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don't ignore your alters. don't push your parts away. don't pretend like they don't exist. ''if i ignore them, they will go away,'' <--- something you shouldn't do. even if you don't like your system, it is not something you can ignore. they will not vanish because you're ignoring them. please, cooperate. work with them. you share a body. not liking them doesn't matter. you share a life with them and everyone has the responsibility to move forward and live the life. it's okay to dislike your system. it's not okay however to ignore them, push them away, pretend they don't exist, not do anything to help them and just let everything be in chaos. that will not help. it will make everything worse. love for your system means cooperating; working as a team, family or roomates; maybe even coworkers; and not ignoring and confusing everyone in your system because you hate them. moral of the story, ignoring your system won't make them go away. once your parts are there; they'll always be there. do the bare mininum and at the very least, work together.

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I crave that connection that everyone else gets to feel and have and im jealous that its just out of my reach and ill never feel it. ill just always be disconnected.

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really sick of myself lately and my life and just. how badly anxiety stops me from everything.

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be gone depression (the silly goofy guy took over again)

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why do i constantly try to explain to my girlfriend how disconnected I am from things sometimes and then upset her like maybe I should learn to stfu

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when you get the sudden urge to delete everything and start over

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I love when Wade fronts because it feels like its a time for me to just soak up all his silly and happy energy even if he's not really a happy person. Fake it til you make it, and it works on me the most 😭

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I feel disconnected from everything today but at least I can watch a movie 5 times and still not know what happened in it

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I'm not used to being yelled at! Not that I can't handle it—I can so handle it! Kind of. Well, I'm able to roll my eyes about it and shake it off. But why are you yelling at me? 🤨 Do we have a problem?

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I hate thinking I did things that I definitely didn't do and then getting obsessed with the thought that maybe I did. it feels so weird. I think maybe im just blurry today, but everything feels strange and like a dream that I just keep repeating.

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I guess our system is mostly fictive-heavy bc I've been into Marvel since I was a kid, something my dad got me into. I guess I should stop naming them after Marvel characters, but I'm not that creative 😭

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im someone who also feels really inhuman around people, ur not alone. i believe in you i think you can find people who truly get you /gen

I don't even know if its that they don't get me bc my closest friend says they feel like an animal a lot too. I think it's just how im always going to feel even around the ppl who get me. it might be a DID thing or autism thing or trans thing or whatever it is, but either way I think im always going to feel a little alien and I accept it tbh!! it just sucks sometimes

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I never feel like I fit in with anyone and even my closest friends or my girlfriend I still feel so alien from them. I feel like no one will ever understand me but me even when I find people who understand me so well. I just feel like an animal. I dont feel human compared to them.

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It's truly so strange for me to realize that when I'm super upset and then suddenly fine like nothing was ever wrong it's typically an alters doing! Like yesterday, I thought I felt so blurry, and one of us was really upset and uncomfortable. As soon as he stopped fronting, I was suddenly fine like nothing had even happened. It's funny and its odd and I'm not used to realizing that my mood swings aren't just me being cold or random. It's just having alters.

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have a lovely day! treat yourself with kindness, you deserve it for getting yourselves through each and every day :D!

thank you!!!! ��� really thankful I can rant on here and be reminded that I deserve a bit of kindness too!!! ❤️

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fronting today feels weird, like I'm just a blur of 3 people. It makes it hard to talk or do anything. I feel bad for my gf because she is worried for us when we are like this, and I get awkward telling her because its just another DID problem

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I want to make a pinned post for us so bad, but I don't really know what I'll put in it. We are all too indecisive. Everyone wants to show off their personality (by everyone, I'm talking like 2 others—its not that much lmfao). I want it to look nice and match what we like... but we like so many different things that it's just not possible to have one theme.