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My favorite pair of pants are extremely tight on me... I got them 3 months ago...

I'm a fucking failure...

I hate my body so much I want to rip off my skin,flesh,and bones to become a new

Something that isn't as hideous as me

I hatemyselfsomuch

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I'm going back

I'm going back to what she did

What where to go?

She's been doing this all my life and has caused so much tramuaa that it's hard to say

I keep getting flashbacks

To what she did

What She did

Why does nobody belive me?

Am i just a stupid toy to everyone? (Especially to her i am )

Am I nothing but a freak

Something so minor in this life that I will never ever seen

I'm a bug to everyone

A small inconvenience

But I don't want that

I don't wanna be seen as weak an insect to everyone

I want to be seen

Seen as something great

I wanna be somebody

If that's how others see me,fuck them!

Fuck them and distory them

How dare they ever disobey me

I'm better than them in every way possible

"OH but they're better at math" shut the fuck up I will literally punch you,they aren't

If I can't be great to everyone,to be a god

Than ill be a big inconvenience

A demon who tortures all and doesn't feel anything but bloodlust

I can be the worst being you've ever seen

Making expose videos on me,saying how I did all these terrible things

Feed the everlasting demon ,the monster who lives under your bed,the cursed soul who's life purpose is to cause you fear,the devil,with nothing but a good fresh piece of attention

I want the attention

I want to be seen as someone or something

Just, please Don't leave me alone

Ever..

Please...

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Tw: poorly drawn blood

I hate her so much

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I hate my abusive sister so much

She screams so much that my hearing as gotten significantly worse and now i have to put things almost on max volume to hear anything

She makes me want to end my pitiful life

I'm going to rip off my skin

I hate myself and her so much

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all I wanted to be was the funny silly guy but i begin to realize I'm nothing but annoying and should probably shut up

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I wish I could stop

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Vent

Might deleting later,I'm just feeling really upset rn

How the fuck do people expect me to day when they call me stupid? Not even hiding! "Oh my gosh,how stupid are you?" "YOU'RE SO DUMB!! You cant do this to me,I'm a straight A student!" Are both things I've been told

Sorry for having a learning disorder

I'm sorry for being stubid

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I can't control it yet it always seems be my fault

I try hard,I really do,I've been trying

But I've always be a failure!!

I will always be a failure

I'm starting to give up on myself

My body's failing and my health is getting worse (not only mental)

I'm rotting away

It aches

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I'm somehow nothing at all yet everything at once

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Vent picture

Made by me

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Vent art+oc I made a while ago

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I've been having nightmares of my father

I hate him,he's nothing good,he's the worst. I'm happy he's nolonger here (divorced) but that still won't erase the trauma he gave. I still remember him screaming and making threats to others.

And I hate how I'm like him

I hate how everybody comments on how I look like him

I hate him,why couldn't I have looked like my mother like my other siblings?

Mother's far from perfect but better than my father

I hate how I'm so similar to him

I hate how we both have bpd and npd

I hate how we have similar music taste

I hate how we are both mentally ill

I hate how we both get angry easy

I'm just an idiot to hate him when I'm like him

I hate myself for it

But that doesn't stop me from hating him

Hate,hate,hate. My only feeling to him . he's never done any good in his life. I wish I could forget him but the nightmares,and how I get reminded of him by anything and everything! Even myself from how similar I am to him. It's a hell that'll ill never escape. I want to forget,I'm the best at forgetting and loosing things! But how come my braine won't forget HIM???? I hate this,I hate him,I fucking hate him!!!!!

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I never felt connected or happy when ppl online would post positivity posts about mental health

As in posting stuff like "you matter!" And "you deserve happiness!"

you don't know me,you don't know if I truly deserve it.you don't know what I've been through,your talking to whatever amount of ppl saw this (more than one) who have different trauma

In that tiny %1 that they actually are trying to help others,it doesn't work..at least for me. The other percent is ppl just wanting alot of views

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Haven't posted in a while

I'm not better,I just don't vent publicly anymore

I might post (vent) art soon

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PROOF IN CASE YOU NEED IT

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PROOF IN CASE YOU NEED IT

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me after i give somebody a compliment but they don't compliment me back so now i have to kill them with a gun

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Updated: Feb 23 2025

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Tw/cw: religious themes,mentions of neglect and abuse,ED,