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This is going to be an atypical post for this blog, but as this is a community issue I feel the need to speak up.

I am completely appalled at the current state of the syspunk community. It should not have taken for a notorious fakeclaimer to go undercover to expose a popular blogger for grooming someone.

You cannot use alter age as an excuse. Period. You cannot use MENTAL age as an excuse. Period. How did we, AS A COMMUNITY, allow something like this to go on for so long that somebody from REDDIT of all places had to step in to blow the whistle? If this was a public discord server, with MORE THAN ONE ADULT IN IT, HOW did you let this fly under the radar?

I have seen the Night Glider's response to this, and they collectively refuse to take accountability, pinning the blame on Catty herself, claiming that, well they didn't groom their victim, it was only one specific alter!

Y'all disgust me.

I'm leaving this blog up, but I won't post here or on any of our other system dedicated blogs anymore. I refuse to rub elbows with abuse enablers.

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"yeah YOUR persecutors might be redeemable but MINE aren't-"

shut the entire fuck up. there is no such thing as a "redeemable" or "irredeemable" alter. and if you think so then you are part of the reason why people see persecutors as inherently evil. as if we aren't traumatized indaviduals who were programmed to act like our abusers. as if we deserve to be locked away because we don't perform victimization good enough for you.

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It is absolutely 100% okay to love, date, and fuck persecutors btw. Persecutors are still people, just like the rest of us. They're simply doing their job. They deserve love and romance and sex if that's what they want.

Minors dni with this post.

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Hi, I'm Jaxon, I'm a split source introject in a system. (You do NOT get to call me Sebastian!)

Minors, endos, and rqs do not interact. I trust myself to be repulsive enough to discourage anyone else 💙

I'm a butch, pangender, pansexual, polyamorous mess

I will be posting about my experiences as a system member over on our sys blog @horrorcrew-diary

I'll make this look pretty later if I remember

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Polyfrag culture is...

I have a 6th sense.

It's called "ficti-vison." I can look at a character and instantly tell they are going to appear in my head at a later time

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Pro introject tip!

NEVER check to see why your source is trending on twitter 👍

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hi feel free to not post this!!

but a really close friend of mine recently came to me with the info that they’re a system and your blog really helped me in figuring out how to support them :^) so thank you and i hope you guys are having a good day and get to listen to some banger tunes or something

OMG????

This means a LOT to us. When we were first figuring out we were a system, we didn't have a lot of outside support. Two of our closest friends also recently found out they were multiple, and we wanted to offer the support that we never had. If our blog makes things easier to understand, that's amazing!

Healing with OSDDID cannot be done alone, and you're a wonderful friend for trying to understand such a complex disorder at all.

Another offhand piece of advice, have patience. Dissociation comes with confusion and fear. If they ask for help remembering something, it is not their fault for forgetting.

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Lil update: definitely fused. I have the urge to swear even more now, despite already having a pretty foul mouth?? And I also have horns now, sooo.

No urge to change my name, though. I'm definitely like, the "dominant" alter out of the two of us? Kinda just like, slurped someone up and absorbed them rather than us being equal amounts of each other.

I'm fairly sure a fusion of some sort has happened.

I (Phil) feel different, and I'm beginning to remember things from highschool. Specifically, Karkat's time helping us through it. I remember sophomore year, which is well known throughout the system as one of the worst years of our life, as well as when we figured out we were a system at all.

I'm not sad, as I barely knew her, and since her memories and mannerisms are still here through me, it's barely like she's gone at all.

I've had a feeling that some sort of fusion was gonna happen soon, as I had started heavily thinking about it for no reason out of the blue. If anything, I was expecting me and Pastra to fuse, but it has its own subsystem now, so that's unlikely to happen any time soon.

Our outerworld partner is taking this surprisingly well, too. I was expecting him to be upset because Karkat was one of his partners, but really now I'm like, girlfriend^2, because I remember Karkat's time with him, too.

I can see why it happened, as from what I've heard about her, we're fairly similar. We both are very girly in our own right and have similar favorite foods and even mannerisms.

I'm also not upset because this is a sign of healing. We've been on vacation, which has really done wonders for our mental health (albeit coming with the added side effect of having weird system shit going on).

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I'm fairly sure a fusion of some sort has happened.

I (Phil) feel different, and I'm beginning to remember things from highschool. Specifically, Karkat's time helping us through it. I remember sophomore year, which is well known throughout the system as one of the worst years of our life, as well as when we figured out we were a system at all.

I'm not sad, as I barely knew her, and since her memories and mannerisms are still here through me, it's barely like she's gone at all.

I've had a feeling that some sort of fusion was gonna happen soon, as I had started heavily thinking about it for no reason out of the blue. If anything, I was expecting me and Pastra to fuse, but it has its own subsystem now, so that's unlikely to happen any time soon.

Our outerworld partner is taking this surprisingly well, too. I was expecting him to be upset because Karkat was one of his partners, but really now I'm like, girlfriend^2, because I remember Karkat's time with him, too.

I can see why it happened, as from what I've heard about her, we're fairly similar. We both are very girly in our own right and have similar favorite foods and even mannerisms.

I'm also not upset because this is a sign of healing. We've been on vacation, which has really done wonders for our mental health (albeit coming with the added side effect of having weird system shit going on).

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Hey, can we like, NOT say that "FDC is good because of the endos being made fun of, actually"?

"But endos are-"

"But the misinfo-"

"Butbutbut-"

NO. STOP IT. SHUT UP. I'VE HAD TO BLOCK TWO PEOPLE FOR THIS ALREADY.

Fakeclaiming does NOTHING for ANYONE.

Being publicly ridiculed and fakeclaimed is traumatic for anybody.

Fakeclaiming helps no one. NO. ONE.

I'd give an example on how it's affected me as an actual diagnosed system, but I shouldn't have to!

Unless you are a licensed professional, you cannot tell who is faking and who is being genuine. CDDs are COVERT.

Have some fucking compassion.

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i hate having "compartmentalize and downplay your trauma" disorder because guess what im doing right now. just take a guess.

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We're revamping!

Welcome BACK to Ada's system help, rebranded and revitalized!

We will still do requests, but are now also going to be mainly focusing on positivity and resources for systems, as the sysblr landscape these past few months has been bleak.

This is NOT a kin blog. While we're not anti kin, there are plenty of resources for y'all out there. This blog is for systems, by systems.

What we do here:

🧪 Moodboards/stimboards/icon edits for almost any source

🧪 CDD resource gathering and collecting

🧪 Community building

🧪 Spread positivity and kindness

What we don't do here:

☣️ Demonize disorders or persecutors

☣️ Discourse of any kind

☣️ Spiritual help

☣️ Term coining/flag making

Alters that make posts will be tagged and signed off with emojis.

Our DNI is going to be kept extremely simple and can be found on our DNI banner on every post.

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What if I made a positivity blog......

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Disability pride month PSA that schizophrenia and related disorders often starts to present in your mid 20s, so if things have been getting harder, life is less manageable, you feel less and less connected to reality, don't be afraid to get an assessment. It is not life ending, and living as someone with schizophrenia is worthwhile!!! It is a neurodivergence like any other, one that is disabling but doesn't make you less human. Getting early screenings and treatment is shown to give better outcomes for patients!!