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I was reading a fanfic about Marauders (as one does of course), and I can't seem to remember...

Is it said in canon about whether can a person use the Marauder's map and watch where someone is, while being far from Hogwarts themselve?

Please, help a fellow Marauders' fan for science reasons🥲

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I've come to conclusion that it's because it is one of the most popular tropes: The character A, who's extraverted, sporty, shiny like sun and loves almost everyone (James, Kuroo) and character B, who's introverted, hates people except for character A, kinda grumpy, sarcastic and smart (Reggie, Kenma)

And i have no idea why i did not realise it sooner🥲

Hear me out

Kuroken are giving Jegulus vibes and vice versa

and I'm not gonna comment on that.

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What's it like being sad, totally lost and optimistic at the same time? Thoughts and hopes, life, dreams and fears

I wonder if it's just me, or are there other people who have never had a serious long-term relationship?

I think there are definitely such people, but, for some reason, I have not met them.

I once wrote in my diary that my main dream in life is to meet love.

And I really, really want this.

I... over time, I seem to lose faith that out there somewhere is my person.

That they would love me with all their soul and with all their heart. Just like that.

Just because I am me.

Of course, I crave that with all my soul.

My heart breaks every time I think about it.

Because with every rejection, with every unrequited feelings, with every bad attitude towards me, I really lose hope that I will meet a decent person.

And after all, I foolishly began to believe that until I achieve something myself, until I start living separately, until I find a job, I will not be worthy of being someone's girlfriend...

I understand that this is not the case. That love should not be based on human achievements. But I can't help but think about it.

Now is exactly the time when I need to look for something that I want to do in my life. And a job that will bring me money.

But I can't.

I'm afraid. I really am scared.

I'm afraid that if I don't find a job as soon as possible after uni-graduation, my parents will be disappointed in me. That they will tell me about the fact that it is not necessary to work in an interesting field for me. That if I want to grow up, then I need to work. Try everything. That they wouldn't understand me.

And that I won't understand myself.

How do I find something that I really want to do?

And how do you find the strength to start?

To even talk to people?

To not be afraid.

I don't know.

I have no idea what I'm going to do.

And I feel so lonely.

I have a loving family, friends, acquaintances.

But there is no one with whom I can really discuss everything...

Why do I feel so lonely if I have people around?

And why am I always afraid that I don't have people who would choose me in a room full of people?

That I'm not the first choice for anyone...

I don't know what to do with all these feelings and thoughts, except to write here.

Even reading another fanfiction about Dramione (i mean, come on, what a great thing to be sad about), I was upset again that I didn't have such a deep connection with anyone.

That in my life, there is no friendship and no love like in books or movies.

Of course, i try be patient and optimistic. I really like living my life.

But sometimes, i cannot help these moments. They just happen.

I guess i just need to live through this, and find something i like.

It's all worth the wait.

Right now, i really enjoy my everyday yoga-routine. I quite like taking care of myself really.

There's something aesthetically beautiful in putting time and energy to my well-being and appearance.

I know, my thoughts are kinda chaotic, but hey, welcome to the life of 22 year old girl, who just loves her multifandom self, and tries to be as happy as she can🙌

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Not an artist, but I tried my best to draw Cardan, love him so much🙌💜

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Hear me out

Kuroken are giving Jegulus vibes and vice versa

and I'm not gonna comment on that.

[ksander-ss]

Is it only me or has anyone noticed that lately Luis.Huser has filmed a lot of Sirius Black videos (and ahhh, especially the ones with p4perback - the perfect Moony)

And I am so in love with his charisma, looks and everything else.

So yeah, the author of this video is Luis.Huser on tiktok (credits to him). I just wanted to share my admiration with someone :)

my thoughts about this particular tiktok:

The way he leaned his back against the closet and all that, it looks soo.. idk, cinematic, and I just imagined it like Sirius realizing his love for Moony or smth like that

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just some thoughts

I'm a fanfiction author, but I have never written in English before.. Only in my native language. And now I started writing about marauders, but it's so difficult🥲

The hardest thing for me is to finish what I started. Like, at first I get carried away and write a lot without stopping, but then I get distracted by something else and I can no longer write.

Maybe it's just an adhd thing, but idk, I'll try anyway😌

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I just love it

boyfriend material- xavier thorpe hc’s

- he’s like a little mystery box. always unraveling and ever changing

- nothings ever dull between the two of you. plans spontaneous dates or hangouts when he starts to get antsy

- very insecure, so he just wants to reassure himself that you still like him

- VERY VERY protective. not to be self-indulgent but as a small person, he uses his height as an advantage /strength for this. taller than most, he can come off as intimidating very easily. a simple arm around your shoulder or chin on the crown of your head and the person flirting with you will get the hint

- draws on you when he’s bored. specifically in class, he likes drawing hearts with his initials in them on your wrists (a little self-obsessed one might say…)

- back to the height thing, he’s an asshole. purposely putting your belongings up high, or coming up behind you while your mid conversation and picking you up.

- you guys have staring contests where the first to blink has to do whatever the other person says (kind of like a dare). he does this thing where if it’s been going for long, his eyes widen and he looks like a mad man

- has an abundance of drawings of you that you will never see. his collection started well before you guys started dating (tortured artists are wack man)

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recently I fell in love with jegulus

When I started reading fanfiction (which BTW was a very long time ago) I was a fan of Dramione, then Drarry, a couple of works with the Weasley twins, then I eventually stopped on Wolfstar.

I thought that this is my endgame ship.

But god.. no.

James and Regulus seem so perfect together.

I can't get enough.

Oh, and also, in my head I picture them as Timothee Chalamet and Aaron Taylor Johnson. Idk if it's a great choice for a fan cast, but it's all over the internet, and I like it, so yeah

[ksander-ss]

𝗜 𝗮𝗯𝘀𝗼𝗹𝘂𝘁𝗲𝗹𝘆 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗱𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀,

and omg, I think, it touches some part inside of me, that always makes me believe in Narnia✨🤫

—

Wrong will be right,

when Aslan comes in sight,

At the sound of his roar,

sorrows will be no more,

When he bares his teeth,

winter meets its death,

And when he shakes his mane,

we shall have spring again.

—

𝘊𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘓𝘦𝘸𝘪𝘴 «𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘊𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘤𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘕𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘢»

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just some thoughts about 'Eragon'

When they reach the burning plains, Eragon remembers the old days when they traveled with Murtagh, and thinks that he would like to fight with him again with swords, as they often did before.

And after a while, Murtagh appears on the red dragon, and he and Eragon actually meet again in a duel.

I can imagine Eragon's thoughts at this moment: 'When I said I would like to fight him again, that's not what I meant!'

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call me by your name and I'll call you by mine..

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I love them❤️