take over control and it pisses me off as much as when I was told I wasn't worthy at all

And all around is senseless without the sense of being safely at home

World keeps spinning, but barely alive

With the nonsense bullshit we all have to consume to be satisfied

And nothing really matters if fate is written all along

We have no way to change things cause for the universe we are nothing but dust

So what about me asking for some crumbs?

Forget everything I've said, this time I'm tired and sick of it all

And when the time comes and it asks me for the times we've spent dancing

I'll just roll my eyes away and say: what about it?

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Alibi

Knots in my head riddling around every day

Dismembering ideas as a pass time activity

I put in quarantine my own energies

Cut the cord, let it fall, kill the animosity

Preserving appearances to seem in delay

Breathing slowly to try to fool the entropy

But as time runs there's nothing else but to engage

Cause I'm tired of smiling at the fucking enemy

The creature in the mirror is a bit deformed

I've been trying to hide it but it's setting the morals off

Cannot longer keep the pace as a dying host

Time is a never resting curse

Where did you go last time..

When the world started crumbling apart?

Silence has never been a good alibi

As for me, I don't think I care anymore at all

If you want peace, leave the tumult behind

A mess around and inside us as the globe keeps spinning

Gravity pulling me down while I try to break the ground

I hit the concrete harder than how you can hit me

Dizzy by the way it all converges to the same thought

Ghosts dancing in what is left of my memories

Circles of events ending at the very beginning

I'd trade my life for a bit of adrenalin

To break the eternal loop we're all stuck in

I'd rather to break it all

Before I let it consume us all

And my alibi would not be silence

It'd probably be a fact

Where did you go last time..

When the world started crumbling apart?

Silence has never been a good alibi

As for me, I don't think I care anymore at all

If you want peace, leave the tumult behind

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The guilt in me

It's getting late again

Cannot flip the clock as I used to

Night hours invading me

Recalling the same thoughts that amused you

Now I can see the stars, you see

I can fly into the sky and jump into my dreams

Rolling away from what I was too scared to admit

I guess it's been a long time that I had this guilt in me

Broken promises and shattered oaths

Can you spell my name correctly by just looking into my eyes?

What makes us weary at the end is the road

I have gone by many names by now, that I just no longer long home

Now I can reach her hands in the dark

Peace is here but madness is lurking

Chaos has been a great attachment to my life

Will I have the courage to ever settle down?

Now I can reach the stars, are you aware?

Been flying around for quite some years

Sliding through every obstacle in my way

I guess it's time to let go of this guilt

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Self awareness

Shaking guts and puking blood

Annihilation of my systems and the core

Critical damage by alcohol

Collapsing into the void

I was aware of the danger

Guided by a mischievous light and halos

Craving for a drop of the so called nectar

Poisoned by a long lost specter

Numbed bones and thoughts

I swear I was aware of it all

Yet here we are laying above the sky

Layers of time passing us by

Crafting dreams that are out of my hands

Vanishing from reality and from life

Lost words remain forgotten

A glance to your eyes remains unspoken

Bile infecting me, so rotten

Death row to a pair of lovers

I was aware of the game

Threw the dice and bet it all with faith

The void is nothing but a dormant hate

Lately it feels wide awake

Numbed bones and thoughts

I swear I was aware of it all

Yet here we are laying above the sky

Layers of time passing us by

Crafting dreams that are out of my hands

Vanishing from reality and from life

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The light

My shoulders

They cannot keep going like this

The burden is heavy

The crisis has arrived

Cannot reach heaven as much as I fly

Stressed out by everything lately

The loop has been completed and I'm exactly at the same spot

Is this a riddle or a knot?

News lately happen to be an extension of my own

Psychosis everywhere

Does it hurt to have a little empathy?

World is rotten and twisted, I've said that out loud

But all of the sudden it seems to be surpassing my mind

That one thing that was supposed to be unbreakable

6 1 6 is no longer an entity to lean on

Am I the same I was before or have I lost what used to lit the spark?

Is it all part of a bigger plan..

Or have I just lost the light?

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Reach the sky

It is ten past two and I can't shut me down

Waves of memories carried with a question mark

Has it all that I've done worth at all?

Will the silence of the night sing me a lullaby?

It is time

To

Fall again

I

Have gone

Astray

Do not misunderstand me I am very proud

I've kept my sanity and my fire is still alive

Guess it all comes down to discipline and a clear path

Will I ever be ready to take a step forward?

