jhtechgeek2011

[jhtechgeek2011]

Better and worse right now

I am back and things are both better and worse right now. I have found some things that help, like accommodations at school and tutoring, breaking things down, rewarding myself for what I complete, and a really solid planner/schedule/journaling system that works pretty well for me. I have been getting a lot of work done around the house lately and I finally finished English Comp 1. I passed but just barely.

Work is not going at all well yet. I am still getting 3 days a week and not being able to really use my accommodations at work like I should be able to. It just gets worse and worse for me at my job and I feel like it's killing me in pieces. I end up in so much pain by the 3rd of my work days that I can hardly walk and am completely drained. The pain lingers around in various stages of severity until I have to go back and do it again. I can't stand the place and don't want to return but I have no options. I am getting my unemployment and I wouldn't even be able to make ends meet if I didn't.

I wish I could just get the help I need not to work myself into the ground all the time. I really wish I could just get a job where I don't have to stand up where it's actually just a seated job and works with my skills and limitations rather than working against my limitations and not utilizing all of my skills. It shouldn't have to be this doggone hard just to live, It truly shouldn't. I would get SSI I am eligible but I worry that I will just get a no because my income and unemployment combined are too much. It really sucks that they look at that before they look at your medical issues. I just wish I could stop working and still have money to live on, that's all I want. Winning the lottery would be SO great, but those odds are so bad I don't even want to go there.

The car wash guys are still being their usual obnoxious selves but it got hot enough for my AC unit to go in the window so I can drown them out much better now with my fan and AC on. They still get right under my apartment window and smoke though which is annoying when I do open my window because it's cooler out and I don't necessarily need AC to have to smell their weed on my nice breeze. I am so tired of these guys that's one of the many reasons my boyfriend and I are saving up to move out as much as we can each paycheck because we GOTTA be out of here before we need heat again. The heat here is ridiculous and we don't want to spend another winter dealing with it.

Another thing frustrating for me right now is I can't afford my new glasses and I can't see very well at all right now. My prescription changed a LONG time ago, and my year between annual eye exams and insurance-covered glasses passed in February. My insurance doesn't cover my vision needs well at all. My glasses are STILL over $400 even with the insurance because they only cover 30% and my eye exam was basically $200. The contact lens eye exam isn't even covered so I couldn't even get an updated contact prescription to do that instead. They also cost an arm and a leg but are less than my ridiculous ass glasses. This is ridiculous, it shouldn't be this hard to get the very thing I need to be able to actually see.

Finally, I just want to say that life shouldn't have to be this hard, and stupid, toxic, fake people shouldn't make it worse. People just want to take everything they can and give nothing in return. So many people only call when they want something. Other than that you don't even hear from them and especially when you need something they're nowhere to be found. A lot of people are only your friend for what they can get out of it, and it sucks. All the fake, toxic, stupid, hating people need to get a life, and stay out of mine, seriously. Until next time, when you see what's going on next with Just Jen.

[jhtechgeek2011]

Still struggling

Since my last post, my life has changed but it isn't easier. I stopped working all those 6 and 7-day stretches of 2nd shifts and for a while worked 3rd shift 5 days a week until I caught Covid-19 and my job didn't give me my shift back. I then started working all 3 shifts every week until I finally got fed up and got a note from my therapist stating for treatment to work that I needed to work a consistent shift meaning, not all 3 in the same week and not where I have to sleep at different times as when I would work 1st and 3rd shift.

My shifts were a bit better by this point, consisting of one 1st shift and three 2nd shifts, but when my manager got my letter she assumed consistent meant only 2nd shift for some reason. I explained to her that I just meant not working all over the place to the point I couldn't sleep and eat on a consistent schedule and that the 1 first 3 2nd shifts schedule was ok. My manager told me the general manager sent it to HR and we had to wait and see what they said while continuing to give me only 3 days a week.

I am a full-time employee it is NOT legal to give me part-time hours, and 24 hours a week is part-time hours. The GM also tried to justify it by saying that they can give me 24 hours a week if it's not a certain amount of time in a 3-month period which is CRAP! It is not legal to give someone full-time less than 30 or 32 hours a week at ALL. I applied for unemployment and am considering reporting them to the labor board.

I just got paid today and my check was SAD! If I had to pay my whole rent without my boyfriend paying half I would be screwed! I wouldn't have enough for anything else besides the rent. I already can barely afford the bills I pay when it's not time for the rent check like it is this time. I am so upset and worried! I need to find another job and some other ways of making money because I do NOT have enough at all.

My other issue today was those obnoxious guys at the car wash behind my house were being particularly ridiculous. One guy was doing this high-pitched annoying whistle all day no matter if I would get mad and yell for him to cut it out. The other guy was yelling and doing his horrible loud half-yell laugh thing he has. I was getting so angry and frustrated. I just yelled it all out until those guys finally shut up. I wish I could put my AC unit back in the window and drown them out with it but it's not warm enough out yet.

