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Teaching myself to give thanks for all I do have opposed to what I do not… Time for church. 🙏🏾🙏🏾 #blessed #church #joy #thankful #happy #sunday #thestruggle #NaeNaeForJesus #lol #NoHairDontCare #southflorida

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Turnt up at the club tonight, 495 for reps!!! All was going well until my frickin #versagrips came undone on me and I had to restrap and finish! @bradbrowe has me doing different compound movements for high reps and a lot of sets to try and grow this offseason... I'm eating more than I ever have before and I'm keeping in some cardio this time to never get back up to marshmallow man status ever again. My belt is still on the smallest notch I'm just so watery lol. It's not fun that as my abs go bye bye my strength goes up but you gotta give your body a break and I'm not trying to win the gym selfie contest just next year when I go back and make southern states my bitch!! #gym #swole #grow #goals #journey #legit #igfitness #bodybuilding #npc #muscle #instafitness #eatcleantraindirty #meatheadproblems #ifbb #motivation #thestruggle #shredz #dyel #fitfam #model #flexyourheart #fitness #me #neverquit #lifting #thegrind #flex #beastmode

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Friday night turn-up!!! (After the gym of course) taking it old school later... But what to play?? Decisions decisions... #oldschool #nes #nintendo #supermario #gamer #game #punchout #tetris #zelda #videogames

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Learning there's a lot of shit wrapped in shiny packaging. Trying to be better than what I am and what I've been by developing my intellectual and spiritual self as much, if not more than I do my physical self... If this facial ailment and the last couple years have taught me anything, it's that what I put the most stock in (outer appearances) is the easiest to fade and dissipate... Our bodies are fragile compared to our mind and spirit. Daily learning to invest in the development of those things that help me become greater and more well rounded. Our eyes can only see the physical characteristics of a person... But the traits that truly matter like loyalty, compassion and selflessness can only be discerned through an attentive and receptive heart. Life/God has a way of clearing the distractions from our lives to show us that which is truly important and necessary... It is just up to us to listen. On some other ish... #beauty #love #fake #truth #attitude #power #soul #different #realtalk #faith #godisgood #amen #happy #peace #perspective #me #preach #grind #selfactualization #journey #thestruggle

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Me & Tigger getting ready for Americas Got Talent... This is what happens when you take preworkout and listen to techno, random dance parties ensue... #catlover #catlady #danceparty #techno #firsttake #wedidntrehearsethis #ineedagirlfriend #lmfao #me #selfie #bodybuilder #meatheadproblems #thestruggle #thatjusthappened #preworkout #3scoops #talent #donthate #offseason #chubby

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This isn't your typical post workout selfie... Shits a victory selfie. For the past 3 days I've been battling Bell's Palsy and been unable to control the right side of my face, impacting how I talk, eat, drink and ability to even blink. With causes suspected from stress to lack of sleep to a precursor to shingles, the myriad of drugs the VA has thrown at me blindly has just caused me to bloat and retain water. I'm not going to lie I've been super depressed about it ESP because I wasn't going to the gym to give myself some time to "heal." You know you never truly know what you take for granted until the simple stuff is taken from you... Think of how inconvenient it might be to not be able to chew w one side of your mouth, drink without drooling...heck or even close your eyes in the shower. Man I was truly embracing all this negativity and just sleeping for the past few days, you know really being a bitch about it. I was all depressed looking like django so I call up my barber @getfaded954 to get me right and his appt before me was the happiest kid I ever met, but he had MS... His entire body was contorted but I've never seen this kid without a smile on his face and happy EVERY single time I've seen him. Talk about perspective hitting me in my mangina... The prognosis for bells is 2 weeks to 3 months at worst typically but MS is lifelong... I guarantee that happy teenager would trade me places in a heartbeat. So just as I was about to retreat in a gigantic bag of gummy bears and start a Netflix series I drug my puffy ass to the gym and killed legs according to the plan @bradbrowe sent me. And tomm I'll wake up one eyed, refreshed and grateful for all that I have. I mean silver lining in like SUPER GOOD at the people's eyebrow now... Like better than @therock 🤔and you know what... STILL CUTE DOE😂 count your blessings peeps and learn to value what's important because this vanity can be taken from you in the blink of an eye... (Pun intended) #oneeye #bells #bodybuilder #bodybuilding #meal #love #life #lifting #iifym #grow #weights #fitfam #flex #selfie #me #blessed #instafitsociety #fitnessmodel #ig_fitness #happy #countyourblessings #perspective

