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Actually,I wanted to write this post in form of one of my unfunny jokes,but then I tried to do it this way,understood,how corny it looks from a perspective of a Tumblr user,who accidentally stumbles across this file of death,and decided to do it with my usual way of spilling the Atlantic Ocean on the screen of my phone.

I remember briefly mentioning on this blog about Laughing Jack being devoid of fulfilling any biological needs all the other creatures in the mansion have,sleeping included.But,I think,since the clown has never slept (because he has never been in need of sleep,even in the box,while waiting for Isaac he didn't sleep),he has very little understanding of what problems his wards usually meet with sleeping (insomnia,nightmares,ect.)

Like...If some creepypasta child/teen comes to him,seeking for support,because they have recently had a particularly disturbing nightmare,he definitely takes a position of a boomer parent,who's being told by his children about the shit from their world he can't relate to.

"So you're telling me,that you were lying in bed with your eyes closed,dissociated from the world of the great black square in front of your eyes to the fantastic world of the assault you've been through,and now you want me to coddle you?I mean...If I were you,I would be glad because of the change of scenery.Sorry,sweetheart."

Insomnia situation is even worse,because LJ views all the pastas,who suffer from it over a night or even a few days straight,as literal pussies 😭

"One night without a proper sleep,and you're practically falling apart.What a shame! I've been awake for a few decades,and I'm fresh as a cucumber!"

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Hey,for my mutuals and just anyone,who interacts with my blog - I'M ALIVE AND DOING FINE (at least,in some senses.Likeee,I haven't started shitting my bed yet,and that's progress).I just don't know,what should I start posting first... That's the reason,why I haven't posted for a month.

I have a lot of plans on this blog and my AU including,but,due to my mental state and problems,which worsened it,all these plans seem too big and heavy to make them materialistic on my blog,but I promise:till the end of spring I'll try to keep you updated and stuff!:D

It's not like I've become some kind of celebrity on Tumblr during this winter,when I posted regularly,so every my post on this topic should be blessing for my fans,who are waiting even for the smallest slack,but I've still managed to gather some audience and people,who liked even the smallest parts of Traumaticpasta details (like,the fact,that I'm drawing LJ scary,etc).To be honest,it means A LOT for me - that my art is loved,even if by a very tiny circle of people,and I don't want to lose it, because slowly it starts seeming,like I'm dumping the blog.

Don't forget to drink water and keep yourself always happy!^⁠_⁠^

I'm sending tons of love towards everyone,who supported this project of mine!

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LIL GUY'S AWESOME,YOOO

should i redesign this lil guy?

my older sona design (that i made a 3d model in paint 3d), is actually one i really like i maybe wanna bring him back, should i remake his design if possible?

his name is Hannibal Franken (or Frankie) btw hes just a guy (his poor poor lore).

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(Now I'm feeling free to disappear on another few weeks out of my blog)

Comic #2

"Trust"

#1

LJ: Trust?

Oh, sweetheart...

All my wards trust me enough to let me know everything,which bothers them.

To be honest, it's an overwhelming feeling to gain trust of a human being.

Once you've become a safe figure in their eyes,they will tell you about their concerns, secrets and achievements.

I adore it!

#2

LJ: THE FUCK YOU MEAN YOU'VE FUCKED A CHAINSAW?!

I thought,we were over this,Nattie...

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BOOM

Here's the comic I've been working at all this time.

Just let's call it...

"Helpers"

#1

LJ:"Help?Oh, sweetheart,I have nowhere to wait help from.

You see...

I have long hands,but only two hands and the faceless fucker helps me with nothing.

That's the reason, why I need to expect less fucked up bastards to help with my duties.

-> Less fucked up bastards (Hoodie/Brian,Tim/Masky,Helen)

(Of course,it barely means,that I am satisfied with their ways to help me)

#2

*Seethes*

Brian,please,be a dear - distract her somehow during the feeding.I haven't put you there to be pretty.

DO ANYTHING

#3

Brian: Ugh...Like...

#4

Brian:Hi!It's...Hoosky!

Please,eat your porridge.We've got a lot of stuff to do except of pushing fucking porridge into your throat.We would rather drink beer and shit...Okay?

#5

Brian: I know it's still bad,but PLEASE, just appreciate my try and don't shout...