On another note, my boyfriend has been in and out of the house since he got home from work and it's worrying me. He went downstairs to the bar we live above to watch basketball but he has a problem when he goes in there he is tempted by the slot machines to gamble and he really shouldn't gamble because he has a bit of an issue with that and has done some dumb things when he has gotten on those slot machines down there. I just want him to stay home and out of that place. But he's working on it though. He came right home tonight after the basketball went off. I am glad he did.

On a final note, I have returned to school to obtain my degree in Psychology. Right now I am in the Bachelor's program and then I plan to complete the Master's program in Psychology with an emphasis in Life Coaching, so I can reach my ultimate goal of becoming a therapist and life coach. I was doing great in my first class, a university introduction course called University Success, designed to help students get familiar with the school and how the courses work. But now that I am in English Composition 1, I started to struggle.

There are so many papers in the class and it's a more immersive and intensive English course than I had in my previous schools. I believe that is because the course is only 7 weeks long so it is more accelerated than I was used to. Work also does not help the situation as it gets in the way, with my schedule being so stupid and with how much it stresses me out. I am getting tutoring and accommodations soon so that should help. It has been hard to focus and sometimes it is also very hard to get started on assignments.

I hate having ADHD and dyscalculia they make things harder than they should be. I didn't realize how much the dyscalculia causes me issues spatially, like clicking the wrong file when submitting homework, or even going to the wrong assignment submission link to submit an assignment because visually they line up where they can easily be confused one for the other. I turned in a paper and paper review wrong because I thought I was clicking the paper and clicked the review since the lines looked like the paper was on top and the review was at the bottom but it was reversed.

ADHD and other issues are making my life quite a lot harder than it needs to be in a lot of areas of my life lately. I am trying to get help but it is far more difficult to get help than it has to be. I am sick of struggling and really need life to get better soon. I don't know how much more I can take. I really hope I can come back with better posts in the future and that my life gets better so I have more to say than how much I am struggling and how much help I need and how much I hate struggling. Tune in next time to see what's new with Just Me.

[jhtechgeek2011]

Overwork, health problems, and other struggles

In this post, I want to talk about being overworked with my health problems first. I have been having a rough time at work due to several health problems, and I need a chair to sit and work to make that easier on me, but it is taking forever and I am being told a lot of things about my accommodations that aren't very fair and I don't actually think they're legal either. Hopefully, though I will have the accommodations in a week and a half, but in the meantime, I went out of my way to work a long stretch of 2nd shifts after I'd already worked one 1st shift and it was waaaay too much work. I am so very tired and I could not do anything today I was utterly useless. I don't know how much more of this I can take.

I am so sick and tired of struggling with jobs and my health conditions. I basically have several disabilities due to my health issues and I can't ever seem to get the help I need. This word is just not designed for people with disabilities, the invisible ones in particular. A lot of times we're stuck explaining how we are disabled and what our conditions entail because nobody can see it. I am fed up with being expected to overwork myself and push myself past my limits because I need to make a living. It is entirely too much and too hard and it's unfair.

I am also sick and tired of dealing with people who only care about what they need, want, or have going on and can't see anybody else's struggles. It's the people that feel like their time is SO much more important than yours and you don't need to have a life just keep giving and giving because they need it. These are also the same people who don't care to do their job properly because you'll finish it for them, or they don't care about being late to let you go home because they had to do whatever it was they were doing that made them late for work. It's the people who feel like you owe it to them to bust your but and do whatever it is they need, even if you are telling them you can't.

I am still struggling with people around where I live who don't care about being loud and obnoxious right under the apartment windows, and Saturday there was a couple arguing in the front entryway of our apartment building and I could barely get by so I could go outside to my Uber for work. It was ridiculous. Like you gotta have your fight right there? There's nowhere else you can be having that fight besides in the middle of the way blocking the exit? It was so overwhelming to get past that fight just to go to work and get more overwhelmed, it truly sucked.

To end the post I just want to say that life has to get easier, it cannot continue on being as hard as it is right now. I really hope that I can come back with better things to talk about than the same old neighbors and the same old work complaints. I'd love to have finally moved and come to talk about that, but in the meantime, I will continue to talk about what's going on where I am now. Stick around guys and see what's up with Just Me, next time!

[jhtechgeek2011]

Ignored boundaries, noisy, rude people, and stupid work crap

I am so tired of having people ignore my boundaries, like my one friend who cannot shut up about her stupid fwb no matter how many times I tell her she's wrong and can't talk about that right now. Last night it was an entire 8-hour work shift of the same thing about her fwb no matter how many times I said no. She just cannot see how she is impacting me, all she sees is her feelings and how they are moving her and how she needs to share about it. She thinks friendship just means I have to listen and she gets to talk all the time even if I can't hear. She literally doesn't grasp the concept that I get to have a boundary and she doesn't get to cross it because she really super needs to talk about her fwb and his socials and whatever.