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Sad day, today concluded my last workout here at golds Venice... 😔 with this atmosphere it's seemingly impossible to have a bad workout. Hit arms and calves tonight and I must say even after the cheat meal I had last night I got a decent pump going on. When @bradbrowe was assessing my physique he said I needed to focus on my quads/hams as they were lacking... I'm going to get some respectable wheels this offseason if I do nothing else. Time to warm up these old man joints and get my ass back in the squat rack... Anyways this week was truly a blessed one... Tomm I have an early flight back to Tampa and my bed😁😁 hope you'll killed it today... I kno I sho enough did🖖🏽🖖🏽🖖🏽🖖🏽🖖🏽🖖🏽🖖🏽🖖🏽🖖🏽 #nofilter #savageasfuck #conquer #badass #neverquit #dominate #murderit #exercise #motivation #passion #awesome #dedication #goals #dreams #blessed #GreatnessIsPracticed #thestruggle #dyel #fitfam #model #fitness #me #neverquit #lifting #thegrind #flex #beastmode (at Gold's Gym)

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Today just started and it's been one of my best days EVER... After the leg destruction yesterday, I arranged to train chest at 530 this am with @bradbrowe. Woke up at 4am to drive 50 mins down here to train... And my body definitely needed/used the in&out burger from last night... The training session was crazy and my body came back alive. Then, just to be a cherry on top we went upstairs to the famous golds posing room to go through some mandatories!!! Like straight meathead heaven... I mean remember this is the same posing room like flex wheeler, Chris Cormier, Shawn Rhoden used when getting ready for the Olympia!!! He was impressed with my posing and could tell all the sessions with @ifbbpro_lankowskij helped. I couldn't help getting crazy perspective on how blessed a life I lead is, seeing a homeless woman carry a bucket of water down the street to her tent. It just makes me truly grateful for the things we take for granted in life. Im no where near where I want to be in life but I am happy with where I'm not that's for sure... Have a badass day ig!!! #extremotivation#musclephotos#instagramfitness#fitspiration#bestoffitness#teamnodaysoff#eatfitnation#instawow#fitswag#diet#bodesquad#fitspo#eatcleantraindirty#gym#_bodybuilding#instafit#motivation#fitness#hot#fitfam#trainharderthanme#theultimatefitspo#ripped#muscleleague#sixpack#tbt#bodybuilder#fitnessmodel#happy #blessed (at Gold's Gym)

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Man it was a good time training with wheels with @bradbrowe. Not only did he show me some different variations of exercises but he was open and let me pick his brain for over an hour during our session. He's one of those chill humble dudes that you can tell just loves grinding and working hard. We have very similar backgrounds and philosophies when it comes to how we approach life in general... Coming back tomorrow morning at 530am to hit chest and start my day off correctly. The older I get the more I realize that whom and what you attract in life isn't an accident.. It's rather a kismet convergence of your thoughts and desires. So blessed to have been able to meet so many great people as of late willing to offer advice, encouragement or motivation in my pursuance of my dreams. I'm just vibing and in my zone... Love it. #extremotivation#musclephotos#instagramfitness#fitspiration#bestoffitness#teamnodaysoff#eatfitnation#instawow#fitswag#diet#bodesquad#fitspo#eatcleantraindirty#gym#_bodybuilding#instafit#motivation#fitness#hot#fitfam#trainharderthanme#theultimatefitspo#ripped#muscleleague#sixpack#tbt#bodybuilder#fitnessmodel#ig_fitness#instafitsociety (at Gold's Gym)

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I have no idea why the TSA guy looked at me weird when he opened my bag... Week long trip in Cali means I have to pack a bag o gainz!!! I mean you think I'm going to be out here training next to Titans at Golds Venice with no meals and crap food?? No way Jose! Anyways just got off a 8 hour travel day and drove 40 mins down the road to get some back in... Sitting at 226 in this pic. Kinda watered out from the travel because I didn't drink enough today but I'll take it. Workout was awesome. Equipment was awesome. Atmosphere was awesome. Life is awesome! I may not be successful by society's definition as I don't have kids, I don't drive a nice car and I'm a 32 yo cat lady BUT I love me some me! I have a career that affords me the ability to do what I love, my cars paid off and I love my cat lol. Suck it societal norms... You don't know my life lol. #nohairdontcare #catlady #lovelife #happy #joy #bodybuilding #meatheadproblems #extremotivation#musclephotos#instagramfitness#fitspiration#bestoffitness#teamnodaysoff#eatfitnation#instawow#fitswag#diet#bodesquad#fitspo#eatcleantraindirty#gym#_bodybuilding#instafit#motivation#fitness#hot#fitfam#selfie (at Gold's Gym)

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About last night.... Yeah I think Tigger has a problem. Fatty. 😂😂😂😂 listen don't judge me. I just got done training legs and was dragging a little so I needed to induce some extra calories in my diet.... Besides its a thin crust pizza and it had green peppers on it so it's like technically a salad😳 #iifym #fatty #meatheadproblems #meal #turnup #crazycatladyproblems #catsofinstagram #cat #pizza #cheatday #dontjudgeme #diabetes #netflixNOchill #getinmybelly

