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you want to know if i think jason todd is worthy of being loved and hated in equal measure, because to love him blindly would rob him of his purpose as a creature too full of sacriliage to be returned to his place at batman’s side and to hate him would be to vilify a hurt kid too desperate for validation to be a villain?? you want to know if i think he’s forever caught in this dark place, hinging on villainy and cusping into sainthood?? you want to know if i imagine him as the mahogany wood pulpit at the head of my childhood church and i am wracked with catholic guilt before him?? you want to ask me if i find him a saint, yet you don’t want to acknowledge that the saints were once sinners, and even peter denied christ three times?? you want me to explain a concept as abstract as human nature and the blurry line between what’s good and what’s worthy of being shunned?? you want to know if jason todd is capable of being both the effigy and the sacrifice?? what are you, a cop? come back with a fucking warrent if you want to know.

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Shot by @dadwilder

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basically the whole bible happens to me daily

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sending this ask to hype you up until you feel braving enough to write timjay. I Would Like To See It

when i said i needed someone to hype me up, i didn’t mean you. you actually have the power to make me do it. sometimes i lay awake at night and wonder if likerubies knows that i dip my quill into my ink pot before the fire and transcribe my batman fics like a medieval scribe scratching out religious tomes with the conviction of having just been visited by the haunting aura of an angel. i am but a pathetic author. you are my personal seraphim.

in all seriousness, timjay is unfairly daunting. is it embarrassing to admit defeat? probably. am i too proud to give into defeat? unfortunately. i’ve already spent this morning writing 500 words of timjay. your name and influence is all over it.

friends, place your thoughts and headcanons concerning timjay/jaytim below. i am a novice and i need my hand held through this trying undertaking.

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I can hear you overthinking from here, Boy Wonder…

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readiing the tillamook burn for the second time now and i've just finished chapter 3 !! this isnt even a question but i just wanted to say im in LOVE with your writing as much as i am with dick grayson, and honestly your whole, like, character study (backstory, reasoning behind his weird sexual want to fuck everything out) has just. made me want to curl up in a ball. thankyou. <3

for a second time?? god you are a damn hero.

writing dick’s backstory started out as just a fun little character study, but it’s definitely grown into its own beast. he has some complex intricacies that get overlooked a lot by comic writers, so i very much feel like fic writers are doing god’s work by exploring his backstory and giving him some more substance. sexual urges, anger issues, failing self-worth, etc. he’s like a bucket. we can fill this fucker to the top with so many issues.

i could talk about dick grayson for an eternity. we don’t need that.

thank you so much for taking the time to talk to me about my fic!! i hope you enjoy the next chapter (whenever it is posted, god willing)

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i adore ur dickjay fics!! you’re one of the best writers i’ve ever read. every word you write is so beautifully crafted and it makes me insane!! thank you so much for sharing them and i’m soooo excited for anything else you have in store 👀

thank you!!! i am weepy and lousy with gratitude!! dickjay is my lantern and i am a moth beating myself senseless against it.

i have lots in store, unfortunately. i’m sisyphus rolling the boulder. i keep thinking i’m getting over the hill, and then i get hit with an astounding amount of emotions for dickjay and i go rolling back down helplessly, legs and arms in the air. i have two abo oneshots in the works (jason’s pov) and another two super secretive longer things i’ve been daydreaming about (jason’s pov again because i am a degenerate) and a pipe dream that may or may not involve timjay. i’m scared about that one. tim is the mina to my dracula in the sense that he haunts me and i want to kill him. i need someone to hype me up enough that i actually feel brave enough to write timjay.

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saw a corpse in a lab today and thought of you

that was me saying hi

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I have to put this off for a bit but here's more Jason (I love drawing him sm its addicting)

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The tillamook burn is 👌👌👌 so good. There’s such a flayed skinless feeling about it I love it

god thank you so much!! i would love to kiss you gently on the back of the hand, but alas, we are two ships in the night.

flayed skinless feeling is the exact feeling i was going for, yes absolutely. thank you so much for giving a brilliant description for the vibe i yearn for. the next chapter should come out fairly soon if i can get my act together 😪

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Hi, I read your fic "The Tillamook Burn". Your writing haunts me. I feel unsafe. The way you describe things is so beautiful. Your Jason Todd scares me. Somehow, your Dick Grayson scares me more. I want them to be happy together, but I need them to bite each other. I want to eat your words. The fight in ch. 2 made me pause to tuck my feet in under the covers out of fear. Dick describing Jason as a creature. Zofia describing Jason as Dick's dearest one. My nerves are on fire. Thank you for writing. I really enjoyed it.

oh wow damn thank you so much, genuinely. you yourself write beautifully judging by this ask.

i love to scare people. i want to write fear in excess until it’s soaking the story. it’s like slathering grotesque amounts of butter onto a slice of hot toast. is it necessary? no. is it possibly a disservice to the bread to hide its vibes and own attributes under the overwhelming spotlight given to the butter? yes.

what am i talking about.

i want a gotham that’s scary and laden with corners. i want the atmosphere itself to crackle and boom with ozone and smog and electricity.

i want a jason todd that toes the line between born-right and died-wrong. i want a jason todd that licks his teeth and cringes at how sharp they’ve become. i want a jason todd who can’t recognize his fingers, who still has dreams of being 5’6” and cant reconcile with it when he wakes up, who is so hungry and hurt and afraid that he snaps his jowls at the only hands that ever loved him.

i want a dick grayson who can’t figure things out and it makes him dangerous. i want a dick grayson who pries open his chest and unplugs his heart from the arteries and veins around it just to offer it to the first person he decides deserves it most. i want a dick grayson who bucks and kicks and chafes, only to come crawling back angrier and sadder and less.

happy together, yes. bite each other, YES. i’m glad you enjoyed the fight. i’m sorry that it scared you. i hope to scare you some more.

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tragic fictional siblings... save me...

tragic fictional siblings

save me tragic fictional siblings

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i think we're all too desensitized to "Adam lived in an apartment located above the office of St. Agnes Catholic Church, a fortuitous combination that focused most of the objects of Ronan's worship into one downtown block." because i'm thinking about it again and maggie was actually insane to write that

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silly guy

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Jason, sketch (12/30/23)