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At this point…. Why do we even watch new shows…..

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Btw Lower Saxony is where I was born and raised but I was kind of difficult to think of these twelve options? 🙈

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Rainbow Mountain of Peru by Katarina Mandarina

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brown sugar and cinnamon are lesbian married

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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human brain is so easy to manipulate its stupid. sun is out longer in evening = life is worth living...read some negative social media posts = everybody hates me...read one interesting article = i have the scholar's ambition

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Art by @ soapap

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I get my media recommendations the old fashioned way: by watching someone I follow on here go on an unhinged reblog spree of media related content until I eventually decide to go "alright, what's all this then"

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performing an exorcism but i recite the lorem ipsum dolor sit amet placeholder text

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The chunky TV, the MySpace emo, Ouran highschool host club… those were the days.

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Tumblr is where girls go to be alone with other girls who are being alone and that's why I've been using this site for so long

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Jenny George

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Cannot stop thinking about Anne magill paintings. Maybe my new favorite painter. She just captures this ..,,,,,, dreamy feeling...,,, a certain tenderness..... a fleeting moment of contentedness..... like nothing else I’ve seen

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MAKE YOU MINE (2024) // JENNIFER'S BODY (2009)

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idk who Jasmine is but she really went off with that rice

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now that i am a real adult i am starting to realise. media lied to me about the availability of rooftops to go hang out on. every day i wish i could be hanging out on a rooftop somewhere looking cool as fuck