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I actually have sex every day.

S eroquel

E ffexor xr

X anax

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Vincent Giarrano

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Reblog if you’re a dumb girl in need of rough sex and praise ✨

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It’s okay to be obsessed with me. Actually it’s encouraged.

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Asexual HPD culture is explaining to a group of friends how you have little to no desire for sex and little to no sexual attraction, but you still want sex, not for the sex itself but for the attention you'd get from it, and accidentally helping one of them figure out their sexuality crisis by doing so

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Having a joyfriend and a pd is like. Okay I thought I made peace with my symptoms but now they're affecting someone else a lot no no no.

I do my best to not manipulate. To not weaponize my mood changes for attention. But I want to. Because I'll be crying and I'll want attention.

Except we're on the phone and I do not want to be a bad person so what do I do? I cry silently and when they hang up I dare weep for they didn't listen to the sirens I kept muzzled?

Dude. DUDE.

First thought reflex is I need to be worse, that'll give me more attention. But I want to be okay. Fuck.

This is why I don't keep razors in this house.

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Me, every september: Oh gosh I'm so ready for spooky season, Halloween costume and inktober and pumpkins!

Me, every October 31st: Wait no I was depressed and didn't do any of those, can we please start over?

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tw suicide

Cluster B culture is finally calming down from almost attempting suicide and then getting disappointed when no one notices & tells you how proud they are of you for still being alive 

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Dyspunktional / Dyspunk Flag!

This is largely based off of the original flag, but I decided to do my own interpretation. I did not make dyspunktional, this is just my proposal for a flag.

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The circled-A symbol represents punk, as it is the symbol of anarchism and has strong ties with the punk movement. The colors of each stripe are from the disability flag, the stripes of which are for different types of needs and disabilities (mental illness, intellectual and developmental disability, invisible and undiagnosed disabilities, physical disability, and sensory disabilities).

The shape of the flag is a chevron, and I chose this for a few reasons. Firstly, solidarity with other minorities, such as queer people. Many people have seen a similar chevron on a queer flag (however, I did make it far different so they wouldn't be confused for one another). In essence, it's meant to represent minorities within the minority, as well as solidarity with other minorities. Secondly, it simply looks cool, without being too jarring in its colors to the point of being eyestrain-y.

And that's about it! Dyspunktional was made with all disabled people in mind, so anyone fitting that descriptor is welcome to use this, just like they can be dyspunktional in general. You're free to use my flag for whatever, and edit it to your liking. I even included a transparent set of the chevrons in case you wanna change the background.

Under the cut, I'm going to put the definition of dyspunktional, as well as some alternate flags.

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Definition of dyspunktional:

(From here, + archive)

"Dyspunktional is about radical inclusivity – there is no person who considers themselves disabled that isn’t included under the term, should they want to use it.

It’s a portmanteau of “dysfunctional” and “punk”: Dysfunctional because it can apply to any and all disabilities because the definition of a disability is that it inhibits daily function. Punk because it represents our rebellion against the harmful categorization of the medical industrial complex and against the society that refuses to give us (disabled people) what they need to fully participate in that society.

Because it’s based on the idea of radical inclusivity, Dyspunktional has no space for gatekeeping, no space for denying the experiences of others and should be focused on creating community and solidarity with all disabled people. The idea is that all of us are dysfunctional and therefore, all of us are gatekept from society in various ways and while our experiences are different, they do not differ in worth. No disabled person’s voice is unnecessary in the fight against ableism, no disabled person’s experience should go unheard.

No disabled person’s experience is more or less important than another’s. We all have something to offer to each other, we all have something to offer to the cause and no one should be afraid of speaking up or have their experiences doubted and questioned by other disabled people – we are already dealing with that coming from the medical establishment and abled society.

So, uh… IDK, join me in claiming our dysfunction and disability as something to be proud of and in rebelling against the system that wants us dead and wants to hold us down!

Be dyspunktional!"

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Alternate flags:

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Okay, let’s put it like that:

Empathy is the ability to feel what others feel, so it’s a form of communication. If someone is distressed you might experience that distress too, through whatever chemical brain thing.

You know what is distressed?

An onion.

Onions don’t want to be eaten or sliced or diced. So they release enzymes that makes you cry when they cry.

You have empathy for the onion.

Does it prevent you from eating onions? No.

Do the people that don’t cry when cutting onions spend their wholes lives pursuing onions with the sole purpose of cutting them? No.

Having no/low empathy doesn’t make someone abusive.

People with no/low empathy are perfectly capable of having good and healthy relationship.

Empathy isn’t as important as you think it is.

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The Histrionic Personality Disorder awareness flag by @bpd-zant

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This is an HD rendition of the HPD flag made by a deleted Tumblr account. A reblogged post of the original can be found here, and the original post itself can be found here, however the link is broken. I'm simply providing it just as a reference. If someone is able to find an archived version of the original post, please let me know!

Sadly, because the OP deactivated, the stripe meanings are unknown. If I remember right, I think the bottom stripe was meant to represent cluster b solidarity. But, because people with HPD get so little in both the community and in general, I wanted to make an HD rendition, and be able to show people this gorgeous flag so that it can still be remembered and used.

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I know exclusivity is so 2014, and yeah, it's important for both of us to see other people, but sometimes it makes me feel like I am not enough. I mean I have depression and adhd and hpd and npd, are you sure you need to keep seeing other patients?

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Sweet, sweet meltdown.

You know that moment when you're crying on the floor and trying to figure out if you're going to make it better or make it worse? Yeah, that.

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Queer Cluster B culture is "yeah pretty much every cool villain ever was based on me."

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Probably the best description of NPD I've seen to date. It's long, but it's good. I like how the author sees it as a spectrum.

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ASPD Resource List 

Books and things to read:

Antisocial, Borderline, Narcissistic and Histrionic Workbook: Treatment Strategies for Cluster B Personality Disorders 1st Edition - A workbook that covers all Cluster B personality disorders. I don’t know how good the parts about ASPD are but it has great reviews.

Life with ASPD - An article from someone with ASPD about his life and experiences

Recovery and self improvement tips from someone with ASPD - what it says on the tin.

Treatment of antisocial personality disorder (sci hub): Development of a practice focused framework - An academic journal challenging the idea that ASPD cannot be treated

Coping with cluster B traits by psychonarc

Videos:

An interview with a sociopath (antisocial personality disorder and bipolar) - An interview by SBSK of a person with ASPD, his experiences, and his journey through recovery

Megan’s ASPD playlist - A very informative set of videos about living and coping with ASPD.

I have Antisocial Personality Disorder - My Story - A video by Light Ediand about living with ASPD and dispelling some myths around it

Seven Myths about Antisocial Personality Disorder by Dr Todd Grande - what it says on the tin.

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No, no, I'm not done with cleaning my place, can I have two more days of hypomania before crahing? Pretty please?