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I can’t believe I ate myself to my current weight like how pathetic and embarrassing is that

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TW: ME4NSP0

TW: ED BUT NOT ED SHEERAN

1. **Disgusting Habits**: Your eating and exercise habits are disgusting. You shovel junk food into your mouth and sit around like a lump. No wonder you feel and look the way you do. It’s gross.

2. **Self-Sabotage**: You’re your own worst enemy. Every time you reach for that junk food or skip a workout, you’re sabotaging yourself. You’re choosing misery over effort. How pathetic is that?

3. **Stop Whining**: You whine about being overweight, but do nothing to change it. You have no one to blame but yourself. Get off your ass and stop feeling sorry for yourself.

4. **Dead Weight**: That’s what you are – dead weight. To yourself, to your family, to your friends. You’re dragging everyone down with your lack of motivation and discipline. Do you want to be the person everyone pities and avoids?

5. **No Self-Respect**: It’s clear you have no respect for yourself. If you did, you wouldn’t treat your body like a garbage dump. Show some self-respect and start taking care of yourself.

6. **Embarrassing**: Your lack of effort is embarrassing. You could change your life, but you choose not to. You choose to stay unhealthy, unattractive, and unhappy. That’s embarrassing.

7. **Quit Being Weak**: You’re being weak. Mentally and physically. Toughen up. Life isn’t going to hand you anything. You have to work for it. Stop being weak and start fighting for your health.

This is your wake-up call. No more coddling. No more excuses. Get up, take action, and prove that you’re not a lost cause.

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ate sm today :(

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went to the gym for the first time 💪 super embarrassing but i loved it too

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was doing good today and then i ate two doughnuts??? and a slice of cake ?? fuck me

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am i doing this bc someone insulted me and it cut me genuinely so deeply that im the most insecure i have ever been and they weren’t even insulting my appearance. like oh okay. ill just starve then i guess. even tho thats got nothing to do with it.

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it’s been awhile but i’m (hopefully) back.. it’s embarrassing how much weight i’ve gained and i refuse to weigh myself so uh ! time to put my fatass to rest. i’ve started working out again (thank god) and back on track during the day. the annoying thing is is that i’m not binging anymore, i haven’t binged in over a month and im not eating as much as i used to be i’ve still been gaining (no exercise) so :( but im back! any meanspo is welcome

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i passed out at work on tuesday and i don’t have the energy to get up in the morning but my mum said she can tell i’ve lost weight again so i don’t really care

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the weight loss is going great at the moment but the fact i can’t keep my eyes open at work? not so great.

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guess who’s back bitches 💪💪 i haven’t eaten a full meal in three weeks im loving life

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i wasted cals im so upset

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sorry for being inactive i genuinely don’t have an ed anymore. like yh im disordered but its definitely not an ed atm which is my worse nightmare. coming back slowly i hope so i should be more active 🤍

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snapchat keeps pulling up “random” memories but they’re just photos of me at my lw 😪

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idk what the limit is for a depression meal but i think three rice cakes with bbq sauce just ab tops it

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my period is giving me hell this month and i feel like i’ve binged when i had a sandwich and some peanut m&ms. feel like such a disgusting pig but all i want to do is eat away the pain

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12 year old that couldn’t regulate emotions so used sh to quickly get rid of difficult feelings vs 19 year old that can now only calm anxiety with pain

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maybe im just shit at having an eating disorder but im trying to focus on eating mindfully atm before i jump straight into restriction bc im stuck in a b/r cycle again. its gonna sound weird but i was watching what this skinny guy eats and its seems like he eats breakfast, a snack and then dinner and i kinda wanna try it? id lose so much weight if i stopped binging