Another person who crosses my boundaries a lot is another one of my friends and her thing is that when she is really upset she feels like I should answer immediately even if I cannot due to work or I am walking with my crutch or whatever. Don't blow my phone up 5 times in a row! If I didn't answer after 2 times in a row it means I can't answer at all. I hate it, and it's a boundary I have set and I am fed up with it being crossed. I get very tired of people thinking I don't get to have boundaries and limits because they need whatever it is they need at the time.

Next, I want to talk about some rude people that I am fed up with dealing with. I had a customer at work who kept coming to the desk because everything was not right for them. They were mad because they didn't have internet (all our systems were down) they were mad because they didn't have tv (systems down), they didn't get housekeeping that day (their do not disturb sign was on the door), and all the prices were way too high. They were mad because they had to pay cash at the bar (no credit card machines due to the system issues)and all these other things we had no control over.

I also have dealt with these rude neighbors who like to be right under my windows and be as loud as possible when it's a time we'd be trying to sleep, like late at night and early in the morning. This has been an ongoing issue and I am so fed up with it. I went off on them today yelling for them to shut up and get away from my windows nobody wants to hear their bigass mouths in their house while they're trying to sleep. I literally lost my crap on them so hard this morning because of how much they are doing that rude crap.

Work is stupid right now because I have been told I am supposed to change off of 2nd shift since August and it's October and I am STILL on 2nd shift for the entire week from 10/1/23 to 10/8/2023 or something like that. As well as all week last week up to 9/30/23. I am fed up to death with working on 2nd shift and I want to be done. They need to hire people and they are taking forever with it and they stupidly hired more 1st shift people instead of 2nd shift. And they literally hired someone who can't do the actual 1st shift of our hotel which is 7am to 3pm and not 8am to 4pm.

The hotel keeps having so many people quit or that they end up needing to fire, it's ridiculous. can't you hire people who actually want to work and will stay instead of these temp workers who quit at the drop of a dime? They need to get it together so we can have a stable staff and enough people that we can be able to get things done without our staff being overworked and shorthanded. I am so just tired fo dealing with short staff, enough is enough!

[jhtechgeek2011]

Why do people do these things?

Why do some people not believe they should stop doing something if you tell them it's bothering you. For example, my friend texts me and doesn't understand that if I keep saying this frustrates me I don't like talking about it she should quit talking about it. I get very tired of this kind of thing, and people seem not to know how to stop doing it. They feel like if they really need to talk about it or do it, then they get to do it, no matter how much you hate it. It's an entitled, selfish thing and it irks me to death!

Another thing I can't understand people continuing to do is speeding extremely fast on residential streets with a lot of stop signs/stop lights. You're using up all your gas, and it's not getting you anywhere any faster because you still have to stop at all the signs/lights and watch out for pedestrians, and if you get pulled over for it that's all the time you think you made up by going that fast, gone. It makes no sense at all and yet people continue to think it does. They also care only about themselves and think they're the only driver on the road and that it's their road and they don't have to share it or follow any traffic rules on it if they don't want to.

There is also something else I don't understand. When people call/text/email you or whatever to ask your advice only to ignore it and do what they were gonna do before they asked you. Like if your mind was made up what the hell are you calling me to ask for advice you ain't taking? If you already know you're doing A, don't call and ask me advice and when I say to do B, just completely act like I didn't give the advice in the first place. It's horribly rude and I don't understand why people think it's ok. I guess they don't care and they think they don't know what to do even though underneath they know they're doing A. Or they just can't make decisions or they're just selfish, I don't know.

I also want to know why people think that they can text you or call you and not let you talk. They just keep spewing questions at you while simultaneously giving you no chance at all to answer. My one friend does this all the time. It gets so bad to where she's just basically talking to herself while I keep telling her to shut up and let me talk or I will not be talking to her anymore. That threat of losing my help is the only thing that gets her to stop. It's not even ok and I have explained it until I was sick of talking and she still doesn't get why it's a problem or that she should quit doing it.

The only way I can get her to understand is if once I've threatened to quit talking to her if she does it again, is to follow through on my threat and quit talking to her at least for a few hours or a day unless I feel like it warrants doing more. Also if she does it again after I've stopped for some hours, it becomes a day, if she does it again after that, an entire day, then a week, then a couple, then a month, and after a month if it repeats I just quit until I feel like talking back to her, IF I feel like it. And there has to be a point where it becomes never again if she can't stop, because at that point it's rude, selfish and says I don't care about how you feel.

The last thing that I am trying to understand this week is why people get jobs they absolutely cannot stand doing. Like why do you go through an entire application, interviewing, being hired, and starting the job process just to get there and say "I ain't doing that, I hate doing that kind of job, and walk off? I mean, I cannot understand how you accept a job you do not want as if it's not gonna be something you hate just because you need a job only to quit your first week, it makes zero sense. For example, if you hate cleaning don't get a job in housekeeping. It's not rocket science. Don't apply just to apply because you need something if you absolutely hate that type of work and won't do it, it only makes sense.

