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How do you fight a feeling you barely understand?

this is how i felt today

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arguably one of my favorite pieces of writing.

Invictus By William E. Henley

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everything wrong with me.

um. I have issues. I have food issues, I have I'm-terrified-of-being-genuinely-happy-about-something-because-that-just-means-it's-all-waiting-to-fall-apart issues, I have body image issues, I have constantly-trying-to-seek-validation-from-the-men-in-my-life issues, I have no-one-really-cares-about-what-I-have-to-say-so-just-don't-say-anything issues, I have I-feel-so-fucking-empty-inside issues, I have I'll-never-be-enough issues. I have it's-just-not-worth-it issues. I have I-don't-think-I-want-to-wake-up-tomorrow issues. I have putting-what-everyone-else-needs-above-what-I-need issues. I have I-hate-myself issues. I have nothing-I-do-will-ever-be-good-enough-for-me issues. I have wanting-to-make-the-most-of-every-single-day-but-just-end-up-letting-it-pass-by issues. I have I-want-attention-but-don't-know-how-to-handle-it issues. I have I-don't-want-to-but-I-can't-help-but-fucking-cry-when-I'm-overwhelmed issues. I have can't-let-people-go issues. I have knowing-exactly-what-to-do-about-most-things-and-yet-somehow-not-doing-them issues. I have I-wish-I-wasn't-stuck-with-myself issues. I have I'll-do-it-tomorrow issues. I have make-plans-and-look-forward-to-them-all-week-but-don't-end-up-going issues. I have always-sticking-up-for-everyone-but-myself issues. I have I-need-therapy issues. I have I-don't-know-where-to-go-from-here issues. I have no-fucking-clue-what-my-life-is-gonna-look-like-5-years-from now issues. I have I-think-I-need-a-lot-of-help-but-don't-know-how-to-ask-for-it issues. I have hate-what-I'm-feeling-but-hate-feeling-nothing-more issues. I have I'm-holding-on-by-a-thread issues. I have keeping-my-expectations-low-so-I-won't-be-disappointed-but-ending-up-being-disappointed-anyway issues. I have I-might-be-a-little-much-for-you issues. I have I-don’t-know-how-to-fight-this-feeling issues. I have I-need-to-give-myself-a-break issues. I have I-hate-who-I'm-becoming-issues.

I hate who I am right now.

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just some rupi kaur :)

This one hit home.