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As someone recently diagnosed with ADHD as an adult, one thing that’s been helping me grapple with the intense shame I have over all my “wasted potential” is accepting that potential doesn’t exist and never did.

This sounds so harsh, but please bare with me.

I procrastinated a lot growing up. I still procrastinate today, but less so. And yet, I got good grades. I could write an A+ paper that “knocked [my professor]’s socks off” in the hour before class and print it with sweat running down my face.

I was so used to hearing from teachers and family that if I just didn’t procrastinate and worked all the time, I could do anything! I had all this potential I wasn’t living up to!

And that’s true, as far as it goes, but that’s like saying if Usain Bolt just kept going he could be the fastest marathon runner in the world. Why does he stop at the end of the race??

If ANYONE could make their top speed/most productive setting the one they used all the time, anyone could do anything. But you can’t. Your top speed is not a speed you’re able to sustain.

Now, I’ve found that I do need to work on not procrastinating. Not because the product is better, even, but because it’s better for my mental health and physical health to not have a full, sweating, panicked breakdown over every task even if the task itself turns out excellently. It’s a shitty way to live! You feel bad ALL the time! And I don’t deserve to live like that anymore.

So all of this to say, I’m not wasting a ton of potential. I don’t have an ocean of productivity and accomplishments inside of me that I could easily, effortlessly access if I just sat down 8 hours a day and worked. There’s no fucking way. That’s not real. It’s an illusion. It’s fine not to live up to an illusion.

And if you have ADHD, I mean this from the bottom of my heart: you do not have limitless potential confounded by your laziness. You have the good potential of a good person, and you can access it with practice and work, but do not accept the story that you are choosing not to be all that you are or can be. You are just a human person.

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pixel star wars scene 🌟

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love books. because it’s like what if something happened

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Between Silence and Ripples [ 6 colors ]

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pixel oranges 🍊

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pixel sunset on sea 🌅

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samhain night 🌕

another pixel art version of a digital watercolour painting i did years ago 🌑

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scree 💛

great serpent of ronka in pixel art form ✨

bsky | ko-fi | carrd

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The Roses of Heliogabalus (detail), 1898 oil on canvas Lawrence Alma-Tadema

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purple pixel milky way 🌌

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pink rose blooming

source: flowers blooming by SUNY College of Environmental Science and Forestry

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Weegee. New York City, 1945

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Rainy day in Kyoto

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my first pixel art piece from a while back: an older digital painting of mine turned into pixels ☁️

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*blows dust off*

tumblr won’t let me update my old pinned post (which i made all the way in 2021. i feel even older now) so here’s a brand new one! ✨

hello! i’m faith, nice to meet you! 🌻 i’m a 30-something gal, she/her, infp & italian. i’m a video editor, filmmaker, writer, hobby artist, photographer – i am a renaissance person through and through. creativity & storytelling are a core part of who i am, and that’s been the case since i was a child. you can find out a little bit more in the about me page.

while originally this blog was made to interact with fandoms, it has slowly changed & evolved on its own accord into a repository of things i love – mainly art, cinematography, quotes, photographs – anything that brings me nostalgia, senhsuncht or joy.

and now, i want to also use this blog as a repository of my creativity! ✨ i’ll be posting my art on here, too. i love to paint digitally (i use procreate and heavypaint) & i also do pixel art (pixquare my beloved). my favourite subjects are landscapes, skies & space – so that is the type of paintings i will be posting here. if i’m in the mood, i will also post quotes, photoshop edits & gifsets.

i take immense joy in the process of creating. as such, you will find absolutely no techbro nonsense here. i make art because the art of creation itself makes me happy & it relaxes me immensely.

below you can find a little collage of my favourite pieces so far, so you can decide if you’d like to follow me ❤️ all of my stuff can be found under the mine tag.

you can find me on other social media too, though bluesky is where i’m most active now. for my other socials, please check out my carrd and my linktree.

thank you so much for reading my pinned post! if you decide to stick around: thank you for being here, & i hope my posts can make your feed a little brighter 💖

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