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fun fact but im actually on track for med school and part of the courses i take is also mental health along with physical health (though i have no strong interest in psychology or psychiatry as of right now). anyway it was interesting to read about some stuff, and id have to do more research for this idea i have but basically its the idea that optimus actually has extremely low or near obsolete levels of empathy. he views the autobots and decepticons alike as just a means to an end, but he also recognizes that he himself has no empathy and it wont serve his purpose, so he puts a lot of effort into looking as a kind and gentle leader for his autobots so he can instill a strong sense of loyalty in them. he views them as his in the sense that they are his to guide, manipulate, and order as he pleases, but he will ensure that they stay happy as they do in order to gain the most favorable outcome. so he "cares" in some sense, but its not the way you or i might care. he will be disappointed if someone dies, angry if someone disobeys him and gets hurt, but its not easy to explain, either. just think how cool it would be to read about the leader of the autobots who seems so empathetic and kind but in reality he cant view the ones around him as anything more than his pets or pawns. and opposing that is the leader of the decepticons who feels so much to the point he started this rebellion/war in the first place, and yet hides his grief as well as other emotions in order to be viewed as a ruthless leader to rule his decepticons

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i bought a guitar!!!!

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hellooooo hope you’re not dead and doing well!! <3

haha im a little in the trenches rn but thank u for reaching out!!! new chapter soon hopefully

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this is just an unofficial announcement that im still writing, just VERY slow. my manager recently had a baby so i have to take some extra shifts to make up for it, so im very busy for the next week or so buuuuut ill still be posting more snippets as soon as i write something new! thanks for being so patient with me 🩷

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How do you grieve for someone who’s still alive? 

Elita had assumed he had been talking about Megatron, and proceeded to spam him with breakup playlists as well as nearby therapy bots. 

Bee had also assumed he had been talking about Megatron, and thought the best way to help was by introducing him to speed dating, which had been a horrifying experience for everyone involved. 

Ratchet scolded him then gave him an energon lollipop. Calcium free, unfortunately. 

Jazz slapped him on the back then tried to throw a party, which helped exactly 0 bots. 

Arcee stared at him with pity. 

Hot Rod suggested hooking up. 

But that was the thing, see. 

Optimus hadn’t been talking about Megatron. 

He wished he had, honestly.

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There were times where Optimus couldn’t fathom that he was a Prime. 

There were even rarer times where he couldn’t stand to see himself in the mirror and realize it was not Orion who stared back. 

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i should write a fic where optimus loves megatron even after everything that happened in tf1 and its to the point where theyre fighting and optimus has a meltdown and weeps about how he would do anything if megatron just *asked* and megatron sarcastically says "then surrender," and optimus just does. immediately, no hesitation, no doubt. it unnerves megatron so much but optimus is being completely genuine. he offers himself as a prisoner and megatron takes him w him to decepticon base, and theres legit no one there whos more devoted to megatron than optimus is. it makes everyone uncomfortable, but megatron adores it

on the flip side (so sg tf1) when megatro flips out on optimus during another battle and screams at him to please just stop, optimus falls to his knees and does as told. he even folds his hands in his lap and looks super eager and megatron feels like hes losing his mind, and optimus just purrs that he would do anything megatron asks. and megatron, in a fit of despair, asks for him to stop the autobots, and optimus tells them to stand down easily. when one protests, optimus kills them without blinking, and megatron is stunned. he secretly likes it though lol

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i recently reread it and cringe aside (its about 7 years old i think) the idea has a lot of merit, and im really intrigued by the idea of him unknowingly creating a legend for himself. and since ur my fav ill do it just for u pookie

none of you probably remember this but a few years ago i wrote a httyd fic called hoarder which was based on hiccup successfully running away and unintentionally creating a large clan of dragons, the two most prominent being toothless and clawless (a female night fury he found by accident). ive been rewatching the shows and movies and i want to rewrite that fic so bad lmao

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none of you probably remember this but a few years ago i wrote a httyd fic called hoarder which was based on hiccup successfully running away and unintentionally creating a large clan of dragons, the two most prominent being toothless and clawless (a female night fury he found by accident). ive been rewatching the shows and movies and i want to rewrite that fic so bad lmao

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snippet (cherry blossom edition, ch. 2)

lmaooooo im having so much fun with this one ngl. ive been practicing a bit more and i think im hitting the romcom vibe way better now

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first of all why did this thing get so many votes? second of all u guys chose the most BORING ONE?

that last one is specifically kind of like undertow except op deliberately tries to seduce meg and it works but then later hes like er. i think i genuinely like him and has a crisis about it lmfao

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im finally in the mood to write and google docs took away the fucking edit button. I CANT WRITE BECAUSE IT LITERALLY TOOK AWAY THE BUTTON TO LET ME TYPE. WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO. WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK. HOLY SHIT IM CRASHING OUT SO BAD RIGHT NOW

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why is this thing getting a disproportionately high amount of attention 😨

that last one is specifically kind of like undertow except op deliberately tries to seduce meg and it works but then later hes like er. i think i genuinely like him and has a crisis about it lmfao

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another poll since im curious

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here are some color drafts for the tarot cards. some cards like the hanged man, the world, and the emperor will be reworked again in another draft, but the others managed to look quite nice both in cmyk and rgb!

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snippet (cherry blossom edition, ch. 2)

hello to all my new followers (where did u all come from). i decided to also rewrite about 90% of the next cherry blossom chapter, which i was reluctant to do because it wasnt necessarily bad, but it was going in a really weird direction that i felt wasnt in line with what i envisioned. unfortunately that meant deleting a lot of stuff i was somewhat pleased with... grrrrrr....... but this version is much more aligned with what i wanted so i guess its fine.. kinda....

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that last one is specifically kind of like undertow except op deliberately tries to seduce meg and it works but then later hes like er. i think i genuinely like him and has a crisis about it lmfao