It is time

To

Reach the stars

I

Have longed

For a while

Once I took a look at the deep space I could not stop thinking about that

The difference between Sagittarius A and my mind

A black sphere spinning fast enough to become a trap

But if I take a deep breath I'm able to see a glimpse of light

Then

Again

I start to reach the sky

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Darkness of the mind

Don't tell me you are overwhelmed

Cause I don't care

Gravity pulled me down again

And of it I'm sick

Sticked to the ground and tired

Am I alive?

Cause lately it feels like I am

Not in paradise

This hell is a little more alike

To a picture from the past

And now I'm terrified

A glimpse into the dark

Voracious teeth

It is the old and worn out beast

The 616

And it just started back at me

In my ear whispering

Release me...

For I'm done with every possible illusion

Please hear me...

I'm growling once again to stand my ground against the enemy

And the enemy is the one that is taming us, raping us, enslaving us from taking a look into the void and cherish back the darkness of our mind...

Don't tell me I'm the problem once again

Cause I know I am

There might be a black hole in my brain

It's impossible to escape

Frequencies lost from time to time

Waves of light?

Suspended in purgatory seems fine

At least I'm back

What if this riddle gets untied

Will it leave a mark?

Scorched with fire

The number to unleash our wrath

Will the beast attack?

Or will it come to shout ...?

Release me...

For I'm done with every possible illusion

Please hear me...

I'm growling once again to stand my ground against the enemy

And the enemy is the one that is taming us, raping us, enslaving us from taking a look into the void and cherish back the darkness of our mind...

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More than that

Have you noticed?

How the time flies

Years run over us

Like a second marches towards the next one

Is it all we can do?

Watch the clock reminding us all

We're not eternal

We're only here for a while

What will you do?

At the very end

Is this all that you've done?

And then let everyone forget

Moments flashing and lives sparking

We're more than that

Yes of course we're more than a clock ticking our life

I've not written for quite a while

Didn't have much motivation

Inspiration was drown

But as I get older

It is getting too loud

The tic tac is growing

And then I suddenly ask

What will you do?

At the very end

Is this all that you've done?

And then let everyone forget

Moments flashing and lives sparking

We're more than that

Yes of course we're more than a clock ticking our life

What will I do

With my spare time?

Is there really any time to kill?

Or am I being distracted by the so called life?

I don't want to leave with no achievement

Cause money and status quo can suck my weiner

Life is not about finding gold every other step

But to make gold out of the strength one took to give in

What will you do?

At the very end

Is this all that you've done?

And then let everyone forget

Moments flashing and lives sparking

We're more than that

Yes of course we're more than a clock ticking our life

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Unpleasant confort

There's that lovely silence

Whispering in my ear

Seducing the madness

The wild mind of me

Behold the hatred

That feeling that's been long gone

Here in the darkness

One can see that I'm alone

Again the numbers tickle in my ribs

A cage of flesh is suffocating me

I cannot tell anymore what I want

But still miss the fucking mess that I was

Do not touch if it's not broken

Accept that there are things better to be left alone

I used to think I longed for happiness

But the truth is I like to be in the void

The black hole within me consumes everything around and I can't stop

Self destructive consciousness or a conscious being free from this world?

If it's nothing better

Then please do notdisrupt

An unwanted voice will always scream the loudest

But will fail to understand the point

Behold what you've done

Whatever it is, it doesn't feel like love

Shapeless heart dripping oil

Binary answers are the ones that I hate the most

Again the pulse of a faded signal becomes stronger

A number lost in space and long forgotten

I'll remain whatever it takes

I'll recalculate and spread my wings again

Do not touch if it's not broken

Accept that there are things better to be left alone

I used to think I longed for happiness

But the truth is I like to be in the void

The black hole within me consumes everything around and I can't stop

Self destructive consciousness or a conscious being free from this world?

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Twisted mind 2.0

Oh silence has been drained out!

Again there's that disturbing voice

It keeps telling me I've got no choice

Succumb to this deafening noise

As I throw myself into the hole

(Deep within)

Raping my essential senses

A no beating heart is as good as a numb essence

Crashing to all walls and fences

There might be a day I ran over these peasants

That are all blocking the way

Traffic jam and brain is congested with lack of faith

Inspiration gone

Gray one arriving the place, hold on...

