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To anyone wondering why it’s been months since i’ve been active, things haven’t been really good for me for a while. I keep going in cycles of getting worse than better, worse than better, again and again. I stopped posting because i felt like a liar preaching healing when i couldn’t even heal myself. My ed has honestly been ruining my life, my friendships, my relationships. No matter how small i’ve gotten it’s only made me feel worse. I honestly wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. I spent so many years making rules and punishing myself for breaking them that i’m struggling to learn how to live again. I want to post again though because i want anyone else going through this to know you’re not alone, and recovery is possible, it’s just a lot of work.

I don’t want to do any of that cheesy promise to eat for me today bs, so instead promise to forgive yourself a little today. Just a little, because you deserve the forgiveness you yearn for.

I love all of you so much. 🫶🏻

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sorry i know i’ve been asking a lot about how y’all feel about ed’s in the media, but i’m just really curious because they played such a huge part in my ed.

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Let’s talk about eds portrayed in the media, What are some examples of triggering depictions, and what’s re some examples of depictions that made us feel seen and understood?

I’ll start, for me seeing Cassie in Skins made me feel triggered. They made it seem cute and like something that didn’t overall hurt her very much. Almost like a quirky personality trait.

On the other hand seeing Patty Bladel in Insatiable made me feel seen. Although my ed is restrictive and hers isn’t, seeing her relationship with food struggle and the way she reacted with triggers and how much it affected her life made me feel seen.

Let me know yours. And remember recovery is waiting for you whenever you’re ready for it 🫶🏻🫶🏻

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no accomplishment in my life will ever compare to the message i got from a thirteen year old girl who told me they told their parents and school counselor about their ed because of my blog. Always remember your words have such a huge impact on people, so much bigger than you know. I love you all ❤️🫶🏻

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“did you know that when you develop and ed you can get really hairy”

DID YOU KNOW YOU CAN DIE, YOU CAN FUCKING DIE

but yea, i guess being hairy sucks or something

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Hey this is a PSA to people who are on edblr because they want to develop a restrictive ed

Sure an ed seems super glamorous, right? Very Kate Moss and 2012 Lana Del Rey of you, right?

Well at first, it is kinda fun, it feels rebellious, dangerous, and heh, you drop a few pounds too.

But then one day you find yourself in the kitchen stuffing your face and you can’t even remember why you’re doing it. Then you forget what it means to eat normally, you only have two modes, restrict and binge.

You either become dangerously underweight and scare children, or you cycle between loosing and gaining the same five pounds again and again and again.

Suddenly it’s not fun, but you can’t stop. You have almost no freinds either because you’re so obsessed with food that pushed everyone away.

You spend your days cycling between obsessing over food and obsessing over your scale.

Your metabolism is permanently slowed, and even if you recover chances are you will overanalyze food for the rest of your life.

It’s not worth it. It’s not worth it. It’s not worth it.

I promise.

If you are reading this and realize i’m describing what you’ve become, remember that recovery is here and is always an option ❤️

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Y'all should give this a read if you can. I talked a lot wish Stasi and she is so committed to writing about ed's without glamorizing them and also making them realistic.

Just thought y'all would like it. I gave it a read (She also let me read ahead, trust me it gets good) and I loved it.

Also just a reminder recovery is always the best option. Love y'all, I hope y'all ate guilt free today.

Lighter With You (on Wattpad) https://www.wattpad.com/story/374576595-lighter-with-you?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_myworks&wp_uname=StasiMenu June seems to have it all: perfect grades, a loving family, and a flawless place at school. Yet, everything changes when she meets Noah. Unlike others, Noah sees past her polished façade and recognizes her struggles. As June battles with an eating disorder and fights to maintain control, she learns that she can’t keep pushing people away.

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Idk about y’all but i love when it focuses on their recovery, not on their spiral into a serious and scary mental illness ❤️

Recovery is here for y’all whenever you’re ready 🫶🏻

when you’re reading an ana book on watt pad, what do you look for in it?

Like romance, realism, atypical ana, or like spo ana, like what makes a good ana book y’all would read?

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