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how r u doing r u out of hospital

Doing ok, in another hospital xxx

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My girlfriend and I watch u on YouTube. We love you When r u going to make another YouTube video

Thanks so much !!! Soon very soon ill keep you guys posted on here xxx

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Dammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmn girl u look extremely young!!!!!! Ur going to be 28????? I thought u were 21. U could pass for a 19 year old. Ur almost 30? Omg! U look good!!!!!!! I wish I looked as young as you do

Why thanks I'm flattered I do get that alot lol hope my young looks stay with me ; )

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This is my peg tube. I am on it from 7 am untill 10pm.

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24/ 4/16 . Break up and break downs.

Hi guys so sorry it’s been a while loads has happened quick update on the life of Courtney. . Was admitted to Pysch for med changes , wasn’t ready to leave but my Dr discharged me anyway. . Went to the ED multiple times in the last month for self distructive behaviors. My parents after being together almost 30 years decided to split up not only that they told my the day before my 28th birthday. . On the 14/4/16 would have made my baby I lost 5 this year. . Got a peg tube placed, back on 15 hourly feeds. . And I lost myself. . I was admitted to public psych and sectioned 4 days ago. . And am still here. . Major ups and major downs. . But I have the support of my wonderful girlfriend family and friends. . I’m am feeling really good today. . In the process of forgiving myself. . Also fuck the haters.

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I watch uon YouTube u r so strong n beautiful. I was anorexic from 12 to 15. I was in and out of hospitals. I was a maniac iwould break things and scream that i didn't want to eat. I hated being in hospital I missed out on my teen years. It was horrible. Now I'm 18 and have been recovered for 3 years But once the anorexia was gone I had a whole new set of issues. Now I have extreme anxiety and depression I just want to be normal I feel like I'm so broken. Have u felt depressed after recovering

Hi sweetie im sorry you have struggled. Of couse you get depression i amd not recovered there is no such thing as a recoverd anorexic its still there with you for life you are and always will be in recovery just have to have control over it instead of the anorexia having control over you and the thoughts and voices never go but the silence you can live again trust me on that you can live with out anorexia ! Go see yoyr dr about the depression its very common hun xxx

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U have depression, self harm etc. do u really think it's a good idea dating someone who is n a mental hospital too That's like anorexics dating. Doesn't seem healthy I'm just wondering. Don't u feed on each others illness? Is it healthy for u to be dating when u both have a lot of issues? Isn't it like 2 alcoholics being together? If one drinks the other one does. What's the odds u and ur gf r both admitted into hospital? R u guys making each other sicker?

I have dated a girl with an eating disorder as and that was ok we keot each other on track. But my current girl friend she and I have very different problems and no it dosnt make us sicker this is the first time we have both been sick at the same time we help each other as much as we can and still are now she is amazing xx

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Congrats on ur anniversary. I was wondering, Why is ur gf in hospital? Did she purposely choose the one I were in? Can u both get better if ur in some hospital? I heard couples should be treated at different rehabs or hospitals? Also, does she suffer with depression too?

We always go back here as we have had bad experiences at other places and she has to come here for tms maintenance and I we just happen to come in around the came time xx

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Do u still live at home? Do u have a job?

Yes I love at home ...unfortunately lol and no dont work foing to be studying soon xx

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A poster girl for borderline personality disorder she says. Pink hair. Tattoos. Piercings. Showing off my pain I feel on the inside out. Scars on my wrists not only in my wrists have you seen my naked body? Well have you? yes the men have, you know the one's, the ones that made me - feel . Starving myself to rid my body to not look like a woman to fool who glaces my way. No one is attracted to an emaciated girl with a tube up her nose. Yes! Blending off in to the back ground like I belong. Dont look me in the eyes. It hurts me to say I hate you but I love to say it. A typical borderline yep thats me. Pstd. I see them in when my eyes are shut, when I wake and tears fall onto my girlfriends arms . Its never your fault. Believe in me. Say no now if was never said.

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Heye

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You are WAY TO fat to have a tube piggy.

You are way to 14 yrs old for me.

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When people ask me if I'm gay or bi I get so happy when I say I'm gay☺☺☺ as I feel im new to the LGBT world 4 yrs of coming out this yr. When I get to say yes I am gay I just get so happy as I've had to hold it back for way to long! So yes it feels good lol.im strange. Just made a I'm gay video its uploading. Sometimes I just want to hold a sign saying I am gay around the street because I'm just so happy .

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5/3/16 facebook page and other things

Things have been hard my family have had enough of me. I have been put on 2 new medications a mood stabilizer and an anti psychotic. I got diagnosed with alcohol indused pychosis today. Caity is doing well. Love that girl. Anway way my face book oage is Courtney's larynx If you are interested.

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Forever and ever.

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I do believe in fairies

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My baby apple seed. This is the birthday of the baby I lost 5 years ago this years through a miscarriage. I now have closure. The apple seed above is an actual size of an apple seed that was the size of my baby at 5 weeks. And I also got the tattoo on my left as it says in my ultra sound he/she was sitting on my left. R.I.P baby apple seed.