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why does it take so much effort to convince myself that my friends might actually like me and want to spend time with me

from my perspective, i am burdensome and annoying. so reconciling that statement with the act of hanging out with people who care about you is insurmountable.

i would rather go out alone than trouble someone to make time for me. i, however, have an abundance of time for my friends, no matter the ask.

maybe i should just trust the fact that they enjoy my company, irrespective of how stupid that sounds to me.

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the amount of serotonin that the release of 'sunrise on the reaping' is giving me is insane. i can't believe i finally get to read haymitchs story.

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rereading hunger games because it is simply that time of the year.

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grave of the fireflies

studio ghibli movies were not only comfort but also a place to escape. surrounded by characters learning to grow and know themselves in this world, i was always left with a sense of wonder and a bittersweet awe. this movie broke that streak. i was forced to face the horrors of the world and look at something beyond myself.

i sobbed for hours after watching it. in war-torn japan, two orphans try to survive in a world hellbent on killing them. from the first five minutes of the movie, we know what is bound to happen. and yet when the time comes, the grief won't leave. the unexpected feelings of anger, injustice, pity, sadness swarm you and refuse to leave long after the movie has ended and everyone has moved on.

why must fireflies die so young

it was a heartbreaking, thought-provoking piece of art. unlike other movies i rate 5/5, i will never watch this again. my heart can't handle pain this intense again.

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might have accidentally fallen into a reading slump.

might be because i cant find the right book. might be because life is kinda shit rn. might be because i want to spend more time watching movies than reading. idk.

give me book recommendations please. thanku.

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read everyone in my family has killed someone by benjamin stevenson.

absolutely adored the writing style. it gave deadpool meets an incompetent hercule poirot.

i would recommend it if you want a cozy lighthearted witty winter murder mystery.

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went to a secret santa event at a bookshop to exchange books with strangers. came back with a hardback cozy christmas murder mystery novel. i am the chosen one.

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want to reread harry potter this winter season but can't stop thinking about the fuckery of jk rowling.

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angry about the fact that 'reader' is a thing.

ive seen people judge others for what they read, especially on social media. thinking that you're a reader only if you read classics, philosophy, russian lit etc is pretentious and unnecessary.

as someone who reads every mainstream genre and more, i don't think i'm much more of a reader than someone who only reads one. you're entitled to read whatever you want and not be subjected to judgment. cause at the end of the day reading should be fun, not something u do to show others that you're better than them.

call yourself a reader even if you only consume fanfics or romance novels throughout the year. call yourself a reader even if you only read one book a year. call yourself a reader even if you used to read a lot as a child but don't have the time anymore.

reading should provide u comfort and an escape, it shouldn't be competitive or elitist

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freida mcfadden writes books that are so easy to read, kinda predictable plot twists but amazing writing. every book so far has been a slay tbh

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the intensity and dynamic of the characters and their insane storyline. vander and silco? jinx and vi? jinx and isha? jayce and viktor? vi and cait? ambessa and mel? loris and vi? i could go on

spoilers btw but

also, the utter tragedy of jinx. she just wanted someone to love her, be there with her, for her. her relationship with silco was so heartbreaking, both wounded and betrayed by someone they trusted. circumstances beyond their control but still. silco loved her so much.

then jinx found isha and never told her to stay behind, took her everywhere. but that ended in a futile death, firming jinxs belief that everyone around her dies. ekko saving her again and again, but her fate was sealed. she died protecting vi, as much as i don't wanna believe it, i love that this is how her story ended.

also the way vi fell in a drunken pit fighting bender after a week long homoerotic situationship???? relatable

im never getting over this show

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arcane is a masterpiece solely because of vi and cait making out to a king princess song. lives were changed

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look back was everything and more. i love tatsuki fujimoto and his ability to make absolutely stunningly beautiful work.

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i picked up the last book of the dark verse series and the writing???? i absolutely adore the worldbuilding and the entire premise, it invokes a lot of emotion. but i just can't with some of these smutty lines.

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started my annual gilmore girls rewatch and watching rory in chilton made me realise how relatable she is

a teenager with insurmountable amounts of potential making fucked up decisions leading to her not attaining her full potential??? having life all planned out all for it to fizzle when u finally face the competition of the real world??

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got unironically hooked to tft in the middle of exam season. omw to binge watch arcane now brb

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didnt know i could find turning into a giant disgusting bug and traumatising everyone around me so relatable