For I no longer can keep the insanity caged

A new dawn is a new pill

There's again that beat

But it's not coming from me

It's the world around in flames

Should I put it down or light another cigarette?

For all I know a corpse may continue walking

Death's a common matter and my brain is riddled up with no concepts

I wanna scream but I remain silent

I hate these pictures, crawling dumb creatures

Passing the day by just as me

To abort their cause is only up to me

But I ain't conscious now

I am fed up, so tired, name it how you want

Denied? The path should not last

For that long without a light

But if a dream is still a way to fulfill

My destiny?

I guess I'd hard pass that option

As I'm concerned about the corruption

On my face, the place, this space

I thought I killed some deities today

This world is just as rotten and twisted as my mind

So it doesn't matter if there's the day after day

Corrupting the mind, draining my veins

What's keeping us alive is what's sealing our fate

But fuck everyone and what they might say

I'll come back stronger to defy everyone's will

For all I know a corpse may continue walking

Death's a common matter and my brain is riddled up with no concepts

I want to scream but I remain silent

I hate these pictures, crawling dumb creatures

Passing the day by just as me

To abort their cause is only up to me

But I ain't conscious now

For all I know I am disconnected

Cannot even establish a channel to feel something

I may find a dead end

I hate these figures

Just abstract forms floating across the ceiling

Whispering "welcome to prison"

But it's up to me

Cause I ain't sane now

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Fleeting thought

Pre destined to fail or not

Discovering the path while I walk along

There is no redemption at the end

Just the few moments that I've lived

Questioning the now and then

There're no signs of a manipulated variable

Persistent trauma

Incoherent drama

I'm sick and tired of everything

There is a chance that all of this is just a facade

A convenient job to remain busy while I decay

Giving me back the sense of lost control through anxiety

Knelt down in front of your apathy

I beg you... Look at me!

Into the sleep realm but clearly not asleep

Half awake and letting words flow through me

I haven't heard a thing about endless love

3 am and I start to whistle my demons' sinister tone

Breaking down every ounce of sanity

Dormant inner personality

Tired of excuses

Short circuit on my fuses

I no longer care about anything

There is a chance that all of this is just a facade

A convenient job to remain busy while I decay

Giving me back the sense of lost control through anxiety

Knelt down in front of your apathy

I beg you... Stay away from me!

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Drunk worms

Crawl crawl into the dark

Maggots pulling the strings from where they're tied

Assuming somehow they can control the variables

Percentages and chances of a manipulated life

Use both hands to touch the fire

It may not ease the pain but wounds get cauterized

It wasn't that easy to let go the dreams

But it gets easier when fate is no longer a subject to analyze

So take a sip from this cheap champagne

I invite you all to not give a fuck

It is what it is and we are what we are

A nihilist perspective is to crawl as the drunk worms we are all

Crawl crawl towards the light

Maggots being squeezed by for the sake of a few ones

Assuming somehow those are able to pull their own strings

Probabilities tell us we're all in the same jar

So take a sip from this cheap champagne

I invite you all to not give a fuck

It is what it is and we are what we are

A nihilist perspective is to crawl as the drunk worms we are all

Is this a statement or just a random thought?

For all I know is that I don't want to crawl but fly

If I grow wings will they have the strings cut out?

To fly as above as the rising stars...

So take a sip from this cheap champagne

I invite you all to not give a fuck

It is what it is and we are what we are

Drunk or not, this worm may give it a try...

[hecth616]

Eclipsed

I call upon to thee

Old ancient foe

Trickster in the dark

Voracious animal

Grieving the same fate as I do

Merge the fire within

Invoke the light in me

To overcome the enemy in front

Death row to all

Letters of a poem

Long forgotten chants

Unlocked inner force

Parasite giving back what it took

I retrieve what I need

To fullfil our destiny

And turn to warrior from a ghost

But at the end

All the eclipsed things will shine again

As dark as it can get

Corona's brightness can still be felt

Will it end?

Totality should be the wrong concept

As dark as it gets

There's no darkness that can last longer than my will

Obsolete prayers

Thoughts of a love that is no longer with us

Embrace different

Value what remains and bid farewell what's not

Take back what's ours and nothing more

To achieve the next level

Touch a bit of the inner berserker

And surpass the one reflecting in the mirror

But at the end

All the eclipsed things will shine again

As dark as it can get

Corona's brightness can still be felt

Will it end?

Totality should be the wrong concept

As dark as it gets

There's no darkness that can last longer than my will