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[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

Hi all,

I haven’t been writing or posting anymore because I’m just in a better place mentally and emotionally. I’ve spent the past few years putting in a lot of work and I’m just a lot more healthy than before.

Thank you all for those that have reached out or still follows/reblog my stuff. If I have time I might drop some new stuff. Until then, stay simping my loves ❤️

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

And when I look at you, I see all the things we never were and all the things we could’ve been...

-My heart aches...

-m.t.t.

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

It’s tragic, yet beautiful

It’s painful, yet addicting

It’s lonely, yet enough

To only know how to love but not be loved.

-I don’t think you will ever understand the ocean of emotions that comes with loving you in the dark.

-m.t.t.

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

My goal this year is to stop chasing after unavailable people, whether it be emotionally, mentally, or physically. I deserve consistency and assurance.

-I’m tired of playing the guessing game.

-m.t.t.

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

I’m not sure if I’m in love with the old version of you or this new you. I think the line separating the past and the present is kinda blurred for me. I’m stuck on this old image of you that I fell in love with, and I can’t let it go even though you’ve changed so much. I feel like I have tunnel vision.

-Do I love this new version of you? Or am I stuck on your past self that I don’t want to forget or let go?

-m.t.t.

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

Nights are a lot lonelier without you there.

-But I’ll manage...

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

Nostalgic for past I should forget... a fleeting moment you’ve long forgotten...

How do I move on when I’m stuck on you. 

-m.t.t.

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

How can you be happy with someone when you can’t even be happy alone? How can you love someone if you don’t even know how to love yourself?

-m.t.t.

How can I give you my all when I’m not even a whole?

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

Do you want me, or do you need the affirmation of being wanted by me?

-Why do I stick around if I know the truth?

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

To you, I was always too much... but never enough.

-Never just right

-m.t.t.

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

Try to be the best version of yourself for the people you love.

-Be unapologetically true to yourself and those around you.

-m.t.t.

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

There are no words that can embody how I feel about you.

-And I feel a lot.

-m.t.t.

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

You feel what you feel, and that’s okay. You can’t force yourself to fall for me, just as much as I can’t deny my feelings for you. We feel what we feel, and that’s okay.

-It’s okay… I never thought I’d have chance with you anyways.

-m.t.t.

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

I was doing fine without you... I got used to the loneliness. For the first time in a long time, I was okay alone. I missed you but I didn’t need you. But you couldn't let me have that. You didn't let me miss you in peace. It was like you knew I was moving on and your ego couldn't let me go. So you told me that you missed me, and just like that, I was back to being bad. I'm back to pining for a love that could never be reciprocated, waiting for your name to pop up on my phone more less than often, and yearning for a presence that was never there.

-You didn't have to miss me. You could've just let me go.

-m.t.t.

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

Stop giving your time to people that’s not ready to make time for you.

-You can never get back time.

-m.t.t.

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

“What am I so afraid of? Letting you back in. Falling for you all over again. Getting my heart broken by you again. I’m afraid that I won’t be able to pick up all of the pieces and put them back together this time around.”

—

-Can I trust you this time around?

-m.t.t.

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

If there’s ever a time where you feel like I am holding you back from growing as an individual, leave. If I no longer make you happy or if you feel like our relationship is more forced than organic, leave. I want you to be able to live your life to the fullest without me weighing you down or burdening you. I want us to be able to grow together but if there’s ever a time that you feel like you want to grow on your own, then I’m ok with that too. Go explore. Go live your life. If we’re lucky we might be able to meet again on better circumstances.

-I won’t wait around forever, but I’ll wait.

-m.t.t.