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I think I like this guy but idk

I keep thinking about him, like all the time and it’s weird because he’s not what I usually find attractive and he is like annoying.

I don’t have him on snap or his number or anything

We just work together, sometimes, and go to the same school, that’s it

I don’t know what to do because I don’t think he likes me like that, and I don’t even know if I like him like that

Any advice anyone 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

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Day 7

At some points I think my mom does know, but I haven’t told her and I don’t think she know just how much I wanna lose.

I don’t think she really cares if I lose a little, she might worry some if I lose at lot though

Sometimes she will offer help in nondiscreet ways, like offering my sister a higher calorie food and me a lower calorie food

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Day 6

I do

Mostly at night or when I’m really stressed or depressed, usually right before my period starts

I can go like three days eating well and then binge one night

It’s usually when I’m not distracted or doing anything but laying in my bed that day.

So I try to keep busy

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Missed day 5

Day 5

I want to be pretty

I always like street fashion and other forms like that, but the only people I see doing it are skinny.

I live wearing baggy clothes, but I’m fat so it just looks like I’m insecure.

I wanna be skinny so k can be sick, and look cute in certain clothes.

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Day 4

I fear my family noticing

I don’t want them to know I have an Ed because I’ve already caused problems in relation to my mental health and I don’t want to put them through somthing like that again

Also loose skin, or getting skinny and realizing I have bad bone structure so I won’t look skinny no matter how much I lose

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Day 3

Bella Hadid

She is tall, like me, and I’ve been told I look like her.

She also has hip dips like me 😱😱 plus she’s a famous model

She has a thigh gap like I want and small arms and I’m trying to be like her

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Day 2

Im 5’9.5

I do like my height sometimes, but other times not so much

I do wish sometime I could be that short cute girl, but I’m not and I try to accept that

Especially with models being tall, it’s nice, but I feel only if you’re skinny too, and I’m not so I’m just giant overall

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Doing this as honestly as possible

Day 1

Hw: 173

Cw: 167.4

Gw1: 160

Ugw: 150

My Ugw will probably change

More stars are on my page but this is the main gist of it

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Stats

Sw: 171

Cw: 167.4

Gw1: 160.4

Gw2: 154.5

Ugw: 150

H: 5’9.5

Waist: 27.5

Up hip: 36.5

Low hip: 38

Bust: 39.5

BMI: 24.4 (overweight)

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Bella hadid is my new favorite inspo 🫶🫶

Not only have people I work with and family said I look alike to her

But she also has hip dips 🤭🤭🤭

I’ve always been so insecure about them and to have someone, who is skinny and pretty, be related to me in those ways is such inspiration to get slimmer.

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Is this outfit cute or am I delusional

Or am I too fat for it to be cute?

I really wanna look cute for the fall but I don’t want to embarrass myself by being fat

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Can someone please fat shame me

I’m so fat yet I make excuses to eat more and more and tell myself it’s ok

I’m literally so done and just wanna look cute the fall

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How do I lose it and keep it gone?

Every time I lose weight I gained it all back

How do you guys keep it gone and stop binging it back????

Please I am so tired of this cycle

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Tips to distract yourself while fasting

🎀 Selfcare (body)

• Shower

• Body lotion

• Trimming your nails

• Doing a face mask

• Hair care

• Vitamins

• Plucking your eyebrows

• Painting your nails

• Shaving

• Exfoliate your body

• Do your lashes with clusters (they’re on amazon)

• Doing your skincare

🦢 Routine

• Make your bed

• Brush your teeth

• Floss!!

• Drink a lot of water

• Stretching

🎀 To do (important)

• Clean the home

• Do your dishes

• Do the laundry

• Read your emails

• Clean your phones (photos, etc…)

• Take out the trashes

• Wash your bed sheets

🦢 Activities

• Color/draw

• Shopping online

• Journaling

• Take a walk (bonus if u have a dog hehe)

• Organize ALL your house

• Make new playlist about your aesthetic

• Make new Pinterest board

• Organize your Pinterest

• Watch a movie

• Watch a new series

• Try new makeup styles

• Pilates workout

• Yoga workout

• Take a good nap

• Play your favourite video game

• Call your friends and go out with them!!

• Listen to a podcast

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I’ve been binging the past thrre days

Im so scared I don’t wanna keep binging but I can help myself

And I don’t wanna gain the wait back and keep doing this huge restrict cycle

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Day 5

The day I knew I was gonna ruin

I fasted for 24hrs and broke it at 6pm

With a healthy dinner

A salad and some fruits on the side

Then I had more fruits

Then fruits with Nutella, just a little

At night I a two bowls of granola with Nutella

I was under my limit until then when I binged around 1500cals :(

I still completed a 40min workout though

Lose 10Ibs this month challenge (DONT TRY AT 3am!!!!)

Walk at least 5k steps

Drink at least 2L of water

Workout on two days off one day, or just all days

Eat less sugar, if gonna eat a lot, no sugar (I have a terrible sugar addiction)

Sleep 6-8 hours

Get outside more and stay distracted

Fast at least one day a week

Any and all tips welcome 🙏🙏🙏🙏