idrathernotexist

[idrathernotexist]

No one that claimed to love me acted like it

[idrathernotexist]

in my daydreams i am loved and cared for. i will hide in my mind

[idrathernotexist]

All my best memories are from my daydreams

[idrathernotexist]

I could have been so much more than this. I know I could be better. Give me another chance, let me do-over, please

[idrathernotexist]

became such a mess that I can't believe that any of me is real. I am not real. This simply cannot be me. I couldn't have become this.

[idrathernotexist]

If you told me that I could be loved if I gave up everything I am, I would do it.

[idrathernotexist]

I daydream of showing up as someone else

[idrathernotexist]

Friends? No. I'm just following this already established friend group around like some kicked puppy until they ask me to go away.

[idrathernotexist]

backshots this, backshots that, i would like to be taken out back and shot

[idrathernotexist]

I regret every word that comes out of my mouth the moment I say it