I have never understood taking a job you despise so bad you will refuse to do it and walk off if you know you hate it that much. What sense does it make to interview for a job you know you can't stand? And it makes even less sense to accept a job offer for a job you despise and won't be able to keep. This happened not long ago at a job I had and we lost half our new hires in a week because they took jobs that they hated just to have work or something. The second they were told they couldn't just leave with their work halfway done or to do a thing they hated doing in the job or got in trouble for not doing their job correctly they bounced. Don't do this, it is unacceptable.

I guess that people just do things that confuse the rest of us and it isn't going to really make sense to us because we don't think the same way as them. These things make me feel like common sense is dead. Check back next time to see what I have to say next!

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Why do some people get jobs and when they actually start them they don't even want them? It's like, you knew you hated doing that thing why would you accept an interview for it even if you had been applying for all sorts of things to see if anything stuck, if you don't like housekeeping why would you interview for and accept a position in housekeeping, for example?

But this also begs the question, if you hate housekeeping why are you even applying for it in the first place, you're meant to apply for jobs you'd actually do if hired, not things you hate and won't do after being interviewed and hired, not something you will just quit after a day, or week or whatever.

It also drives me crazy when people are given a better position like as a supervisor, and they just quit and don't return to the company as opposed to putting in an actual notice of some kind even if only that day and not two weeks' notice. It's not fair to anyone else at the company for you to just disappear from the job and not come back, They're expecting to have someone working that position that day and start the day to realize they don't and the rest of them are left to clean up the mess you left behind.

Another thing that gets on my nerves is that at one of my jobs, the management company just up and all left in a hurry. It happened over a week or two, and it left a huge mess for those of us who stayed and the new management company to clean up. For a while, we didn't know what was going on, who was the new management, if our jobs would continue, or any of it. The new management has done a decent job trying to get things together but it has been a huge stressful process so far.

The last thing I want to talk about is outside of work, but I cannot understand how people around where I live continue to think that it is okay to be right under/outside of our apartment windows (depending on the floor) being loud as hell, leaving cars with bad mufflers/exhaust systems blowing toxic fumes into our apartments, smoking cigarettes or weed knowing that smoke will blow into our homes if our windows are open, and generally just being rude and inconsiderate to the people that live in my apartment building just because they work in the car wash behind/next door to it.

It is extremely rude of them to do those things as if they own the whole area just because they work next to us/behind us. They don't and this is our home that they are working around and being so rude at. They need to be way more considerate and they literally need to stop opening that stupid car wash at 6 to 7 am because that's way too much stupid noise that freaking early!

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Crazycrochetjen Vlog, Kansas City Chiefs colors dishcloth, and more.

I am happy to announce that I am starting a new vlog, Crazycrochetjens crochet vlog! It’s all about crocheting, stitches, patterns, projects I’m working on, and just how passionate I am about crocheting and how much I love it. It will be live very soon and I will post the channel and the final name of the vlog when it’s published. Since crochet is so much about the colors and the things you do…

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Fake people, drama, mia people, ridiculous bank bs, etc.

I have had it this week with fake people. They act like they are there for you and actually don't care, they pretend to have something to ask you just so they can talk about themselves or be nosy in your business.  Why can't people just be straight up with you? And then they think that they are entitled to everything they want and all you have to give, which is like what world do you live in where you get to have everything someone else has to give, all their help and energy, like what? Why act as if you care about me just to show how much you don't.

Another thing troubling me this week is how can someone just disappear on you, no call, no text, no answering calls or texts and think its ok? What makes them think its ok to have you there just worried sick about them? It makes no sense. Don't run and hide like that face what you did.

Another thing that Ive dealt with this week is stupid bank bs. I had my bank call me for one of those fraud alerts only for the automated thing to transfer me to something entirely unrelated to my bank or fraud alert. They proceeded to screw it up all week until they closed my card because they couldn't verify if it was fraudulent activity on it or not. My other bank closed my account because they didnt give me enough time to fund it. Such silly crap.

The last thing I dealt with this week is just stupid drama. I had people calling just to drag me into their drama and I'm there on the phone like no I don't want drama in my life. Even my family members want to pull me into drama. I've even had people trying to pull me into random drama while I was on my way to the store or other errands. Like nope just keep your drama to yourself. I mean just fighting with each other, trying to get over on people, just the stupidest, most extra stuff ever.

I have had it this week with fake people. They act like they are there for you and actually don't care, they pretend to have something to ask you just so they can talk about themselves or be nosy in your business.  Why can't people just be straight up with you? And then they think that they are entitled to everything they want and all you have to give, which is like what world do you live in where you get to have everything someone else has to give, all their help and energy, like what? Why act as if you care about me just to show how much you don't.

