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☘ I'm really suffering not having a scale, I feel like I'm finally pushing through this stagnation and getting smaller again but I also feel like I could be going insane too though because without a scale, without the numbers, I can't prove it to myself so I just look at myself in the mirror and if I feel like I've done good at ⚝ving I look smaller and if I feel like I did bad I still look the same :/

It's harder to stay motivated too, I fell in love with watching the numbers and it kept me in check, in control.

Now I just do my best and hope I'm not delusional when I feel like my thighs are finally starting to shrink ☘

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stomach just growled like it doesn't have my thigh fat to eat from

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Blue or Red ?

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I've been so awful lately 😭 I don't know what's come over me but I've just been eating and eating and I just want food to go away

hopefully I can get back on track soon :/

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I'm starting to be able to feel a little more of my bones and it's honestly so addicting, I want to feel more of them

the slow revealing of them from under my stupid soft fat is so rewarding, I touch them to remember how far I have to go

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Logically I know at my cw I'm pretty close to conventional standards, and I should love how I look rn.

Disorderdly I'm disgusting and need to lose 30+ lbs

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My goals

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Feeling full makes me feel dirty and disgusting

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opening tumblr whenever i get hungry like a soldier in war gazing lovingly at a photo of his wife

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This is said all the time. I don’t think people let it sink it. The food will be there later. The food will be there later. If there’s something you’re severely craving just..don’t eat it. It’s that easy. You can order it/make it when you’re skinny, but is it really worth it to eat it while you’re still fat? There’s absolutely zero reason why you need to eat a certain food right now, literally just eat it when ur skinny. It’ll taste the same, just..doesn’t come w the guilt.

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It should be illegal for menus to not have calories on it

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victoria secret models <3

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I'm so hungry , for a skinny body 

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~goals~

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so i realized something, I'm like 10 lbs away from my og gw and I'm still disgusting :/ I am definitely sure now that my gw was not nearly low enough, going for around 145-130 now, it's going to be a slightly longer road than I thought but I'm so close to finally getting there, I'll see the first acceptable numbers on the scale, and I'll finally get to be skinny and beautiful while I smoke cigarettes in the park and ⭐ve to perfection ♡

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Some th!nspo i found on pinterest, not my stuff

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me with my bf in bed next to me 👀

yes im terrified of people finding out about my 34t1ng d1s0rd3r. yes i go on twitter and tumblr in public. yes we exist.