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I'm dropping this shi for you and running away 🏃🏃⛹️

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(‼️TW: Dark topics,references to mental illnesses,death,ableism,sexual assault and other types of physical/verbal abuse‼️)

The canned children

The canned children

In the room with no door

The canned children,

Never part of the big whole

The canned children

With no future or present

The canned children,

All they have is own prolonged past

The damaged goods

No use for society

While having hands for work,

They still have broken minds

Keeping canned children

Far away from society

Is the best way to help

As the mother of morality

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(I'M TRYING TO JOKE,SORRY.Also,a tiny notice for understanding the whole situation:in this AU Helen is some kind of proxy for Slenderman,but he kills just to have Slendy's patronage in form of a proper shelter and protection, because people bad, he's wanted in a few big cities)

*Slenderman,inspecting a lifeless body of one of Bloody Painter's victims,trying to pick up the soul of their restless spirit(LJ's here just because he's beautiful,okay?)*

Slenderman: In spite of the fact,that I don't care about the ways my servants kill their victims, this depraved being sometimes just...crosses even my borders of understanding,how to destroy the physical shell of the soul-carriers.

Laughing Jack: Well, considering all the trauma this "depraved being" has been through,you should be grateful,that he just commits felonies for you instead of drawing furry porn *nervous giggling*.

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I’ve never actually drawn clockwork before but I’m doing it for a new friend of mine cause he’s really cool and GUH

also yeah I drew the jacket I draw Toby in on her I thought it was nice

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Technically,Sally is the first child of LJ and Slenderman (like,the slendy fucker picked up her spirit in 70s and brought it to the clown to look after it not leaving him any kind of choice.All the following proxies appeared in the gang,when Sally had already been under Slendy's protection).

The events of this AU happen between late 2000s and 2010s.Around this period of time 13 year old Toby was also brought to the mansion after the accident in a catonic stupor,so he required more care after himself because of not being able to fulfill his biological needs without anyone's help.It's not like Tim,Brian and other older pastas hadn't already got under Slenderman's wing at this moment,but even then Sally was treated like the only little in the whole mansion by everyone and was showered in attention,so appearance of another "child",who took away all of it,made her feel some "sibling jealousy",which showed up in many really ridiculous ways.

I even have a few scenes in my head,where Sally goes to complain to Slenderman about the ignorance of Jack towards her because he takes care of Toby,and gets some shit like:"Oh,sweet cheeks,it's not like mama-clown doesn't love you anymore because of the new proxy.She has never loved anyone at all and you're not an exception,but don't be upset,because she's not capable of loving any living being in this or other dimensions.She doesn't love me too and just tolerates for a little because I have her soul,so if she could,mama-clown would make a fucking bloody massacre of everyone here,so don't pay attention to it,blah blah blah".

Sally:*Gets double traumatized*.

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Danielle x Homicidal Liu ideas/headcanons

I wanted to say that I'll be using the Liu from my rewrite and this may contain spoilers from my Homicidal Liu rewrite that I haven't finished yet. However, I'm sure that this Liu can also fit in with the “canon” version or whatever version you like. 

•They met when Dannielle and her older brother were staying with her uncle–who lives in Maine– for the summer. One day they went to a neighboring park where Liu and his family were also at. Somehow, she managed to work up the courage to speak to him and they bonded over having older siblings and art. She got his email and she gave him hers. 

•They were definitely friends for a long time before they started dating. They met when they were fourteen and were mostly each other's confidants. 

•They sort of felt for each other around the same time, but we're both too shy to do anything about it. 

•They lost contact after Jeff attempted to kill Liu and Dannielle attempted suicide before running away.

•Liu was staying with his estranged aunts in Virginia when he got another email from Danny. Which was strange, he had heard she killed herself. 

•He didn't think it was true until he saw her standing outside his house in the pouring rain. 

•She brought her inside; his aunts had left the house on a date night. She was rambling on about monsters and how she needed Liu to be safe. 

•She was begging Liu to believe her or to at least let her stay the night. She couldn't stay out in the rain for much longer. 

•This is when they started to reconnect. Over long days where she would go missing, and then the next few days, when she would come to his house and play with his hair. 

°Liu moved away from his aunts when he was nineteen, and so was Danny. She still often spent time with him, but she was appearing less and less at night. 

•One day, Liu begged her to help him find Jeff. He talked about how he was worried for Jeff and something bad was happening. 

•Reluctantly, Danielle obliged. 

•At night, she put cover her body head to toe in layers of clothes as they searched for Jeff. 

•It's only when Liu leaves much earlier than they normally did and comes back injured does she finally tell him how she feels. 

•“ What the heck are you trying to do, Liu? You're going to get yourself killed!”

•“ I know what I'm doing, Danielle!”

•“ The Hell you do! I wouldn't be able to live with myself if you got yourself killed without me there. I love too fucking much for that!”