Another thing troubling me this week is how can someone just disappear on you, no call, no text, no answering calls or texts and think its ok? What makes them think its ok to have you there just worried sick about them? It makes no sense. Don't run and hide like that face what you did.

Another thing that Ive dealt with this week is stupid bank bs. I had my bank call me for one of those fraud alerts only for the automated thing to transfer me to something entirely unrelated to my bank or fraud alert. They proceeded to screw it up all week until they closed my card because they couldn't verify if it was fraudulent activity on it or not. My other bank closed my account because they didnt give me enough time to fund it. Such silly crap.

The last thing I dealt with this week is just stupid drama. I had people calling just to drag me into their drama and I'm there on the phone like no I don't want drama in my life. Even my family members want to pull me into drama. I've even had people trying to pull me into random drama while I was on my way to the store or other errands. Like nope just keep your drama to yourself. I mean just fighting with each other, trying to get over on people, just the stupidest, most extra stuff ever.

I have had it this week with fake people. They act like they are there for you and actually don't care, they pretend to have something to ask you just so they can talk about themselves or be nosy in your business.  Why can't people just be straight up with you? And then they think that they are entitled to everything they want and all you have to give, which is like what world do you live in where you get to have everything someone else has to give, all their help and energy, like what? Why act as if you care about me just to show how much you don't.

Another thing troubling me this week is how can someone just disappear on you, no call, no text, no answering calls or texts and think its ok? What makes them think its ok to have you there just worried sick about them? It makes no sense. Don't run and hide like that face what you did.

Another thing that Ive dealt with this week is stupid bank bs. I had my bank call me for one of those fraud alerts only for the automated thing to transfer me to something entirely unrelated to my bank or fraud alert. They proceeded to screw it up all week until they closed my card because they couldn't verify if it was fraudulent activity on it or not. My other bank closed my account because they didnt give me enough time to fund it. Such silly crap.

The last thing I dealt with this week is just stupid drama. I had people calling just to drag me into their drama and I'm there on the phone like no I don't want drama in my life. Even my family members want to pull me into drama. I've even had people trying to pull me into random drama while I was on my way to the store, or other errands. Like nope just keep your drama to yourself. I mean just fighting with each other, trying to get over on people, just the stupidest, most extra stuff ever.

I have had it this week with fake people. They act like they are there for you and actually don't care, they pretend to have something to ask you just so they can talk about themselves or be nosy in your business.  Why can't people just be straight up with you? And then they think that they are entitled to everything they want and all you have to give, which is like what world do you live in where you get to have everything someone else has to give, all their help and energy, like what? Why act as if you care about me just to show how much you don't.

Another thing troubling me this week is how can someone just disappear on you, no call, no text, no answering calls or texts and think its ok? What makes them think its ok to have you there just worried sick about them? It makes no sense. Don't run and hide like that face what you did.

Another thing that Ive dealt with this week is stupid bank bs. I had my bank call me for one of those fraud alerts only for the automated thing to transfer me to something entirely unrelated to my bank or fraud alert. They proceeded to screw it up all week until they closed my card because they couldn't verify if it was fraudulent activity on it or not. My other bank closed my account because they didnt give me enough time to fund it. Such silly crap.

The last thing I dealt with this week is just stupid drama. I had people calling just to drag me into their drama and I'm there on the phone like no I don't want drama in my life. Even my family members want to pull me into drama. I've even had people trying to pull me into random drama while I was on my way to the store, or other errands. Like nope just keep your drama to yourself. I mean just fighting with each other, trying to get over on people, just the stupidest, most extra stuff ever.

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Blown up phones, users and more

Tuesday night at work I had someone call me 4 or 5 times in a row, just one ring hang up, a couple rings hang up, 1 ring hang up, 3 rings hang up like they were just gonna MAKE me answer my phone. It's like dude you're NOT forcing me to answer no matter what you do, I am gonna keep hanging up and declining the call and putting you on silent and do not disturb till you stop it.  I then had 2 friends call and text me following those telemarketer/spammer/bill collector ones with the pattern. Friend 1 would NOT stop calling no matter how many times I kept telling her I CANNOT have phone calls at this job I am at today I can text you but even that is hard. Finally got her to get the point and stop calling, only for her to text a barrage of messages as if I can answer her immediately while a guest is at the desk. I text to tell her this and she doesn't even stop texting so I can get my message through. I then get a call from Friend 2, I tell her one time that I cannot have phone calls at the job I am at right now and we can message but even that is difficult. She immediately stops calling and texts. Friend 1 literally is mad at me for not being able to take her call during the job when I can't take ANYBODY'S calls.  She literally was snapping off at me about she really needed me she had a big emergency her mom did XYZ and her sister did ABC and her dad is mad at HER for it all. I am literally standing at my computer at work looking at this like this is an emergency for YOU, not ME girl. It's that entitlement people have of my needs taking precedence all my things are the biggest emergencies and you gotta help me with them asap!

