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My boyfriend broke up with me in January. Still feels like yesterday. Miss you eternally baby

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Guilty

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I’ve been suicidal since I was 11 and now I’m 16 LETTT ME OUTTTTTTTTTTT

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Binged last night and still lost. I love purging 😭

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Doing a liquid fast for 2 days :) had an iced black coffee today

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I was showing my parents my new boots and my dad randomly says “you have such big thighs” bruh.. it might be my time to go for real 😭

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Binged on vodka today ugh why can’t I’d be calorie free

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Being skinny is the reward

Being skinny is the reward

BEING SKINNY IS THE REWARD

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Day 1 fast completed!! I didn’t exercise much today :( only burnt 200 calories but I’m planning on going to the gym tmw :p does anyone have any tips on exercising while fasting?? Ty

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You softies that love sweetspo and body positivity aren’t going to be happy to hear this but telling yourself “it’s ok” and “tomorrow’s a new day” is exactly why you still look like that now. You’re not body positive, you’re contempt with being fat. That may be ok for you, but personally not me. I’m fat-on-my-body phobic.

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Trying to cope with the fact that I won’t be able to have kids due to my mental health. All I’ve ever wanted to be was a mother :( life isn’t fair

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Oh you’re binging again? I thought you wanted to prove everyone who doubted you wrong.. guess not 🤷🏼‍♀️

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I cry everytime I remember I don’t have the bone structure for a super tiny body 🥲 always stuck at averagespo

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This year I WILL get skinny.

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Things to do instead of eating-

Clean/rearrange your room (one of my favorites)

Watch a long YouTube video!

Study

Learn how to crochet!

Take a nap

If you have an animal play with them!

Practice your makeup

Look online for clothes you want at your ugw (one of my faves as well)

Exercise! Usually right after exercising I’ll lose my appetite for a bit

Go on a walk with your dog (if you have one)

Read a book

Paint/draw

Find a penpal! I enjoy the site interpals it’s a free site to find penpals all over the world

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Songs that make me wanna starve harder despite not being about eating disorders-

Brooklyn baby- Lana del Rey

She- Tyler the creator of

Novacane- frank ocean

Cinnamon girl- Lana del Rey

Shades of cool - Lana del Rey

Driving in cars with boys- Lana del Rey

4 morant- doja cat

When she holds me- Becky and the birds

Dream girl- Lana del Rey

Those are just the few I could think of at the moment. I’ll def be adding more later

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Unfortunately I am letting this control my mood I can’t stop crying cus wtf. I’m hoping it��s just because I weighed myself at the end of the night

I literally binged yesterday and lost weight and today I fasted and burned 900 calories and I just weighed my self and I see I gained?! YOURE FUCKING JOKING 😃