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Nectar

I profusely adore you

and humbly implore you

to grant me permission

for that which

I cannot ask.

You are the

elixir of elixirs,

and my throat

an empty flask.

I am a

field of cotton

that swells

beneath your rains.

I dream that

my nectar alone

your heart contains.

My memory—

a monolith untouched

by passing days.

A seraphim of silence,

haunted by my

loving gaze.

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Sole inhabitant of my once broken heart,

You are the reason my love became art.

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“Kill the part of you that believes it can’t survive without someone else.”

— Sade Andria Zabala, War Songs

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If I thought my words could change how it all is now, I swear I could have written you an entire novel in three days.

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The number of times I’ve had to console myself by saying if it’s meant to be, then it’s meant to be - whilst watching our paths diverge. Does the Universe want me to master the art of gracefully letting go? How many more trials? Because today I felt something worse than sadness, loneliness and disappointment - just a hollow knowingness of how empty and meaningless everything has become.

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Jubilee

Stars are the jewels

Of the night.

Your pearly smile

The source of my light.

You are the root,

The stem and flower.

The glorious pink dawn

And golden sunset hour.

You keep this spirit

Forever young.

On your lips,

The sweetest song

Ever sung.

Never could find one

Truer than you.

Let me drown in

Your deepest blue.

Devoid of you,

A thousand splendid lives

Are but a waste.

Happiness a foreign flavor

With an empty taste.

Brightest constellation

In the celestial canvas

Of my dreams.

You are my jubilee -

The grandest toast

To life!

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Homer, The Iliad

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There’s no forgive and forget when it comes to disrespect, especially if they are someone close to you. Because when you do so, then it becomes a pattern. Words and actions are a product of one’s feelings and thoughts. They might behave differently on the outside after you confront them, but don’t ever believe they view you as any better. The one who truly values you, cherishes you, will never deliberately hurt you. Because that might mean losing you forever. We give people so many excuses, but fail to see acknowledge their actual behavior even when it hurts us so. Not everyone will choose to respect you, but please respect who you choose.

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May Self-love be your compass

May Gratitude be your medicine

May Truth be your salvation

May Kindness be your currency

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December

Once upon a December,

I met the boy

I'd always remember.

Nudging me awake

For early morning classes,

My heavy lids opened to

His black-rimmed glasses.

I judged him, but he passed every test.

Aquarius—he wasn’t like the rest.

He listened and I needed his care,

He became the kind of friend

I didn’t want to share.

Surprised me with

Four songs so sweet.

Asked to meet,

How could I refrain?

I was running out of

Reasons to hide

From the one I wanted

By my side.

His quiet footsteps,

Were like soft petals

That showered on

My soul’s damp bed,

Covering the twisted paths

Of my dark and thorny past.

Gratefully enchanted

In him I began to trust.

Sprinkled over

My gray existence

His silver magic dust.

He made me swell

He made me burst

He made me feel blessed

And in his absence,

I felt cursed.

Don’t know if it will last—

Days few left, or many more,

But I’ll never forget him,

Of that, I’m sure—

The darling boy

Who I adore.

For he is my lighthouse,

My anchor

And his mother,

I thank her.