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Silence = death

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I'll be quiet when I'm dead. (OC)

Pride started as a protest and it will remain a protest until we get all of our rights, without being discriminated and killed for just being us.

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”I want to know your headcount” “I want to know who’s fronting” so do I, get in line

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How it feels when your system is trying to make any important decision

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realizing youre Real is .weird,,

like you can exist for Years??? never noticing??? never thinking about Yourself. assuming you are the host, or assuming you are another alter.

it is WEIRD to sit there with your morning coffee, having a conversation, and just suddenly the stars align . and you realize how different you are from "you" . you realize you werent "you", you were actually YOU the whole time.

I KNOW THIS DOESNT MAKE SENSE BUT I HOPE SOMEONE GETS IT

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Someone drowning in 6 feet of water is as equally dead as a person drowning in 20 feet of water.

Please stop comparing trauma and making it a challenge. It’s trauma. Not a competition or medal.

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some spaces aren’t for you

I know a lot of “endogenics” are kids so they don’t really understand the complexities of the issue. The system community is a trauma community. It is for people who have been through intense trauma. “But Endos have been through trauma” you have osdd or did. You have to accept that you formed through trauma. Sorry not sorry. Some spaces aren’t for you and that’s ok. I’m not going to invade the amputee community because I think I should have a cut off arm. That’s not how this works. Find spaces that belong to you. Trauma spaces exist and your trauma is enough. No you can’t create headmates, and even if you could, it would be different than being a system. It would be plural. Stop calling yourself a system when you aren’t and stop invading the did and osdd community. Get out of my space. It’s not gatekeeping. You can’t invade the cancer community because you don’t have cancer. Don’t claim labels that don’t belong to you. These disorders are serious and they aren’t fun.

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reminder any disorder that causez systemz r more than just "the alter disorder" it also causez

amnesia

paranoia

PTSD flashbackz

regression

dissociation

identity confusion

and more too, shit takez a simple google search for ppl who wanna act like expertz in systemhood then not know thiz shit and alterz isnt alwayz the main symptom showing for everyone

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being front stuck feels like a free trial version of being a singlet except it’s cluttered with ads.

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YOU hate JK Rowling!

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B i r b

Birbbbb

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Some art I did a while back.

I miss you still, and I hate you for it. But you were my [redacted], so I still feel like I have to love you.

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Is ur name Pentacontakai and if soo can I just call you Pent?

My name is not actually pentacontakai, I just thought it's a cool word. Feel free to call me pen though!

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Your daily dose of cat memes

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The weird thing about DID and FND is that I'll be having a tic attack one moment and the next some nonverbal alter has calmed it down. It's really weird to me!