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Well, well, well, look at you, don't you clean up nice?

Bet it feels good to leave the past behind

Your subscription to redemption has been renewed

You keep your head high, smooth operator in a shit-stained suit

-Big Man Little Diggnity

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I miss your Levi’s jeans.

Drinking Riesling in the middle of fall.

How 80s sound filled my place

and we laughed watching John Hughes’ movie.

You left a permanent mark on my heart.

No apologies from your side.

No goodbye and no remorse.

You said I was special.

You said that you don’t see future without me

then you proceed to leave.

I deconstruct every bit of memory.

Starting with first conversation to the last.

I watch all of the plans that turned to ashes.

Part of me died when I read your lines.

You detached from me like I was a disgrace.

I can’t recover from this romance.

If I had known our last kiss was on December 16th…

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I am hibernating to sooth the pain.

In my dreams you are at reach of my hand.

They say you are bad but to me you still the one.

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I fill up the void

with affirmative words.

Erased pictures of you.

Must admit I listen to our songs.

It brings me bit of joy

sometimes wave of pain.

I need to feel something

that reminds me of you.

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Maybe you are happy.

Maybe you are sedate.

Maybe it was fear.

Maybe it was me.

Maybe someday

I will forget your face.

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My heart, my hips, my body, my love

Trying to find a part of me that you didn't touch

Gave up on me like I was a bad drug

Now I'm searching for signs in a haunted club

Our songs, our films, united we stand

Our country, guess it was a lawless land

Quiet my fears with the touch of your hand

Paper cut stings from our paper thin plans

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It's the truth before the lies

It's the way she doesn't try

It's the wink before the slide

She thought that love was going to fight

She thought that love was going to take her home

She thought love was going to save her

But love just never showed

-Parachute, Philadelphia

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“Almost. It’s a big word for me. I feel it everywhere. Almost home. Almost happy. Almost changed. Almost, but not quite. Not yet. Soon, maybe.”

— Joan Bauer

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Some say I lost my mind.

So I whisper to them - lorem.

A made up word.

Like I manufactured us.

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Costume party for two

wearing nonchalant suit.

A countdown started

so trying to stop the clock

won’t work.

Glitter is everywhere.

Bottle of champagne

is preapred.

The end is here.

I wipe tears from cheeks.

If they ask why I cry.

I say your name.

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I don’t miss you.

Why can’t you see?

I am in love with him.

I can’t go back to being yours.

Your cold blue eyes,

Can’t compete with him.

Even though he can’t make up his mind.

My heart lies in his hands.

You gave up on us a year ago.

You wished I was just like your lover.

A rose petal that blooms just for you.

How can I forget her name, her face?

She didn’t replicate those heartfelt feelings.

But It’s too late.

You gave up on life you could’ve have.

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Being a thief carries a burden.

I was always a good girl.

Did everything right by the law.

Champion of fairness.

Never broke a rule.

Then one night you came with

those bright eyes.

Smile at me when I was

Aching for a lover touch.

So why don’t you let me see

a glimpse of you with her.

This might be a remedy.

I will rip you from my heart.

Drown memories in gin.

I will come back to my indie songs.

And forget your 80s sound.

I will forget taste of your lips.

I will erase the feeling

when you were with me.

And you will carry your sins.

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When I will be enough?

When will you make up your mind?

When I will be your first choice?

Didn’t I prove you it was more than a whim?

Didn’t I say I want you with every fibre in my body?

I ache for you when you leave me at night.

I choose you over him, over them, over anyone

that doesn’t have your eyes.

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I know you are the sound of

synthesizer, Cissy Strut, vintage guitar.

If I would write you into my song

you will be made out of melancholy notes.

Acoustic guitar will start with Bm

then move to A so it could turn into E.

We are not happenstance it was fate.

I’m not wicked and this is not a game.

I think I fell in love with you.

No one in the past played me a melody

that my heart knew how to sing.

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Can I be her for a day?

Have you on right side of a bed.

Watch you sleep while holding your hand.

I would make you a cup of coffee.

Slip into your favorite dress.

Dance with you all night.

We would have a marvelous time.

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You let me taste your lips.

Felt you inside my body.

Was it just a need to earse loneliness?

Truth will set me free.

Did you ever consider loving me?

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There I was waited for the greatest love that never arrived.

I could sense despair devouring my chest.

They can’t love me for who I am.

I am too much, sometimes not enough.

Too tough touch yet too weak to hold.