•Liu's too stunned to speak. His eyes glued to the floor as he breaks down. 

•This is when he tells her about Sully and Cordelia. The two ghosts that always fight for control inside of him. 

•They hold each other through the night. She doesn't press him for answers, just plays with his hair and sings a soft little tune under her breath. She tells him about what she can do. About the animal inside her chest and how if the moon touches her she turns into a monster. 

•He's not afraid of her. He finally met someone who understands him; he loves her even more for it. 

•He reminds her to take her medicine, and she reminds him to take hers

•It's very domestic for a long while

•However, things take a turn when Danielle begins to hunt monsters as a way to repent. 

•To keep her safe, he joins her. They're both also trying to find Jeff. 

•They're on the road, and they mostly make money from Liu's job as an editor 

•The monster/ demon hunting is how they get roped up with Slenderman. 

On to the actual cute headcanons

•They often dance together

•Neither of them are huge of PDA, but whenever Dannielle is stressed, they will hold his hands

•Since Danny is genderfae and their gender often changes, Liu will help them with any dysphoria they're feeling. 

•Liu is shorter than Danny by 4 inches. (For context, Dannielle is 6’3)

•They're both insomniacs, so whenever they run out of medicine, they will watch trashy romance movies and draw

•Liu likes writing, poetry, and art. Dannielle likes writing, poetry, and art. They often have complain about writer's/ art block to each other

•Liu can't cook, but Dannielle can

•They will often split chores so they both get they ones they prefer while also doing the chores the other person hates

•They don't have arguments often, but when they do, they don't yell a lot. It's this simmering anger that might be worse than yelling. They're quiet and spiteful. 

•They've definitely been arrested before because of monster hunting.

•They both stress each together out

•She BEGS Liu to play his French horn. 

•They're both extremely nerds. Like complete nerds. They watch Star Trek and read through all the medical books that Dannielle may or not have stolen

•Liu has a religious crisis at least once a year. 

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Thank you to the one person who said they wanted to hear more about Dannielle x Liu. I love you

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Hello, my dear friend 💚

Could you help me please 🥺??

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Well...

I've lied to you again about uploading the second post,but the prolonged panic attack,which disturbed me for a few days,is my biggest justification for not keeping my promise.

This post is the last important one,and then I'm going to feel less immobile in my plans to fill the blog with.

Talking about the content I'm going to fill this post with,there's nothing too extraordinary: just the more detailed description of the construction of the world in my AU.I remember mentioning it before,when I was writing headcanons for slender brothers,but I haven't got too deep there and touched no specific topics,which tied up with all the parts of it,and now I'm fixing my mistake.

So,my dear readers: buckle up your belts - our ride's gonna be epic!:D

Layered world

The structure of the universe has five layers:the highness,the cleanness,the human world,the emptiness and the bottom.The layers are located not in the traditional layer-order (not like the layer of the highness is the first layer of the universe cake and etc.),but in artistic one: the layer,where all the cherubic creatures with the highest morals of the society structure exist,is the Highness; the layer,which could be described like one belonging to the devil,is the Bottom.

The split between the Highness and the Bottom happened after the war between the same kind of species because of different opinions.A long time ago,when they were one big "folk",their own universe had been destroyed,so they had to search for a new place to exist.They found Milky Way,where people and other intellectually well-developed beings had been living all this time,and then the question appeared: what should they have done with them,as the higher vessel?Nobody had never even spoken about the way of just living in some tiny dimension,not touching anyone,because of the politics of the control the entities had,so there were only two camps of the opinions: to take over the humans and other species with the violent way or the manipulative one.

It's important to notice,that the Highness creatures and the Bottom ones don't have any physical form - it quickly changes because of the emotions,the fears,the likes and the dislikes.All of them live through everything their brain experiences during the life time(or something,which replaces their brains).The biggest reason,why they've got stuck with humanoid creatures,is the fact of the existence of their souls,which can be "gathered" after the death comes,and able to help the entities to keep their physical form stable,so all of them,in many other galaxies,just exploit poor soul-having beings through their servants (the members of the emptiness and the cleanness) to collect the souls.It's not like they have some whims they use humanoids for - the physics of the dimensions,which the entities find the best for living,doesn't allow any existence of always changing shells,and with each second both groups of folks lose their powers,so it's something close to their physical need,which they fulfill with their ways to gain the similar goals.

"The Bottom" just picks up a quicker way to fullfil their needs,killing through their servants people and taking away their souls,so it's not a surprise if their victims sometimes are horrible people or the ones,who had to experience too much fear and sufferings to not leave any scars on the fragile shell of the soul,so their physical forms always express all the negative emotions their victims had to experience before their deaths.