This entitlement I saw with Friend 1 leads right to what I wanted to say about users. They are entitled, spoiled, selfish, drama queens that feel like everything they are going through is the most important, biggest emergency ever. It is that thing of thinking people owe them something and that they need to get what they think they're owed RIGHT NOW! It's that whole "Karen" mentality that drives me crazy. It can also be that they think they can get away with, get over on, and control everyone and everything. I even have people like this in my family and it sucks. I get calls from certain relatives in the middle of the night all urgent and like its an emergency and all they want is to ask to borrow money that I don't have. I will get called by certain other relatives and friends to ask if I can come to hang out with them only to end up at their house doing something for them, some favor they could have just asked for. They do not, however, ask outright because they know my answer is likely to be no. Like friend 3 that I have who asked me to come to hang out at her house and help her with her resume, cover letter, and website only to turn around and leave me working on it by myself and take off with her boyfriend and not come back for several hours, thereby getting what she really wanted, which was for me to babysit her kids and do her resume and crap for her. She then came back 3 hours later with her boyfriend dropping her off and leaving me stuck without a way home since her boyfriend left with her car. I ended up taking a taxi home because of that. I did NOT write her resume or cover letter and after the first half hour she was gone and I called her for her to tell me she would be back in another half hour, I quit working on her website because I knew what she was pulling and I was NOT going. I will never go to her house again, she blew that option from now on with me. 

I have had too many people trying to use and take advantage of me and I am so over it. Nobody will be allowed to trample my boundaries or use me again. I am not being taken advantage of again. I will help only within my boundaries and limits and I will not stratch or push them for anyone else ever again. If you cannot abide by or accept that, then there's the door go ahead and walk right out of my life. I am not obligated to let  you walk all over my boundaries because you think you are entitled to get your way and have whatever you want from whoever you want it from and to never be told no. I am done with users and "Karens" that think they can do this to people, period.

On another note, I have dealt with a different kind of Karen lately as well. I was at the grocery store the other day and there was a long line at the self check outs, this one particular Karen was taking up the entire aisle leaving no room for people to walk past the self checkouts and get to the chip aisle and frozen section. Everyone's having to go down like the cereal aisle or something and then up the other side by the meat just to get to those 3 aisles on the other side of the aisle hogging Karen at the self checkout. What makes you think you can just do that? There is enough room for you to wait in the self checkout line AND leave enough room for through traffic to other aisles, all you have to do is move over to the side half a foot. This is the same type of person that will pull their car WAY into the traffic lane to parallel park on the curb. If you are parallel parking the entire point is to pull up PARALLEL with the front car and the back into the space between it and the car behind. You REALLY suck at parallel parking if you have to pull your car on an ANGLE out INTO traffic to get into the parking space, that's literally NOT parallel parking. 

The other type of person that I have dealt with is the ones that think they own the entire road and nobody else is driving except them. The ones that will fly down a residential street going highway speed because they're in a hurry. It doesn't even get you where you are going sooner in the long run because the purpose of highway speed is for highways where there are NO stop signs, traffic lights or pedestrians to stop for. I almost got hit twice on either the way to or the way home from work by the same car (I think) doing 55 to 60 mph in a 25mph residential zone. I also live by a school and during the school day the speed drops 5 to 10mph slower to 15 to 20mph. What sense does it even make to go that fast just to stop a block later? NONE! It is dangerous and you're putting everybody's life including your own because you're in a hurry and it doesn't even help you to use all that speed and you just end up arriving either on time or late anyways because you use up all your gas speeding up and stopping over and over so you have to stop at the gas station which deletes any time you made going so fast, either that or you get pulled over and ticketed for speeding like that and end up later than you would have had you just gone a normal speed in the first place. Bottom lime your appointment, date, job, etc. is not more important that people's lives and driving highway speed on city streets wont even save you time anyways because of all the stopping and the potential speeding ticket slowing you down. Just stop the stupid speeding and learn how to share the road with the other people that are using it, you're NOT the only one out here on the road!

One last thing that I have been dealing with lately is people that think they're going to drag you back into bad habits or situations that you have already gotten out of. The worst offenders with this are like what happened with my uncle, he had a bad addiction that he went to NA and got clean from but he had friends that hadn't kicked that were pulling him back into using again. He had to stay away from them in order not to be drawn into a relapse. For me it is with mental health things that i have gotten treatment for and gotten out of that I have certain friends and relatives that want to drag me back into it. Certain things that my bipolar disorder, for example, caused I got help for and stopped doing but certain people in my life try to draw me back into them because they're still stuck in them and haven't gotten the help with it. Another thing is with diets, I no longer deal with diets, I had a problem around diets and eating and I got the help I needed to deal with this problem and am out of those behaviors and don't do diet stuff anymore. Some people that I know are still immersed in that kind of thing and try to draw me in, I have repeatedly said I will not discuss it and am not returning to it. 

