nightmaredemonfrog

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Little letter blurb I made

Dear gender,

I've been feeling off about "us" for a while and have got some things we need to talk about. We've been together for a while and i hate that it's come to this, but "this" needs to end. We aren't working and should go our separate ways. You've gotten me through so many things but "we" just don't work anymore. At the beginning, i thought it would be together forever but now I can't wait for it to end. When we first met, it felt like you were my missing pieces. Now it just feels like you're trying to shove yourself into spaces you don't fit, like you're trying to over rule my life and who i am. The problems started when you started to change me, forcing me to wear things I don't want, to carry things that i hate. I asked time and time again. Asked, begged, pleaded, bribed, trying everything to get you to stop. As time started to pass, my mind wondered, looking through thoughts of what life would be like without you, what all i could do without being told "your with x, you shouldn't do that" "no one with x does that, its not proper" what I could do with freedom. The thought felt like a mirage, walking up to an oasis in the desert only to find more sand. Being with you is like wearing a sweater 3 sizes too small and leaving you is like taking it off. I wish you the best in life, find your person that fits that sweater.

Best wishes

Casper, they/them

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Me when bestie

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Remembering the time I was in band class having a hallucination and asked one of my friends if there was a man standing behind the trumpets or if i was just hallucinating when one of my other friends leaned over and asked if he was hot. No, no he was not hot, he was a wrinkly creepy old man.

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Have some poetry Abt a disability i have <3

Party tricks included:

•hands caving in on themselves at the slightest of pressure

•hips moving abnormal

•elbows and knees bending in ways that don't seem right

•fingers going further then they should

•loud cracks and pops now and then

•sitting in ways that don't look comfortable

•fingers popping constantly

Bones, they're slipping out

Painfully aware that my body isn't right

Doctors can't touch it

Wont touch it

And there's only so much ibuprofen can do

A daily task

Opening the fridge and my wrist is out

Walking wrong and my hips are out

Laying on my side and my shoulders, neck, ribs

Everything is out

I wake up and reset

Careful little cracks

Lunchtime and reset

People looking

Wondering why such a young being

Seems to be in so much pain

They must be faking it

Dinner time, i reset

Bending backwards and my ribs pop

Opening my mouth and my jaw pop

Rotating my wrist and it sounds like gunshots

Except now there's more pain

My wrist is swollen

NoT SHaPeD RiGHT

I twist again and it's back

It's better

The pain has subsided

For now

I lay down and everything hurts

My knees are throbbing

My hips are aching

Parts of my body that I didn't know could hurt

Hurt

Laying awake

Praying to whatever god or gods are up there

Just make it stop

But in the end

It's just party tricks

Right.

hEDS is just party tricks

Right?

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God i love Apollo. I recently got him new candle, he didn't like it so I was gonna switch it out for a different one he seemed to like ok no problem but I still had it lit while doing general maintenance on his Alter. I picked up his most prized possession on that table and this candle he has never once touched, never once took an interest in, suddenly perked up and started dancing and all that jazz. This piece could be a pretty rock, or some sort of flower, or a musical instrument. No, it's one of his pictures of Gerard Way. Apollo loves Gerard Way

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I had a hen do this recently!

so i'm in this backyard chickens group on reddit and someone just discovered their hen is transitioning and everyone is stoked

anyway in case you didn't know chickens will sometimes spontaneously f2m and it's pretty cool

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I believe that I have completed in life now, my highschool band just won 3rd place at state marching competition and this is the first year we've went

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Apollo is a sassy dad fucker, like why did this man get mad at me for being dehydrated. You're supposed to help me in exchange for offerings, not better my health

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reblog if you think it’s ok to have plushies at any age

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S is just an unseasoned Z, it's the boiled chicken version of a Z.

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I love how Michael becomes closer to Tori through the things she loves unlike Lucas who only pushes her away.

Lucas and Michael both bought Tori’s favourite drink for her, but only Michael got it right.

Lucas played Star Wars music during school assembly, whereas Michael went to watch the latest movie with her.

When Charlie got injured by Ben, Lucas organized that horrific event at the party, but Michael emotionally supported her.

Lucas locked Tori in a room and showed her a video of a violinist playing, whereas Michael actually did a duet with her.

Lucas did things, but Michael did them right.

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Toast is really just a piece of bread crust with some of it more crusty than other parts. Like yes, I would like my egg sandwich to be made with bread crust.

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Lord Farquaad from Shrek is really just Prince Humperdinck from The Princess Bride just animated

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Very, very true though it can be hard