"The Highness" literally,with the passion of some gardener,grows up the living soul-carriers for themselves,shaping the right forms out of their inside worlds through any kind of religion,hope,luck and intensive control of all of them with their servants.It doesn't matter,if the conditions of the death are bloodlustful and unbearable - the fear will mix with dreams and hopes for better future,and in the end the servant will bring an innocent soul to it's owner.

Depending on how "pure","clean","innocent" a gathered soul is,the entity,which absorbs it,also changes their physical forms to lighter and holier ones.The same way works with the souls of morally incorrect people,giving to the creatures more horrific looks.

To describe these changes correctly, let's just say,that in this world a soul carries also the memories of the surrounding,where it has grown,so,if a human,who was an owner of the soul,tried to reach the purity and the naivety during their life time,having their own ideas of perfection,everything of this just finds it's way in the entity feeding itself with it.

What about the cleanness and the emptiness?All the creatures existing there are just the creations of both higher vessels - the creatures of the cleanness belong to the Highness,the creatures of the emptiness belong to the Bottom.

All of them are sexless,barely have any romantical attraction and programmed to do all the work of colonialism and genocide instead of their creators.They exist in the humanoid worlds and it's dimensions,and the main difference between them is the way they accept the information from the world of their conquerors: the "clean" ones are like the sheets of paper,so they are able to adapt to any surrounding around them and are made to change as much as their wards do.The "empty" ones are just...empty.They don't have any soul and by their nature are just killer machines without any mercy to any living being.They're as empty as their creators need them to be - to easily kill or destroy anyone.

The best examples to describe the members of the "emptiness" are Slenderman,who collects the souls of killed by his proxies victims,and Offenderman,who seduces people to commit sexually immoral actions to corrupt their minds with his shit and as much as it's possible damage the system the Highness has been building during all these centuries.

The best example of the "clean" beings is Laughing Jack before the accident with Isaac,who has been supposed to serve the whole endless amount of generations of the Grossman family (the way his creator,who wasn't standing on the top of social construction of the "Highness" society, decided to solve their problem with keeping their own stability of the physical form,using for soul-gathering and nourishing Jack himself). I'm not including here Splendorman,just because he's an independent bitch and works for himself,even with his "the Highness-like" intentions.

It's important to notice,that the "clean" creatures have some kind of soul,in comparison to their "empty" colleges,but it's really easy to explain with the fact of them being able to develop and take something from their current surrounding.In this world the soul is the main organ of changing,so the "clean" creatures have soul.That's the reason,why Slenderman has been able to gather LJ's soul and become it's lawful owner,even in spite of the fact,that they're logically equally strong in their powers and both work on the same position,just from different sides.

That's all,I guess :D

I'm very happy,if you've been able to read this set of words,terms and sentences to this moment and even understand anything.

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URGENT: HELP SAVE THE LIFE OF MY CHILD

I'm Amal, a mother of three children, living under the weight of the genocide taking place in Gaza. 🍉

The Israeli occupation forces launched drone strikes on my husband, Fayez, and my son, Mohammad.

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Although my husband's condition has stabilized, my son is still suffering immensely and urgently needs medical treatment outside Gaza.

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I lost most of my family. I'm afraid to lose my son too 🥺 .

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We are in the south... suffering from famine‼️, save us🙏

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We are suffering from famine, there is no food other than flour and its price is 300$... It is very expensive, we cannot afford it...

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A child with 76 mental illnesses and no legal permission to visit any social spaces and his ugly as fuck mom

(‼️NOT A SHIP IN ANY EXISTING SENSES.Also,TW: SH scars,blood,corpses‼️)

Here are some LJ & Toby arts!:D

I'm going to upload today two posts and one of them is about structure of my AU,so yeah: from one side I've lied to you about uploading the sensible one as the first one,and from the other I can let myself to be a lil' bit silly with not too sensible posts, because afterwards I'm still uploading the important one :P

Sooo...

About relationship between these two: as I've mentioned before,Toby is good for nothing in the mansion and beyond it,and LJ,as one of the ruling there figures after Slenderman in my AU,has to follow this little piece of shit on the heels,so he won't kill himself or someone from his wards.

Because of these conditions they've formed a strange bond: the clown started seeing Tobias as his responsibility on the same level as he saw Sally,and the boy himself found in the entity some kind of parent figure,which he deeply trusted and let being babied by (of course,not without showing how he "hated" it).

That's all and now I'm going to work at the second post :D