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Forcing myself to get those creative ideas coming. Still trying to find the narrative for The Curse. How's the following for a start? This is tough...

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The Curse

Chapter Thirty-Two: Sacrifice

Adrenaline ran rampant throughout his fatigued body and powered his movements with heightened awareness. The darkness around him was inciting involuntary claustrophobia. Soft whispers of promised pain echoed in his head. And his breaths were becoming heavy and laborious as his legs screamed-

'Run! Keep running! Don't stop!'

The floorboards creaked and groaned under the weight of his frantic stride. His grey-blue irises shifted frantically, blind to everything around him. All his thoughts revolved around the gleeful shadows that were chasing him, laughing with their dark amusement in response to his very real fears.

Panic crawled higher up his spine as he felt a spectral finger graze his ear; he stumbled, before muttering a curse and grunting with resolve. What was only minutes felt like hours as he ran without any direction through the pitch-black, in-between corridors of the ancient palace.

Daisuke had been pulled into the darkness, his agonized screams still ringing in his ears. Takeru had been forcefully herded from him in their attempt to escape from The Little Girl and the sudden emergence of multiple, dangerous spikes of black-red blood.

Isamu, Jounin of Rain Country, needed a plan.

His grey-blue irises darted around the never ending darkness around him, survival instincts propelling his body forward.

But those noises - Kami, the noises:

"Keep running, Isamu-san. Don't stop. Keep running. Keep fleeing. This is so...much...fun..."

And, the darkness - Kami, where could he go?

He was trapped. He could see nothing. They were playing with him.

The trembling fingers of his right hand clenched around the cool steel of one of his double-ronin swords. His left hand twitched at his pouch.

'If this is death...' Isamu's jaw locked and, with growing resolve, he spun around - his left hand smoothly removed an exploding tag and threw it into the chasing darkness before unsheathing both his swords in determined readiness. Waiting for the predators that followed his path, Isaumu watched in anticipation as the sizzling tag disappeared into the blackness, '...If this is death...'

His heart thrummed. Sweat traveled languidly across slicked skin. The handles of his weapons creaked with his grip. His knees bent, taking on a stance of defense - ready for the inevitable, ruthless wave of hostility.

'...Then I'll go down fighting...'

He blinked. Everything became silent.

And when his eyes opened, the atmosphere charged. A ball of yellow-white light exploded yards away and expanded in quick illumination of his immediate surroundings.

One beat.

Grey-blue eyes swept across the expanse in front of him. Bodies were lined in wait only feet in front of him. He was outnumbered.

Two beats.

Grey-blue eyes gazed upward, taking in the shadowed hands rising from unknown depths and arching towards him with obvious intent. Fuck, he was very outnumbered.

Three beats.

Takeshi Isamu crouched lower. His blades lifted in preparation.

'There're too many...But, fuck it, I've got to try!'

Chakra bordered him. His brows furrowed with intense concentration.

The flash of light dimmed away, along with Isamu's visibility.

He breathed. Closed his eyes. Felt the stillness.

"Isamu-san..." Her light and whimsical voice echoed condescendingly in his head, "...You put up an impressive fight."

A growl sounded on his left. A moan on his right. Her voice...right behind him. He clenched his jaw tighter.

Her laugh was haunting, "Game Over."

The silence ended, the explosion of Isamu's tag rocked the ancient building and the howling screams resumed.

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[sincerelylen]

Do you think you’ll find time or motivation to finish The Curse? I know it’s been quite some time since the last update but that’s one of the unfinished stories I find myself rereading and hoping to see a notification from one day! Such great writing and totally understandable if you don’t think so, but thought I’d ask.

I'm not sure how many times I've sat down and asked my brain to cooperate with finishing this piece of work, but I haven't had much luck.

I am trying to think about The Curse periodically for any form of 'aha' moment where I'll find the words to complete that adventure, but my writing style has shifted so much from back then that I don't want to startle readers with the sudden change (it would be noticeable, I'm a little more cynical these days, ha). I'm trying to find my voice from that time and let the scenes and chapters come into existence, but it's proving pretty difficult, especially with other responsibilities to juggle.

Each day I do get a little closer. I know what needs to be written, which scenes still need to play out, but it's finding the narrative style once again that blocks me from inspiration.

Thank you for staying interested. You, as a reader reaching out to ask, are definitely a solid reason why I want to finish it one day. Thank you for your patience. Thank you for your interest. I truly appreciate it. I'm aiming to not let you down.

