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fuuuuck that is my circus. are those…? yep… those are my monkeys….. goddammit.

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“I keep remembering — I keep remembering. My heart has no pity on me.”

— Henri Barbusse, from The Inferno (Boni and Liveright, 1918)

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moodboards playlists web weaving . girl bloggers are museum curators

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i’m so exhausted

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James Baldwin talking about love

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Take It Easy☀️

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tomorrow by together 'kitto zutto' - chikai, july 3, 2024

the visuals were so good i made it a gif

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tomorrow x together 'kitto zutto' - chikai, july 3, 2024

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the curse of summer is buying and eating an inadvisable amount of fruit in single sittings.

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turning 18

i use my internet phases as a form of time relativity because in my head the years all sound the same to me. every year close to my birthday i reminisce abt what media i was really into the year before, however i feel like for the past 3/4 years i haven't changed much (i know i probably have) because all my interests have stayed somewhat the same and it's kinda disheartening to see all my irl and online friends move on to other things and what not ... maybe i'm just a super sentimental person who doesn't want to grow out of the media i liked at 15 or maybe clinging onto memories of the past like that is what's actually stopping me from growing up. like i feel so left behind it's not even funny .... maybe im just a #loyalfan to the same niche

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microfame or mysterious no in between

i feel like behind every create mode story user on a small finsta is a former meme page admin, fan account, editing account owner, u name it, that absolutely blew up one year but then woke up one day and decided to live the mysterious life

like there is no option to just have a normal main account we have to broadcast our thoughts somewhere and i think that is so special

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it was so empty and easy to be hateful but so fulfilling and meaningful to be kind

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Self improvement is great but ultimately? you have to accept your self. Yes you can eat better, exercise more, read more, set boundaries, love your self, but it all comes down to this. Some days you won’t have the energy to do any of these things. And you’ll look in the mirror and think that this is not enough. That’s a lie. The biggest love for self is to live slowly. To rest. To really rest. Have a nap. Eat what makes you feel good. Read if you want to. Embrace yourself and accept that you cannot and will not be ever be perfect. Accept that you are good enough. You don’t need to keep busy all the time. you don’t need to go out all the time and post on instagram. You don’t need to journal if you don’t want to. You don’t need to make art if you don’t want to. Breathe, give yourself grace and compassion. Give yourself the love and tenderness you so badly need. Be gentle with yourself. You are trying and it is good enough. You are good enough.

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give a girl a notebook and suddenly she's franz kafka.

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it’s scary to realise i’m burning out of the interests that made me so happy merely a couple years ago, and i pretend not to notice in a desperate attempt to cling to better days

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it’s interesting to cry while taking a shower. the echoes of my sniffles sound so loud from within the glass, but the downpour of water on my face conceals my tears and the noise. nobody has to know but me and i walk out of the bathroom a new person

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BSD 109 spoilers!

This detail of the scale in the new BSD official art with Dazai and Fyodor is more than life and death on a scale and let me explain why

I was inspired to make this even though i don’t use tumblr much (i want to now after twitter died) after reading @soupthatistohot ‘s post on BSD as an absurdist text - I found it rly interesting!!

To summarise it for context, “Absurdism is the belief that the world around us is irrational and inherently absurd and that explicitly seeking meaning is pointless … All of the animanga’s main characters are on a journey of discovering their meaning in life, and their place in the world, and they do this by rebelling against its absurdity — especially Dazai.”

We can think of the scale as an allusion to Shakespeare’s Merchant of Venice, where the scale has been famously used to represent the 1 pound of flesh with no extracted blood- essentially no violence or death- that is to be given in exchange for being unable to repay a loan - ultimately, an exact pound of your flesh being extracted would result in death. The scale in the official art depicts that ‘flesh’ in the form of a heart (a vital organ) is of equal weight to an angel wing. Presenting the angel wing which cannot exist in the real world, Asagiri utilises the fantasy elements of BSD to fully drive the possibility for the ability users to thrive within the non-ability world, ‘discovering their meaning … and their place in the world’. This is important because earlier as stated, BSD rebels against absurdity. Dazai’s side with the angel wing suggests his nature to rebel from the original narratives - to subvert our expectations and come out of this through his own means, using his ability for good. To be on the side that saves people.

The sheer fact something like an angel wing-a miracle, basically, from Dazai’s side is possible to resolve conflict and be of equal standing to the pound of flesh that was demanded to repay the loan is crazy. The pound of flesh/flesh on a scale representation has been seen in multiple pieces of media- within animanga, It’s seen in Moriarty the Patriot as a direct reference in one scene too!

Bringing this back to the scale itself, the skull represents mortality - important because multiple character’s mortality are at stake as a result of the present saga’s conflict. Skulls can also represent the opposite however, protection, power, and a gratitude towards life. Further if you wanted to draw upon the ideals of Memento Mori it’s just an overarching symbol that lies perched at the very top of the official art that reminds us that despite these character’s absurdist rebellions, nobody can escape death overall … well, maybe Dazai can here 🤷‍♀️

There’s a lot more I want to say about the official art’s intertextual symbolism… I love how BSD official artworks always have some dichotomy between the setting and the characters that prove something or else.

Let’s hope for a happy ending!!