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I kinda wanna try longboarding, wish I would have picked it up when I first got interested in the idea.

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Let's hope this year ends better than how it started.

Stay safe everyone.

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Joined the Animal crossing family with AC New Horizons.

With a sunshine yellow switch lite~~

☆ ~

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MDZS has definitely helped me with some personal issues I was (and still will) struggling with. The amount of love between Lan WangJi and Wei Ying is just endless and heart warming.

True Happiness.

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Sometimes I wish I could just pick a time line point in my life and just do it all over but better.

Actually focus on what I was doing or needed to do. More on myself and where I was or needed to head towards...

Maybe I wouldn't feel stuck

even though it's my own

doing.

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This couple is truly life. I have finished the drama, watched all the available anime episodes and saw the spin-off movie. Now all that's left is the novel which I'm currently about one-fourth of the way done.

They love each other so much. I have all the feelings I can't express, there is too much love. ♡

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Took a friend's advice on watching shows that have couples (Lgbtq+) loving each other unapologetically. ♡

Helped some but I think I'm just soo happy watching them and less focused on myself.

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Working on getting out of the habit of wearing my repeating wardrobe. Slowing getting new clothes. I need to find a good denim jacket, I have some enamel pins in mind I'd like to get for one.

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I have been struggling with my sexuality lately. Not like "I'm not sure what I am" but more of "I feel uncomfortable with who I am".

In some ways it's uncomfortable in others ways it's not. Seeing LGBTQ related themes in any form does make me happy and I love seeing them, but I feel like I can't express my feelings towards them.

It is a completely personal problem that I feel like I can't post about my sexuality even to just identify myself within the community. For example when Pride rolls around, I love seeing everyone who is open and expressing themselves publicly. But I'm afraid to do the same because I know people will judge, or people (that I personally know) who (don't know about me) how they'll react and it scares me. An I know I shouldn't worry about what others think and should surround myself with positivity and I do. I have my small group of friends who is or excepts LGBTQ and that makes me soo happy...But I do care. The negative judgement is something I could probably get past it's the action of judgment I hate the most, that I fear.

But I guess that's why they say wait for the right time to be out -or- to just live outwardly, don't make it feel like it has to be this monumental moment. If you're being who you truly are then it should only matter to you.

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Being told "you're mad all the time" is something I'm getting tired of hearing...

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Confidence is something I need to work on. Mentally and physically because I'm so afraid of being out there.

I am very self-conscious about my self at times and I hide what I think about myself a lot. So I hope 2020 will be the year I can come out of my shell.

• Confidence (appearance &

mentally)

• socialize (being more

comfortable w/ it)

• Responsibilities (with life)

• Dating (even if it's just

talking)/(putting myself out

there)

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Attaching sentiment to random items from your childhood. It's strange when trying to move forward, can't keep everything especially when it just sits behind a door for years untouched. Let's get these things out. A fresh start.

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It's probably sad I don't live on my own yet and I need to take steps into the future where that is possible. So I can have my own quiet-ish place to express myself.

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There will always be a negative in life, I really hope something happens this year to fix it and please make that change be for the better.

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I wish the best for my friends. All the love, happiness and peace they deserve. May this year have less stress and more positive vibes ~

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Happy New Year.

Let's see what happens.

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2020 I need to think more positively both internally towards my myself and outwardly to others. Sometimes I need to stop and really think before my actions.

I'm losing my patience recently when normally I'm fine...