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Mirin hard AF!!! @flex_lewis is the epitome of badass work ethic, humility and I mean... LOOK AT THIS?!?? Bodybuilding the only sport where it's completely understandable and acceptable to look at another man naked, call it beautiful and no one think twice 😂😂😳😂😂 talk about GOALS. #extremotivation#musclephotos#instagramfitness#fitspiration#bestoffitness#teamnodaysoff#eatfitnation#instawow#fitswag#diet#bodesquad#fitspo#eatcleantraindirty#gym#_bodybuilding#instafit#motivation#fitness#hot#fitfam#trainharderthanme#theultimatefitspo#ripped#muscleleague#sixpack#tbt#bodybuilder#fitnessmodel#ig_fitness#instafitsociety

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Nothing makes all right with the world like an awesome workout. Love when my nutrition/supps/rest are all on point and my body performs in this synergistic ballet of output. Regardless this is my current offseason look. Not shredded but not the fatty I once was either. 5-10 more lbs in the right places and I'll be able to start coming down again the right way and really achieve some lights out conditioning... Im telling y'all... Once I get some arms, hams, calves and a bigger chest n legs I'm going to be dangerous! 😂😂😂😂

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#tbt to a few days before my last show when @dtmccaw fly down to help me try to add the finishing touches before game day. As you can see my physique is tired, flat and depleted and this that's how I showed... I made the mistake of chasing the scale that previous offseason and just honestly got too fat and disgusting... Like 265 lbs and 41 inch waist kinda disgusting. That's why this entire offseason I have only cared about what the mirror says. No I'm not ripped but I am proud to say I still have my abs, I'm vascular and still on the smallest notch of my weight belt. With my frame and proportions I can be a pretty good bodybuilder if I enhance my natural God given gifts and not try to worry about being the freakiest nastiest biggest mofo around, but neither were Gaspari, Paris, Labrada or Ray but those dude were rockstars... I'll never win the tshirt contest but onstage... Gimme a few years to get the formula right... I wouldn't want to stand next to me😇 #bodybuilding #meal #love #life #lifting #iifym #grow #weights #fitfam #flex #selfie #me #blessed #instafitsociety #fitnessmodel #ig_fitness #igaddict #instafit #fitness #body #swole #hustle #killinit #diet #vacuum #classic

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CHEESIN ON EM! What a time to be alive!!!Life is grand people... Why??? I don't know because you WOKE UP THIS MORNING!! I am becoming increasingly more cognizant that any day above ground is a chance to strive for your personal greatness. We were not created to be mediocre or embrace the rigamarole of life... If those around you are not helping you or inhibiting you from reaching your own growth then CHANGE YOUR CIRCLE!!! Remember: "Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you." ~ Marianne Williamson #life #love #begreat #happy #introspection #thankful #grow #greatness #thoughtsbecomethings #focus #jetlife #improve #me #inmyfeelings #joy #perspective #lol

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God speaks to us you legit just have to listen!!! This day started off kinda terrible, I was in my head thinking about some less than productive things, dragging all day but was faithful and made it in to workout... Halfway through my workout I look up and former Ms. O and her awesome husband walk in the gym... I first met them months back at the Arnold when the transition of a new career and life were hitting me really hard. @danalinnbailey Rob took his time out to talk to me even dead tired and you could tell this dude was so genuine in his passion for the grind of life and it helped put more in perspective than he could ever imagine at that period in my life. Fast forward almost a year later and I'm much better mentally, physically and spiritually but I could pinpoint that turning point to that day. I let him know this and during was getting emotional thinking of all the personal growth and blessings that have manifested in my life since that fateful day in March. Trust whatever you're going through, it legit only serves to strengthen your resolve and prepare you for a prosperous future. Don't give up. Don't ever give up!! I'm a testament to what staying the course and remaining faithful can yield in ones life. And I'm still growing 😁#gym #swole #grow #goals #journey #legit #igfitness #bodybuilding #npc #muscle #instafitness #eatcleantraindirty #meatheadproblems #ifbb #motivation #thestruggle #shredz #dyel #fitfam #model #flexyourheart #fitness #me #neverquit #lifting #thegrind #legday #flex #beastmode

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The hardest lesson I've ever had to learn (learning) in life is that diamonds sometimes first present themselves as coal and that sometimes the prettiest packaging contain worst contents. Attractiveness is subjective. Beauty is not. Trying to fill my life with beauty and joy, by learning to not be so enamored with the pretty, shiny albeit fleeting pleasures of life. #beautiful #beauty #joy #love #introspection #thoughtsbecomethings #whatsreal #uglyontheinside #beautyiswithin #instagrammodels #leftwanting #me #bodybuilder #inmyfeelings