One relative I have has this program she is in for therapy about some of these issues and she really expects me to sit with her through all her therapy sessions (online) on the phone with her and I refuse. I have one friend that she checks in with me before and after her similar kind of therapy and on her break in the middle of it but she doesn't expect what my relative does. My relative expects me to sit through the entire thing with her from start to finish because she's afraid or uncomfortable or whatever. I have told her no. I no longer answer her calls when I know it is time for her therapy because she pretty much refuses to take no I can't do this with you for an answer. You're the one in the dang therapy, go take your therapy. I completed mine already Im not going through it all over again.  This same thing happened with a friend of mine when we were in college, she wanted me to go through her classes with her when I already completed them the year before her or the semester before her. I am not getting ready to sit on the phone or chat with you for your whole class when Im already done with that class and got my grade for my work already. People that do that are annoying and selfish. You go deal with your own therapy, own class, own job, whatever, I don't need to do it too, I don't have that job or I finished that course already or I am done with that therapy and on to another type or whatever the case may be, I have been there done that got the t-shirt, your turn. These tend to be the same folks that expect someone to do their assignments in school for them, let them copy your exams, want you to do their work for you at a shared job or work for their job when you have a totally different job and it's not on you that they brought the work home with them or whatever. It's lazy, entitled selfish, and immature of them to do it and I wish that they'd stop. But just because they don't stop doesn't mean I gotta still deal with it, I won't. You do your stuff, I'll be over here doing mine talk to you later bye.

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Drivers lately, tight money, and unemployment woes

Drivers are really stupid lately. Parking halfway into traffic, speeding like it's the Daytona 500 just to stop at a red light or turn into the gas station, jumping out way into the intersection instead of stopping at the freaking stop sign/light like they're supposed to, etc. I was on my way home from my condo job and 3 cars almost hit my Lyft. One jumped far out into the intersection, one was speeding and swerving recklessly around cars going too slow for their liking and nearly hit us on our way out of my job's driveway, and the last driver pulled out from a parking space without looking at all and nearly ran right into us. I also then nearly got run over by a lady speeding through the intersection before my house like she was on the highway, had I looked down I'd have gotten hit, she was going that fast.

Money is really tight right now and jobs are hard to find as well. It took my boyfriend a month to find another job after his caregiving job ended because the elderly people he was helping went into hospice and passed away. He applied and looked every single day and really wanted to work and it still took that long for him to get hired. I am looking for a work-at-home side hustle and I have been for 2 or 3 months. It is ridiculous that with 2 jobs I still can't make ends meet completely. Like how do I need 2 jobs and a side hustle just to have enough to live on? It is RIDICULOUS right now with the inflation and this recession we are in. If they would raise the Federal minimum wage, the states would have to raise theirs, too and then these companies couldn't be out here paying people $9 an hour to bust their asses and still not be able to live. If they would just raise it to $15 an hour people could actually maybe make a decent livable wage but they don't, and then complain about the high unemployment rates and so many people getting government assistance.

And then there is unemployment which does NOT want to pay people the money they EARNED working. The entire point of unemployment is to be able to have money if you are fired through no fault of your own, but for something the employer chose to fire you for, as in not because you had too many no call no shows, but because they had to lower costs and downsized, for example. Or you can get it when your hours are reduced below 32 hours a week on a partial basis. But they will come up with any and every way to deny people the money they are owed. They will count 2 jobs together instead of like they are supposed to, counting them separately. They will tell you they need to call you about some information they don't have and never be available by phone, they will say they sent you some paperwork they never sent and deny you for not turning it in by some deadline you could never meet because the mail doesn't work that fast, literally anything so that they can say no and not pay.

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Crochet Kit from Amazon and new projects

Recently I bought this really cute crocheting kit from Amazon, it has several small skeins of yarn in various colors, crochet hooks, stitch markers, measuring tape, and a couple of other tools I can’t remember the names of. It is really cute and it has a lot of things I always needed with my projects but never had. It has a case to keep it all in that is small enough I can carry it around in my…

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Hospitality and other frustrations

Why do people check into hotels and think that they won't have to pay an incidental guarantee hold, all hotels have one. Also, after that there expect it to be back on their card immediately after they leave when they are told it will be a few BUSINESS days later. They think they can have it Monday when they checked out Saturday or Sunday when the bank isn't open Sunday, those aren't BUSINESS days. They also think holidays are business days. They also think holidays are business days if they land on a weekday when that's not the case. And want to call the front desk having a fit when it's not there. Then what is with like Expedia.com, booking.com, etc, Calling to try and get us at the hotel to waive cancellation fees that come from their end and we don't control it at all? Or they call like to try to get me to change reservations that I can't change and only they can. And what is with people thinking they can check in with cash, no credit or debit card, and no way for us to collect payment if they wreck the room or something. Also, we don't actually take the payment at check-in time and we can't just trust that they'll do it before they leave. No matter how much I say no cash at check-in people still try to get us to accept it.

