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There are all kinds of things in the world I don't understand, but I really wanted to understand you.

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the ache of nostalgia

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"I'M STILL WALKING INTO THAT ROOM."

on fox (+samantha) mulder, grief, & childhood trauma.

the x-files, 1994-2018 / the fall of the house of usher, steven berkoff / vanishing acts, jodi picoult / hard times, ethel cain / unknown / mysterious skin, scott heim / unknown / letter to an old poet, boygenius / soft sounds from another planet, japanese breakfast / sharp objects, gillian flynn

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Richard Siken, “You Are Jeff” | Donna Tartt, The Goldfinch | R.F. Kuang, Babel: An Arcane History | Queen Charlotte: A Bridgerton Story | Benjamin Alire Saénz, Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe | Maggie Stievater, Call Down the Hawk | Olivie Blake, The Atlas Paradox

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sad girls

stefanie martini- emerald city (2017) / Anna dymna -Dama kameliowa(1995) / kirsten dunst - the virgin suicides(1999) / olivia hussey- romeo and juliet (1968) / winona ryder- girl interrupted (1999) / natja brunckhorst- christiane f. (1981) / natalia dyer- i believe in unicorns (2014) / heather graham - drugstore cowboy (1989) / sheryl lee -twin peaks

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sun bleached flies-ethel cain / october-jackson.c frank / stalker 1979 / the ballad of costa concordia-car seat headrest / nowhere 1997 / possession 1981 / Frank Bidart / georgia lee-tom waits / interview with the vampire amc

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a little life-Hanya yanagihara/ normal people- sally rooney/ the flowers of evil-baudelaire / prozac nation / the goldfinch- donna tartt / mysterious skin / go home-julien baker / the edge of seventeen / pretend-alex g

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mothers

sharp objects / just for today-clairo / i killed my mother / my mother and i-lucy dacus/ succession / ocean vuong / hereditary/ everything everywhere all at once

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cannibalism as a metaphor

famous last words-ethel cain / bones and all / on the romance of cannibalism- silas denver melvin / satan devouring his son / Hannibal / strangers - ethel cain / yellowjackets / raw

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the virgin suicides / art by louie van patten / a burning hill - mitski / my heart can’t beat unless you tell it to (2020) / ptolemaea- ethel cain / a self port in letters- Anne sexton / possession (1981)

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love

the burning heart-Louise Glück/ Maurice 1987 / south london forever-florence+the machine / painting by Cuno Amiet/ Crush-richard siken / my own private idaho 1991 / letters to milena-Franz kafka / La la land 2016

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“Brooklyn’s too cold tonight

& all my friends are three years away”

Ode to being 17

Garden song- phoebe bridgers / Painting by holly warburton / Novel- Arthur Rimbaud / three friends in a cab - salman Toor / Ribs- lorde / As you are (2016) / goodbye to all that - joan didion / Sharp objects / Thanksgiving 2006 - Ocean Vuong