#moth.text

[living-as-a-robot]

I hate thinking I did things that I definitely didn't do and then getting obsessed with the thought that maybe I did. it feels so weird. I think maybe im just blurry today, but everything feels strange and like a dream that I just keep repeating.

[gothmothgoblin]

im majoring in cozy-wozy and minoring in comfy-womfy

[thespacestationsys]

Hey, it's Anon/Bambi here, with Moth.

Hallmark romance movies are *incredibly* repetitive and nonsexual, and thats a reason I don't like them.

But I suppose, lots of movies are repetitive, so that's probably why I just don't like movies in general.

Also just, ew romance. Not my thing. I come in for carnalities. That's all people love me for, and I'm okay with that.

[living-as-a-robot]

I crave that connection that everyone else gets to feel and have and im jealous that its just out of my reach and ill never feel it. ill just always be disconnected.

[living-as-a-robot]

I love when Wade fronts because it feels like its a time for me to just soak up all his silly and happy energy even if he's not really a happy person. Fake it til you make it, and it works on me the most 😭

[gothmothgoblin]

also the “this guys is freaking weird 🤨” to “this guy is freaking weird 🥴” pipeline. deadly.

the “this guy looks weird” to “this guy looks weird 😳” pipeline literally so dangerous.

[living-as-a-robot]

I feel disconnected from everything today but at least I can watch a movie 5 times and still not know what happened in it

[living-as-a-robot]

when you get the sudden urge to delete everything and start over

[living-as-a-robot]

I guess our system is mostly fictive-heavy bc I've been into Marvel since I was a kid, something my dad got me into. I guess I should stop naming them after Marvel characters, but I'm not that creative 😭

[living-as-a-robot]

I never feel like I fit in with anyone and even my closest friends or my girlfriend I still feel so alien from them. I feel like no one will ever understand me but me even when I find people who understand me so well. I just feel like an animal. I dont feel human compared to them.

[living-as-a-robot]

fronting today feels weird, like I'm just a blur of 3 people. It makes it hard to talk or do anything. I feel bad for my gf because she is worried for us when we are like this, and I get awkward telling her because its just another DID problem

[living-as-a-robot]

why do i constantly try to explain to my girlfriend how disconnected I am from things sometimes and then upset her like maybe I should learn to stfu

[gothmothgoblin]

abortion has been around longer than religion and longer than civilization.

animals abort their babies when they know there wont be enough food or cant handle a birth. one of my own rats stress aborted her babies bc she didnt want to be a mother and as a runt it wouldnt have been ideal for her to carry a lot of babies. she could have died.

plants will abort new blooms when the plant knows it cannot support another healthy fruit! sometimes its immediately when the flower has been pollinated, sometimes it will wait until the fruit is far along before it decides to stop sending nutrients to that particular branch or bloom!

its insane to hold all people to some arbitrary religious bias, saying its unnatural.

abortion exists in all forms of nature and is a human right. its cruel and disgusting to expect every single living person w a uterus to have a child despite their living situation and bodily capabilities, and ALSO if it’s literally just not something that that person wants to do.

[gothmothgoblin]

You are a distant cousin

how distant tho bc i think im in love

[gothmothgoblin]

met someone who my friend group has been hyping up for a year tonight and she literally looked and talked to me like i was not worth one second of her time 😃

unfortunately i have formed Opinions

[gothmothgoblin]

my adhd and ocd powers combining to create the most asinine, meticulously crafted lists that i will either instantly forget abt or update forever.

i write down every single achievement and challenge for a game before i start so when i achieve them i can cross it off

how many plants are in my house and how many of each breed. i debated counting by pot or like off how many babies/offshoots , i settled on per pot

the names of my all my lipsticks in alphabetical order, by brand.

i have 9 different am*zon lists i update regularly (sorry)

one time i tracked how many times i ate toast one year on a sticky note i taped to my wall

these are just off the top of my head