My other big frustration is with people who think everybody owes them something or that they need to get over on everybody. What gives them the right to treat people like that? What makes them think they can just use take from and hurt people? What makes them so special they don't have to work for theirs like you or I did for ours? It makes me SICK!

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Busy life and some frustrations

I have been very busy lately. I started a new job, so I now have 2 of them. I like the new one as well as the one I already had. Job 2 is at a hotel near my home at the front desk. I was like born to do this job, I love it! It also pays $2.70/hr more than job 1 so that's a plus. The only bummer is the number of Uber/Lyfts I take between jobs and home. I truly need to get my license because depending on rideshare companies to get around sucks and its getting to be ridiculous, I can spend more than a tank of gas on Ubers in one day trying to get between my jobs and home, the doctor and home, etc.

I am planning on saving up enough to get driving lessons for a good while so I can get my license finally. I want to save enough to purchase the lesson pack with like 10 lessons in it or whatever one is the biggest amount of lessons I can get. Last time I did them I had the 5 lesson pack for like $210. It feels good to be able to have enough money now to do things like that. I was struggling so hard and then this hotel job fell right into my lap. It was a blessing from heaven and I needed it so very much.

I have been frustrated though that I have to work my butt off at TWO jobs just to be able to have enough to live. I mean since the hotel pays so much better than the condos, my second job, I could potentially just go full time at the hotel if I needed to, or I could work more hours at the hotel and less at the condos if necessary. The frustration is that I should make enough at the condos that 2 jobs aren't even necessary but the wage is so low that its not enough.

Another thing I have been frustrated with is people. Some people just drive like they own the whole road, they don't care if they hit you or run you over while you're walking or anything else, they drive like they've got no sense in their head. I'm also frustrated with a lot of Uber/Lyft drivers that speed while driving you to your destination and those that are impatient and can't even wait 2 minutes for you to get down the stairs from your place to outside at their car.

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Money Issues

I have been struggling with money for a good while. I have applied for some assistance but I make too much to be eligible by $300/month. They said I can appeal if my income decreases but its like how in the heck am I supposed to keep my bills and rent paid if I already struggle with it at my current income if I lose $300/month more of my income? They want me below poverty level so they can help me get up TO poverty level, like what sense does that make. The guy where I applied gave me other resources but some of them you have to be a parent to be eligible so they're useless. Why do I have to struggle so much to get enough money to make ends meet? Why do I have to struggle so much just to have enough to live on? I am so sick and tired of this struggle. And the state is also garnishing my wages over unpaid taxes, like I have enough money to afford that too. It's never ending and its frustrating as crap. I am so SICK of this CRAP!!

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What is the point of bus drivers speeding when they KNOW the gotta stop in a block in a half anyways? Today the driver barely stopped at my stop and last week he missed it and stopped at the one after mine and I had to walk an extra block and a half to get home. And I almost fell trying to get off the bus. It makes no sense for a bus to speed. Why can't people just slow the heck down when they're about to have to stop anyway? It drives me nuts!

Update: Would you believe another driver 2 drivers missed my stop? At the end of August, like the 30th or 31st the driver missed my stop by almost 4 stops even though someone else was stopping with me and rang it before I did, then I rang it. We got to my stop and he kept driving. I rang the bell again, we got to the next one still no stop even though I rang the bell 2 more times. I keep ringing the bell and he FINALLY stops halfway between the 3rd and 4th stops.

I couldn't believe it, I was late for work I had to wait a whole half hour for another bus cuz I was not very familiar with the area I ended up in and it was dark. Then the next time I worked on Sunday before Labor Day, 9/4 the driver passed my stop and stopped half way into the next block. I almost fell getting off of the bus again too. What IS it with these FREAKING bus drivers? I freaking HATE riding he bus!

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So today I ordered food from Walmart and paid extra for express 2 hour delivery and the driver picked up my food and then for some unknown reason took it back to the store. Now I have to wait for them to either ship it or refund my money. What the heck even? It doesnt make any damn sense! Im SO mad! The customer service rep on the phone gave me a $25 promo code for the inconvenience but how long is it going to take me to get my stuff with it? This WILL be the last time I pay extra for the express shipping and thats if I EVEN order from them again online at all!

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So the rude loud people were back under my window early this morning. I got no sleep at all past 7am. It was my day off and I should have been able sleep in late if I wanted to. The one guy that works in the car wash next door was yelling, laughing loud as hell and having conversations with people right next to him as if the were down the block from him. I shouldn't have been able to hear him up in my 2nd floor apartment when they were outside on the ground floor. I was fed up with that crap this morning.