[sincerelylen]

Word Vomit Ahead - Note to Myself

I decided to come on Tumblr due to the recent eruption of feeling lost with the current state of the world and this recent domino effect of emotions and personal issues that have forced me into a state of self reflection in order to keep my sanity.

This returning to Tumblr and this almost "foreign" feeling of scrolling through this app and interacting with its community makes me very nostalgic for 10 years ago - nostalgic especially to my loss of passion for storytelling.

I've read through reviews that have asked me to continue and finish stories I had written so long ago, but I can barely remember the direction my chaotically imaginative mind wanted me to go in the first place...

I want to finish those works, I really do, but it's so hard to start again from a middle that abruptly stopped due to the loss of passion in the first place.

Somehow, I also lost a big piece myself with that loss of passion and this inner self-destructive mindset took over and pulled me from the path of creativity that I had so dearly enjoyed.

Life and its curveballs has this uncanny ability to knock you down and keep you pinned down. It truly is a formidable opponent to a successful or even happy ending.

Gosh, I am rambling, but really, how long has it been since I typed out a mindless rant on this blank canvas that is Tumblr? I've missed it. I've missed the opportunity for creativity. I've missed the inspiration of the fascinating creativity of this community (though the trolls I can definitely do without...).

And I hope, returning to this app, finding inspiration through gorgeous art, the exploration of plotlines and development, and the shared love of a hobby or muse, will help me find my creative spark again.

It's an ongoing process. But hopefully, a goal is reached by the end of it.

If you still follow me, I hope you're well. Thank you to anyone who ever took the time to check in with me. I admit to my sudden and swift abandonment of those who were genuinely interested in my works and I apologize for my ghosting. At the time, my self-removal from writing had been needed.

Baby steps. Have no fear. Remember. And embrace this part of my life with fondness and reverence.

Hello, Len. It's good to see you again.

[sincerelylen]

[sincerelylen]

is this......is this...THAT project....? -___-,

let's play a game of "how screwed are you?"

i’ll win.

[sincerelylen]

Reblog if you’re perfectly fine with mutuals speaking to you through the new messaging system

[sincerelylen]

ahahahahahaha....

so i just binge watched blue exorcist, my little monster, the devil is a part-timer, and noragami.

what is it with dark-haired broody male leads making me melt?

i want to watch moooooore...

[sincerelylen]

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[sincerelylen]

I.......I uh.......well, yeah, I think I'm starting to ship sarada and inojin.........yeeeeeah....

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haruno-will-of-fire said: Aw. Dear one, please know that I support you 100%. Not just because you’re a stupendoous writer, but also because you show a caring attitude and a gentle side. Please take your time and be sure to not feel guilty! *hugs*

xxlovendreamsxx said: Thats okay. Maybe it’ll come back but if not, then that’s fine too! Only write if you want to <3

bitchingthrutags said: write when you feel like it, but don’t feel obliged to feel like it. maybe write your ideas down and just leave it there for a while (a sentence/phrase). ultimately, feel what you feel. if what you feel leads to new things/hobbies, then so be it.

you guys are really really sweet, thank you so much for these messages. it’s hard not to feel guilty, only because i try to promise finishing things (perhaps i should stop promising, meep) only to be super inactive. take ssmonth, for example, i was so excited to participate and share my little ficlet ideas with everyone, but when it came down to it, i could only stare at a blank screen. i��ve been in a slump for a while now, it’s been AGES since i’ve updated The Curse and Vengeance (don’t even get me started with IASW, eep) and I want to complete them, but writing lately has been such a struggle.

regardless, thanks for your support and for your words and for your patience with me. i may just put myself on an extended hiatus to figure things out, i just hope i find that motivation once again. i LOVE writing and sharing my ideas and i’m just really confused where all that passion disappeared to...?

[sincerelylen]

why is san francisco so hoooootttttt right now?? I'm dying at wooooork.

[sincerelylen]

i just can’t find it in myself to write anymore...i have so many ideas (and projects to finish) but my motivation isn’t there anymore...

[sincerelylen]

...i missed out watching The Last when it came to my city.....i won't be making the same mistake again. i need to, at least, experience Boruto: The Movie in a theater environment... O_O

[sincerelylen]

Reblog or your mom will die in 928 seconds.

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ＮＡＲＵＴＯラクガキ詰め & 独りじゃない by い ぬ こ

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We are Team 7 {x}

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